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27. 2. 2020 Visited the school library for the first time this semester

We interrupt this successful start to the spring semester for nearly a week of completely unnecessary panic and depression 😐 But I think it's better now and I'm slowly getting back on track 🙂 And to be fair not that much has happened in school, it's only been the first week.

12. 3. 2020 Sorry for not posting...

...my life was kind of a mess to begin with and then schools in my country (among other institutions) got closed down as a preventive measure against the coronavirus. At first I thought: oh, no problem, we'll just get materials and presentations from our professors and we'll do it at home at our own pace. No stress, wash my hands and not leave the house if I don't have to. And then most of my professors got the idea that we would have lectures and tests via the internet, which is my ultimate nightmare, and my parents and classmates started panicking about the current events.

And so then there's my already anxious prone to panick attacks ass in the middle of it like: 'great, I live in hell now.'

I'll be sure to come back at you with some motivational positive energy as soon as I have any 😅

17. 3. 2020 - 1/30 days of productivity

So I'm doing slightly better and trying to motivate myself to make the best of this uni close down.

Since I had hit a wall in my studying even before all this covid-19 mess happened and now I can't go to the library for a pick me up/change of space, I was procrastinating this whole time.

Not sure if this can apply to anyone else but for me the most daunting thing is getting started with a task, and the easiest to put off. So today a bit the pill and started a lot of things, as in this anxious headspace I'm more likely to do tasks that are already started and just need to get finished.

I'm hesitant to share my personal 'tips' here, since at least seeing my classmates and the tips going around this community, I feel I'm maybe an odd person so my tips wouldn't be helpful to others. Let me know if you are interested in me sharing what I'm trying to get slowly more productive over the next month, what worked, what didn't - that kind of thing :)

And remember that every bit of progress adds up, you deserve breaks and snacks and if you get too into your own head and need a distraction, my Reading Homer's Odyssey professor reccomends Boccaccio's Decameron :D

18. 3. 2020 - 2/30 days of productivity

Sorry all of my photos are so low quality lately, as I usually get things done later into the evening when the lighting sucks. To be fair my blog is literally named my mediocre studyblr, so this is what you signed up for :D

20. 3. 2020 - 4/30 days of productivity

Furiously ignoring the pile of work I have for my English class and doing anything else instead 😅

27. 3. 2020 - Has life been serving too much depresso to anyone else? I've done literally nothing since my last post but today I've been summoned from the dead to do an assignment that's due by midnight. I've never before even handed something in the day off (always a few days in advance) let alone less than an hour before the 'homework vault' closes :( But it's still on time so I should be happy about that!

2. 4. 2020 - "I should start charging people money to ask me if I'm okay."

Anyone else a complete mess while having to stay indoors? My sister is going through a beautiful journey of selfcare and selfdiscovery and then I'm in the next room underneath my table going through depression 🙃

Hello :) Haven’t posted for a week again, but I had an assignment to create some sort of infographic and it turned out pretty good. I used Canva and am hoping it’s okay to share my creation like this, since it’s not commercial :D

14. 4. 2020 - After procrastinating heavily for seven weeks I guess I am not in a place to be questioning the time when I get a sudden urge to be productive 😅 Promise to not make it a thing ✌ Goodnight everyone~

22. 4. 2020 - I'm an idiot sandwich

I blinked and now the semester is mostly passed and I didn't have one whole unit done for any of my subjects. 🙃 It's so difficult to get myself to do it, since most of it won't count once I change majors, but I guess now is about time to wake up. 😅

12. 5. 2020 - I haven't posted anything in a while, because I haven't really done anything in a while 😅 Any other students out there that just completely lost any sort of routine. ~We're all in this together 🎶

Thankfully my uni will have an extended finals period from June to September, so I'll be taking my exams as I finish things.

If anyone out there is following me on this 'changing my major journey', the entrance exams got pushed back to late June, which is a bummer but I understand ✌

8. 6. 2020 - I actually did a thing! 🥰

So my information science final is next week and I looked at all of our lecture material and took notes only today. Did anyone else spend the entirety of quarantine just mentally and physically wasting away?

Better late than never but knowing me I will still feel bad about it untill the end of time.

9. 6. 2020 - I continue to do things 😊

My blog is getting so much activity these past days and honwstly guys I don't deserve all this love from you 😅 I think the idea of a studyblr is to be in some way helpful and I'm not that, I don't think.

But I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I hope something about me and my posts manages to inspire or reassure you. ❤

19. 7. 2020 - Time flies way too fast!

I didn't even realize it's already been like a month since my last post. 😅 I passed two of my finals and am having the rest at the end of summer. My uni lowkey saved my ass by stretching the finals period all the way into September, since mental health and social distancing really hit me like a ton of bricks and for some of my courses I haven't studied or read any of our material yet. 😓

Now I'm back home and I decided to clear out my room and change the layout. It's been the same for my eight years of highschool depression, so getting a fresh space seemed like a good idea. 🙂

29. 7. 2020 - We are out of town to visit my sister for her birthday :). She still has to go to work though, so I get to work on my schoolwork in the mornings.

6. 8. 2020 - Took an involuntary break from my studying, because I had some stress registering classes and my brain went ~bloop after that for a couple of days :D But now I'm sort of back with newfound excitement, so I guess taking the break instead of forcing it was worth it :)

28. 8. 2020 - I know I'm not the best at always posting; it's because I often don't have anything to post.

Anyway, the past two days I finally kicked myself to study for my philosophy final. I worked really hard on it and got a full score on my exam, but now I'm really tired :). I hope I can get better at not leaving things for the last minute because I don't think it's physically and mentally good for me in the long run.

Mom took me to see Bring The Soul in the evening afterwards. I didn't even know they were screening at our local theatre!

I'd made an IG account just because none of my friends use tumblr, but they want to stalk my posts :D. So if you prefer Instagram, you can follow me @mymediocrestudyblr; I'll be posting pretty much the same things...

12. 9. 2020 - Long time no see :) As consolidation, have a bullet journal spread from August I was really happy with.

In the meantime, I passed two more exams and I'll have my last one this Monday. Busy weekend~ But that's my fault for procrastinating this for literal months until the very last possible moment.

I'm not too stressed about it anymore since it'll all be over in a few days <3

“What came is gone forever every time – that is good! That leaves it open for no regret…” – Allen Ginsberg (Kaddish)

25. 9. 2020 - Eventually I sort of stopped talking about me trying to change my major on this blog, because a) I wasn’t sure if there’s anyone at all that’s following that saga, even though that’s why I made this blog to begin with and b) everything in the world got so complicated even I myself didn’t get the time to stop and think about my progress. But for anyone that was still wondering and wanted to know:

I got accepted to English Language and Literature and am starting school on 5th October. I still had some finals to do and other stuff so that fact didn’t register for me for weeks. But now that’s all done, I filled in a form to leave my previous field of study minutes ago and it has finally hit me, that I made it and it’s real and it’s happening. And although most of my classes will be distance learning and I hope I’ll get to make some friends and not be completely lonely, unlike last year when I was entering uni for the first time, I am so overwhelmingly excited for it all. And most of all, I am extremely happy today.

I might make some infographics about what I learned through this experience like I was planning on when I made this blog, but that will probably come at a later time. Now I want to take a moment to bask in this good feeling and live in the present; leave it completely behind just for a bit. I want to read some of the books I’ve had on my list for years, so I opened Hermann Hesse’s Demian this morning. Later I’m meeting some of my friends from high school and having a sleepover.

I wish every one of you a good day! 🥰

4. 10. 2020 - I finished reading the first chapter of Demian yesterday. I know, it took me a while :D But this chapter titled Two Worlds instantly reminded me of when we were learning about Melanie Klein and child psychology in high school, so I spent a lot of time reading up on that aswell and adding sticky notes and scribbles into my book.

Semester starts tomorrow but I won't have many classes yet. Still, I'm vibrating with excitement.