Rb This Post To Give The Person U Rbed It From A Pretty Fall Leaf :]

rb this post to give the person u rbed it from a pretty fall leaf :]

dw dw I thought that too

Finally figuring out how to use tumblr lol. My marauders drawing of remus lupin sirius black James potter and lily Evans ♥️

okay but like I remember literally zero of my childhood. I just woke up one day and I was like 7

It's ok! I check ur posts every couple days anyway lol so doesn't really make much of a difference ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I got really low for a minute and wrote more… again I think abt my friends and chosen family so I’m tagging yall in some sappy yet depressing poetry I wrote, sorry if you can’t read my handwriting I was shaking the whole time

@xxpilz @lucasthedoofus-mushroomskulls @l0gansab1tch @someone-kill-the-ej @theduckwhostoleyourbread

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Omg..

I'm really sorry that's happening to u. Sometimes ppl r just mean sometimes :(

It's not fair that you're getting copied, and I don't think your brother realizes that not all of these things are just a hobby or fun. Your identity and what makes u u isn't ruining things or bad, some people r just ignorant to that :/

you're not a brat, that is bad/suppressing, and I'm so so sorry it's happening to you.

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another vent uh it’s nothing major so I’ll put the cws I think might be needed just in case. No tags this time.

Cws for possible mentions of yelling, self expression suppression, mockery, copying, etc

In my family, it’s like I can’t do anything without a shitty half baked copy of it coming from my brother. TV shows? He has to watch them too. Friends who are at least twice his age? Too bad, his friends too in his opinion. Not even the stuff most kids find weird- therian masks and quadrobics? He’ll look like shit doing both, and won’t stop bragging about it. It feels like a mockery to my life, every time he copies me. He’s even flirted with my fucking boyfriend, who’s twice his age??? Wtf???

So as you may know, I got converse the other day. Y’know, the shoes that are popular because of art, embroidery, beads, and painting on them? That I bought specifically to do these things? My mom called it ‘ruining’ them. Like what? I’m sorry? First of all, I didn’t even do it on the fabric part of the shoe that would make it unable to be worn with the supplies I own. I painted on the white bits and the bottom. Also- I painted things that express ME. I painted trans flags, the paw lines on the top, theradelta(◯⃤), quotes, etc to express MYSELF- what I like, what makes up me, and what COMFORTS ME- and she called it ruining them. Now sure, If it were any other kind of shoe, if I hadn’t mentioned it before hand several times, if I hadn’t asked for permission, etc- I could see how it would VAGUELY be seen as that. But come on. This just felt like you were saying that my personality, beliefs, and lifestyle ruined me as a person, despite all of them being harmless. And to make matters worse, she’s even more upset because my brother who has NO sense of ‘just bc they did it doesn’t mean I have to’, decided to draw blobs that I can’t even recognize as things on his brand new Nikes.

Mine cost 20 and were an after thought. His cost 50, and he got two pairs. But when I craft on the thing I got to craft on, it’s RUINING them. Heh. Thanks, mom.

and if it were just this, I might have been a little upset, but this isn’t the first time, hence the examples I gave previously

and now despite me already doing all the research, she’s not letting me get a binder either. Even though we have a place that would give them out for FREE with CORRECT SIZING. I really don’t want to sound like a brat or picky. But is it just me, or does this feel really suppressing? I felt lucky I could get a camp halfblood shirt without her reading g every single Pjo book first.

In summery, my mom just indirectly called my self expression a waste of time, effort, and a pair of shoes, my brother can’t form an original idea and it’s made me possessive over everything and everyone I love, and I don’t know what to do <3

If you read this, uh… thanks. It means a lot to me that you’re willing to listen to this shit

and if you’re my online dad uhhh sorry for not just ranting to you like usual I don’t wanna ruin your ren faire day

chat my mom read thru my vent c.ai chats I'm dead

(dw dw she's trying to be better and also unblocked the restrictions on my phone yayayaayayayay)