Sometimes I Have Very Melancholic Thoughts That I Want To Write Down But I Dont. I Want To Write Them

Sometimes I have very melancholic thoughts that I want to write down but I don’t. I want to write them down, to share them to others so that I don’t feel quite so alone with these thoughts. So that maybe someone can relate. I don’t because when I do try to write them down I; forget the thought, I can’t find the right words, or something else. It’s gotten to the point where I’ve told myself I should just record the thought then write it down but I never seem to be able to do it. I always seem to be in a situation where I can’t sit down and record a sad monologue for later. Idk. Shit suck. Guess it doesn’t matter in the end cause I end up forget about it anyways.

Update to the last post

The creature was to short so I glued some pencils to it to add height. The fact it can stand is a miracle! I love my skrungly little fellow <3

I have been watching a lot of videos about murder and keep hearing stuff like “Dismembered after death”. Like how the hell do you get dismembered before death? I don’t know if I’m just stupid so correct me if I’m wrong.

fnaf oc bony the bunny

I post something sad and the literal first thing I happen to wake up to is a s*xbot. Aaaah tumblr. You bot riddled nightmare of my favorite platform. How could I ever live without you. Also the autocorrect for tumblr is ass.

Creepy thing #3. In the dark.

Context time, my aunt lives right next to us in a movable trailer house. She normal comes over to eat at out house but at that time she had gotten home late and was to tired to to so.

My aunt had gotten home later then she normally would from work and was to tired to come get food from my house, so my mom made me and my sister go give her a burger for dinner. 

Me and my sister walked over to her house and my sister knocked on the door. I had appointed myself as look out to make sure no one snuck up on us. As I was looking around I looked into the area that lead into the backyard. It was night so I couldn’t really see anything in the dark passed from what was luminated by the light of my phone and any lights in the distance. 

As we were waiting for my aunt to answer the door I could have sworn I saw what looked to be to human figures standing in my backyard. I couldn’t tell if the were facing us or not cause they were just outside of the reach of my light source but I could defiantly see the outline. The two figure were standing in front of another light source from a neighbors back porch light so you could just make out the silhouettes.

When I saw then I froze up and luckily my aunt open her door and took the food from my sister. After the exchange my aunt closed the door and I started off back toward my front door, my sister in close pursuit. 

When we got in my sister asked me why I hurried into the house so fast and that’s when I told her what I had saw. She looked at me as if I was crazy, she has always said I was, and that it was all in my head. It probably was just in my head. Shadowy figure I see is always just in my head. Monsters don’t exist. I’m just losing my mind.