WAIT Holy Shit I Never Posted This

WAIT holy shit I never posted this

HEY YEAH BY THE WAY I used flight rising's predict morphology thing to try and make what I look like. I sort of just went through it intuitively, since i didn't have much more than a vague shape and color, and I swear to you I got emotional the more things began to click.

And by the end, I was looking at... basically me. I think I only have one pair of wings, so maybe take the second pair away or turn them into fins. Add antlers and take away the feathers around the head, probably elongate the snoot a little, I think take away the little clawed wings, and there ya go that's me.

tbh the white patterns are specifically, I think, meant to look watery so I'm not sure that it's like... A solid pattern. I think it's meant to ripple and reflect like the surface of water. I don't think my form IS water, but I think it looks like it quite a bit.

A short introduction for those from my main blog who would be interested in this one

I spent hours writing this post. These feelings are hard to articulate, something soul-deep that I know I’ve barely stepped into. The length of this post doesn’t reflect that, but believe me; I edited and re-edited so many times. Then, I realized as I was writing this post that I was no longer writing about my feelings on being a dragon and working with them, I was writing a post trying to justify and explain it. So let’s start again.

Hi. Most people who see this will be seeing it on my main blog, @tadpoles-and-daydreams. This is a blog built more around UPG, personal identity, and dragon work than my main one. This is… sort of an intro post. Not to me, you already know me- but to this part of me.

On my main blog, I don’t talk about my familiar. Here, I’ll refer to them as… well, admittedly the only current name I have for them. “Friend.” I’ll make another post about them and how we met sometime. They showed up in my life, told me I need to value my inner child essentially, and then promptly stepped back. I didn’t talk to them for weeks. I felt bad. I was talking with my deities and doing other things, but Friend- and the other dragon who works with my family as a whole- just completely weren’t a part of my craft. For Friend this was new, but I’ve been intending and intending to work with the other dragon I know for most of my practice. I’d always wanted to work with dragons, but just… never had.

Now I know why; because it feels like home. I wasn’t ready to go home.

“Home,” in this case, is a part of my identity that I’ve kept hidden even from myself. Home looks like wings of fins and feathers, swimming through the water or air, being one with the sea and protecting every creature within it like your own kin because they are. Home, to me, is learning about what my soul truly is; a dragon. I’m in a human body, yes. Whatever your beliefs are around life, mine are that I’ve chosen to incarnate as a human in this lifetime for whatever reason. It doesn’t change what my soul is, in its truest form, and it hasn’t changed no matter how much I tried.

I have repressed this long and hard. I’m a high-masking autistic, and I learned very quickly in my childhood that there are right and wrong ways to be. I was never, ever, the right way to be. I never will be, either; not in the eyes of most people. The “right” way to be certainly doesn’t involve being a dragon.

So I’m going to be “wrong,” as enthusiastically and loudly as possible, on this little corner of the internet. I’m finally coming home; to myself, and to my dragons. We have one hell of a journey ahead.

YES I've talked to my mom about how, when I can't stim, I often stim in my head. I imagine doing the stimming motion, the image pops up in my head very literally.

Even though I don't get really strong shifts yet, because I don't feel like I've REALLY tapped into this part of me, I often still get the IMAGE. I shudder and get the image of my wings shuddering with me. I stretch and my wings stretch. I can stim with my wings a little bit, even though I honestly haven't learned how because my very literal mind is like "but do wings move like that though?"

I wish I could find a less infantilizing way to say this, but I feel like a fuckin' toddler who just discovered their hands. "HOLY SHIT WHAT DO THESE DO????"

i love tail and ear shifts so much cus even tho they aren’t ’actually there’ i still see them as another way to stim :3

“how did you get into writing” girl nobody gets into writing. writing shows up one day at your door and gets into you

Ayyy I can actually offer input here! Local pagan witch, and I was a witch WAY before I realized I just also happened to be a dragon. I've been actively practicing (admittedly in cycles/off and on) for about four years, and I've considered myself pagan since middle school.

My discovery or "awakening" or whatever word you'd like to use was because I started to work with my familiar, who is a dragon, and they basically.... gently implied that there might be a reason I loved dragons so much. And then left me to figure out the rest on my own. Love them, they're a bit of a cryptic bitch.

A little funny to me that I do follow a religion that suggests reincarnation is part of the afterlife (just part of it! it's complicated) but my inhumanity is 100% psychological in nature. It's interesting to me how a lot of spiritual alterhumans seem to intertwine their beliefs with their alterhumanity, I think it's so cool to connect different parts of your identity like that! It's just not me for some reason, they're pretty separate and I'm okay with it like that. I've also noticed a lot of spiritual alterhumans are pagans, which makes me curious if they were following their religion before or after discovering they were alterhuman

(I have also noticed unfortunately a lot of pagans in the community have very appropriative practices that stem from the modern wicca/witchy/neopagan movement that just cherrypicked several holidays from different cultures and then just made up whatever they wanted about them......but that is not really related to this post. maybe for another time lol)

Outing myself as the anon because this is absolute genius and thank you for the tidbits!! Holy crap the crocheted hand warmers are gorgeous (I looked them up) and absolutely I plan on looking into them when I have the money.

I'm not sure how old the post of yours I'm referencing is, so this either looks normal or DEFINITELY weird depending on how long I was scrolling through the dragonkin tag, buuut... I saw you post a shirt in which you made the sleeves look like they had dragon scales running down the sleeves.

first off, that is so ridiculously cool. Second, if I were to- someday in the probably distant future, in a world where I have the resources- make something similar, would that be okay? I'm a dragon, I sort of just figured it out, and I will absolutely never shut up about how I wish there was more casual clothing with draconic elements. (Even before I realized, I just... wanted clothes with draconic elements. not with dragons ON them, clothes that make me look like a dragon in a human suit.)

This is a ridiculously long ask for a VERY short question, but you get the idea. I typed this out at a very late hour, so forgive me XD

Yes, of course!! I certainly do not own putting dragon scales on things, please go right ahead :} I've also always wanted draconic clothes before I knew as well, it's so frustrating when the only things out there are (often very cheaply-made) costumes or, as you said, just things with images of dragons on them :/

if you make something I'd absolutely love to see it!!!! :}

A few other items of clothing I have that make me feel more draconic, and were definitely less effort for me, are two green jackets with an offset quilted pattern, so they look a bit like really small scales. I found these at a thrift store, but lots of stores have quilted shirts and jackets. You could also sew the sort of quilted diamond pattern on to any piece of clothing you like! I've been thinking about doing it to some pants. My other dearly beloved dragon piece is a set of crocheted dragon scale hand warmers, which I bought handmade from etsy since I don't know how to do that. But if you do know how to crochet, or want to learn, they are very awesome and I'm sad it's a little too warm to wear them now. You can do a lot with adding crocheted elements to clothing as well!