Title: Return To Love

Title: Return to Love

Pairings: Sastiel (main), Sabriel (before Cas), Salieen (past)

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Cas is a ghost so that means he had to die at some point.

Summary: Castiel's existence started in darkness. When he stood up and found himself in a cemetery, he tried to remember how he got there…but it was all blank. His ghostly form was suddenly flung miles away into a rather large attic and stuck there for over a hundred years. That was until Gabriel Novak inherited the house and invited Sam Winchester over for a date.

This is just a Sastiel story about life, loss, & a return to love.

Link to fic: Return to Love on AO3

Link to drawings: NCDOVER1285

Submitted to the Sastiel Big Bang 2022 by l_P_o_R_v_2_e_4

Whenever I have a rough day or need the motivation to keep creating…this is my go-to video. In the clip, Jim Carrey talks about if you have to fail, it is better to do it by trying something you love. I highly recommend watching it and hearing it all from him.

I am flabbergasted!! A woman I know just broke up with her boyfriend because he was bisexual. I asked her if he had cheated, and she said no but that he didn’t tell her he was bisexual before they started dating. She said she only dates straight guys. She didn’t even bring this up with him till they had been together for almost a year. Actually, it was when she was being homophobic over that Sam Williams Tilted Crown video ( https://youtu.be/5TDOBbHlxmI ) and Sam coming out gay, that this guy realized something was up and hesitantly explained he was bisexual. Up until then, he didn’t think about having to mention it because it was just who he was…and thought, with how things are nowadays, that most people were okay with things.

And they had been very, very in love, and she thought this was the one. I asked her, “You do realize just because he is bisexual that it doesn’t mean he is going to cheat on you or not be fully committed to you, right?” She didn’t care and kept ranting that she only dates straight guys. She refuses to talk to him, meet him, or anything. She just dropped him like that! And only because of his orientation.

So now this poor guy, who was 100% in love with her, totally loyal to her, and wanted to spend the rest of his life with her…have kids with her, is heartbroken.

And I think he did nothing wrong…he was just a human being falling for another human being. The second he told her that he was bisexual, she RAILED him about it and even said because he didn’t tell her of his sexual orientation from the start it was like he raped her?!

I mean OMG! Seriously? Grr…poor guy. This stuff pisses me off. At least he saw the person she was before they got married. Hope he can find someone who will love ALL of him.

I just needed to write. 

Just needed to hear the keys clacking in the air.

Meditative music actually helping in my ear…

Eagles winning on the TV…

And my hands…well, fingers moving without much sight

Across the keys.

I need to write.

I love to make images…

And manipulate things that way,

But more than anything…

I need words flowing from my fingertips to the screen.

I might not be the best person…

Definitely not the person I should or want to be…

But when I am typing…

Even this shit…

I live…

And feel…

P  E  A  C  E.

( here is a link to music that will actually help calm you…so says this skeptic who has been calmed! https://youtu.be/_7l6ZkWaHuE )

Blackbeard’s new business plan: The Kraken Rum - Taking down men…one bottle at a time. (OFMD photos from Aaron Epstein https://www.instagram.com/aaronepstein/?hl=en)