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Sooo, like i was bored, so i made this. Is not that good but well. Also hi to everyone.

dragons are cool, assigning projects on the last week is not.

The  exulansis of dragons

                                         ^

                                      Anti

Such a thing you cannot say

That you wouldn’t want wings and 

Blazing flame with which you fly away

To glide along the wind             

Alight upon peaks of mountains high

Proud castles, libraries,

Sunlit forests and endless sky

Bask inflorecent meadows

see your reflection Crowned

in mosaiced wildflower

Worthy of great drake; perfection

Bestow aces of open sky

Bear admirable treasures to cache

Of glory and gold, lives

Of lush garden and frogs amass

Traipse along bookshelves

Imagine dragons, from drakes to wyrm

Build homes for what is 

Intrinsic to them, in due term

To gift to kindred souls

Drafting

there be three more quatrain to write, I would like to make the reader hurt. any tips?

/unattached/ and community at ones own pace

Find new places learn

With new friends, to great heights race

8 wow we sure don't have dragons

6 really sad, amirite

8 only stories, wings of parchment

6 lets write more dragoons

There be no dragons here, today.

last stanza

wordy stuff done

here's the tone shift ending

    Note

Exulansis: n.the tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it

From the dictionary of obscure sorrows Exulansis – The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows 

 The  exulansis of dragons

                                         ^

                                      Anti

Such a thing you cannot say

That you wouldn’t want wings and 

Blazing flame with which you fly away

To glide along the wind        

Alight upon peaks of mountains high

Proud castles, libraries,

Sunlit forests and endless sky

Bask inflorecent meadows

see your reflection Crowned

in mosaiced wildflower

Worthy of great drake; perfection

Bestow aces of open sky

Bear admirable treasures to cache

Of glory and gold, lives

Of lush garden and frogs amass

Traipse along bookshelves

Imagine dragons, from drakes to wyrm

Build homes for what is 

Intrinsic to them, in due term

To gift to kindred souls

There be no dragons here, today.

We fall short in flight and

Freedoms, human limits that may 

Leave us forsaken

We who lack indestructibility

Endure injuries that scar

And never truly heal, dimly

And short burning lives that 

Cast light only to what little we 

See in our lifetime, watch

Flickering memories blur and

Any legacy left

Falls before long, shattering 

into a new whole

what was will never be again

mourn the adrift, fading past

or

what was is never again, sing

of the adrift, fading past

ineffable dumbasses

(first time poster/first fan comic!!!)

P*rn Accident

Author’s Note: I’m not very happy with this short story, but I’ve decided to upload it anyway so it doesn’t rot in my drafts.

Type: Fluff, College AU, Crush!MingyuXReader

{The last day of vacation was supposed to be the best! If only you hadn’t clicked your brothers' stupid text}

pt 1~pt 2~ Epilogue

 At the moment nothing could ruin this, nothing seems to fade quickly.

 You had saved 50% of your paycheck and lived frugally for this moment. You dreamed about this the day it was announced at the end of your 1st year. The English Departments annual trip to Hawaii!

 Most of the people that usually went were either rich kids with money to spare, actual Engish Majors, or people like you. You minored in English and in all honesty you spoke almost fluently probably due to you being a foreigner. You are now a senior who unfortunately isn’t rich so for the past 4 years you had dreamed of this trip. Even more, so that your crush Mingyu was going on the trip.

 He also minored in English and you two were paired for a few projects over the years. He majored in music and was part of the arts and photography club, the only reason you knew what you knew about him was because of those “few projects”, he often invited you over to his flat to study and research. If you were being honest you didn’t really like him at first, but damn that puppy smile and the way his eyes looked while he studied won you over.

 This brings us back to now, it is the last day of the 2-week trip and a luau performance had just finished. Everyone had been finished eating for a while and now people were just casually talking and sharing the best parts of the trip. You were dressed in a flower printed dress your mom had given you and Mingyu was wearing a Hawaiian print shirt your pretty sure you saw him buy at the airport. You sat a few chairs away from him.

 You laughed along at the thought of the memories of your teacher wearing a slightly inappropriate speedo when your phone pinged. Your brother texted you, you honestly should’ve known better than to open it, but the thought it could be a prank couldn’ thave crossed you mind in that joyous moment. You clicked and within a milisecond, your phone was brightly flashing a rough sex scene and letting out lewd moans and screams. 

 You clenched the phone into your stomach trying to muffle the moans and quickly ran off to the nearest bathroom. Luckily no one was there and you did everything to stop the video, lowering the volume, deleting the video, and turning your phone off completely. You had run off so fast you failed to notice the footsteps running after you and the click of the women's bathroom door.

 You let out sobs of embarrassment in the stall as you sat on an admittedly very nice toilet. Just as you were about to just go into full breakdown mode you heard a faint knock over your cries. You looked down and noticed the flip-flops Mingyu had bought at the flea market. 

 You quickly put your hand over your mouth and tried to muffle your choking tears.

“Hey, are you okay? Is your stomach hurting?” 

 That’s when you came to the realization that to everyone else it probably looked like you made some muffled sounds before clenching your stomach and running to the bathroom. 

“N-no I-it-s stu-p-hid...” you said while post crying hiccups interrupted.  

“It’s obviously not stupid...just tell me”

.........

Imagine you and acquaintance!Mingyu are hanging out with a couple of friends. You’ve known each other for only a few months and you’ve always thought he was handsome but never really thought you’d work because you’re a foreigner. He’s always thought that you’d never be into him because he doesn’t speak your native language. While you’re hanging out and laughing there’s a sudden breeze and you shiver like a puppy, it catches his eye and he can’t help but giggle at how cute you look. “I’m fucked” he thinks to himself as his heart pounds when you laugh.

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1. demon slayer

2. supernatural

fuck you

Fuck YOU

I'd kill myself honestly

(but im a secret third thing)

I wanna draw what I look[ed] like and post it so bad, but I'm not great at drawing, lol. I love drawing, but I kinda suck at it, and usually, that doesn't bother me, but in this case it does cause it's supposed to be me and I don't really wanna mess up on it or something like that.

Would anyone even care if I did that? Like, would it even matter? Idk, I'll probably end up drawing and posting it soon, hopefully. If I even get the stupid motivation for it, lol.

Would anyone want to see a drawing of me? Like genuinely wondering.

- Zuki Shay Lupo! :3c [yes, I like to end my posts like this. Don't judge me, lol]

I'm bored and can't sleep [it's a little after 4 am where I am lol], so here's a thing about me that I'm kinda surprised I haven't talked about yet, lol.

When I was Zuki, I had a service dog [in this life, I also need an SD, I'm gonna probably post a separate thing about that at some point], he was a german shepherd named Remo (meaning strong one or something like that lol). I miss him as much as I miss anyone else from my canon, maybe a bit more than certain people, but I feel like that should be understandable, he helped me actually live life, yeah I still had problems but they would've been way worse without Remo. He helped me actually be able to do more than I would've without him, as service dogs do lol, but still.

I'm really bad with words and shit and it's late/early, so that's likely not helping. But just yeah, thought I'd share this, not sure if anyone even really cares, but whatever, lol.

- Zuki Shay Lup! :3c

Yeah, let's start normalizing this!! [Other nonhumans or alterhumans feel free to add onto this!]

Hello, I'm Shay, and I'm a wolfdog, cat, crow[maybe? I'm starting to question this again], questioning dragon, and uh, I'm also ockin! Also questioning other kintypes but whatever, lol. I almost forgot, I'm also a fallen angel, though that also goes under one of my ockin types, lol.

i wish being nonhuman was normalised. i wish i could go to new people and introduce myself like "hi, im Talon, im a dragon" and they could just say "oh, nice to meet you!" and act, you know, like normal.

sigh...

:3c

<3

[TW: Death and shit that comes with that, idk maybe more? If you find any more things that should be in this trigger warning pls tell me.]

Also, shit is happening in my life rn. I recently [on September 11th] lost my cousin, she died and we aren't sure how exactly yet. So, yeah. Death is fucking weird and I don't think I process it normally (AuDHD). So I may end up not posting for a while or might end up posting like every day.

Just sharing so ya'll know what's going on if I disappear for a while [even though I would likely do that even without this shit happening].

We aren't sure when the funeral thing is happening yet, I slightly hope it's soon so I can see my family, I don't live by that side of the family, sadly. Probably gonna end up missing like a day of college, but whatever, my family [my pack] is more important to me.

My cousin left behind a son. He is a kid. He's younger than I was when my mom in this life died. [I was like 16 when that happened, and I won't be sharing how old my 2nd cousin is]. So I really wanna see that side of my family, so I can try and be there for him. He's gonna need people there for him, and if I could without getting in trouble, I would drop out of college rn to be around him while he is going through this. (Protective wolf/dog instincts?)

There's just a lot of shit going on rn with my life, I wish it would stop for a bit.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/xe/ze) :((

[We is referring to my family, btw]

When I actually get my shit together and work on getting a service dog in this life, I am probably gonna try and get a german shepherd and name them Remo or something similar cause yeah.

When I get my shit together, I will probably be asking for donations, but I want to know more before asking for money. I am unsure of what program I am going to use exactly, I have an idea, but idk yet.

I should probably try and get diagnosed anxiety [cause I haven't been diagnosed, but it's definitely obvious] and maybe look into OCD and PTSD more? I know I have trauma and shit, I just don't know if it's PTSD levels or whatever. And the OCD I am unsure if it's just the AuDHD combo or OCD as well.

If anyone has any advice about any of this that relates to America, please feel free to give the advice.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

I'm bored and can't sleep [it's a little after 4 am where I am lol], so here's a thing about me that I'm kinda surprised I haven't talked about yet, lol.

When I was Zuki, I had a service dog [in this life, I also need an SD, I'm gonna probably post a separate thing about that at some point], he was a german shepherd named Remo (meaning strong one or something like that lol). I miss him as much as I miss anyone else from my canon, maybe a bit more than certain people, but I feel like that should be understandable, he helped me actually live life, yeah I still had problems but they would've been way worse without Remo. He helped me actually be able to do more than I would've without him, as service dogs do lol, but still.

I'm really bad with words and shit and it's late/early, so that's likely not helping. But just yeah, thought I'd share this, not sure if anyone even really cares, but whatever, lol.

- Zuki Shay Lup! :3c

That's awesome! The best way for me to reply is a reblog. If you don't want me to have rebloged, then just tell me, and I'll take it down!

Anyways, it's really cool to hear about others' memories!!! Also, love rambling and listening to others ramble about alterhuman/nonhuman stuff!!!

When you say Toshi, you mean Hitoshi Shinso, right? If so, that's my brother!! Well, it would be a different version of them, but still, lol. [My canon's Hitoshi went by he/they pronouns mainly].

Also, Mario Kart is sooooo good!!! Been playing it in this life again recently, lol. Doing great with it, actually, lol.

Playing video games with the LOV is very fun, lol. I remember some times of doing that, too!

I wasn't a part of the LOV because I was training to become a hero, of course, but I was still close with them after a few of the attacks. If you would like to hear more about me becoming friends with some of the LOV, I'd be happy to share [what I remember from it ofc]!

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/hx/it) | a fellow noncanon MHA being/creature :3c

Hello, I decided to come say hi and shit in an ask, lol.

I'm not good at starting conversations, but I would like to hear about any alterhuman or nonhuman experiences or memories or anything that'd you'd be willing to share!

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it) | a fellow noncanon MHA being/creature :3c

aaa hihi!! good to hear from you, i definitely feel you on the 'bad at starting conversations' lol!

the first thing that comes to mind a memory of playing video games with Tomura and Shuichi. I wasn't very good at it, but it was good bonding and i loved playing with them. I would only play the 'silly' games like Mario Kart or Smash Bros, they got too into the 'serious' ones for me. I finished in last place every time lmao, so i mostly spent my time teasing whoever was in second place. Dabi would sit with us too sometimes, either lazily scrolling on his phone or bothering the three of us, trying to help whoever would give him the most attention lol. The others joined in sometimes too, Himiko and Jin and rarely Sho and Toshi if they were hanging out. Himiko would shriek excitedly and bump us while Jin cheered her on and cursed her out. It was good.

Thanks for giving me the opportunity to ramble lol!! Feel free to share any memories/thoughts you have :D

Random, but can any systems/plural beings talk about how they figured out that they are plural?

DID, OSDD, endo, etc. Any version of systems or plurals

I have questioned DID or something similar to just myself and 1 or 2 friends irl before. I'm unsure if my trauma was "enough" or happened at "the right time" or whatever to be able to cause a dissociative disorder.

If anyone has any websites or similar things to suggest to help me, pls send me them.

I mostly try and stay out of plural/system things cause once again I am unsure if I am one in any way. And to go into a community that I am not sure I am in feels off.

Using I/me/my/etc. sometimes feels wrong, and we/us/our/etc. feel right even if just referring to "me." But sometimes I/me/my/etc. feels fine/right, so idk.

Please give me advice or at least share your experiences if you're able/willing to. Thanks

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/hx) [if I find out I'm a system/plural in some way, this sign off thing will probably be changed around].

Ok I did something...

(In one part of the video, it is muted because of copyright (I just forget that thing exists) so I will manage later to post the complete version somehow...) but is just a little part it's not like all the video or something like that.

And if you ask how I have the plushies well I was lucky :3

In wallapop.