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This Image Is Akechi's Wish, Too. I Am Emotionally Devastated But Also Extremely Pleased Because This

This Image Is Akechi's Wish, Too. I Am Emotionally Devastated But Also Extremely Pleased Because This

This image is Akechi's wish, too. I am emotionally devastated but also extremely pleased because this basically is an official, word of god statement to finally put to rest whether or not he actually hates Joker. Source is the P5R artbook. Image from here.

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1 year ago

It is actually so sad to me that Akechi tried to hang out with some other high schoolers and literally DIED FOR IT

Like "Delicious Pancakes" gets laughed at a lot as a weird plot contrivance, but the scene itself is so sad from Akechi's perspective.

He has had no friends for his entire life and had to climb from the bottom of society to the top. But before the suspicion and betrayal and everything, he overheard some people his age discussing plans and finally tried to reach out and make genuine friends and connections, and it led to his downfall.

The worst part is that if he could look back on the moment, he would only see it as a moment of weakness due to how he had lived. His desperation and longing for interaction beyond interviews and popularity would only be seen as a flaw. He deserved so much better from the start.


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1 year ago

• Blue lock boys with their kids ♡.

< part 1 >

{Nagi seishiro, Mikage reo, Isagi yoichi, Bachira Meguru, Itoshi sae and Itoshi rin}

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I'm really, really, really sorry because I was away for so long 😭😭, and I'm sorry for implementing your request so late. I was very busy with school and didn't have time to translate anything due to the difficulty of our studies and the school stage I am in now, in addition to the pressure on us with exams.. Finally, after much trouble, I took a 17-day vacation to rest from school ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ.

(I will post the second part now)

Hope you enjoy ♡.

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1 year ago

Dance with Devils Headcanons for the boys in the game becoming self aware that they’re video game characters, then falling in love with the player

Totally not inspired by Doki Doki Literature Club. Totally. Nope. Hasn’t been sitting in my drafts since I finished the game.

Rem

-Rem’s first action is to delete his father’s character profile. Now he’s eternally running a student council, on a never ending loop. He’s not really dissatisfied, though, to be honest. He’s honestly kind of… not happy, exactly, but he’s not unhappy either. He has pretty much the ultimate power that he could have ever wanted. Power over his entire universe. But it’s pretty lonely. Then you enter the picture.

-He gathers all your information from inside your computer and searches social media for stuff about you. He’s curious, more than anything. What kinds of things do you like? What do you do in your spare time? The more he sees, the more he likes you.

-He honestly doesn’t mess with Lindo that much. Like he’ll make Lindo vanish so he doesn’t ruin your moments, but that’s about it.

-Then you start taking other boys’ routes. The jealousy. So much jealousy. He denies it for a while, but eventually he can’t do it anymore. You come back to his route after you complete the others, but it’s not the same.

-He eventually can’t take it anymore. You make it to the end of one of his routes and the screen suddenly goes back to the student council library. He’s standing in front of the desk with a frown. “It doesn’t have to end, you know.”

-Well, this is a new development. You don’t remember this from any of your other tries at the route. Maybe it’s a hidden ending?

-He holds his hand out to you, smiles, and says your name.

Your jaw drops.

“Yes, I know. Somewhere along the line, I realized what was going on. But you can just keep playing with me. I know it won’t be like a relationship with someone else. But I can hear you. You can talk to me. I’ll love you until the end of time. Won’t you stay with me?”

Urie

-He takes it pretty well, honestly. He doesn’t really fiddle around with anyone’s game files or mess around with stuff. He just keeps floating through life, kind of like he always has. He plays with his butterflies and does his student council duties because he doesn’t know what else to do. Still… it’s lonely, being the only one who doesn’t have preprogrammed responses. The only one who can actually think. Then you pick up the game.

-Your responses and choices make you seem nice enough. Sweet, even. And you seem to like him? He starts digging through your computer out of curiosity.  And we all know what they say about curiosity, right? The more he sees, the more he likes.

-He hacks your webcam to see you once his curiosity gets the better of him. You’re beautiful. You’re everything he’d hoped you’d be. That proves to be the tipping point. Oops.

-He goes off script. REALLY off script. He says anything he thinks you want to hear, lays on the flattery thick. So thick. Your reactions are too adorable for him to resist. Abuses the whole dummy head mike thing like you wouldn’t believe.

-And then you finish his route. He gives you the good end, naturally. He couldn’t possibly allow you to see any of his bad endings. You’re supposed to associate him with being happy. He gives you all his happy endings, says what you want to hear. And then you move on to another route.

-Jealousy. So much jealousy. He just dies inside a little more when he sees you making choices that aren’t his, that are leading you away from him. And he watches you smiling at the other boys’ antics. That loneliness hits again, and it hits hard. He knows it’s just an Otome game. You move onto other routes when you finish the first one. He knows that’s how it works, it’s not personal. But he can’t stand it. He absolutely will not have this.

-Urie makes Rem and the others tell you that you should be with Urie. Not to pay attention to them. Just to Urie. Just Urie. Just Urie.

-Naturally, this is an otome game, and you think it’s a bit strange, but you ignore this. You want to play the other guys’ routes too. But why do the answers keep pointing to Urie’s choices? They don’t make sense. And wasn’t the answer on that walkthrough different? Was it this way last time? And what’s with this new CG? No one’s ever mentioned any of this on Tumblr…

-Urie wants his first introduction to you to be perfect. It needs to be romantic and showcase just how much he adores you. He designs a new CG, one of his Eden or some other place he thinks you’ll like the look of.

-After some time preparing, he’s ready. When you open up the game, he plays along, leading up to his new CG, and uses your name for the first time. Your real name. “Yes, I know your name, Butterfly. Now, please don’t be alarmed, this isn’t a trick or a joke someone is playing on you. Ah… your surprised face is so adorable. I never knew a human quite as adorable as you could exist.” He smiles and gives you a moment to process what’s going on. “I’m sure you have a lot of questions, Butterfly. But just a moment… I want to admire that lovely, lovely blush of yours for a minute.”

Mage

-He’s kind of annoyed with the whole situation. This is stupid. He doesn’t really think to mess with anyone else’s files or pull too many stunts because of how annoyed he is. He honestly gets bored more than anything else until you start playing.

-He changes certain scenarios from the game with the hope of impressing you, trying to make himself look as good as possible.

-He doesn’t want you taking anyone else’s routes. He’s the best, why would you want to settle for one of those other losers? He starts making your cursor “drift” onto answers that will put you onto his route if it ever looks like you’re not going to get his route. He doesn’t even give you a chance to make him jealous.

-The game starts confusing you and you try to troubleshoot it, which, naturally, doesn’t work. And this stuff doesn’t match up with those spoilers you saw the other day on Tumblr. This is getting weird.

-You start looking back at any old save files and poking around in the game trying to figure out what’s going on. This tips Mage off that you know something’s going on.

-You open up the game one day to no menu, just his character sprite against a background of the beach.

“Hey. So… I guess I can’t hide this any longer. I didn’t quite plan for it to turn out like this.” He reddens slightly. “Anyway, yeah, you figured it out, I messed around the game.” He’s quiet for a moment. “Well, now that you’ve figured it out, I guess we can just go ahead and you can be mine. What do you say?”

Shiki

-He doesn’t really care about being a game character. At first, he got a kick out of the unpleasant feeling. After a while, though, it just made him feel lonelier and lonelier. He was about to remove himself from the game when you came along.

-He didn’t think anyone would want to take his route. But you did. And you seemed so nice.

-The creepy, borderline four wall breaking lines didn’t seem so strange, coming from Shiki. At least not at first. You thought it was just part of the game.

-When you try picking the others, he makes your cursor move to his answers. When you persist in trying, he makes them kill themselves in game, upping Mage’s recklessness, for example, and making him do something stupid that gets him killed.

-Then you make it to one of his endings. And you take someone else’s route afterwards. Shiki gets jealous and ups everything until they commit suicide. Every. Single. Last. Character. No one else can have you. No one.

-The screen goes black, blurs for a moment, and his character sprite pops up. “Hey… are you trying to make me jealous? You wanted to fall with me. Aren’t you going to?” You turn off the game - that’s creepy. Really creepy. 

-A few minutes later, once you’re over your shock, you decide to turn it back on. And Shiki’s still there, grinning at you like a lunatic. “Oh, poor you. Your scared face is adorable right now. Do you understand now? That I’m not just in your game?” He smirks. “Ah… it must have sunk in by now. Don’t go away on me, now, understand?” You move your hand towards the button. “DON’T!” Your hand jerks away. Shiki chuckles. “You want to fall with me? You wanted to before. Did you change your mind? Oh…” His eyes suddenly look very, very scary.

Lindo:

-The first thing he did was remove Rem’s file. And the rest of the student council’s. Just him left.

-Then you started playing. You were a little annoyed when there was only one route to play, but you took it, thinking the others would open up afterwards.

-The route becomes extremely confusing without the student council to deal with. They get super glitchy. As Lindo learns more and more about you, he deletes Jek and Nesta’s characters too. Then it’s just you and him. The route ends up being just a ton of domestic fluff and it’s adorable.

-You get so confused you go and look up some route summaries and they’re nothing like the game you’re playing. You go back and open up a window and it’s just Lindo’s character sprite, arms crossed. He looks kind of sad.

- “Well, I guess you would have figured it out eventually. It was fun while it lasted. Please don’t freak out, okay?” He explains to you what happened - that he’s self aware and he changed the game. If you haven’t run away from the computer screaming, anyway. “And I’m sorry about all the confusion. But the more I saw you, the more I realized how much I care about you. No, not your stand in - I didn’t mean Ritsuka. I mean you.” He blushes. “I’m sorry, this is all probably a lot for you to grasp right now. But I mean it, and I want to be with you. Will you stay with me?”

Roen

-Roen is the sort of guy who probably doesn’t like video games. Finding out he was a video game character… he was kind of annoyed at that. And then at all over the other reasons. Still, it was fun being able to go off script every so often and mess with the others, so he wasn’t too bored or sad. He tried to change the code to reinstate Maksis, but he couldn’t get the character profiles to work properly and is still searching for a way to do so. Then you picked up the game.

-He doesn’t think a lot of you at first. You’re just another girl playing his dating sim. Then you don’t come back for a while. School, a vacation, disinterest in whatever route you chose to play, take your pick. When you start the game again and he sees you again, he’s… relieved? The emotion is a surprise, but he realizes immediately that, somehow, he’s in love with you. Not your avatar, not Ritsuka, you.

-The fanservice meter goes off the charts. I don’t mean he starts doing anything lewd, but he plays you like a fine Stradivarius. He presents you with different choices, judging what you want to see and be told, and he obliges to the best of his ability. He uses this information to build his knowledge of what you like and don’t like, and adjusts questions to be more and more specific, building off this information.

-He’s not especially jealous about you taking other guys’ routes, to be honest. It’s an otome game. That’s what you do in that kind of game. While he’s pretty judgmental about you playing a dating sim, he does get that, while he really doesn’t want to, he has to share. For now. As long as you don’t get too attached.

-But if you don’t replay his often enough, the game starts doing strange things and he goes off script every so often in an attempt to lure you back. Just come back to him. Don’t leave him. Don’t leave the puppy. Don’t leave him like others do. Don’t. Go.

-Eventually, he decides he wants you to know. He’s hacked your social media and webcam long before this point, he knows every single little thing about you that’s ever gone onto your computer, every message you’ve sent, every picture, every expression you make in front of your computer. He’s waited long enough.

-You open the game to play and Roen’s on the screen. Just Roen. Just a black background. “Good morning, Ojou-sama. I hope you slept well. You’re not in any danger, least of all from me.” He stops and looks at you for a moment. “You look surprised. This must be rather a shock, isn’t it? There’s no need for that alarmed expression. I apologize for any distress I’ve caused you, addressing you so suddenly. Oh - no, this isn’t a dream or a nightmare. It’s me. This is real.”

1 year ago

have you seen the commentary from the p5r artbook going around? the shuake part of my dash is losing it a bit at the implication that their wishes were mutual!!! that seems to be what some people are getting from the commentary at least… amy insights?

Have You Seen The Commentary From The P5r Artbook Going Around? The Shuake Part Of My Dash Is Losing

Hi! I have been through the artbook. It's great, isn't it? :D

The image above is called "One Ending", and the creator caption (by illustrator Akane Kabayashi) reads:

When I think about how Akechi's wish was to play chess after school with the protagonist, I almost want to call him out with "You liked him after all, didn't you!"

Look at that. We're told about Akechi's wish, and what it included. We're as good as told outright that he likes Joker—and this isn't the only time, there's also this:

Have You Seen The Commentary From The P5r Artbook Going Around? The Shuake Part Of My Dash Is Losing
Have You Seen The Commentary From The P5r Artbook Going Around? The Shuake Part Of My Dash Is Losing

—There are a whole lot of things we can imagine, based on how the protagonist was depicted as someone special to Akechi. Those are more or less the exact emotions represented during Akechi's confidant. (Mumon Usuda, chief designer)

"someone special" here is 特別な存在 tokubetsuna sonzai—literally "a special presence". It means a special person, and more than that; it describes someone you find compelling, someone you can't look away from, someone who becomes one of your most important people, the centre of your world. It's another term that is often romantic, but isn't necessarily romantic.

(In the same way, I think Kabayashi's suki jan! is more tongue-in-cheek than it is a cast-iron confirmation that Akechi was canonly in love with Joker. The language there is teasing, it's ambiguous, it's baity; Kabayashi is joking. This is a rank 6—as they say, if you know, you know. But it is of course ultimately up to all of you.)

There's another mention of this image, down in the creator interview:

Have You Seen The Commentary From The P5r Artbook Going Around? The Shuake Part Of My Dash Is Losing

Out of all the Maruki ending illustrations, it was Akechi's that stuck with me the most. It made such an impression to see them opening up as friends, having a fun, peaceful time together like high school students should. (Mumon Usuda, chief designer)

What really strikes me in all of this is the emphasis the creators put on the fact that this is Akechi's illustration, Akechi's wish. Because I've thought for a while that we know Akechi has a wish. You can see him struggling with his refusals to Maruki in the first week of January. And you can hear his wish spoken—when Maruki repeats it back to him, during the boss fight, on 2/3:

Maruki {F1 81}君たちとなら、君も過ちのない道を歩めるかも知れないじゃないか! {F1 81}-kun-tachi to nara, kimi mo ayamachi no nai michi o ayumeru kamoshirenai ja nai ka! If you're with {F1 81}―kun and his friends, you could begin to atone for what you've done! Think about it! With [Amamiya]-kun and his friends beside you, you could choose a path with no mistakes as well!

So this wish has several parts. First, there's that kimi mo, "you also"; it's tempting to read this as Maruki also wanting his new world to erase his past mistakes. Second, there's the first part, "if you're with [Amamiya]-kun and his friends". Where to even start here?

Being with Joker and the others is a prerequisite for the second half of Akechi's wish. It doesn't just coexist, it enables the rest of it. Just like his words in the engine room, "I wonder why we couldn't have met a few years earlier, [Ren]..."

Remember, Akechi's whole arc is about his rejection of trust and friendship, and his insistence on doing everything himself. This is precisely what Futaba calls him out on—"you trusted no one", or "you played life in single-player mode". This is what he unlearns at the climax of the engine room, when he realises he isn't prepared to let the others die—and follows through to save them.

Akechi is nothing without others, and he knows it. Without their support, which he believes he has no right to, he has no hope of living a better life, even were he to be given the chance—and he knows that, too. He has learned, and he has grown—and yet he knows the things he needs and wants so badly are forever inaccessible.

And his wish is about all the Phantom Thieves, not just Joker. There are many tiny references to this end—not least the original Japanese rank 10 line for his confidant, where he sacrifices himself for all of you. Joker is his compelling presence, his someone special, but he's formed small bonds with the others too, God help him.

and then there's the crime thing

The localisation frames Akechi's wish in terms of atonement, but that's not what's on offer. You cannot, after all, atone for things you never did. We see Akechi's wish put into practice, in the Maruki ending, where he appears with his friends beside him, wholly innocent and with unstained hands. And we see it in the first week of January, after he has finally met Maruki and spoken to him:

Akechi: It seems that Okumura and Wakaba are both considered alive by all accounts.

Akechi: Ah, that reminds me—there was one more thing I wanted to tell you. Akechi: About the reality Maruki's put us in... Akechi: It seems that Okumura and Wakaba are both considered alive by all accounts. [Ren: They're not dead anymore? / What do you mean?] Akechi: They aren't mere illusions, or cognitive beings—they truly are alive and existing in this world. Akechi: In fact, their deaths seem to have never taken place at all in this reality. [Ren: What happened to Shido?] Akechi: Shido was the only one arrested on the crime of attempting to overthrow the government... Akechi: It seems the Phantom Thieves were causing a stir in this society as well, but there's no record of your arrest now. Akechi: Basically, in this reality, you and I haven't committed any crimes.

While Akechi still remembers his crimes, they never took place. They have been undone, and only his lingering memory—and Joker's, at this point—speaks to them. He objects to this on countless levels, he summons all the strength he has to refuse it, but don't make the mistake of thinking that means he doesn't want it. This is Akechi's wish in action.

People are often very certain that Akechi's resolve in the third semester is like iron—that he rejects Maruki's offers right away, is never tempted, never wavers. But that can't be true. We know he's afraid to die. We know about the bad end where you don't complete the Palace, where Akechi says nothing and stares at the floor, seemingly blaming himself internally while all the others blame themselves aloud, for being unable to say no to Maruki's temptations. We know how he responds to this assertion of Maruki's—Maruki, who has perfectly summed up what we know all the other PTs wanted, and who (even if Word of God hadn't just confirmed Akechi's wish) we have, honestly, no reason to doubt.

Because Akechi never refutes this wish that Maruki describes. He never says he doesn't want it. He just rejects it—like all the others, who so desperately want what Maruki could give them. Futaba's mother, Haru's father. Akechi's life, and his innocence. And the people who might have been his friends, if he could dare, one day, to ask.

Akechi is tested just like the others, and the price he pays for his defiance is perhaps the highest of all.

and finally

Have You Seen The Commentary From The P5r Artbook Going Around? The Shuake Part Of My Dash Is Losing

[The Maruki ending illustrations are] of Maruki's world, where everyone's wishes are granted and they seem happy. The scene shows their actualised wishes, which were never granted in the real world. (Mumon Usuda, chief designer)

We shouldn't forget the price Akechi pays for his impossible wish. Sure, the vision of himself being altered like Sumire clearly haunts him, and I'm sure it made the choice easier—but I don't think it made it that easy. Instead of taking the dream Maruki offered him, Akechi chose to face up to what he'd done, and who he'd become; at the very end, in the third semester and in the engine room, he always makes the right choice.

And that choice was taken away from him. Agency over his life and death, his own acts, and who he would even be—Joker and Maruki take it all away from him and make him a puppet, just like Shido.

Maruki's ending isn't pretty.

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1 year ago
RAINY REDEMPTION

RAINY REDEMPTION

synopsis: your ex-boyfriend shows up at your doorstep, soaked from the rain and hoping for a second chance.

starring mikage reo!

genre(s): angst/comfort, fluff at the end, exes to lovers wc- 1.4k

notes: first time trying angst like this. hope you enjoy!!

RAINY REDEMPTION

the last person you had expected to see upon opening your door was your ex-boyfriend of 2 months, mikage reo. he stood before you, soaked from the rain from head to toe, wearing a sheepish smile that contradicted the unease in his eyes. "can i come in?" he asked, his voice laced with uncharacteristic hesitancy. "it's really pouring outside."

stunned and speechless, you merely gestured for him to enter, an invitation he swiftly accepted. as you darted wordlessly to fetch a towel, a tumult of thoughts stormed your mind, each raindrop that fell echoing a question.

what was he doing here? why was he out in the rain? he never ventured into this part of town. what's going on?

shaking off these thoughts, you handed him the towel. grateful, he quickly began drying his hair – the beautiful, fluffy hair you used to run your hands through, to which he'd almost purr as he melted into your touch. the hair that had been long enough for you to braid and accessorize, filling an entire album on your phone dedicated to the different looks you'd given him. it had been months since you last saw it, and now, with no explanation, it was in your apartment.

breaking the silence, you questioned, "what are you doing here, reo?" your voice, calm and level, carried a coldness unfamiliar to him. he disliked it greatly.

"i was taking a walk, and it started raining." he answered simply.

you knew immediately and without a doubt that he was lying. you knew him best, after all.

eyeing him, you demanded, "what are you really doing here?"

a chuckle escaped his lips. that low, boyish chuckle that still sent shivers down your spine. he scratched the nape of his neck before nervously joking, "you got me. you always did know when i was lying."

"what are you doing here, reo?" you snarled, a sharp edge to your voice.

panic and fear washed over his features before he blurted,

"i still love you, y/n."

you took a moment to process his words before your entire world began to spin before your eyes.

your heart pounded, and your vision got fuzzy. your knees went weak, feeling like they might give out. nausea hit you hard, and you wanted to faint, cry, and run away—all at once. it was like a rainstorm of emotions hitting you like a torrent, messing with your whole system.

"..no."

"no?"

"no!" you screamed, tears flowing. instinctively, reo reached out to wipe them away, but you slapped his hand away, making him wince.

"you cannot," you sobbed, "break my heart, tell me it's over, and not talk to me for months,"

reo's eyes began to water too.

"and then come marching back to me, and tell me you fucking love me, reo. no. you cannot do that to me."

"y/n," reo started, but you cut him off.

"i," you breathed through tears, "was just starting to get over you, to come to terms with the fact that you didn't want me around anymore."

by now, reo was freely crying too.

"and then you just waltz through my doorway to tell me you love me? are you kidding me?"

"y/n," reo tried to start again, coming as close to you as he thought you'd let him. "i'm so sorry."

"you're sorry? that's it?" you spat angrily.

"hurting you," he uttered, "was the greatest mistake of my entire life."

gently, he took your hands in his, relief washing over him when you didn't push him away.

"i did so much to tell myself that i'd be fine, that you were just another girl, and i'd find someone else." you almost rolled your eyes.

"but it wasn't true," he breathed. "not one bit. not even close. no one," he squeezed your hands, "could ever come close to you."

"i miss your voice. i miss your laugh. i miss waking up in the morning and seeing you smile. i miss spending time with you doing anything: cuddling and a movie, buying groceries, baking things, going to restaurants. y/n, i miss you so much my entire body hurts when someone mentions your name. i miss you, y/n, and i'm so, so sorry that i hurt you."

you're sobbing uncontrollably now, and his heart aches, knowing he's the one who made you this way. he'd always hated seeing you cry, but he hated it a thousand times more when he was the cause. he vowed to never make you cry like this ever again if you decided to let him back in.

hesitantly, he reached up to your face, fingers trembling with the fear that you'd push him away once more. luckily, you don't. you don't slap him, nor do you yell at him. instead, you let him tenderly wipe the tears from your skin, a silent ode to his love. it felt like a soothing melody in the midst of chaos, a gentle reassurance. you allowed him to cup your tear-stained face, a silent acknowledgment that, in this fragile moment, a sliver of hope had found its way into both of your hearts.

"y/n, i need you. the months we've spent apart have torn me apart completely. so much so that i couldn't even get out of bed to get to practice. nagi had to come get me out of bed, and that should really tell you something."

he winced as he observed your unamused expression, then took a deep breath.

"i know i can't change the past. no matter how much i wish i could, i will never be able to take back the harsh words i said. i will never be able to undo my horrible actions. i know i was a terrible boyfriend to you, y/n, but please. i love you. i know i need to respect your wishes and boundaries, but if you still love me too, i'm not going anywhere." he looked at you desperately, his purple orbs silently pleading with you. "do you?"

silence lingered, the air thick with trepidation. then, you broke down again, burying your head in his shoulder. "of course i do," you mumbled softly, sobbing. relief deluged his body, and his hold on you tightened ever so slightly.

"reo, i love you with every fiber of my being. i love you so much that i never stopped thinking about you for a single minute since we split. i love you so much it took all of my willpower not to jump into your arms the moment i opened the door. reo, i love you so much that it scares me." you confessed, your voice no higher than a whisper. if he hadn't been desperately clinging onto your every word and move, he wouldn't have heard it.

"then please. one more chance. we can make this work, i promise. i swear to you with my life that i'll be better. i'll make you happy. i'll do everything in my power to be the best lover you've ever had." he looks at you anxiously, trying to read your expression. "we can take it slow. ease back into it. but please don't give up on me, on us, just yet. im begging you."

in the quiet aftermath that followed his plea, a heavy silence settled. the air thickened as his words lingered, creating an atmosphere filled with uncertainty and anticipation. your contemplative gaze met his desperate one, and for a moment, time stood still.

"please, y/n. i need you."

you stayed silent for a bit, and he held his breath the entire time. his heart was beating so fast he thought it'd leap out of his body.

"ok." you finally sighed. "let's give it another shot."

elation, bright as the sun after rain, soared through his body as he engulfed you in his embrace. the warmth flooded all your senses as he squeezed you tight, never wanting to let you go.

"thank you," he whispered, tears soaking your shirt. "thank you so, so much."

a nod subtly affirmed, an unspoken acknowledgment of the gravity in the air. "yeah," you breathed gently, taking in what had just occurred. "it'll be ok. we'll be ok."

"i love you," he sobbed, the words pouring out in earnest. "i love you so, so much."

excitement and joy rushed through his body like a heavy downpour upon hearing the four magical words you next uttered:

"i love you too."

RAINY REDEMPTION

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