This Is So Good :(((( I Honestly Wasnt Expecting The Ending But God It's So Good!!!!

this is so good :(((( I honestly wasnt expecting the ending but god it's so good!!!!

CHASING THE GAMBLER

KOKONOI HAJIME X GAMBLING ADDICT

<REPOST FROM OTHER ACCOUNT>

CW: MNDI*GAMBLING*RUSSIAN ROULETTE*ADDICTION*SUICIDE*ANGST

"ROYAL FLUSH MOTHER FUCKERS!" You showed them your cards and their jaw dropped. The money at stake was too high and Kokonoi couldn't afford to lose to anyone. Not to the old fucks around the table and certainly not to you. But he did.

"Ey, suck my dick stupid ass bitches!" You cheerfully yell before pulling all of your opponents chips closer to you.

"H-how what the fuck...." Kokonoi Hajime couldn't believe he just lost to you. He was more baffled compare to the others. It's the first time he played with you and he didn't expect you to hit him with a royal flush.

"I'm a good poker player, my daddy taught me. My brother is a professional poker player too." You explained to him.

"N-no. How? You just won 29 million you-" He couldn't form a sentence making you chuckle. He underestimated you. He didn't think you had a chance of winning. Hell! He was confident no one had the chance of winning against him.

"One more game." He says panicking over his 7 million lost.

"You already lost 7 million are you ready to lose more?"

"I'm not gonna lose again."

"Oh, darlin' I bet you all of these chips you're going to lose again." He shakes his head not believing that you're challenging him.

"S-sure, let's play again." You smirked and snapped your hands three times catching one of the servers attention. He served you a bourbon and you chugged it at one go before returning your attention to Kokonoi.

"I only play one game every night but I'll make an exception if you agree to play Russian roulette with me." Kokonoi doesn't like Russian roulette but he was too absorbed and pissed at you to back out now. That's how the two of you ended up facing each other with a revolver on your hand. People gathering around curious to see if one of you will blow their own brains. What was at stake? Well, 36 million and your own life. What more could you ask for? You look like a normal human being outside but inside you're twisted. Having a loaded revolver on your temple would make a sane person tremble from fear but you? Having it on your temple makes you tremble from arousal. Being close to the other life is your pleasure. It gives you an unexplainable adrenaline and euphoria. That's the main reason why people who knows you well refuses to play games with you. They know you'll go further and further until death finally opens the door you've been knocking at since you were 13.

"She's fucking crazy." Someone from the crowd says as you pull the trigger of the revolver four times in a row pushing your luck or simply just asking for death.

"What the fuck!" Kokonoi shouted at you. You only left him with three more slots to go through. One bullet filled one slot and his chance of survival is low but if he manage to pull it off he'll win. He was about to take the gun from your hand but you pulled the trigger once more.

The crowd was petrified. Only two slots remaining. Kokonoi froze his chance 50/50. You were fearless and didn't hesitate to risk your life. After the first pull of the trigger his heart got eaten by fear but yours weren't. It only lit up your darkest desire and it made you pull the trigger four more times. You sighed disappointed that you didn't get your brains blown off and you hesitantly push the gun towards him. He was shaking from fear. If he pulls this off... He'll win. But 50/50 was his chance... You exceeded the odds of dying. Pulling the trigger five times was out of the ordinary and he was sure that you'll get yourself killed after the second pull but like earlier he was wrong. You are not normal. It seems that even though you're running towards Satan he refuses to let you enter hell. It shows how sick and twisted you are.

"WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR TAKE THE GUN!" You screamed at him after a minute passed and he hasn't taken the gun from you yet. His breathing fast and his throat dry. His eyes that are engulfed with fear fell on the gun on your hand but still. He refused to take it. You got impatient and in a swift move you were straddling him. Your eyes wide and psychotic not liking the fact that he's refusing to play the game.

"Take the gun and pull the trigger."

"I-I I...."

"Why don't I pull the trigger for you!" You came up with a good idea. You alinged your head with his and placed the gun on his temple. He tried to push you off but you didn't let him. You keep a firm hold to his body.

"Isn't this beautiful? Two strangers dying together. A beautiful end for the two of us..." He felt your fingers slowly move towards the trigger and he knew he messed up.

"YOU WIN!"

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"YOU WIN! OKAY! STOP!"

Kokonoi screamed stopping you from pulling the trigger. A dark chuckle came out of your lips.

Coward.

His chest rapidly rose and sank. Diamond shape sweat drips from his forehead, iron grip on your waist. You moved your face in front of him the gun still pointed on his temple.

"STOP! YOU WIN!" He yelled again wanting the gun to be away from him. You pulled his chin down and made him look into your bored light pink eyes. You were unimpressed and dissatisfied. And he was fearful. Fearful of a girl he barely knows.

"You fear death?"

"GET OFF!" You only laugh to his commands.

"See? I was right. I'm never wrong. I warned you but you didn't listen to me. Now.... you lost 14 million." You mocked him as you moved the gun from his temple down to his throat making his tension rise.

"I'm a Bonten executive you won't get away if you kill me." He yells desperately wants to be away from you.

"Kill you?" You chuckle.

"What's fun of killing someone who did nothing to you?" Kokonoi can't understand you. Not one bit.

"Your fear of losing money will someday kill you." You said before putting the gun on your temple pulling the trigger.

*

But once again. Death didn't want you. Yet.

The crowd gasped both in fear and amazement. 6 in a row. You escaped death.

"You could've won if you didn't chicken out." You tell him before shooting the ceiling. Kokonoi was immediately relief when the bullet was finally shot. The crowd backs away as fragments of the ceiling falls down.

"I don't like seeing fear. I love seeing fearless opponets." You pat his shoulders with your hands before getting off of him.

Kokonoi. He's... surprised? It's the first time he wasn't able to read someone. And it's the first time after years his heart beat weirdly. It's stupid. You were just a second away from killing both of you but he can't help but to feel an attraction for you. It's a strong one for him because he wasn't able to take off his eyes off of you as you walk away disappearing through the crowds of shocked people leaving all of the chips you've won. His eyes landed on them and he realized money meant nothing to you. Another reason for him to-

You're not Akane- you're far from Akane. She was.... gentle, delicate, kind, she's not someone who will play games of death. She's someone angelic and perfect and his one love. And you're the girl who... You're the girl who almost sent him to his death. The girl he lost 14 million to. That's it... That's all you are. He kept telling himself as he walks around the casino trying to find you. Hoping to see your long raven black hair and light green eyes. That's all you are his opponent. You're just a psychotic girl he needs to take revenge to. You're not someone who will make him happy. You're just a gambling addict. He forcefully punch those thoughts into his mind while grabbing the girl he thought was you.

You're just a gambling addict.

He repeats as his heart sank realizing he got the wrong person. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

If he met you again, what would he say? What would he do? As he keeps searching for you every time he goes to the casino those thoughts run to his mind.

He tried asking for your name. Going as far as starting a man hunt but no one could ever find you. People around him says you're not worth the trouble and you'll just leave him in a dark place but he didn't care.

He felt sick to his stomach when he realized satan might've finally opened his door for you. He dropped his cards on the table not minding the money on the line.

He ran towards the bathroom and threw up. He was scared. Scared for a girl he barely knows.

"You were looking for me?"

His tired and restless eyes widens as he saw you through the mirror. Leaning on the wall with your arms and legs crossed looking beautiful as ever.

"You shouldn't be looking for someone like me."

"You didn't take your money." He tried to mask his excitement not wanting you to think of him as pathetic.

"I don't mind the money baby, I'm fucking rich as fuck. What I do mind is you starting a man hunt for my head and me not being able to play for my death." You pulled out a pocket knife and tapped it on your head 3 times.

"You misunderstood- I I want- would like to get to know you." An amused smile appeared on your face as you uncrossed your arms standing straight.

"Wash your mouth and come with me."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You led him to the rooftop and you sat on the egde.

"Come." You motion him to sat beside you and he did. Not remembering the fact that you're suicidal.

The night skies are pretty and you couldn't help but to admire them. Hajime watched you his heart slowly getting warmer and warmer despite of the cold night.

"Why do you live?" Your sudden question stunned him.

Why do I live?

He has no answer.

You softly smile before tossing the diamond dice on your hand he didn't noticed in the air.

3

Finally.

He was confused. He didn't know why you tossed the dice and he didn't know why you looked so happy when it showed 3 golden dots. But he didn't questioned you. As long as your happy he's content.

"I'm Ayaka." He nods taking off his jacket and draping it on your shoulder. You thanked him and handed him the dice.

"What's this for?"

"Token of our friendship."

"You're odd." You laughed and rolled your eyes.

"I am."

"Are you free around 3 pm tomorrow?" He asked you hiding his red face.

"I am. I'll be free anytime starting tonight."

"Great, let's go on a date."

"Sure."

He was surprised that you agreed. He thought you'll reject him but he was happy you didn't.

"Don't lose that dice for me will you? You'll definetely need it someday." You made him promise before asking him to bring you your favorite drink. "Pina colada."

Kokonoi was overjoyed for the first time in years. He was happy. And his happiness faded as soon as it started.

"A GIRL JUST JUMPED!" His body froze. He was climbing the stairs when he heard the frenzy about a girl's body lying limp in front of the casino.

He went out with your requested drink still in his hand. The crowd parted as the Bonten executive made his way to you.

You look so peaceful lying in front of the casino. Blood oozing out of your body.

His heart shattered for the second time.

Why do you live?

Your question echoed in his mind. He had no reason. No reason at all.

You were just alive and you were just warming his freezing heart. Now you're rapidly chilling. He slowly kneeled in front of you moving your head onto his lap.

Even after witnessing deaths of multiple traitors and even after causing death. It was a disturbing sight for him to see.

It was disturbing for him to see you happier now that you're lifeless. It was so disturbing to realized you've always been in misery, and death was the only thing that helped you achieve peace.

Kokonoi placed a kiss on your forehead before looking at the dice you gave him.

"Token of our friendship."

You could've been the reason he lives. But he'll never be yours.

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Don't copy.

hellventures -> chaoticxe

Lethe/Dess/Niimi -> Chaos

Ranting to myself again before a stressful week of physical college (why must I be a stinky science manor to do labs). Anyways!!

This is probably my current favorite video expressing exactly how I feel in well enough put words.

I sent it to my Therapist and he hasn't responded yet so I'm lowkey worried how I feel is bad but such is life lol💀

:((( I love shin sm

Soulmates

Shinichiro Sano x FemReader

~Fluff a bit of angst in the end~

-Not proofread-

Soulmates, What's a soulmate? Was it a romantic partner fate created just for you or a platonic partner to stay by your side to face the world supporting you and you them?

I always wonder after hearing about that word since I was a young girl when my father called my mother his soulmate. The look in his eyes as they watched her come in from work exhausted calling her the most beautiful woman in his world.

I remebered how mom would scoff and roll her eyes playfully before greeting him with a hug a kiss and an 'I love you' embracing one another just taking in each others presence for a few minutes. A daily routine something i loved to see something I thought was a perfect romance.

Growing up a relationship like my parents was what i wanted even when they fought father always made mothers favorite meal every Saturday and mother always helped him wash dishes and when everying was done no matter who was a fault one would turn on the radio and then gentle pull the other into a slow dance to their song.

Soulmates was brought to question when i got to middle school a boy and girl who where beat friends they did everything together people thought they were lovers but they denied it plenty of times that people just let them be. She was a cry baby and he was a rough looking boy but always was he gentle with her.

Ofthen times they were seen eating together, studying together, or just being by each others side. When asked what they thought of one another the replies where this. "He's my best friend my rock my platonic soulmate." And "She's my world I wouldnt be here without her." That held a deeper meaning as he got a far look in his eyes remebering something only to be brought back to earth by a squeeze in his hand and he looked back to her with a smile.

A platonic soulmate is someone who was there to stay by your side supporting you loving you but only as a different kind of love.

I began to wonder would I ever meet mine romantic or platonic. What I didn't know was that I'd meet him on a sunny afternoon.

I was walking to the park with a good book that my friends have recommended and I finally got my hands on. When I got there i saw a couple of guys ganging up and another he was putting up a bit of a fight but it was clear he wasnt any good at fighting. I looked around but everyone else was either leaving or ignoring them afterall they were delinquents.

But I couldn't just stand there and do nothing but what does a girl who's never fought before do to three boys. Would she just make it harder for him?

Taking a deep breath i threw my hard cover book at the main guys head. "Ow! Who tha hell did that ya punk!" He yelled looking around his buddies doing the same. "Y-you leave him alone you hear me!" I yell my voice cracked feeling my knees shaking but I refused to back down.

"Huh? You think you can just attack me a get away with it ya damn (shortie/tree)?" He and his goons start walking to me. I gulp feeling intimidated but I cant back down 'stay strong (y/n)' "You try anything my mother is a cop you touch another hair on his head and your going to get it!" "Tch" they glared daggers into my soul until.

"Dont touch her" it was the guy from before he was dirty and bleeding a bit but he shived his way infront of me "what are you doing your hurt enough as it is" he smiled but refused to move.

So i stood infront of him but he kept getting infront of me this kept happening until "hey the hell you doing to our captain you bastards!" Was heard. Three other guys came up and a fight broke out. The "captain" tugged me away "That was dangeroud of you to do." He said frowning it was then that I got a proper look at him deep eyes messy hair and a school uniform.

It hit me this was Shinichiro Sano the delinquent of my school but also notorious for asking girls out and getting rejected.

"Even so no one was going to help you were getting hurt i couldn't just ingore that.." I mumbled looking away I missed the flushed look on his face.

"Well I owe you one im Shinichiro Sano by the way." "(Y/n L/n) nice to meet you" "dont worry those guys are my friend they'll set those punks straight" and thats when my friendship with shinichiro began. It wasnt until years later that I began to grow feeling for the boy my heart silently called my soulmate.

"Shinichiro?" I called watching him work on a bike hunched over his back must be killing him i put the take out on the counter kneeling behind the man who was so focused he didnt hear me.

My eyes fell on his nape 'so pale..' A fond smile found its place on my lips and my hands on his shoulders massaging the knots he had. He obviously jumped and turned only relaxing when he saw who it was. "Hey didnt hear you" he said blowing the smoke from his cigarette away knowing i hated the smell.

"I could tell. I got your favorite its one the counter. Do you know how late it is?" I say having yet to pull away I wanted to stay here by his side forever. Years of knowing him by his side through every rejection and heartbreak every joy and milestone. I loved shinichiro sano and i always would.

"I know i know but just a little more its almost done hes going to love it." I smile he loved family so much i could help but blush at the thought of a family of our own growing the sano clan filled with love and happiness. "Hey shinichiro i love you" I say unconsciously only to realize when he froze. "Huh? You.. Me?" I gulp its already out there might as well.

"Yes i love you this isnt how i wanted to tell you but i do i love your smile your eyes your laugh your personality. I love how competitive you are and i love your passion. I love you for all your flaws and all your perfections. And if you hold even a bit of that same love I'll always be by your side to love you unconditionally and stay by your side. Even if we fight I'll be there for you and I'll never abandon you." I shut my eyes bareing my heart to them man i trusted more than anything.

"I-i love you too.." My eyes shot open to see his face was red " i love your laugh and when i see you you light up the room. I love taking care of you when your being a whiney baby when you get sick and when your happy i want to be the reason you smile. (Y/n) your my soulmate i just know it" he smiled at me eyes full of love and before i knew it i was in his arms our souls feeling whole and a sweet kiss was exchanged. If only we knew that would be the one and only kiss we'd share.

The sky was grey and figure sat infront of a headstone. "Shinichiro i cant go on without you.." Sobs tears heartache "I cant move on i tried shinichiro i know you wouldn't want me sad but i had you you were mine our future was right in our grasp but now im alone and it hurts. It hurts so much shinichiro..." I bit my lip feeling half empty i never knew this pain before it never hurr this much before but now its constant everyday your not here a little more of me disappears.

"I miss you shin.." Laying her head against the stone trying to feel his presence one more time before getting up and leaving.

Unknown to her the other half of her soul watched her walk away yearning to hold her to wipe her tears away and hold her. "I'll be waiting (y/n) take your time beautiful.." A sad smile on his lips.

friends | haitani r.

haitani ran x fem!reader

summary: he shouldn’t have been so damn cocky when he told you not to go catching feelings for him.

genre: fwb to lovers, best friends to lovers

warnings: fem!reader, fwb tropes, semi-public sex, angry/jealous sex, degradation, car sex, UNEDITED

word count: 3.9k

notes: for @kshira​‘s FWB collab! :D 

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okay so i scroll through pinterest today and i found this beAutiful costume and it reminds me of Diluc so… hehehehhehehe here’s a quick sketch.. kinda.. 

anyway enjoy ^^