n-lol - Nyx
Nyx

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Reblog If You Honestly Have NEVER Sent Anon Hate.

Reblog if you honestly have NEVER sent anon hate.

It pains me that only 14,000 people can honestly reblog this

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More Posts from N-lol

1 year ago

Reposting in case I'll need this

Hello I'm A Normal Person Here's Some Stuff I Drew To Illustrate Different Traits Different "person Getting
Hello I'm A Normal Person Here's Some Stuff I Drew To Illustrate Different Traits Different "person Getting
Hello I'm A Normal Person Here's Some Stuff I Drew To Illustrate Different Traits Different "person Getting
Hello I'm A Normal Person Here's Some Stuff I Drew To Illustrate Different Traits Different "person Getting
Hello I'm A Normal Person Here's Some Stuff I Drew To Illustrate Different Traits Different "person Getting
Hello I'm A Normal Person Here's Some Stuff I Drew To Illustrate Different Traits Different "person Getting
Hello I'm A Normal Person Here's Some Stuff I Drew To Illustrate Different Traits Different "person Getting
Hello I'm A Normal Person Here's Some Stuff I Drew To Illustrate Different Traits Different "person Getting
Hello I'm A Normal Person Here's Some Stuff I Drew To Illustrate Different Traits Different "person Getting
Hello I'm A Normal Person Here's Some Stuff I Drew To Illustrate Different Traits Different "person Getting

Hello i'm a normal person here's some stuff i drew to illustrate different traits different "person getting controlled" tropes can have

edit: obligatory possession shorthand code link because people seem to be using this like the possession code but just. without the code part

edit: DO NOT BE HORNY ON MY POST 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

1 year ago

@grungiiuvu literally am in love w your fic😭🙏

Me @ My Mutuals

me @ my mutuals

1 year ago

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis and Lyrics Breakdown

Okay so obviously spoilers, don't click Keep Reading if you haven't watched Round 6.

God fuck it's so fucking beautiful, where do I start?

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

I don't even know what is going on with those rapid shots of what I assume is some form of experiment that Till was involved in. I have no clue what the goal was or if it succeeded but somehow (for no real reason other than that one image of Luka standing behind Till ominously) I feel that Luka is involved with it.

Was this an attempt by Heperu's (Luka's guardian) rival to make a human capable of going up against Luka? Till being the youngest and Luka being the oldest also means that Till's guardian could have caught on to what Heperu was planning to do with Luka and then start experimenting on humans shortly after and it would still somewhat line up with the timeline.

But I'm getting into conspiracy territory, back to suffering!!

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

Allow me, to the tips of your fingers

Allow me, to the ends of your feet

Dissolve me in your gaze

I don't want to let you go

Oh this hurts. Seeing him look so defeated and exhausted, you can tell that even though to the public it's not certain whether Mizi died or not it doesn't matter to him. Because she's still gone away from his world, where he is unable to reach her. He wants to dissolve and die but he also doesn't want to let her go if there is even a sliver of hope that she lives.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

Please, leave me scars

Please, hurt me so that

Not a single drop of me remains

Let me drown in you

The footage that plays to these lyrics really show how defeated he is. He refuses to sing, his passion for the art completely dead and buried. And (his guardian I assume) when someone shoves the fact that Mizi is gone in his face he lashes out and punches one of the aliens near him.

Until these falling stars

Are buried in the blur of time

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

However his heart isn't entirely in it and is quickly apprehended.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

He is beyond exhausted and doesn't even protest or put up a fight while (the same alien he punched btw) another alien runs their fingers through his hair.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

On your icy lips

Read my soul

Yes, my soul

He hopes that even if Mizi is dead that her spirit watches over him, seeing his soul and by extension, Him, for all that he is. Every thought and breath until he falls asleep is for Mizi.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown
Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

But didn't we already know this is how he'd be like? Time for something juicier~

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

Even if your cold words

Carve scars beneath my eyes

May they linger on your tongue

You can break me apart

God this is heart shattering. Even if Till doesn't care for him, even if Till throws hurtful words his way, Ivan will still lie awake at night, cherishing what sliver of attention he is given. It doesn't matter if Till hates him, because as long as he is on Till's mind Ivan is happy. He is entirely in Till's hands, capable of being build up or torn down depending on how much (or how little) he is perceived by him.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

Notice my pain

And mend me right now

To quiet my fears

I'll drown in you

He wants so deeply to be seen by Till, noticed. Till who doesn't let anything hold him down and always picks himself back up became a pillar of hope and strength to Ivan. It didn't matter how or in what context he gets to be seen, so he went out of his way to provoke him just to get Till to look at him even for a moment.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

This was mentioned a while back on VIVINOS Patreon but the entire incident where Mizi and Till got attacked by that hound monster was orchestrated by him. I feel like there is two possible reasons for this depending on when in the timeline this takes place.

Either he wanted to test Till's resolve in hopes of being proven wrong about his courage (after all your hopes can't be dashed on the rocks, if you never had hopes to begin with) only for his obsession to end up growing even stronger than before.

Or he tried to let Till get roughed up enough that he'd be transferred (solitary confinement? emergency room?) somewhere else away from the others at Anakt, so they could escape together.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

But we all know how that turned out.

Either way what Ivan wants isn't freedom, he's long since given up on that. There's no point in his freedom if the person that inspired him to yearn for it isn't by his side. He needs Till there, his very presence to reassure him that no matter what Till won't falter. But he failed to take account of the one thing that weakens Till's resolve.

Mizi.

Mizi is to Till what Till is to Ivan. And so without Mizi in his world Till crumbles. Since Till will only go where Mizi is and Mizi already gave away her heart to someone else, it's impossible for Ivan to be free while keeping Till in his world.

And so he follows him, resigning himself to a life without freedom.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

Sick of these nights to come

To be engulfed in silence

But the distance between them is killing him, and each and every day they come closer to their inevitable doom.

It doesn't matter if they believe the lie the aliens told them, that if they die singing they will be blessed. Because what is the point in that? How can going somewhere far away from the people they love be a blessing?

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

In your gaze where I am seen

Consume me

Yes, me

His desires mirror Till's. He wants his soul to be seen by him, recognized for his undying love for him. He wants Till to see that he can give him all that Till yearns for in Mizi and more.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

To this everlasting melody

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

Face to face we dance

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown
Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

And yet Till still refuses to look Ivan in the eyes.

Things get a little unclear but since they aren't shown singing here and there's no flashback to accompany the lyrics, we can assume that at this moment Till most likely gave up on singing.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

With our story

Lost in forever's embrace

I'm not sure if Ivan intended this from the start or if it's a decision he made then and there but one thing is certain. If Till stops singing then that would mean he forfeits, he'll lose. Till has never once given up. Even when he went back for Mizi that night, he never intended to leave her in the first place. But now without her he crumbles.

And Ivan can't let that happen, not like this.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown
Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

Moral grey area aside, this scene is so deeply moving to me

And I don't say that in a romantic context, absolutely not. This is something much deeper than just love. This is the culmination of everything they've been through, all those moments lead up to this.

Because this isn't a kiss.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

This is Ivan throwing his life away for Till.

Till was going to loose, the only thing that could overturn that is if his opponent attacks him. The kiss was to distract Till and keep him from catching up to what Ivan was planning.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown
Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown
Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

Just look at the contrast between their first and second kiss. As soon as the score board shows Till is in the lead, he gives him a gentle peck on the lips. The contrast is stark and full of meaning. This was the genuine kiss, hidden behind a smokescreen of aggressive bravado created from the previous one.

And it worked. Till was completely convinced that Ivan's intentions was to kill him, and he was fully intent on letting him.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

I know a lot of people doubted his intentions. Because he didn't let go of Till's neck the minute he saw their scores, a lot of people assume that this was Ivan trying to drag Till down with him.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown
Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

But the minute he coughed up blood what does he do?

He smiles.

and let's Till go.

He's only human. He might know logically that Till has won the match. But emotionally he refuses to let go until he is certain.

Until he knows for a fact that he is the one bleeding and dying he'll keep up his charade.

And then.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

And only then.

Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis And Lyrics Breakdown

Till truly sees Ivan.

As he dissolves in his gaze.


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1 year ago

I'M CRYING THIS MAN IS THE ONLY ONE WHO ENVELOPED WITH A WOMAN TOO AND HAS A SON nf is just giving us mixed signals at this point

what’s the other meaning of nan feng :0

this may not be intentional by the author, but nf's name 南风 (nán fēng) is pronounced the same as 男风 (nán fēng) which means "male homosexuality" lol

nf's name is written with the character for "south" and "wind" while the other one is written with the character for "man" and "wind"

it's very obvious why fx would choose these characters for a fake name at the last minute, but in boys' names, 南 (south) is often used instead of 男 (man) because it sounds the same but has a softer meaning than just putting MAN in the name lol

(this ask is a follow up to this comic)

1 year ago
This Hit Wayyy Too Close To Home What

This hit wayyy too close to home what 💀

@ anyone who wants to do it

(@kiraversee )

I just found this quiz and it’s, phenomenal

uquiz.com
A quiz for artists and writers to figure out the primary emotion they create from. 28 questions, 15 results that are about 150 words each, d