Pantayam - To The Moon

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just because...

... others seem to have larger problems, it doesn't mean your problems are any smaller.

your struggles need not be ignored or minimized. just because others are struggling, doesn't mean that you can't.

your issues need solutions too. your worries are not you being dramatic. you deserve love and attention. you're worth it ✨

‘home’

this quote from hbomberguy’s plagiarism video really resonated with me:

“creative people have trouble recognising their skills as skills, because eventually they feel like second nature. […] this stuff really is valuable. if it wasn’t, people wouldn’t be stealing it. creativity doesn’t feel special or unique until you realise people have to plagiarise it”

your craft is and always will be valuable, please never let anyone make you doubt that

REPOSTED:

Listening to “Fly, My Wings” and thinking about how Yi Sang didn’t really “develop” his character so much as “breakthrough.”

The song goes “fly, broken wings” in the first half, but “fly, perfect wings” in the second half, like it was never broken all along. He just had to realize it and be willing to fly. Just like how he has to stop living through gazing at the mirror, and discover the possibility of living the life he’s seen in the mirror. That possibility has always been there. He just needed to open the door.

His “development,” in my humble opinion, is his appreciation for his company. Company, as in companions, rather than his coworkers. They protected him in that final boss battle, shielding him until he felt like he could face the trial himself.

And that’s when mili’s chorus hits. You hear “goodbye goodbye goodbye” with a truckload of instrumentals and crescendos as he, for the lack of better word, ascends, flies, leaves with those “broken” “perfect” wings…

The most beautiful part isn’t even Yi Sang himself but us, the audience, and the others, who are there with him throughout the struggle. Because you will never feel the same way even if you replay it, to know the first time when he learns to fly. It’s like “when we first learned to breathe.”

The only way we can re-experience it is if we follow Dongbaek, to destroy everything and rediscover anew. Or we can move on and “develop” with the experience in mind to reach greater heights.

Something I thought was really neat happened to be the end credits CG. Hong Lu is the only one talking to Yi Sang. People have mentioned how he just seems so empathetic and I’m not going to lie, I like an empathetic man, but it’s more than that.

Hong Lu is a character who wishes to “experience” things he hasn’t before. Whether it’s a good or bad experience, he wants to feel and learn and grow. Gregor’s cooking, the way poor people live—he is a literal adjacent to the League’s modus operandi. So when Yi Sang says Hong Lu is closest characterization of the League’s leader…

is it gay to tuck a flower into your rival-enemy-ex-partner-other half of your soul-traitor's hair? asking for a friend