Eta: The Third To Last Option Says 500-999 Shhh

eta: the third to last option says 500-999 shhh

how to find the number: use this page to calculate the total number of notes your original posts have gotten, then divide by the number of original posts (and round the result however you see fit). here's mine as an example:

so i divide 142,200 by 626 and get 227.16, which i then round to 227 average notes per post

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Okay I'm gonna rant about friendships and romantic relationships and shit to keep myself from crying while making ramen on the stove

Why do I feel so...threatened when one of my friends has a romantic relationship? The second I hear that one of my friends has a SO I immediately want to punch them. I got no fucking idea why, the thought of it just makes me so mad. And I can't talk to anyone about this cuz most of my friends are in relationships and I don't get to speak with my school counselor until God knows when.

I don't think it's some sort of abandonment issue? I think it might be a "I have a really hard time making relationships" issue? Being both autistic and a military kid does wonders for having friendships. I've never had friendships that last more than a year and now that I have those, I don't want them to leave. I can't stand the thought of them leaving.

I feel like I'm drifting away from my best friend who lives in Virginia because she has a boyfriend now, and even though we don't talk as much as we used to since we're both in college and have jobs and stuff, I feel like I can't talk to her the way I used to. We had this RP that we did for years but she broke that off when I got to college, but even so we could still talk about our characters and it made me so happy. That's the main thing that makes me happy, thinking and talking about fictional characters that I made and that I love and that I see myself in. And I can't lead any conversation with that anymore because it feels like she's either uninterested or she doesn't answer until I say something else.

I can't talk to two of my friends when they're together because they're dating, and more than once I've been alone with the two of them and I want nothing more than to leave. As soon as one of them comes over and starts acting all cute and stuff, I want to hurt them and then run away. I have not and will never do that, but the thought is so prevalent. I can't...I can't be around my friends in romantic relationships, and it's so shitty. I hate it so much.

I don't know if I even want a romantic relationship myself. The idea of it is good, but the thought of actually opening myself to that is disgusting. Why can't I let others enjoy themselves? Why can't I let others be happy?

Ugh, I don't have the energy to keep talking about this...if you read down here, thanks for listening to my shit lol

To the Arcana Fandom, From Brainrot

This is a confession, an apology, and a warning. To avoid needing a content warning, full details and evidence are in the document linked at the bottom.

From early May to July 21, I was part of the discord server that was responsible for the @asrabounding call out blog in April and for the series of call out posts against them in late July.

This discord server was made and run by someone who calls themself Rai (@notaguyrai, @volcanic-penis), who also said that they were in a relationship with Panda (@pandasanddragons, or @pandas-rambles, or @robbinredwood, or @snowleopard-ponderings). Rai and Panda (who may or may not be the same person) have an ongoing vendetta against @asrabounding that goes at least as far back as December of 2022.

We now know for a fact that Panda has been stalking @asrabounding since December of 2021 at the latest.

We now know that Rai's main goal with the discord server was to "recruit" people and "turn them against bounding" (to use their own words). There were well over 10 people that they fed horrendous lies about @asrabounding and @bondagebird to and manipulated through multiple tactics into doing dirty work for them with the end goal being to inflict as much pain as possible.

We now know that they personally engaged in behavior far worse than what the server knew about as well, including trying to doxx @asrabounding and @bondagebird.

The whole story, with evidence: (CW for suicide baiting & descriptions of a cult-like situation)

For my part in all of this, I sincerely apologize. Please be careful of this person, friends.

brainrot