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Never meant to be human

Greetings, fellow creatures! I'm Robin (they/them), 20 y.o. Welcome to my blog! All requests are CLOSED. Side blog: @ihaveadesiretoshitpost

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Hello! Can I Get A Diabolik Lovers Matchup? And Would It Be Possible To Get A Match For Both The Sakamakis

Hello! Can I get a Diabolik Lovers matchup? And would it be possible to get a match for both the Sakamaki’s and the Mukami’s? If not then either is fine!

I’m a 21 y/o female, demibisexual though I lean more towards guys. I’m 5’5 and curvy/thicc, so I’m kinda pudgy. I’m goth with snakebites and 3 decently big tattoos. Right now my hair is dyed red, and my right side of my head is half shaved. The length is just past my shoulder blades. It’s not as drastic as it sounds lol. My eyes are brown, and my hair is naturally brown.

Personality wise, I am an INFP/INTP and a Slytherin. I am known to always look angry, even when I’m very happy. Major RBF, and a lot of the time I am angry or just irritated :”). I do have adhd, so sometimes I’m all over with my personality. Though most of the time I am quiet and mean looking to make people leave me alone. With family and friends I’m a total crackhead, sassy, and more caring, though it’s difficult to be empathetic. Very protective of the people I care for.

Big gamer and cosplayer as well, I also hunt and fish and know how to use quite a few firearms and weapons. I’ve been hunting/fishing since I was 2 years old. I think that’s it? Thanks!

No problem! Hope you like this!

I match you with:

Yuma Mukami

Hello! Can I Get A Diabolik Lovers Matchup? And Would It Be Possible To Get A Match For Both The Sakamakis

Yuma to me seems like someone who'd be intrigued by your looks and would try to get close to you to see what you're all about.

Even if you act a bit cold at first, unless you send him away he doesn't mind.

He'll try and spark up conversations or ask you to hang out with him in his garden, I mean, how can you not warm up to such a bro like him?

Will complement you on your looks, from your figure and your makeup (he'd be blown away by goth makeup, trust me), to your tattoos, clothes etc. He loves how loud and unapologetic and so...you it is.

He's absolutely elated when he gets to see your energetic crackhead side.

Even if you get in the state where you're kinda everywhere at once, he really doesn't mind. Honestly he just vibes with it. Like he won't match your level of energy, he might just watch from the sidelines, so to say.

He very much appreciates your protectivness over him. And if you get close with his brothers as well, especially Azusa, because he is very...magnetic when it comes to trouble/danger, and get protective over them as well, he'll appreciate you even more!

Please come up with sassy comebacks to his remarks, he loves it.

Also, long hair gang? He'd love it if you let him take care of your hair or you his. Quality bonding time, we love to see it <3

He would love to see you cosplay, he finds it as interesting as your usual style.

Your other hobbies however, don't really sit with him. I mean, he'll play with you from time to time, but he's much rather outside.

He also doesn't like hurting animals, don't get me wrong, he knows how to hunt, just doesn't like to.

He would go fishing with you, either to catch some for dinner or to just admire there beauty and dirpness and then let them out.

He likes that you're able to protect yourself however and may ask you to show him how to handle some weapons.

Ayato Sakamaki

Hello! Can I Get A Diabolik Lovers Matchup? And Would It Be Possible To Get A Match For Both The Sakamakis

He's a pain in the ass, but if you're able to survive that, he's kinda a cool guy!

Also one that will love your aesthetic, but unlike Yuma, he's more interested in trying it out himself. He's an eboy, you can't change my mind, and while that isn't even remotely close to goth, he still wants you to put eyeliner on him, it makes him feel cool and dangerous.

You two would probably have a rough start, but after that I think you'd be a power duo!

I mean, you two share quite a few traits, for example: the S A S S.

Like Yuma, he gets a kick out of it, if you are able to not only put up, but counter his sassy remarks ad playful jabs.

Then, the energy. You're probably more of a crackhead than he is, but the potential is there!

The protectiveness! If you grow close to him, he becomes protective of you, nobody is allowed to mess with you, because they're automatically messing with him as well. Although his protectiveness stems from a different reason than yours, the outcome is the same.

He loves to see you cosplay and would do a couple cosplay if you asked him! Also loves to play with you (but he's definitely a sore loser and a cheat, even though he won't admit it. That's what years of being told he needs to be the best does with you.)

Also is not much into hunting and does not have the patience for fishing, but thinks it's cool you know how to handle weapons and firearms. That is very sexy of you.

I can also see you with: Azusa Mukami - This boy is very calm and will not get into your hair. He is very interested about your looks, because, let's be honest, if you're not used to seeing goth fashion or people and don't know what it is, it can look quite intimidating or tough looking. And he is very attracted to that. But please don't actually be mean to him. He might be a bit annoying with how much he asks you why you won't hurt him when you look like that, but teach him people can show affection differently than through pain and he'll get addicted. Also doesn't understand why you'd be protective over him, but it warms his heart <3

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4 years ago

Thank you so much, it was beautifuly sad😍😭

Hi! Could I please ask for ikevamp suitors (am not sure how many I can request for, so just choose some if you don't write or don't feel like writing) if MC got hanahaki disease? It's entirely up to you how you finish it, I'm reaaaaally in the mood for some good angst XD Thank you!

Oooh this is an interesting ask~ how did you know I liked hanahaki fndjja lol

I won't do all of them since I'm still getting back into the game, but I can do a couple! I know some better than others because I yearn, and my friends yearn...

For mc, I'll be using gender neutral pronouns. Just for easier self insert purposes. Enjoy 🥀

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Arthur

Well, he didn't expect this from them in the slightest. Sure, he had heard if mentioned by Dazai once or twice in off hand conversations about Japanese curses and lore, but Arthur didn't think it would be real. Especially when he saw them choke on delphinium blue petals. They didn't think he saw them as they quickly crushed them in their hand, hiding evidence. But he did. Arthur had to pretend there wasn't blood at corner of their mouth as they wiped it away, because if they weren't going to address it, and pretend they were fine, how would he? What if it wasn't about him? What if it was arrogance? After everything that happened — how could he assume such a thing. Perhaps they should both get their feelings in order before its too late.

Isaac

Oh he's so worried... He's insist they see a doctor over these terrible coughing fits they have. What if its bad? But what he finds is far stranger than what he could have ever imagined. Apple blossoms. It couldn't be a crueler joke. Isaac perhaps also heard Dazai mention it but he wasn't really paying attention, truth be told. He finds they have it after he's told what happened after they went to the doctor, and they have to come clean. To be the cause of such pain... He can't imagine how hard it must have been to smile through the agony... If only he said something sooner.

Vincent

He knows pain and rejection well. Living such a way as a man taught him the bitter loneliness of despair. However, he would not take if well if he found out that the sunflowers he adores so dearly are the same ones that are killing them. Seeds and petals. Vincent I don't believe is someone who thinks love should hurt so much... Its not fair. Its a bit difficult how things proceed, because if he's the cause of it... I really don't think he would forgive himself — even if if truly wasn't his fault to begin with.

Theo

Oh boy. If anyone is upset about it, its Theo. How could they hide this from him? And for so long too! It tears him up inside to know that their love is quite literally killing them — for what? It makes him so upset that it hurts. The lobelia petals were proof enough that whoever caused this would pay for it in tenfold. But he better be careful. We know he likes to pretend he's a cold person, but he cares so much more than he gives himself credit for, and who knows, he might find himself coughing up the same kind of flower as them.

4 years ago

Aww, these were so sweet, thank you so much! You did well with captioning how tics feel (at least from my experience) and I really enjoyed reading this <3

Hi! Could I please request headcanons with the Durins, Bofur, Dwalin, Legolas, Elrond and anyone you'd like to add (or take out, sorry if that's too many characters) with a reader that tics? Like sometimes, random sounds slip out of them and they repeat them periodically for like a minute or so? Or sometimes hand movements or little gestures? I feel kinda embarassed of mine, so it would really help me. Thank you (also I read the nail polish headcanons and I loved them, you're amazing!)!

Absolutely!! And don't ever feel embarrassed! You are amazing, beautiful and perfect just the way you are!! Hope this meets up to your expectations! I'm not very familiar with tics and such, (I did a bit of research) so let me know how I did with the writing!

Tics (Thorin's Company x reader)

Thorin

Hi! Could I Please Request Headcanons With The Durins, Bofur, Dwalin, Legolas, Elrond And Anyone You'd

At first, our king under the mountain doesn't know what to think

Surely he didn't hear you squeak...

To be honest, he thought you were doing it to annoy him, since your first interaction, you might have gotten off on the wrong foot 😅

And it wasn't the easiest to explain to Thorin, knowing he can be a tad thick-headed sometimes

It took a while to help him comprehend and had never seen it in your light

He understands now though, and has the most patience you have ever seen

He's never been more understanding to one person, even with his stubborn and sometimes grumpy demeanor

Thorin knows you can't help it, which is why he's instantly overprotective of you

If anyone dares make one comment, he's on their case like CRAZY

"Y/N can not help it, gilthock!"

"If you improperly console with her/him/them again, you'll face the wrath of my kin."

When the company was being chased down by Beorn, your tics were triggered and the great skin-changer could hear you from inside, clawing at the door with fury

You felt terrible, not able to contain the short exclamations and noises slipping from your mouth

But Thorin sent an icy glare to anyone who tried to hush you or tell you to keep it down

He's constantly reminding you that it's not your fault, and has become like a fatherly figure to you... Or perhaps, something more 😉

Fili and Kili

Hi! Could I Please Request Headcanons With The Durins, Bofur, Dwalin, Legolas, Elrond And Anyone You'd

Unsurprisingly, both are also very confused little princes

Fili seems to have a bit more understanding of the seriousness of the situation, or at least maturity

(He is next in line to be king after all)

It took a while for them to adjust, since they'd never met anyone with tics before

One night, as you all sat down by the fire, the company grew a bit rowdy, which became stressful for our poor Y/N

Your tics were triggered easily by then with short yelps, and lines of curses that even made bofur blush

Ofc, you couldn't control it, but since the company had little idea of what was going on

the two brothers were quick to rush to your aid, rubbing a hand on your back as you let out a frustrated groan

"What's wrong with her, Oin?"

"I'm not sure. Is it a curse?"

"Probably dark magic!" Dori gasped

You just shook your head and managed to explain your predicament through tics that annoyed the absolute shit out of you

and embarrassed you as well >:(

After that, the princes were stuck to you like flies to honey

They would always ride their ponies by yours, offer to carry your bags, spend all day cheering you up

And more often than not, you would become less stressed and the thought of your tics would float away in the wind 😌✨

Hell, they even stood up to their own uncle after he continued to press some stressful questions about your unfortunate condition

Even if Fili and Kili are both very aware of the randomness of your outbursts, they still treat you as a normal part of the company

They'd hate for you to feel "out-of-place" as Kili put it, in their traveling party

You are so important to them both, and they'd never let you get hurt

Bofur

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Meet Mr. Comedic relief

Whenever Bofur had first met you, he giggled at your little tics

Of course, he'd never meant to make you feel bad, he just thought they were absolutely adorable

Sometimes he playfully teased you about it, and that certainly didn't make you feel better

One night, he had gotten the others in the company to join him in his seemingly harmless jesting,

You just forced out laughter, hoping to convince them that you too, thought it hilarious

But after everyone had fallen asleep by the dying fire, your quiet sobs and tics were what stirred bofur

He came over and asked what was wrong, apparent worry shining in his deep brown eyes

So, reluctantly, you explained why you had little outbursts

Bofur felt awful

"Oh...oh. Oh I'm so sorry lass/laddie/leddie! I never meant any harm!"

He wrapped his huge arms around you in a big bear hug

Bofur never wanted to make anyone feel bad about themselves, especially you (his favorite member of the company 🥺)

"It's okay Bo. It's not your fault that they happen."

It takes a while for you to convince him he's not at fault, and once you do, he's never reluctant to approach you and spark up a silly conversation 😊

He has THE BEST stories

Is very good at keeping your thoughts away from your tics and cheering you up during stressful or upsetting situations

You call him "Bofur-Bear" 🥺

And he adores you so much

He doesn't really know how to react when you have ongoing outbursts, that go on for a minute or two

So he makes really corny jokes and stupidly hilarious innuendos that extract giggles from you while your having an episode

He will never let you go 🥴👉👈

Dwalin

Hi! Could I Please Request Headcanons With The Durins, Bofur, Dwalin, Legolas, Elrond And Anyone You'd

(This Gif is so GOD DAMN FUNNY 💀)

Dwalin is, in some ways, like Thorin

Except 10x more grumpy 🙄

That's okay though, because we still love him 🥰

SUPER confused

At first, he was kinda rude :/

Said it was "disturbing to his duties"

tHAT HURT-

But one night, in the quiet of Rivendell, after everyone else had fallen asleep, you walked around the kingdom to enjoy the peace and tranquility of the elvish land

Dwalin had followed you, and when he called your name, you jumped in surprise, and it sparked a string of swearing

His eyes widened in shock in first, and then some incredible happened

He smiled :)

Just a tiny little grin, that was hardly noticeable under his thick mustache, but a smile nonetheless

"I didn't know ya' could use yer mouth like that."

You grumbled and turned back to the balcony, trying to rid yourself of his company

Regardless, he took heavy steps next to you, and slapped a thick hand against your back, as a friendly gesture

"Why are being so nice to me all of a sudden?" You asked incredulously

Dwalin sighed, but before he could answer, you yelled and slapped your hands against the marble railing

"I hadn't meant ta upset ya' that much."

You just shook your head, and proceeded to describe to him what was really going on

After that, Dwalin was silent, but gave a quick nod

He still needed time to really let the information seep through his thick head

You thought you had scared him off at first, but as your journey continued on, Dwalin actually grew closer than before

Whenever an enemy was nearby, he would look for you first, and place you behind h, out of harms way

Extra dinner? Dwalin made sure you were the first to get second portions, despite your humble protests

He gets teased by the rest of the company, and though he'll never openly admit it, he's grown very fond of you 🥴

He's not really the best at picking up on your social cues, like if he's being way overprotective

Though he tries his best, he also won't can't treat you like a regular person, more like someone who's physically injured

"Come on, Y/N let me carry ya'"

"Dwalin, seriously, I'm fine, I know how to walk-"

*picks you up anyways*

Overall, very sweet, just a bit excessive sometimes 😅❤

I just decided to stick with these few characters if you don't mind, since I have a lot of other requests to fill out, but I hope these are okay!! Thank you for your request, and I hope these were accurate enough 😅🥰

You're amazing, beautiful and never feel ashamed or embarrassed for something you can't control!! Stay strong!! ❤


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4 years ago

I was wondering if i could get a matchup for Diabolik Lovers? Feel free to ignore this if you want. I'm an ENTP in Myer Briggs personality types. Im very extroverted and I like to put myself out there and fight for what I believe in.

I have a lot of social anxiety at the same time though. I second guess myself a lot and around new people I tend to be rather quiet for a while. I also tend to be reserved if someone seems to be getting upset. Also I'm easy to fluster as soon as anyone shows any kind of confidence or if i lose my train of thought.

I'm short. Im around 5'1-5'2 and have short red hair and blue eyes. My hobbies are very indoors-y. I like to draw and listen to music or sing. I enjoy watching anime and reading fanfics or sometimes actual books. I do enjoy going outside and being active every now and then though.

Like I said, youre free to ignore this if youre not comfortable doing a matchup. If you do end up responding to this, thank you! (I don't know how to end this lol so its a bit abrupt, sorry)

Hi! Thanks so much for requesting! I don’t get many requests, so this makes me really happy. Don’t worry, my requests are open and the rules say I’ll write anything, from oneshots and headcanons to matchups <3 I hope you’ll like it, I haven’t seen the show in a while...

I match you with:

Kou Mukami

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He’s a very sweet guy, and would not hesitate to approach you as soon as you catch his attention.

I feel like he’d be drawn to your extroverted personality. And if he saw you standing up for something you believe in? Oh he’s absolutely smitten.

He would also think it’s cute that you get flustered around him, he would take pride in that. He wouldn’t think of it as anything more than just you being shy though.

At first you two would be walking on eggshells around each other I think. You because of your anxiety and him because although he is very outgoing and seems very open, he’s a guarded person. He’s been hurt very badly during his childhood, so he doesn’t open his heart to just anyone.

He would definitely use his abilities on you to see if your intentions are good and your love genuine. Deep down he really craves affection and love, so if you persist, you’ll have him wrapped around your finger.

He would 100% support any of your hobbies and encourage you to pursue any kind of dream you have. You said you needed a new sketchbook? Let’s go to the shop then! New pencils? No problem!

When you two feel like going outside once in a while, he’d love to take you on a karaoke date or a concert. He’s famous, he could get a vip anywhere if he tried.

However, with fame come fans and with them, haters. If you get together with him, be prepared that all eyes are gonna be on you. Their idol found somebody to love, everyone is curious and dying to meet you!

That’s probably when Kou would feel like your behaviour around people isn’t just shyness.

He probably wouldn’t say anything at first, because I think he would think it’s not his business and if you wanted him to know what’s up, you’d come to him.

If you ever get overwhelmed by some more “hard to shake off” fans or persistent haters, he’ll help you in any way he could. 

He would be mad for your lack of responsibility towards yourself though, so do expect some scolding from him when you’re somewhere safe.

If you decide to open up to him about your anxiety, it would be as if something clicks together in his mind.

He’d be like: “...Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...makes sense, yeah...”

He’d catch on that this is something personal and it is to be taken seriously, so expect him to try and open up about his own past and struggles as well.

Please be gentle with him and his feelings. You won’t regret it, I swear.

After that, he wouldn’t make a big deal out of it. He likes to pretend that everything is okey-dokey, but if you get uncomfortable, he’ll nonchallantly whisk you away, like it’s nothing.

But he’s down to listen if you need. It makes for some epic bonding days.

Aytao Sakamaki

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Oh he’d be such a little shit.

No, but really, he’d enjoy pissing you off so much. He’d love to argue with you, because you always stand up for your opinion and he likes that, oh so much.

Seeing you glare at him like you’re about to rip his throat out makes his stomach twist in the best of ways.

That doesn’t mean he doesn’t get salty when he loses an argument with you. Be on alert, because his ego and god complex have taken damage and he wants a rematch.

Your constant bickering will piss everyone off so much, they would kick you or Ayato from the table so they could eat in peace.

If you see this as much of a game as Ayato does, good for you, because the more you can hold your ground, the more equal to himself he sees you and the more friendly he’d be.

He becomes almost stalkerish, always following you around and watching everything you do from a distance.

Yes, he may see you as somewhat equal to him now, but that means you’re a threat, because he must be the best. So he’s watching you like a hawk to ensure you’re not trying to stab him in the back or something.

Like Kou, he would take pride in making you flustered. He’s a more confrontational type of guy so if he notices how you act around certain people and that your extroverted side fades out sometimes, he calms down a little. You pose no threat to him and his glory anymore, congrats, you passed.

However, at this point, you managed to worm your way into his heart and he becomes overprotective. He’s not watching you from a distance anymore, nah, he’s walking right beside you, looking as uninterested as always.

As soon as somebody tries to start any shit with you, he’s ready to throw hands, no matter how powerful that being may be.

You’re Ore-sama’s special human, nobody can mess with his stuff!

And while this is nice, although kinda demeaning, it has a deeper, more selfish reason. Just because you don’t pose any immediate threat to him, doesn’t mean it will stay that way in the future. Deep down he feels like he needs to ensure you stay just the way you are, so he can always be at least a bit better than you.

As for your hobbies, well, I think Ayato would be sort of indifferent. He is not above using recordings of you singing something silly as possible blackmail, doesn’t matter what your relationship status is.

As for your drawings, if you were to show him one, he’d really try and take the time to look at it and appreciate it. But again, after agonizing minutes of silence, his god complex would kick in and he’d point out all the little things you could have done better in his opinion.

Others I can see you with: Yuma Mukami - He’d also enjoy both your extroverted and flustered side. He would probably be the best of the brothers to help you properly with your anxiety. He’s pretty outdoorsy, but only when it comes to nature I think, but if you don’t like going out, you can just hang out in his garden, it’s almost the same. You can draw while he tends to his veggies and stuff and if he’s in a good mood, he’d sing with you some nice pop or folk song! Shuu Sakamaki - probably the only one that isn’t into the whole extrovert thing, but would love to make you flustered. He’d also really like that you prefer to stay at home and that your hobbies are tame, you’d be a really chill couple. Prepare for him making you sing and carress his hair though, he’d definitely make you his songbird. Plus, you can’t get social anxiety if you don’t interact with people!


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4 years ago

I probably shouldn't have read thos, but goodness gracious it's so good!

Cold nights and cruel thoughts

Pairing: 2D x Reader

Word count: 856 

Warnings: anxiety/panic attack, intrusive thoughts. Please do not read if you could be triggered by the content. There is cuteness, but your safety is more important! 

It was a chilling night outside, snow fell slowly outside covering the ground under its white blanket. You sat near the window, a mug of tea in your hands. You weren’t drinking from it yet, enjoying the warmth of the porcelain against your skin. You couldn’t sleep as your thoughts had become quite toxic. If you were being honest, it had been a while since you last felt like yourself. You were just another person who had the luck to walk on Earth, another soul lost while wandering through life.

Your boyfriend had a purpose, one he quite enjoyed. He wrote music and had the chance to share it with the rest of the world. You were aware his purpose was to share his gifts with the world. After all, how many people had his band — or rather Murdoc’s — saved without their knowledge? As for you? Well, aside from existing, there wasn’t much you were offering the world. Or so you believed.

Somewhere between your melancholic thoughts, tears began to slide down your cheeks. At first, you focused on cleaning them, placing the mug on the edge of your desk as to not spill any of its contents onto the carpet. Then you realized how pointless it was, stubborn new tears would replace the ones you cleaned. The breakdown you had desperately tried to avoid over the past few days finally blew, a loud sob escaping from your mouth as you curled up in your seat, arms wrapping around your knees. You felt so small and insignificant, you would be just another person who walked on Earth, fated to be forgotten. You weren’t sure what scared you the most, have nothing to offer or be forgotten.

What would 2D think? Would he want to be with someone who barely added anything to his life? Why was he even with you? More thoughts joined the storm ranging inside your head, moving too fast to even focus on what was happening. Your head was spinning, your hands trembled violently as you stood up, desperate to open the window and let the freezing air in. Your lungs begged for more oxygen, despite the deep breaths you were attempting to take. Everything was so overwhelming. You’re not even quite sure how you hit the mug on the corner of your desk, only the sound of the ceramics breaking drawing your attention towards it. Oh, so not only were you useless as you…

“Y/N?! Are you okay?” 2D’s alarmed voice came from the door, his footsteps growing louder as he moved towards you. He knew better than to touch you as this was not the first time you had a panic attack near him. The two of you had gone over what to do and what not to do if you found yourself going through that situation again. Noticing what you were trying to do, Stu opened the window for you before sitting down in front of you, his brow furrowing with concern. “Can you tell me 5 fings you can see?”

The classic grounding exercise seemed to be helpful more often than not. It proved more efficient when he was around, only due to how much easier it was when you had to focus on his voice. Once calm, you managed to explain to your boyfriend what had gone through your mind as he listened to you attentively. His expression changed from concern to sadness, his now white eyes refusing to move away from you.

“Y/N, it’s alright to feel lost. I fink everyone feels tha’ way at some point…it doesn’t mean you’re useless or you’re going to be forgotten.” His cold hand caressed your cheek as you leaned against his touch. “You make me so happy and…and the rest of the band too. You’re always encouraging us to do better. How did Noodle put it recently? You’re like…like our own private sun. If tha’ makes any sense.”

“It does.” You let out a small chuckle as you moved to his lap, your arms wrapping around him as he held you protectively.

“I fink you should focus on what makes you happy, luv. Oh and on being yourself. Tha’s the best fing you could give the world. It’s what made me fall for you.”

There was no greatest gift than offering the world who you truly were. You would teach others how to reach their own happiness by simply being themselves. Your purpose was to enjoy life and everything it had to provide. It made sense.

“Would that be enough?” There would always be someone who claimed otherwise. Someone who would demand more and mode regardless of the consequences it would bring you.

“Of course, Y/N! It’ll always be more than enough to me…and if someone finks differently…well, they’re wrong.”

With a nod, you offered your boyfriend a smile before nestling your head on his shoulder. He pressed a kiss on top of your hair as he held you tightly and murmured just how much he loved you.

He never let go of you that night.

4 years ago

Hey, could I ask for a Black Butler Mashup?

My pronouns are She/Her and I am romantically attracted to men. I am a gemini and a Slytherin INTP. My favourite aesthetic to look at is like early 2000s y2k pastel pink (pink is my favourite colour!), but the truth is I usually dress either pretty simple (Black T-shirt and some jeans/shorts) or pretty goth. I have natural curly dark hair that I cut myself (it’s up to my shoulders) and usually have in a ponytail.

I am smart when it comes to academics ( Literature class is my faveourite! I love discussing what the author could have meant!) and i am fluent in 4 languages but I will 100% get lost or be late if you ask me to meet you anywhere. When it comes to socialising with my friends I am always super loud and bouncy and talky and excited that they are there!

I am the mom friend that needs a mom friend lol, because I always want to bake for my friends when they come over and give advice a lot, but when it comes to myself it’s hard to follow that advice. My hobbies are reading and swimming (I grew up with the ocean nearby so I absolutely adore it. Hopefully this summer I can start surfing lessons!). My music taste, like my personality, is all over the place. I love mindless self indulgence, Kesha, AJR, Musicals and everything in between.

TLDR: Most of the times I have the same energy as a very exited Labrador, that is also very stupid, but means well.

Omg, i love literature as well! Mom friends are extremely underrated and no, I don't take constructive criticism. I love water as well, but at the same time I'm terrified of it, especially the ocean XD That said, I match you with:

William T. Spears

Hey, Could I Ask For A Black Butler Mashup?

Making friends with Will would be hard for any other person, since he's a workaholic.

But he seemed to naturally gravitate towards you, seeing as you seemed to be the only one he knew that he could have a serious conversation with.

He really doesn't care what you dress like, no matter how extravagant you decide to dress any day, truth is, he's probably seen worse (ehmehmGrellehmehm). However, he does think your style suits you and that you look pretty ;)

Will would seem like he's annoyed by your attitude whenever you two hang out. He says stuff like "You shouldn't be so loud, it makes you look stupid. You're surely better than that."

Don't pay any mind to these comments, he just feels like he needs to keep some sort of appearance, with his high position among the shinigami. You can bet your ass that when you become quiet, he's gonna ask if there's anything wrong, with a small amount of concern slipping past his cold mask.

Please get him out of the office, he needs it. That's another thing you two have in common, being the mom friend, because Will definitely is a mom friend, just with a twist. Imagine a mom friend, but tsundere.

Since he's a workaholic and more often than not gets immersed in his work, he forgets to take care of himself. However, if you manage to get him out, and trust me, for you he will find the time, his mind starts to actually register the state his coworkers/friends are in. And that's when he starts fussing over you, discreetly of course.

Would love to have reading dates with you. It takes his mind off of things and believe it or not, but also having deep conversartions about the meaning of the works you chose is his favourite way of relaxing. His favourite genre to muse about is poetry, just saying...

Will probably isn't into any type of loud music, he only listens to it as background noise for when he works, so definitely enjoys classical and also lofi beats, but he has them playing on the lowest volume.

He would love to dance with you though, but don't expect anything less than waltz. If you don't know how to waltz, don't worry, he's gonna teach you. And since your his favourite, he may even go easy on you ;)

You're basically the only one who ever gets him to relax and he wants to pay you in return by taking care of you and making sure you're alright <3


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