Idk Why I Just Started Feeling Like An Anxiety Attack Is Coming Ugh

idk why I just started feeling like an anxiety attack is coming ugh

last night I had a dream where I kind of kissed this girl I know since middle school who is so gorgeous but I don't think she'll ever look at me in that way and ugh, I just can't stop thinking about her, but I don't know if she's single or taken, plus she posted an insta story with this song and it just has been on my mind ever since

God I hate feeling like this, it's like I am overwhelmed but haven't had the guts to do any of the things that I must do, but still even though I have the time and resources I just can't bring myself to do it, I'm just never motivated enough to do anything these days ugh, thought I was getting myself out of the hole but instead I am just digging deeper and deeper and now reaching the top seems impossible to do

(don't know if this could be called executive dysfunction but if it is please let me know)

I hate the random feeling of just wanting to cry without an actual reason, it just happens so out of the blue, it might be because I don't fully know how to process my emotions, but still, don't know how not to feel like this ugh