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Sammygoblin - Sammyrat - Tumblr Blog
So… I did a thing :D
EEEEE @plu-mo
because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
Hey folks, if you want to fight back against the twitterfication of tumblr USE IT LIKE IT'S TUMBLR!!!!!! REBLOG THINGS!!!!!! USE THE TAGS TO SCREAM AT YOUR FRIENDS!!!!!!!
wish I could've taken a photo but remember: enjoy the moment instead!
the eclipse was so cool holy- most magical moment in my life actually if you ever get the chance to GET YOUR ECLIPSE GLASSES AND WATCH THE ECLIPSE!! for a brief minute or so we got to take them off and look at the ring. I am not joking it was like looking at God !!!!
just something i made last night based off a photo I found
I haven't been online in awhile but here's a quick update on my art. ✨ I love baggy pants n stuff, IRL and in art.
I'm back from the dead! I've been busy with life so I haven't had much time to actually interact with anyone online, but I can assure I'm doing pretty darn good and it's the same in my art!
This is a full redesign of an oc I have. I forgot their name but it's been changed to Millie. They're pretty cute for a rodent, but watch out and they might just surprise you ^^
I completely freestyled everything in this drawing, no sketch, just erasing and drawing off the reference sheet I have for them.
already posted this on Pinterest so how about here on Tumblr? she's a little teenage ghost girl ig, I've been on a roll with these sketches and wanna post some more today y'know!
drew myself but made me look even better
DAMNN those colors tho ✨😨 and my hair is REALLY flat but I have to make my art look good y'know lol
quick doodle I did at like 5 am last night
girl running through forest holding a pot of plants
don't steal. you can share this artwork I made on social media such as Pinterest with credit leading to my username sammyrat. Thanks 👍
I found some dolls made by someone I forgot the name of (will credit when I find the person of the dolls) and I felt the need to sketch something really quickly. not my best but I'm happy.
also cat
45, Topo
Meet my sweetheart, Topo! A cute rat who runs into way too many accidents..
If you'd like to learn more about Topo, I'm working on a carrd where I can store at the very most, the basics of my characters. Keep an eye out for updates on the process!
oh gosh here I go again.. draw something really good and cool and then oi oi oi.. I probably won't be able to draw another cool thing in the same day I drew the cool first drawing I did today.
idk if that makes sense, but I don't care anymore 😭 here's some art for today. I'll try to find the reference I used and show it when I can. <3
Butterfly Girl 🦋
Wirt is a vibe, a mood, an identity. Wirt is Wirt. Wirt forever
new signature/watermark, just so people can find me better.
I love clothes, but also hate them.
I apologize for the horrible skull. I'm still practicing. anyways look at this random girl
wirt, relatable gnome looking boy