Sometimes I Wonder If Other People Too Don't Like To Talk About The 'good Things' They Did Cause They

sometimes i wonder if other people too don't like to talk about the 'good things' they did cause they feel like they are tricking people into thinking they are a good person and manipulating them into liking them

it's all getting bad again now that the euphoria wore off

i wish i wasn't

never mind, i'm in a relationship now

i genuinely don't know if everybody fucking hates me or if i'm just so used to hate that i can't see someone loving me

i can not find energy to live today