"Lets Start With Some Letrozole."

"Lets start with some letrozole."

Me: *no response*

"Cool, let's double the dose."

Me: *no response*

"Do it again, and take it with steriods to help get some sort of reaction."

Me: *still nothing*

"Okay, you aren't responding to oral meds so we are going to try injectables that cost thousands of dollars. Let's just start your cycle over and try again. Here's some progesterone, take it for 10 days and call us with your period."

Me: *gets period, calls doctor and makes an appointment for baseline labwork and ultrasound*

"Oh, wait you have a follicle?!?! So, your body responded but it was just a very delayed response. Let's have you take a trigger shot (hCg) and have your husband fuck you and hope for the best."

Me: *does all that shit and makes an appointment for labwork to see if i ovulated*

"Bad news, you didn't ovulate. Instead of just a small poke in your belly, your gonna have to get a bigger needle so you can inject intramuscular to make sure your body is absorbing the medicine. Let's give you progesterone to start you period and we will try all this again."

Me: *starts period the very next day with the heaviest flow and worst cramps I've ever experienced in my life coupled with nausea and sore tits from the hCg shot I took not even a week ago*

It seriously blows my mind that people get pregnant without trying... and for free 😒

Thinking about Eddie, who keeps finding Steve cuddling up with everyone in The Party except him.

Steve and Robin spooning (Robin is always the big spoon) he's used to, they nap together all the time.

But then, there was the time he found Dustin all curled up next to Steve on the couch, Steve's arms holding him close. Dustin's beat-up edition of The Hobbit open on Steve's lap.

And that morning after a sleepover where Steve wasn't in his bed and Eddie found him cuddled between El and Max in his parent's unused queen size bed, Els face buried in Steve's chest and Max clinging to his back, doing the best imitation of an octopus Eddie had ever seen, Max hand reaching over Steve to hold El's hand. (Eddie had run to get Robin's polaroid and taken a picture) Turns out Steve went to say good night but ended up being dragged into their conversation about how stupid boys were and ended up falling asleep.

And then there was that afternoon he was skating with Max and they found Lucas and Steve snoozing in the grass after basketball practice, Steve on his back, arms behind his head and legs crossed and Lucas using Steve's stomach as a pillow.

Weirdest one was Steve and Argyle in the Wheeler's basement that one time Nancy invited them over cause her parents weren't home. The excuse was they were too high, or at least Steve was since Argyle's tolerance is way higher. But seeing Steve sprawled out on the couch with Argyle on top of him, laying between his legs, cheek mushed over Steve's pecs while Steve lazily combed his fingers through Argyle's hair, changed Eddie as a person.

Just...everyone clinging to Steve and Eddie witnessing it all and dying inside because, when is his turn?!

The worst part is he doesn't even want what everyone else had. He wants to be the one to hold Steve, not the other way around, he wants to cuddle him, caress his hair, to hold him close and be his pillow, and offer his body and mind as comfort for the boy who offers everything of his to others and asks nothing in return.

If you squint they are just (aggressively) making out

This whole scene is damn near impossible to work with because dark af and zero quality, but. Two very important things:

Steve putting on Eddie's vest

Eddie staring at Steve as he walks away in his vest and blatantly checking out his ass

somehow somewhere he is happy and warm and safe!! twt

WHY I WATCH STRANGER THINGS: THE “PLOT” - PART ONE