What Came Is Gone Forever Every Time That Is Good! That Leaves It Open For No Regret Allen Ginsberg (Kaddish)

“What came is gone forever every time – that is good! That leaves it open for no regret…” – Allen Ginsberg (Kaddish)

25. 9. 2020 - Eventually I sort of stopped talking about me trying to change my major on this blog, because a) I wasn’t sure if there’s anyone at all that’s following that saga, even though that’s why I made this blog to begin with and b) everything in the world got so complicated even I myself didn’t get the time to stop and think about my progress. But for anyone that was still wondering and wanted to know:

I got accepted to English Language and Literature and am starting school on 5th October. I still had some finals to do and other stuff so that fact didn’t register for me for weeks. But now that’s all done, I filled in a form to leave my previous field of study minutes ago and it has finally hit me, that I made it and it’s real and it’s happening. And although most of my classes will be distance learning and I hope I’ll get to make some friends and not be completely lonely, unlike last year when I was entering uni for the first time, I am so overwhelmingly excited for it all. And most of all, I am extremely happy today.

I might make some infographics about what I learned through this experience like I was planning on when I made this blog, but that will probably come at a later time. Now I want to take a moment to bask in this good feeling and live in the present; leave it completely behind just for a bit. I want to read some of the books I’ve had on my list for years, so I opened Hermann Hesse’s Demian this morning. Later I’m meeting some of my friends from high school and having a sleepover.

I wish every one of you a good day! 🥰

29. 10. 2020 - I finally got around to doing some work for my Literary Studies course and omg, the first lecture was incredible. Our lecturer is so passionate, it was inspiring to listen to him. Anyway, it's almost 11PM and I'm going to watch IT. Hopefully I won't regret this... 😅 It's actually one of my favourite movies; I've already seen it four times.

Anyone watching spooky movies for the spooky season? Give me reccomendations 🤗

6. 8. 2020 - Took an involuntary break from my studying, because I had some stress registering classes and my brain went ~bloop after that for a couple of days :D But now I'm sort of back with newfound excitement, so I guess taking the break instead of forcing it was worth it :)

30. 9. 2020 - Start of semester is finally coming around the corner for me! I'm enjoying my last days in my hometown before I leave for university; these are some photos I took during a walk today :)

12. 10. 2020 - Can't believe one week in this semester has already passed. I didn't have much to do yet; now I'm experiencing my first full week of lectures and I'm already a little tired not because there would be too much schoolwork for me but because I have information overload when it comes to how and where online classes will take place. Some professors make it overly complicated both for us and themselves.

28. 8. 2020 - I know I'm not the best at always posting; it's because I often don't have anything to post.

Anyway, the past two days I finally kicked myself to study for my philosophy final. I worked really hard on it and got a full score on my exam, but now I'm really tired :). I hope I can get better at not leaving things for the last minute because I don't think it's physically and mentally good for me in the long run.

Mom took me to see Bring The Soul in the evening afterwards. I didn't even know they were screening at our local theatre!

I'd made an IG account just because none of my friends use tumblr, but they want to stalk my posts :D. So if you prefer Instagram, you can follow me @mymediocrestudyblr; I'll be posting pretty much the same things...