Confession: I Haven't Been Doing Much On The Art Front Since Last Year. Got Into The Holiday Spirit And

Confession: I haven't been doing much on the art front since last year. Got into the holiday spirit and my art nook became a nook for gifts, packaging from said gifts, snacks, etc. and then after December was over I got stuck in that post-holiday rut so some stuff I wanted to do for the new year just didn't materialise. (I actually only got the art nook back to a normal, and importantly clean spot to do things.) Hope to get back on track soon.

So my plan for this year was to try and do one big project each month or a bunch of smaller projects each month so I was always at least working on something. January has come and gone and I have nothing on the visual art front to show off (haaaaa) so I'm not off to a great start. I've been dealing with some work scheduling stuff which actually gives me more time to do whatever but i haven't been using my time effectively, which sucks but that's my own thing to deal with.

On a lighter note I haven't been doing nothing at all per se, I got a bluetooth keyboard and have been organizing my google docs, and from there I've been going over my old stuff and making plans/notes. Most of my old writing from my 'peak' era (i.e. high school) is unfortunately gone but I do have a few things here and there from when I was just trying google docs out at the time it came out so I have some examples of my writing level from back then to look back fondly on. I also have some small, unfinished documents from the interim between there and now that i punched out on my cell phone (i realised after seeing a post here talking about young people not knowing how to use a pc that I haven't had one for over a decade, back then i was still playing World of Warcraft) and got annoyed with since my skills have, imo, severely deteriorated.

The other day I was looking over them and was like "hey, you know what, these aren't bad" so now I'm making notes on stories I've been wanting to write, so I'm feeling a bit better about not doing anything for two months. I still want to keep doing visual stuff; I really like painting with acrylics and I think if I could get over my annoyance with my sketching skills and inking there's a comic idea I wouldn't mind dinking around with. I've really missed writing though, so I'd like to get back into it as well.

I've been keeping a personal journal since lockdown or so that I wanted to update frequently but ended up coming back to only once every couple of months (and jfc even though I feel I went through the primary lockdown period fine enough being an interoverted person the way I was writing at the time was so...closed?). I'm still only popping into it infrequently something that I like in doing it is remembering how much I loved blogging back in the LiveJournal days and I kind of want to get into it again? It would be a great opportunity to make my writing more snappy and vivacious (if that's even the right word). My two issues, however, are where to do it if I do it publicly (idk if I'd want to do it on here, a blogging specific site, or something else) and what to do it about. I don't find myself to be particularly interesting, and I don't like to talk about myself or my personal interests in a public sphere beyond banal, neutral statements (I am a dedicated lurker). Opinion pieces/reviews would be interesting for me as I feel like my reluctance to get into things has kind of stagnated my brain a bit, if that makes sense. Like I just like things, I have difficulty explaining why I like them, or if I'm watching something that has a lot of symbolism and so on I could not be counted on at my current capacity to write out a theory of some kind.

Doing it outside of the larger userbase websites like this one would probably be a safer option as I've been limiting my social media presence the last few weeks (read: I'm gauging if I'm capable of staying away from X/Twitter) and can probably be more candid without a random person coming across me posting something unserious and taking it the wrong way (I mean this as in I do get hyperbolic for jokes and X/Twitter has way too many people who will fight you as if you were dead serious). I'm really undecided, though? I'm torn between wanting to put myself out there and actually putting myself out there. Obviously, I can just keep things to myself and get another pseudonym, but do I want to?

Confession: I Haven't Been Doing Much On The Art Front Since Last Year. Got Into The Holiday Spirit And

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