MAKING ART!!!

MAKING ART!!!

Crying sobbing throwing up falling over @lem0ngh0stt DREW ME AT WORK!!! :'))))) he captured the chaotic nature of my desk and my love of pins and sparkling water. He even threw in my cat, Hypnos, though unfortunately she does not often accompany me to the lab. Anyway I love this and my friends :]

Downtime at work, courtesy of my laptop's front-facing camera.

god i need to make crochet tapestries so god damn bad

mini(?) life update

graduation, amongst other things.

I almost wish I could say that I've been inactive because the Lab has been giving me crazy work, or I've been busy with something or another, but the weirdest thing is that that's not the case, but I still feel off.

I graduated a few months ago, now. I'm probably not done with academics as a whole, but I had decided before graduating that I would be taking some time off before going back to school. At the same time, the Lab has given me a psuedo-summer break - technically I work there still, yes, but assignments have been unusually slow, to the point where I haven't actually had to be in the lab for...since graduation, essentially. Maybe it's their way of apologizing to me for putting me through how hectic they made my last summer (and fall, and winter).

So my social life, work life, and inner life have all experienced some drastic changes - moving away from campus, not being active with work, the resulting personal challenged with lack of motivation, routine, energy...I know it won't last forever, that once I find my next step in life it'll change, and that I'm definitely not the first person to graduate and feel this way, but I grow tired and frustrated with my own listlessness. Even with the prospect of using the time to pursue hobbies and projects, I find myself immediately deprived of the ability to do it. I just end up feeling tired. And that tiredness and lack of achievement makes me feel frustrated. Etc.

Rambling now - it's only about 8:30 around here but I haven't slept well for almost a week now (thank u taps so cool), so writing isn't my strong suit atm. Thankfully I'm still talking with my therapist, and will see him tomorrow. This will probably be the first thing to come up. Hopefully I'll see y'all around soon.

work photos from the Lab :)!

These are all from a few days ago now.

Intern group photo with our bosses (something something this totally doesn't look like it was taken against our will; also this isn't everyone because as always 4CL has scattered us across many countries and continents for assignments). I think they may be putting this on the Lab's website or something? Still, I feel the most comfortable posting these with faces censored :).

Also I took my little digital camera into the actual lab with me and got some fun pics (while I totally wasn't procrastinating my work). Some stuff had to be blocked out before I was permitted to post, but I still think they're fun!

Do not ask what the thing covered in caution tape is. I have no idea. It was there before I got here, and will probably still be there after I am gone.

So yeah! I got called into the Lab very out of the blue (like, morning-of - probably so the interns that are still posted in the area could all be together??) and while the abrupt commute wasn't the most fun thing in the world, I ultimately enjoyed being around my coworkers and being productive for at least the day. Afterwards we got lunch (sans the bosses - too busy doing boss stuff to hang with us little guys) and it was honestly very refreshing. I gripe about the Lab from time to time, but honestly it's at time like these that I'm ultimately glad I have this position because I've befriended some pretty cool people and seen and done some pretty cool things.