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ao3 down

its probably down for maintenance since it will be a long weekend.....

But dam, I was in the middle of a great fic!

Anyway, ao3 volunteers - may you have a good day and may your pillow always be cold.

Everyone else - hang on! We can survive this! We survived July 10th!

Very short rant on college referencing

Why? Why for the love of god and everything holy does referencing exist in college???????????

Uuuuuuuggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Whoever invented it deserves a pillow that is just a little too warm for them so that it's just annoying enough to flip over just for them to find that the other side is just as annoyingly warm.

Two-two-one-Bee Baker Street

It's iconic ✨

Spoilers for the last movie of Harry Potter (also book)

In general, I have a lot of mixed feelings for these movies and books.

I love them because I grew up on them. One of my first ships ever was Dramione in fanon. I could never see it in canon.

I was always in love with the story and how it developed and how it made me feel.

Yesterday, I ended up rewatching the last film with my family because it was showing on the TV. And watching that film as an adult now, it made me realise just how many of the adults in the film did their best to protect the next generation. They weren't always successful. However, Voldemort ultimate died because Harry had been protected by Lily and James's sacrifices; through the efforts of Narcissa Malfoy to keep her son, Draco, alive and through the pact that she and Severus Snape made; through Snape and Dumbledore working together because Snape's love for Lily is everlasting.

There are many more examples of love throughout the entire story of Harry Potter. They remind us that as much as love can be our greatest weakness with people like Voldemort and his deatheaters using loved one's to control a person's actions; love is also what allows rebellion and change to flourish. Love is our greatest strength, no matter which form it takes.

The Battle of Hogwarts is won because people believed that kindness, love and acceptance can overcome hatred, cruelty and bigotry and ignorance.

I guess, that is why it never made sense to me why an author who preached about love, kindness and acceptance in her stories could be so hateful to people who are already hurt by how society is.

Nothing that I have said in this post is new or profound. This is however the first time that I could finally express my feelings on the matter of Harry Potter. It feels good to talk about a fandom that I am sort of a veteran of xD.

I know that nowadays there is even more to explore within this fandom with the Marauders side of the fandom exploding on Ao3 and on here. I just might dip my toes in there for a little while and explore the world of Harry Potter from a different perspective.

But honestly fuck J K Rowling. There's enough bullshit going on in this world already. Stop adding to it.

The Scum Villain's Self Saving System by MXTX spoilers (for all 4 novels)

Something that never fails to make me cry or at least tear up a little about SVSSS is the knowledge of just how loved Luo Binghe was and is.

In the beginning when Shen Yuan first reads the novel Proud Immortal Demon Way, Luo Binghe is one of the reasons for Shen Yuan's continued desire to finish the novel, despite his loud criticisms of the writing.

Luo Binghe's adoptive mother - the unnamed washerwoman had taken Binghe in and cared for and loved him as her son until her untimely death.

In SVSSS, Shen Yuan as Shen Qingqiu is able to look out for and care for the young Luo Binghe for the majority of his time on Qing Jing Peak.

After the events of the Immortal Alliance Conference and the Eternal Abyss, Luo Binghe had darkened and now he believed that because of his heritage, he will never be loved for who he is due to what he is - a half demon. This informs many of his later actions in the series. He had probably also had thoughts of who his parents had been and the circumstances of his birth. He had probably come to some awful conclusions back then and I definitely believe that this also added a layer to his self hatred.

Now, when it is finally revealed what the Old Huan Hua Palace Master had orchestrated, it is finally revealed just how much Su Xiyan had sacrificed to keep Luo Binghe alive. Yes, Tianlang-Jun did not know of the existence of his son until years and years later but the moment that he learned what had befallen his lover, he had stopped his plans to cause havoc in the human realm. Su Xiyan had loved her lover and their son so fucking much and every time that I think about her story I feel like crying.

Once this reveal happens it truly felt like every time someone had assumed that Luo Binghe was unloved or unwanted or unlovable, they were fooling themselves. It was like I was immediately reminded of all of the ways and people that had looked out for, cared about and loved Binghe.

Of course, the love story between Shen Yuan and Luo Binghe is nothing to sneeze about. If you've read the novels, you know. Shen Yuan and Luo Binghe love each other so ardently and deserve to be happy together.

Finally, I always come back to one of the last lines in the novels that our beloved author, Shang Qinghua says, "It's only... It's only he really, very much likes this story he wrote." I think that he speaks of how he's happy about how Shen Yuan derailed the plot, how other people have reacted to these changes and became more nuanced. I think he also speaks of the fact that he had loved his story when it had resembled PIDW too. It had been his creation despite all of the details and nuances that had been lost to the rabbed fan base.

Luo Binghe may never fully comprehend or know how much he is loved by all of these people and many more that I had not mentioned. In this way, SVSSS reminds me that we each have so many people in our lives that love and have loved us, that care and have cared for us and that continue to do so. Just like we paint our love on this earth so do our loved ones reciprocate.