There Must Be Something Medical About How Bad I Need To Give Head. It Can't Be Only Because I'm A Needy

There must be something medical about how bad I need to give head. It can't be only because I'm a needy little fucktoy with a HUGE oral fixation. (I am, I'm not going to say otherwise, but it can't explain my need to give head).

My body and brain can't work if I don't give head. Normal people need to eat and breath, I need to give head...

I want to kneel.

I just want to strip down and kneel at someone's feet. I want them to accept me the way I am, and mindlessly pet my hair while going on with their activities.

Just being there for them, to serve and please. And to be seen for what I am.

Bad pets get punished.

Good pets get maintenance spankings.

Dominant blowjobs

Since I wrote that pinned post and the "unsure about blowjobs part", I've gave it some thinking.

As a sub, I'd go down on my Mistress in a really needy way, trying to get as much of her juice as I can, but having her pleasure as a main goal, thinking that the more she enjoys my tongue, the more likely she is to allow be to taste her again.

But when she'd go down on me, it would be a whole other story. I'd be tied so tight that I'm absolutely unable to move. Gagged, she'd be able to sit on my face rubbing herself on my nose, making me dizzy from her sent and eager to lick her. I could be blindfolded and even have some noise cancelling headphone, so my world would be limited to her sent and touch. Then she could start sucking, exactly the way she wants, ignoring my muffling and wiggling. Obviously, I'd end up coming. But that wouldn't mean we're done. We'd be done only when she says so. She'd keep sucking other and other, giving me more orgasms than I can handle.

When she'd be done, she'd punish me for all of the unallowed orgasms I had...

Introduction

Disclaimer

This is an adult blog! 18+ only

You won't find any intolerance here (or please explain nicely, nobody's perfect :) ). No rascism, homophobia, transphobia, misogyny, sexism, fatphobia, classism... No kinkshaming, slutshaming. No religious nor anti-religious stuff.

Consent is everything.

Let me introduce myself:

I'm a man (he/him, could enjoy it from the right person), 35, single, cishet, living in Europe.

I've recently read that if you're not oversharing on Tumblr, you're using it wrong, (I'll have to find back that post and credit the author ;) ) so, after years of lurking and quietly liking posts, I'm here to overshare and pour my kinks out of my brain.

I'm a sub (never been in a d/s relationship, but I want it really bad, and for so so long; I might tell more about that in another post), a pussy eater (pussy-juice slut?) that'd let his mistress do anything that'd make her wet, hoping that she'll let me beg to lick her. I'd love to be bound and gag when not in use. I want to be pet and praised when I'm good, and spank and bitten when I'm bad (or just when Mistress wants to).

I also have a huge nylon fetish. Pantyhose, stockings, bodystockings, encasement, on me or Mistress will turn me on a lot and shut off my brain.

Important posts

My kinks

Whishlist

Some threesome thoughts

Some blowjob thoughts

Things I will write about (maybe, one day)

My kinks origin story

The acts that are seen has submisse or dominant (probably rebloging this good post from Miss Nyx, adding more arguments to her already good ones)

How I'd explain BDSM to people who are looking from outside

Some evolution of fashion

Pegging and sissyfication (tough one)

Some books/comics/movies/others linked to kinkiness (no porn)

Maintenance discipline

The Marshmallow test

Why stairs have a lot of kinky uses

So, while I was writing this, I started daydreaming about being abducted and kept in an underground high tech facility, behind a glass wall, to be studied like a lab rat, by a team of really hot scientists.

There'd be periods where I'd give a lot of head, so they can study how good it is for my brain and body, and periods where I'm not allowed to give head, so they can study how dumb and needy I get. How masturbating doesn't help my needs, or getting head. I'd start rubbing my tongue with my fingers to try to fulfill that need.

And I'd be exposed to pictures or videos of crotches or head giving. The scientist would flash me too, so I couldn't focus and think about anything else...

There must be something medical about how bad I need to give head. It can't be only because I'm a needy little fucktoy with a HUGE oral fixation. (I am, I'm not going to say otherwise, but it can't explain my need to give head).

My body and brain can't work if I don't give head. Normal people need to eat and breath, I need to give head...