I Was Just In The Middle Of Something And Remembered, Hours After Waking Up, That My Dream Last Night

I was just in the middle of something and remembered, hours after waking up, that my dream last night was of being a dragon. Specifically it's one of those dreams that I'm not sure was just a dream. There were others of a wide variety, but one felt... Like they weren't exactly the same type, but like they were... Idk, the same but opposite? Different? Idk like they were similar somehow.

The whole thing was just. Flying. At one point I kinda nudged one of the others mid-air and I think stuck my tongue out or made some dumb face at them. I didn't get a single loOH MY GOD I JUST REALIZED THAT'S THE FIRST DREAM I'VE HAD IN FIRST PERSON IN AGES WHAT

Sorry hold up okay this post is unorganized but I don't care; I've had one other dream in first person, and that was the first dream I had where I was just One Of The BoisTM and the whole theme of that dream was that I was with a group of guys and at one point someone made some teenage boy flavored dick joke about me and no one corrected him, because they just. Forgot I wasn't cis. (I don't even want to be cis, the whole point is that I am a trans man and that's a man, but the sentiment was there in the dream lol.)

That's the only first person dream I've ever had, and now this one... Is about being a dragon with other dragons and not being an 'other' in that group, not being the dragon stuck as a human, just being one of them. Huh. Well that's fun and I'm intrigued!

Anyway what I was trying to say- before I had that whole realization that I'm keeping written in the post as is because it's funny- was that since this dream was first person POV, I didn't get any ideas as to what I looked like. Lately the details have been a bit fuzzy since I realized that I probably had two forms rather than one- one for air/land, one for water. (Cue Loki stage-whispering "shapeshifterrrr" as he has taken to doing, which is a whole separate post that will be much less messy lol.) But I'm certainly not complaining that I didn't get any new details, I could feel the... Vastness of it. Of me.

It was weird but cool as fuck, so... Dragon dreams, apparently!

Update: I DID, in fact, have cool nightmares. More action thriller than horror but I'll take cool nightmares over shitty nightmares any day of the week. Also I was a shapeshifter which god damnit Loki WE GET IT. XD I really need to post about that bc we (my mom and I) keep finding new layers to it.

Loki; god of foreshadowing!

Plus, I'm awake the earliest I've woken up in MONTHS bc I went to bed early thank you Loki for helping with my sleep schedule <3

"If I get nightmares they better at least be cool nightmares I can write into horror stories."

-me, eating ice cream before bed

Why was my first thought upon seeing this "OH MY GOD I WANNA GO IN A FISHTANK" followed immediately by "I have to lurk in the depths a fish tank wouldn't be deep enough :C"

hey anyone want to keep me as their beloved pet fish in a tank. i can learn to do tricks.

I started typing in the tags but then realized: Actually I think my kintype did influence my gender a little bit. Whenever I'm talking to someone who understands trans topics in a more nuanced sense than most people in my area, I tell them that in theory I would use he/him with a teensy little bit of they/them mixed in, but hearing "they" makes me dysphoric in practice because it's what people do to misgender me without misgendering me. But it's not because I'm only "mostly" a guy. I'm full guy! Just fully a man. I just... have something a little extra that I don't think is there for most men? I remember wording it in a couple different ways, with the wording I ultimately chose to stick with being "The glass is full, full guy, there's just a little extra on the top that's only hanging on due to surface tension and most guys don't have that so idk what the fuck that is."

Ultimately, I think what I was picking up on... was dragon. Most men aren't dragons.

Bigender and polygender friends, consider this question to be asking if one of your genders has a relationship with your 'type!

Polykin, consider all of your 'types when answering!

I've been curious about this!! I know for me my gender identity impacts my inhumanity, so I was wondering what the relationship between gender and alterhumanity might look like across the community :3 if you feel like sharing your answer in depth for any of the options please feel free to reblog :}

I'm a vegetarian :D My dragon type, on the other, was definitely not.

any other carnivorous therians/otherkin dislike meat? I hate the texture for some reason; I have since I was little.

My first attempt at writing that's vaguely like poetry: from a dragon

I am not what you think.

I walk around, awkward limbs and flighty mannerisms, and you think I’m strange. You have no idea how strange you would think I am if you only saw what was underneath.

Underneath, I am a creature of the ocean. Something that could never pass as human, and no longer wants to. Saltwater rushes through my veins in secret, silent to everyone but me. To me, it’s a roaring sound of the waves that I have never seen except for within my soul. It yearns to dissolve into the ocean like it could long ago, but for now those days are over and I am hidden underneath skin and muscle.

Underneath, there are wings; fins; antlers. They ache to tear from my back, through my skull. Nonetheless, they stay hidden for me, safe in the silence. Protected like I protected my kin in a lifetime so close to the surface and yet unreachable. Wrapped in a form that no longer coils around them like a serpent, but keeps them hidden from predators well enough I suppose.

I suppose.

I accept my form reluctantly and do what I can to make it mine. I shape it to feel better when I discover my gender, and when I can’t shape it to fit my true self I cover it in things that feel a little more like home. A little more draconic. A little more like the ocean that I never have seen, but feel homesick for anyway.

I do find joy in being in this body, at least. Out there, there are others. Angels working minimum wage, dragons sitting on a park bench, wolves buying groceries. We hide, but we do so to be free. We walk through crowds, and no one notices our scales and fur and feathers. But we do. We see each other, even if from miles away, and we see what’s underneath.

And underneath, none of us are what you think.

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