Ive Been Feeling More Down Lately And I Havent Been Writing As Much But I Still Wanted To Share Some

ive been feeling more down lately and i havent been writing as much but I still wanted to share some bits (summaries) of some things i have...

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1. He laughed even as they were kissing, he threw his head back every few minutes they talked and touched. Calvin hadn’t noticed the little things Andre had done until he looked closer, until he really got to know the boy behind the entire facade of a troublemaker. The imagination of the boy being absolutely perfect was farther from the truth. Calvin saw nothing wrong with this fact, rather, he was far more attracted to learn the little imperfections Andre seemed to be hiding from anybody else. The way his top teeth overlapped his bottom ones, causing his upper lip to be more out, the way comes out completely burdened with acne and spots all around his face, to Calvin, it simply made Andre look more beautiful. Nothing about who Andre was or how he looked could ever change the ever growing thoughts and emotions Calvin felt towards him, it simply felt like, to him, Andre being imperfect was in fact the most perfect thing about him

2. Taking care of a single person, to them, it’s rotten work, it’s pointless, it has no effect on them if somebody decides to leave them. For them, every single person that came into their life would quickly become a stranger, whether it was their doing or the other person’s faults. He saw how they waited for someone to take them home, not the home they lived in, but the permanent home of the other person’s heart. To say his best friend was homesick was an understatement, no, he was dying to feel the beauty of one’s presence, to have someone never leave his side, no matter how hard things got sometimes. There, he stood in front of his best friend, noticing the little crystals that were his tears, and he too, shed a few as they watched each other intensely. With the few very words he could muster up, he grabbed the blonde’s hands, feeling the softness and the gentleness they truly held. He took a final breath, turning to face the opposite direction before turning back to his friend.

“...I do.”

3. “Why didn’t you do it...?”

After months of planning, after countless times of talking about this exact moment, Andre was too pussy to actually go through with it. How could it, after hearing the idea first come out of Calvin’s mouth about killing themselves when it’s all over after shooting what appeared to be dozens of students, how could he actually agree to it? He blames no one except himself, Andre could have done something, he could have said anything in that moment or any other moment they shared with each other and he could have told Calvin that the idea wasn’t so good.

“You...promised...”

And he did, Andre promised to his best friend that they were going to go through with their plan, together. He never intended to back down but with everything happening so suddenly he couldn’t but get cold feet at the thought of a bullet going through his head. He didn’t mean for any of this to happen, maybe he should have taken better care of the situation and realize the signs Calvin was throwing at him, none of this was supposed to go too far and instead was supposed to just be a way to release all of the anger he had built up, he never meant to shoot anyone, he never meant for Calvin to die like this.

4. What can be sad can also be known as true, something you can’t find in real life will always crawl back into your mind when you dream. Waking up only makes one realize that nothing was ever real, that broken and depressive thoughts that clash in your brain to remind you that there is no hope, there is so saving those who cannot be saved and to those who don’t want to be saved. It’s sad, it’s heartbreaking to come to a consensus that those who suffer may never return back into the arms of those who warm their hearts and their souls. Praying to god no longer does anything, getting down to your knees and begging for redemption only lets them know just how weak you are. Andre hates to go back to that one moment, that moment in the past that makes him rethink the choices he had before, that one moment in his life that made him remember that he too can be weak. The conversation with his dad, the car ride with him, during that time, he couldn’t help but allow his eyes to gaze at his father for a second before facing towards the road again. He had told him how he wasn’t planning on going to prom and instead stayed back to help around, after his shift was over, he couldn’t help this bittersweet feeling in his mind. Did he know? Did his father know something that Andre hadn’t told him, did he feel something suddenly wrong in his son’s presence where he felt he needed to tell him how proud he was of him? That moment had felt like something he’d never expect, it had been one of those moments he felt that something could have been different in his life, maybe something could have happened that would change him for the better. His father was proud of him, but he didn’t feel proud of himself

5. Such a lowly and putrid prince, those who shunned him from the world were correct in the fact that nobody would ever find him as a ruby gem, nobody would dare give him the final dance he needed as a farewell, nobody would give him the satisfaction of cherishing his last moments. Whatever flows in the river of regret and punishment will forever crash and destroy whatever he made up to try and convince himself that there was more to his life than simply rotting forever in his mind. Monarch’s were practically unable to view their own beauty and see how raw and beautiful their wings were, they would never get a chance to see who they were even in their dying breaths. Everybody else was able to see just how perfect they were, but they wouldn’t say anything, they wouldn’t dare speak a word on who they were and simply wait until the last few moments to remind them,

“My, such a beautiful life being put to waste.”

God would never forgive him, he didn’t want him to forgive and he didn’t want to believe everything his parents say about God being real, for if he was real then why give him the life he did not need, why give him the misfortune of seeing his past mistakes simply by looking at his wrists? Bring him terror, bring him fear, bring him everything he always had and take it to his grave, nobody would ever visit him anyways.

OOMF YOURE SO AWESOME

ARMY OF TWO

(this was inspired/directly referenced from my friend @cal4hysteria’s drawing…he’s cool)

i love you oomf❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

i love you too oomf❤️❤️

tbh most zero day fans now don’t understand caldre, cal and andres personalities, or just zero day in general. The mischaracterization of cal and andre is soooo insane now.

oomf told me i was mentally ill and had terrible attachment issues im not doing well 😭😭🙏🙏

My friend had made an intro and it gave me the idea to make one myself since i havent really introduced myself...?

I'm Dominick / Domi, nicknames are fine too

I'm into a few things but I guess my main are Aliens, Clowns, Video Games, Music. Some games I'm more into are Ace Attorney, Regretevator, Your Turn To Die, and others can't remember then all...

My favorite artists / bands are Yaelokre, Pierce The Veil, McCafferty, Set It Off, Get Scared, Mindless Self Indulgence, Ricky Montgomery, Moddern Baseball, Car Seat Headrest, Friday Pilots Club, Jeff Buckley, The Garden, Gorillaz, The Hoosiers & The Front Bottoms

A few fun facts about me are...

I'm 18 !

I like writing...I've written so far about 16 Zero Day stories, and a few from other fandoms I enjoy !! (Such as Ace Attorney)

Some of my favorite movies would be Encanto, Coco, Brokeback Mountain, Legally Blonde, Howls Moving Castle, Zodiac, Zero Day, Elephant (2003), & Jigsaw

Youtubers I like to watch are Kubz Scouts, Caseoh, ManlyBadassHero, & Papa Meat / Meatcanyon

And I'm not TCC, though I interact with some members I do not condone any of their actions nor like them

I don't remember what else really so that's kinda it..