Cass Please Cass Wait Cass CASS Im DYING AHH GOD The Idea Of Leo Having Been The Last To Die, To Have

Cass please cass wait cass CASS I’m DYING AHH GOD the idea of Leo having been the last to die, to have died thinking (knowing) he was directly responsible for at the very least Raph and Mikeys deaths, and that he KNEW he'd be dying with essentially no ninpo, no spiritual connection and thus no real hope of joining his family in any sort of afterlife, that all those goodbyes were forever — the idea of him waking up and just ...everyones home, home and healthy and whole UGH CASS IM CRYING 

(would he even believe it? would he think its a krang trick? god how do you heal from that kind of end? he ran towards it, he got his kid out and then turned back to continue a fight he already lost. everyone was dead, Donnie and Raph and April and Mikey, everyone else had given up everything— Mikey burned away for the slightest hope and Raph gave the resistance his heart and Donnie wore himself down to nothing, not even a ghost left— and Leo wanted to go that way too i think, giving everything, fighting for time like he wasn’t the last one standing, like there was anything left to fight for. Because to do anything less would be to discredit his brother’s sacrifices. How do you wake up from that? How can anything ever be okay again? How do you believe that you can wake up to a happy ending, hug your brothers, hold your son, see your father? A krang trick? It must be. Which means he was captured. Which mean did not die. Which means he failed. The world is dead, the krang have won, and Hamato Leonardo was not even able to match his brothers in death. He asked his baby brother to burn, and he has failed. How do you move on from that. How do you believe anything except the echoing certainty that there is quite literally nothing left to lose, and your own wretched, wailing anger?

Well. If he cannot honor the price he made his family pay, maybe he can at least make the memory of Donnie (not a spirit, there is no spirit, you cost him his soul) smile by finding the nearest Krang and unleashing Hell upon the sorry bastard. Yeah. i just. Cass i am STRESSED.)

I..uh..fuck I can't talk about this because of spoilers kvdkbf

But in general

Mikey and Leo went through the same hell, but at the end, when all they could hope for was gone, Casey showed up. And he said he could help them. Save them.

The difference between Mikey and Leo is that Mikey heard and understood him. So Mikey has a strange time too, realizing that everything is okay again. But he knew it would get better.

While Leo remained in a state of lostness and fear

every day i think about that MNMC line calling these three the "worst polycule in existence" and a "nightmare blunt rotation"

every danggum day

more human turtle doodles

listen ok, bruises and broken bones are one thing, but sometimes u just gotta check in and make sure ur self-sacrificing dum dum twin remembers how to laugh knows youre still the funny one, even after the almost-apocalypse

(never mind how absolutely terrible that idea is for his very broken ribs and lungs and.... well.... everything)

so i orig thought id be keeping this page mostly just my shit, like a personal sketchbook almost, cause i didnt really want to be as invested in tumblr as i was years ago -- and while the latter's still mostly true i do genuinely love seeing other peoples amazing art and content, and ive realized that withholding myself from actually like engaging with it through reblogs and tags and etc is, in fact, very dumb.

so uh apologies for the sudden incoming wave of reblogs!

@cupcakeslushie 's feral leo au has my whole heart