Little Guy

Little guy

Can’t wait to see gorb’s death scene I make after twh starts running again

I’m thinking about the TWH AU and how Benrey can just access Gordon’s memories and act just like him with no problem. And I’m thinking about how it’s possible that Benrey entirely forgets he’s not the body’s original owner, becoming Gordon even. It’s what his memories says, what they are, and really it just slips his mind at this point to think otherwise. He forgets Benrey is a thing, nothing to worry about after all when he’s Gordon Freeman runninglateforworkpickingupjoshuafromschoolputtinginthespecificsugarsandcreamshelikesinhiscoffeesayinghowdynotlookingatthatgameignoringthrowingawayfearingthevrsetlaughingwithhiscoworkwersaboutthegameawards he’s.

He’s.

He’s…

He’s…?

Right. He’s Gordon Freeman and he’s once again scrambling to stuff his phone into his pocket at he dashes to the door. He’s late for work, caffeine already in his veins and fueling him for the day.

Gordon, the one in Benrey’s sickening body on the other hand? Doesn’t have the same experience and can’t even fucking forget who he was. He clings to it too, crying when he can’t even slip away into forgetting his misery as himself but fastening himself in place. He’s Gordon and can never be Benrey, no natural instincts to guide him. Just stumbling and crying and wheezing as burning falling chilling breaking glitching energy floods in and out of the body and house. It’s not his body, it’s the body. Benrey’s body. And he will never be Benrey no matter how much pain he’s in.

(I have yet to go fully through the tag and blogs but I have Thoughts)

I’m glad you’re enjoying it so far and that it’s now rotating in your mind concocting thoughts :))

Some concept art for the two recent pizza tower au ideas I had

I’m just gonna…gently put this atrocity down. And leave it here

I gotta say, one of the greatest achievements of my 20s was that I learned (mostly) to differentiate between:

"I truly do not want to go" and

"I'm just feeling the Demand Avoidance, and I will like it once I get there."