I Was Thinking And Then I Started Crying

i was thinking and then i started crying

FUCK

*inhales*

LEE SCORESBY IS THE ONLY AMERICAN IN HDM, IS A COWBOY, AND FLIES FOR A LIVING. LYRA IS THE PROPHECY CHILD UNDER THE ILLUSION OF FREE WILL WHEN IN REALITY, EACH OF HER CHOICES ARE JUST SEALING HER DESTINY. THEY ARE LITERALLY THE MOST FUCKING OBVIOUS REPRESENTATION OF FATE VS FREE WILL AND IT’S SO FUCKING SAD BECAUSE THAT MEANS THAT THEY CAN NEVER BE TOGETHER. LIKE LEE’S DEATH LITERALLY REPRESENTS THE DEATH OF FREE WILL WHEN HE CHOOSES TO ASSIST LYRA IN FULFILLING HER PROPHECY. 

Warning:

If you see a girl with her hair in her eyes and you look her in the eye and gently push the hair off her face... I WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU DON'T TRY ME I DO NOT RECOMMEND

Mentally I'm in a big ass library with huge windows leading to a beautiful garden wearing a wavy dress and reading next to the window and every paragraph or so I look outside to see if my girlfriend is here yet. Physically online classes are apparently still there.

It aches when I miss him. Sometimes it aches for a day, sometimes for weeks, sometimes it hurts consistently for a month, but I relish the pain, I feel it. It means I haven't forgotten yet.

I feel FATIGUED like send her to the seaside for her health type fatigue