What Came Is Gone Forever Every Time That Is Good! That Leaves It Open For No Regret Allen Ginsberg (Kaddish)

“What came is gone forever every time – that is good! That leaves it open for no regret…” – Allen Ginsberg (Kaddish)

25. 9. 2020 - Eventually I sort of stopped talking about me trying to change my major on this blog, because a) I wasn’t sure if there’s anyone at all that’s following that saga, even though that’s why I made this blog to begin with and b) everything in the world got so complicated even I myself didn’t get the time to stop and think about my progress. But for anyone that was still wondering and wanted to know:

I got accepted to English Language and Literature and am starting school on 5th October. I still had some finals to do and other stuff so that fact didn’t register for me for weeks. But now that’s all done, I filled in a form to leave my previous field of study minutes ago and it has finally hit me, that I made it and it’s real and it’s happening. And although most of my classes will be distance learning and I hope I’ll get to make some friends and not be completely lonely, unlike last year when I was entering uni for the first time, I am so overwhelmingly excited for it all. And most of all, I am extremely happy today.

I might make some infographics about what I learned through this experience like I was planning on when I made this blog, but that will probably come at a later time. Now I want to take a moment to bask in this good feeling and live in the present; leave it completely behind just for a bit. I want to read some of the books I’ve had on my list for years, so I opened Hermann Hesse’s Demian this morning. Later I’m meeting some of my friends from high school and having a sleepover.

I wish every one of you a good day! 🥰

28. 8. 2020 - I know I'm not the best at always posting; it's because I often don't have anything to post.

Anyway, the past two days I finally kicked myself to study for my philosophy final. I worked really hard on it and got a full score on my exam, but now I'm really tired :). I hope I can get better at not leaving things for the last minute because I don't think it's physically and mentally good for me in the long run.

Mom took me to see Bring The Soul in the evening afterwards. I didn't even know they were screening at our local theatre!

I'd made an IG account just because none of my friends use tumblr, but they want to stalk my posts :D. So if you prefer Instagram, you can follow me @mymediocrestudyblr; I'll be posting pretty much the same things...

I’ve never felt this called out on such a personal level, damn.

2. 11. 2020 - Good morning, everyone. How are you doing? I'm watching my livestreamed lecture from my bed, because 😑 Probably will sleep some more once it's over 😅

9. 11. 2020 - Some snapshots from last week :) Sorry for periodically disappearing on you. I'm straight up not having a good time in this pandemic :D But overall I'm still happy with school and what I'm studying. I'm just unhappy with my student performance sometimes.

How are you doing?

I want to say thank you to everyone who follows me on tumblr and likes my posts ❤

Unfortunately, it so happens that I don't really use the tumblr app anymore. Ever since I became a big fan of NCT, I started using Instagram consistently as I found more people posting on there and I gradually got used to the app.

As I only ever open tumblr to crosspost from my Instagram, I've decided to save myself the time and leave altogether 🙃 If you want to still see my posts, you can follow me @mymediocrestudyblr