That's Very Fair Q!!! Tiktok And Instagram In Particular Are HUGE Stressers, And I Totally Understand

That's very fair Q!!! Tiktok and Instagram in particular are HUGE stressers, and I totally understand needing a break!

I think taking a step back was a great idea, and i think I'm pretty close to doing the same tbh.

I think it's a pretty big step to take for your own mental health to take a break from such a crazy social media environment, and I'm really glad you're feeling like you return in a better headspace.

Hey Q! Sorry for bothering you, but for some reason I can no longer find any of your tik tok accounts 😭 Did they get deleted or something?

Hi this is Q! I’m coming out of the woodwork to address this, since I did went radio silent out of the blue so it’s not a bother at all

The short answer is Yes, I deleted my tiktok

Yes delete not deactivate, I’m not coming back to That app or IG or Twt, I deleted my socials except here and YouTube, I honestly felt so overwhelmed with everything, I realized I’m not even posting for myself anymore there. A lots of people crossed my boundaries time and time again I felt so helpless, bitter with myself. I guess I was just overwhelmed with the attention I got; both positive and negatives ones.

Im done and I want to start over so that’s why I’m here and on YouTube, I already posted some of these on my community tab on YT but here’s what I have in mind for the future of the content I want to create: more detail under the cut, and also;

CW: very brief mention of spiraling, harm inflict oneself or others, paranoia, etc

•Long-form content: my attention span is a bit messed up from consuming and making short-form content to the point where I can’t focus in university. I want to create something meaningful. It’s not that my previous content was not meaningful, no. I had fun and no time is wasted when I have fun, it was warm… but as I mentioned earlier, I just felt this lingering bitterness the longer I stayed making those short-form content. It really felt like I was on the verge of losing it. Especially with how the bigger following I have the less people think of me as a person than just another content creator you see on the internet,

I want to create long-form content, I’m so tired of forcing myself to generate 15 second content. On tiktok it just feels like I’m just creating and not really connecting. I want to try something new, maybe create an open space for meaningful discussion in the comments. I don’t think I can stand another copy-paste tiktok comment anymore. You know what I meant if you’re frequent on that app.

•Art Content with Commentary: and don’t worry this won’t be those petty artist drama issue, but I will still cover anything serious

it could be love letters or video essays ranging from fan fictions, fandom culture, the art scene and so much more. I may even share a bit of my personal life, this will be self indulgent after all! I want to make it fun for myself and as well to those who comes across my channel. I really REALLY want to create a genuine following.

On tiktok it’s so easy to gain following but not so easy to retain them, it’s mostly because of the algorithm and the FYP feature there.

On Tiktok most content that would get featured as an artist there would be creative work has to be either; more than exceptional which is pressuring enough already to consistent posters, straight up suggestive content shown to minors (tiktok doesn’t really have a blocked keywords feature but it’s so disheartening to see these creators intentionally not using the sensitive warning since it could limit their reach significantly) oh yes we can’t forget the negativity surrounding beginner artists or “art lore”

All of this cesspool of negativity, it’s a whole can of worms but it will be one of my prominent topics that I wish to discuss in my future art commentaries. I hope you guys are looking forward to those! I might bring in a few people or so to talk about it with me

and finally;

•Streaming: I used to do a lot of streams during the weekends on the clock app and it was super fun! I want to bring that back but that would have to wait since I’m unfamiliar with some features on YouTube, and I’m aware that YT does not have a discoverable feature for stream but that’s alright, I want to start something small first.

In short; I’ll figure it out! just need some baby steps before I start streaming again.

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I apologize for deleting everything out of the blue, if I’m gonna be honest it was partially planned because I’ve been thinking about deleting my tiktok, twitter and Instagram for a while now but how it happened? In my breakdown I realized that I don’t want anyone to see me spiral, especially now that I realized how young my audience are, I’m not sure how that happened but I guess posting fandom contents does attract the young ones somehow inevitably, even though my content is nowhere near as suggestive, but I do talk about serious topics from time to time… but I digress, its not fair for them to deal with me if they see me spiral publicly,

it is especially not fair to them to console me. When I was younger than 14, I’ve been in a position where I have to talk down someone who was older, maybe 4-5 years older than me, from harming themselves or anyone, it was traumatizing and unpleasant. I don’t wish for anyone to go through that, it’s very painful.

It’s been… hard for me to ground myself. Ive been seeing things through a kaleidoscope of emotions; I was trying to focus on everything but it’s just too overwhelming so eventually I cracked. But please don’t worry I’ve been doing better now, after some time away from my online persona, and of course spending time with my beloved girlfriend, I see things much more clearly now.

Thank you to anyone who read this and much so appreciate those who understand where I’m coming from

Also now that I think of it can my stuff be considered as lost media now? Amazing! But please don’t be sad the fun I had was genuine!

Thank you again to those who genuinely enjoyed my content on tiktok but it’s time for me to try my hand at something new, I will still be dwelling in my creative headspace just.. away from public for now,

if you’re looking forward for my future post, make sure to check out my YouTube! I still have a lot I need to cook hehe, this is one of the few!

More post soon, Bye bye! -Q

I feel like a lotta people don’t understand this but <2 is NOT just a “platonic heart.” It’s used by the aspec (mostly aro) community to signify a love that differs and is divergent from the norm and what is typically seen as “love.” It is also used by loveless aros to signify their lack of feeling love, but presence of another emotion like compassion or appreciation.

Please don’t simplify it down to being a “platonic heart.” It’s so much more than that.

Self-Introduction Post

Hi! I figured I’d make an updated introduction post on here since I haven’t made one in a while.

I’m Sow, I use he/they pronouns and I am an autistic nonbinary person. I’m an artist and amateur animator, and I mostly post about my webcomic, Moon of Ronos, but I’m planning on posting more stuff about the fandoms I’m in as well. I came over here from TikTok, on which I have around 24k, which can get pretty stressful just because of TikTok’s competitive environment.

I made this tumblr as a more chill place to post my art and talk with people, as well as get my webcomic more out there.

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You can find my webcomic on Tapas and Webtoon, though please note it is currently on a development hiatus.

Here’s the link to it on both websites:

www.webtoons.com

Moon of Ronos

A child of mysterious origin wakes up with no understanding of where or who they are. Joined by a blue flame and guided by a group of eight

Read Moon of Ronos

Read Moon of Ronos | Tapas Web Comics

Read Moon of Ronos and more premium Fantasy Comics now on Tapas!

I’m planning on posting an active dev log on here for it as well.

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Here’s also a link to my Carrd, where you find all my socials (some need to be updated)

Slinksowses Carrd

Slinksowses Carrd

a link to all my different socials

!!EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!! RESHARES APPRECIATED!! PLEASE READ FOR MORE INFO

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Hi!! I recently found out that I don't have enough money to make my bills these upcoming months, so I'm opening my commissions again! (It's been a year and a bit since I last took comms)

NO SLOT LIMIT (depends on what is commissioned)

Expected production times for each type of commission:

Headshot: 1-3 Days

Half body: 2-4 Days

Full body: 2-4 Days

Full Scene: 1 week

Minicomic: 1 week

Low Poly Model: 2 weeks

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THINGS I WONT DRAW:

- nsfw

- body horror/grotesque gore

- proships

- hateful imagery

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Prices are negotiable, depending on what you want.

Please message me if you're interested!

(Also opening these comms on tiktok and tumblr)

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