Once In A While You Should Take Yourself To Places You've Never Been, Sulk Into The Moments Of Silence

Once in a while you should take yourself to places you've never been, sulk into the moments of silence w a little bit of giggles. Chase what you love and inspire yourself with wonderful things. I found myself in a solitude state by remaining who I was and by slowly achieving what I wanted the most. The days are still young and this is just the start of my real life encounters. Nonetheless, yesterday at Heima with all the good people from Printcafe gave me a little breath of fresh air. It was definitely a rebirth of happiness.

I like my room arranged in an imperfectly organized way, a beautiful mess that's what it is. This is where I spend most of my time painting and day dreaming. I'm planning to fill up my wall with little sketch papers and love notes.

North experience!

I have not blogged for quite a long time about my life cos boy t’was dull but then things got a little exciting so I’m gonna share some parts that made me torn between loving and hating the experience. Though yeah. It was funny.

Okay shut up, Porshe.

I went to QC!!!!! Not a big deal for most of you but for me it is cos I am not a city person okay and honestly I was a little anxious bcos I’m a little impulsive when it comes to decision making and I am not prepared, might stay there for a couple of months cos there’s sudden change of designation at work. I accepted the offer without any plans. I got no place to stay, I just wanted to be a little adventurous by jumping in to the unknown. Stupid, but I like stupid.

I’d put a code name on this boy bcos he was so accomodating with all my needs and really happy to know that despite it all, he’s still there for me when in times of trouble. I’ll call him pretty boy. (Ayaw niya kase ma-issue.)

I didn’t have a place to stay on the first night. But luckily pretty boy called up his bros and we stayed at one of his friend’s place. Kinda think that I ruined their planned boys night out but they were acting all very gentleman-ly. I really like how boys spend their bromance time together, it’s like what I see in the different episodes of New Girl. Kinda cool, kinda weird, kinda sweet.

Anyway!!!!

When I finally survived day 1 of my random runaway. I had the same problem on the 2nd day, I got no place to stay… again. I was feeling sick cos of the uncertainties I built upon myself, (Kids, don’t do this.) After work, I didn’t know where to go I was waiting for pretty boy to show up bcos he swore to help me out. Slowly all my ratchet thoughts came into place that I felt like I was in a panicky mode cos I’m alone in a city I know nothing about.

I stayed at one place and observed. They were a lot different compared to the crowd from south. So yep, culture shock. Nothing’s really wrong abt them but I kinda felt like I didn’t belong cos people were so straight-forward. The crowd was something else I wanted to cry. (Hahahhahaha srsly sobrang solid promdi ako nung mga oras na yun.)

What’s worst, pretty boy didn’t show up on time bcos of some acceptable circumstance but he made sure somebody would accompany me there.

Anyway, after all that crap his friend and I decided to go to their place instead cos it was getting a bit late. We stayed inside a parked car while waiting for him outside their house. The bastard’s gonna sneak out at 12 MN cos hello parents. Huhuhu i felt like I’m a part of a badass cult tryna kidnap someone. But I felt really grateful cos they were there for me, drama! We searched around asking about different apartments, hotels, and inn. Luckily, we found one& after that we ate late dinner at mcdo though I’m still creeped out and was hesitant to stay in cos I watch horror movies and people get killed when you’re alone inside a small freaking room that could trigger anyone’s claustrophobia, I’m afraid someone’s gonna murder me anytime. Funny thoughts, I know. It was a long, tiring day. I fell asleep the moment they left me so yay! But it turned out good, woke up feeling really ok…. and hungry. So…. anyone need a roomie? Adopt me! :))

Life lately

Most of the time I feel like I'm still that kid everyone knew back then. The delusional, care-free, and happy kind. But there are so many things happening now that I can no longer say that it's the same. I've a real job now okay? And I'm learning a lot. I'm handling different people, meeting different faces everyday.... having the privilege to hire the ones who deserve it.

Honestly I'm still trying to process this surprise blessing cos I didn't see this coming, not at all. That's why I find myself sometimes staring at a blank space asking, "Did I do something right to deserve this?"

It keeps on bugging me and not a single day since this happened that I did not feel grateful.

I remember me back when I was in college, I always write stuff on my journal and contents were about my life dreams, aspirations and delusions. Documented every single thing I once thought a stupid idea but I proved myself wrong. Really wrong. I get misty-eyed whenever I re-read everything again cos it all made sense now. All the hardships and pagtitiis was worth it. So, to those people who feel like they're going nowhere? Throw that thought away and be patient.

You're one step closer to where you should be.

When something disturbs the peace in your heart. Give it up.

So, this is how it feels to have a pre-nup, it was worth all the awkward scenes and sweet nothings. The teaser for the short film we did last month is finally up! Do check it out and like the page of Streamline Productions!

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Can't wait for the complete one! Way to go, UST Commarts! :)

"Lingon" - Directed by Alexa Reinoso

Starring: Porshe Caina Kyle Alejo Mikko Bermudez Aj Apostol