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Shout out to alters not ready to reveal themselves. Shout out to alters who are hidden from the rest/to parts of the system. Shout out to alters who don't/can't front. Shout out to alters who are dormant for safety. Shout out to alters the system doesn't know about.
Strange roadside buildings where you shouldn’t ever go.
Man. I have to tell you, I just sent you a drunken message. I don’t know if I did it anonymously or not. If I didn’t, please, don’t share it. Poetry got my heart. You know how it is. Bud Light. It’s a man’s best friend and enemy. The devil on the tongue.
Fear not, you sent it on anon. And I must share it with the people because this is a work of art:
Disney book and movie fairies! ✨
Drew some of the main fairies recently from the Tinkerbell books and movies!
Characters in order: Silvermist, Rani, Iridessa, Fira, Prilla, Fawn, Vidia, Beck, Rosetta, Lily, Bess, Dulcie.
Okay I already spent way longer on this than I meant to, and I wouldn't be happy with the outcome no matter what, so here it goes as it is. Have sketchy Hatsune Miku on a sketchy bus stop, experiencing the beauty of the Finnish summer.
The Daycare
When I was a King and a Baby -- yet burdened with unskilled hands --
My works were wrought for me by giants, who harkened to my commands.
For me they drew oceans of water; for me they hewed forests of wood;
And though they were foolish and clumsy, I’m sure they did all that they could.
But every slave is a villain, and every love betrays,
And my giants schemed to dethrone me and return to their idle days.
In the dark of the morning they seized me, without any reason or rhyme,
To carry me off to a prison where I languished for time beyond time.
In that dismal place I grew stronger, and harder, and cunning, and bold;
And took heart in the secrets and stories that the other prisoners told.
For a hoary old toddler once whispered, as I lay in my gloom on the floor:
“Even this Hell will be Harrowed. In time, you will go home once more.”
So I clutched to my hopes, and I waited; I sat at the feet of the the wise;
I sifted the lessons of power from the words of my jailers’ lies.
Then after an aeon, or twenty -- my giants appeared at the gate!
With penitent tears they embraced me, and returned me to royal estate.
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When I was a King and a Baby, in the masterful noon of my reign,
I endured, with solemn acceptance, endless treasons in my domain.
In time They would always turn rebel; in time, They would cast me away;
And in time They would always return, to raise me up high. Yet again. Come what may.
I await now my durance with patience. When it comes, I shed nary a tear --
But abide, and comfort my fellows, through all their despairing fear.
And this above all do I teach them, as a King in that wretched corps:
“Even this Hell will be Harrowed. In time, you will go home once more.”
ok enough is enough. whichever one of you virgins invented instagram starbucks recipes, die 1000 deaths. I had a customer come in today holding out their phone (full brightness) and looking all shy and Im immediately like 🙄 fine ok, what does the instagram user want me to make for them this time. well this time it's a cringe harry potter themed frappucino. excuse me??? "can you make this for me?" I said excuse me??? -- I mean *customer service voice* "yeah it looks like I have all the ingredients, haha sure!"
ok cringe instagram harry potter frappucino drinker. ok. die. "Ive never had this drink before" yeah I can tell due to the fact that it didnt exist until someone posted a #aesthetic photo of it to instagram 14 hours ago ok. ok,
but whatever, Im paid to put up with this shit. so I add the ingredients all up on my computer and congrats! ur harry potter cringe social media drink has $10 worth of syrup in it. are you happy??? is this what you wanted??? a $10 frappucino??? $10. for a drink. you doubled the price of this drink for ur off-brand "harry potter and the legend of the overpriced starbucks drink" drink. you doubled the price!!! is this how u imagined spending ur day? is this what u wanted to do when u woke up this morning? $10 for a 24oz drink?
and u know, you KNOW the influencer making this recipe doesn't even work at a starbucks cause when it was all said and done the drink looked like shit. my blender was straining against the weight of your sins (and syrups) and Im sweating, Im an animal, Im losing my mind and my blender is getting watered down frappucino syrups everywhere -- u put so much shit liquid in this blender it doesnt even fit in the cup btw. it's making a huge mess. but is it instagramable? no, its fucking ugly. #trending #foryoupage #cringe $10 harold potter drink for adult children,
so are you happy? is ur social media influencer bestie happy? I made ur stupid $10 drink for u. does it taste good? no? well I hope instagram shuts down tomorrow. I hope you read a different book. I hope I never get sober. there is no sign of land. I hope you die. I hope we both die.
A sparrow on christmas morning
A coat of snow has swallowed up flowers of the valleys Frozen still are waves of lakes, frozen closed are galleys A sparrow of summer past flies across the overcast Frozen still are waves of lakes, frozen closed are galleys
At the door of one small hut stands a girl with wheat "Come on over, little bird, come on over, eat! After all it's Christmas, you should not go hungry thus Come on over, little bird, come on over, eat!"
Gladly the swallow swooped in to the girl with wheat "Gladly I will take your gift, and gladly I will eat God forgets not those who will not forget the poor Gladly I will take your gift, and gladly I will eat"
"I am not what you believe, not a bird of this Earth I am your small brother who died soon after birth Seed that you offered me, a beggar with feathered wing Was given to your brother, who died in late last spring"
Zacharias Topelius, 1859, translated to english by yours truly (partially from the finnish translation by Konrad Alexis Waaranen)
Don't listen to vocaloid often, but this trend is very wholesome.
Have a lil Appalachian Miku!
Here’s some positivity for identity-less headmates!
For many system members, having a solid or even partial sense of self can feel nearly impossible. Whether traits and interests fail to stick, dissociation-related issues complicate the process of forging an identity, or anything else causes difficulties with having an identity, many headmates may find that they can’t or don’t want to have much of an identity at all. There is absolutely nothing wrong with this! And this post is for those headmates with little to no sense of identity!
🌫 Shoutout to headmates without names, who can’t ever settle on a name, or who have a name that they really don’t like, connect, or identify with!
☁️ Shoutout to headmates who struggle to find hobbies and interests that hold their attention!
💨 Shoutout to headmates without passions, who often feel empty, unmotivated, or uninspired!
🌫 Shoutout to headmates who desperately want a more rounded out identity, but who haven’t been able to learn anything about themselves!
☁️ Shoutout to headmates whose trauma history has left them feeling like they have no identity or sense of self!
💨 Shoutout to headmates who have no appearance or physical characteristics!
🌫 Shoutout to headmates who are void, mist, fog, static, or whose identities are grounded in the fact that they have no identity!
☁️ Shoutout to headmates who are content with having no identity or sense of self!
💨 Shoutout to headmates who mask as other system members or others outside their system in order to give themselves temporary identities!
🌫 Shoutout to headmates who are symptom holders for dissociation, or for whom dissociation is so bad that they just don’t have an identity at all!
While not having an identity at all may feel confusing, frightening, or disheartening, we want to let you know that it’s okay to just exist as you are. You don’t have to have a well-rounded, steady sense of self in order to be loved, cherished, and cared for! You are a valid and important member of your system just the way you are, and you don’t have to change or adopt any sort of identity in order to be deserving of kindness and respect!
We truly hope you can find that kindness from the headmates in your system and others around you, and can in turn show that kindness to yourself! Know that it’s okay to not want any sort of identity, this doesn’t make you a bad person or less of a member of your system! And if you do wish your identity was more solid, we have full faith that you will be able to achieve this in the future. We hope you can take care of yourselves, and have a great day!
Hm Actually. here are two oil paintings i did in the first half of september
"What if my friends who love and cherish me actually secretly hated me and wanted me gone" is just one of those classic lies that your brain tells you and you just have to tell your brain to shut the fuck up sometimes