I LOVE ENHYPEN SO MUCH!

I LOVE ENHYPEN SO MUCH!

oh gosh. I know them since i-land because I was so desperate to vote for Jay but honestly I got distracted by Heesung. oh my love...I try not to stan this group every year and Im okay with my ults but they somehow make their way to my heart. like the way im ignoring nct and ateez these days just to drool over Heesung...I love that man so much...ig I stan this group a little bit tho (i dont stan hybe grps except txt but ig Enhypen holds a special place) you can say Heesung is my bias.

Ik I am a nct and ateez writer but I still want to write fics on Heesung and Jay...how I wish to write a threesome on them and then a fivesome with adding Jake n Sunghoon...I have a plot but ig I dont know if I should. Yesterday night I watched so many of their fancams like yes YES I STAN THEM.

Sunoo and Niki are my sons and I will baby them forever. I remember how I babied Jungwon during i-land. moreover I dont have engene friends so idk with whom to share my thoughts.

FRIENDS!? Chapter 15

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Series ML

Pairing: poly!ateez × f!reader (An ATEEZ Office AU)

Genre: Mature, Angst, Yandere

Warning: mention of memories (nothing much just go with the flow), mention of hostage and crying, fear and nightmares.

W.C: 3.4k Network: @k-vanity

[Reblogs and Reviews are always appreciated. Thank you for reading and have a nice day ahead. Please always take care of yourself everyone.]

Hello, Can we be friends please?

"you are crazy!" you yelled at Mingi.

"yeah, of course that crazy you is you." He yelled and raised an accusing finger at you.

The others were chuckling at your silly behavior. They were watching your existence freely as if they won the trophy for their game. You are happy and comfortably joking around with them. Some started to wonder if this is the last day seeing you so happy and lively around them.

This thought is ridiculous.

Hongjoong took a sip of his soda and watched you and Mingi fooling around on the terrace. A little smile appears on his face that you were happy as their friend --- their lover. You are not a hostage and crying but you are happy.

What happened to you in the last year of your high school?

No matter how curious they are, they didn't ask about that since they know it's better to know when all the past will be laid before their eyes once again. They should not deny that they don't get reminded of it every day.

When you are smiling at them with hope and purity in your eyes, they are smiling to hide the wild and danger behind their eyes.

Yunho was smiling at you both while leaning against the railing. He was busy memorizing your habits and he couldn't help but...fall deeper. His eyes followed your small movements, your every action and change in expression while interacting with each one of them.

He was comparing it with the past you. Still the same. As if he was knowing you all over again. And he swore this time, he wont mess it up again. He loves your everything but like everyone else...his heart aches to see you cry. It shouldn't happen.

"you know you are staring at her very obviously." Seonghwa placed himself beside Hongjoong and chuckled in your direction with admiration in his eyes.

"is there a problem? Jealous?" Hongjoong asked and rolled his eyes before watching Wooyoung engulfed you in a back hug and lifted you up from your feet to spin you around.

Seonghwa laughed lightly, "no one can be jealous more than you. Also, I am loving the days with her."

Hongjoong licked his lip, "everything is so nice. She is happy with us and trusts us. I want this to stay like this forever."

"and what if everything goes up and down?" the third voice appeared from behind. San had a cold stare at them. He stepped forward, "how will you explain yourself to her? She won't forgive the selfishness."

"San...why do you think so?" Seonghwa eyed the younger boy and noticed his tiredness. "didn't you sleep last night?"

San glanced at him and shook his head. How could he? He was thinking a lot these days. The thoughts running inside his head were different from each other but all surrounding one main subject.

It's you.

He can't let you out of his mind and it's frustrating him more every day.

"why didn't you sleep?" Seonghwa asked for the third time but when he turned his gaze towards San then he noticed. The latter was staring at you not coldly or with anger but he was having a soft smile on his face. But one more thing to notice, there was sadness in his eyes. The eldest didn't question him further. He understood the situation and got his own answer to it.

He watched you again --- he loves you and he will prove it to you.

"Jongho, do we have any plan-"

"are you guys always this boring? Come on. Let's play." Your voice caught the rest of their attention. The ones who were sitting and talking among themselves and admiring you.

Hongjoong tilted his head, "does this building look like a playground to you?"

They all were looking at you as if you had done something wrong but he pulled on you on his lap, earning a yelp from you and he hugged you tighter while laughing at your confused face.

"don't you guys get bored with always talking about work related stuff and meetings?" You shake your head when you remember the paper works you have the next day. Why don't the holidays last long?

Hongjoong kissed your cheek, your breath hitched at his sudden action. You looked down at your lap, avoiding other's gaze. Your cheeks heated up and you shifted in your place. You bit your lips when he placed his palm over your thigh.

"what do you want to do now?" he asked you in a whisper.

The boys eyed you in surprise. You were not avoiding him and feeling scared but relaxing and feeling comfortable on his lap. That was an unbelievable sight for them.

But the situation made them remember something clearly.

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"what should we do today?" You announced, standing in the middle of the space inside the warehouse.

Yeosang gave you a glass of water, "drink it. you have a lot to say every time so soak your throat."

You glared at him but obeyed him soon after.

"So, as I was saying- whoa wait." Hongjoong pulled your hand to make you sit on his lap. He hugged you and laughed with others, "you say a lot. But yeah, let's go to the amusement park today. I hope the man won't make a scene. He will allow you right?"

You nodded and others sighed in relief. You smiled widely, "of course. He will. Afterall, I trust you all and I can manage if he says something that I'm not safe out there and all. Don't worry. He just cares for me a lot."

San scoffed in the corner. You casted a glance at him but ignored his unusual behavior.

Hongjoong turned your face by your chin, placing a kiss on your cheek, "you don't have to stay there longer. We will come get you out of there and stay together."

And you trusted his words.

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So you are trusting him like that again.

You clasped your hand and shifted on his lap, "I want all of us to enjoy. You all are always busy and tired but let's be free and hangout like some teenagers."

"but we aren't teenagers." Mingi said.

You rolled your eyes, "even if we aren't, we can be just to let loose."

Mingi nodded and placed a fry inside his mouth when Jongho spoke up, "we are hanging out. We love to see you having fun."

"I want all of us to have fun together."

Wooyoung excitedly comes in front of the group sitting, "look, y/n. the flower has bloomed today. Just pretty like you."

You saw him holding the small pot in his hand just to show you the flower.

"you could have asked me to come with you. Why bring the pot here?"

Hongjoong rubbed your arms, "don't you feel tired after running around the whole day with Mingi and Jongho? It's better not to walk you around anymore."

"atleast I know how to keep my body fit unlike you all turning old before the age."

He grabbed your jaw and stared at you, "do I look old?"

You gulped, not meeting his gaze. "look at me." your eyes returned to his face, this godly visual is insane. "how do I look?"

Licking your lips and overwhelmed with all the attention, you hid your face behind your palm and whined loudly, "okay, you all look handsome. Now shut up, please."

They all laughed loudly at you and Hongjoong ruffle your hair.

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"where is y/n?" Yeosang asked loudly when he opened the cabin door of the meeting room. There were already some managers, Hongjoong and Seonghwa were discussing some topics with Mingi and San beside them, keenly listening to them. His sudden appearance visibly disturbed the serious atmosphere.

San spoke up before anyone else could, "of course, in her room. Sleeping late again."

"she is not there and neither in her cabin."

Now that catches all four of their attention.

Did you run away?

No, why will you? You are enjoying it here and there's no reason for you to do that.

Did you remember everything?

"Have you asked others?" Mingi asked in worry.

Yeosang nodded, "but Yunho and Wooyoung have not been here since morning. Jongho hasn't seen her because he was busy." His words made their minds restless and even if they wanted to go out and search for you, the meeting was important as well.

"Have you checked the C.C.T.V.? I guess it will help us in some ways." Hongjoong proposed the idea and noticed the change in expression on the younger boy. The latter nodded before leaving the cabin and went towards his own to access the data of all the cameras.

Even though the meeting lasted for thirty more meetings, their minds were off to many places but that meeting. As if they felt it was going on for an eternity. Soon after the dismissal of the meeting, they almost ran towards your room and then to Yeosang's cabin. Unfortunately, you were not in sight.

"did you find anything?" Seonghwa asked as soon as he stepped inside the younger's cabin. There were two screens with all the clips from the camera displaying in front of their eyes.

"she hasn't left her room since morning. I saw Yunho entering her room before leaving for the day and he immediately came out and then looked around. I think he was trying to catch sight of her because she was not inside." He brushed his hairs in frustration.

Mingi bit his lips and urged him to move aside, "let me quickly check something."

"Hongjoong, we have one more schedule later in a while. We have to go there. And Mingi, you need to be present there as this deal would be concerning your opinions." Seonghwa's voice earned nods from them but their eyes were focused on what Mingi was typing.

"what are you doing on my computer?" Mingi ignored Yeosang's glare and protests.

The screen suddenly showed your figure leaving the room late at night.

"there she is..." Mingi whispered and curiously watched your actions. He played the footages of yesterday night from a particular time after the late return of the members.

You were weakly standing at the doorway of your room and looked to your side, towards the main door of the area. Suddenly, you sat on the floor, holding your head and waited there for a few minutes and again stood up and walked towards Seonghwa's room. Staring at the door, you raised your hand but didn't knock and stepped away and approached Yunho's room and again you did the same thing.

What were you doing?

"is she sleep walking?" Hongjoong asked curiously.

Yeosang shook his head, "it doesn't seem so."

Then they noticed you going towards the terrace and sat on the couch while hugging your knees close to the chest and resting your head on top of it. they forwarded the clip until you stood up and walked towards the elevator. Waiting there for a few minutes, you pressed the button and soon after the door slid open for you and you entered. They waited for you to arrive in front of all the cameras in front of the elevator of floors but none of them showed.

"Don't tell me, she disappeared into thin air inside the elevator." Mingi scoffed at the screen with his own ridiculous thoughts.

"we will be late for the meeting, Hongjoong." Seonghwa checked his wrist watch and tapped his boot against the marbled floor, getting anxious without getting sight of you.

"you should go to the meeting. I think I know which place we are missing." The one who was silent all these times finally spoke up. Everyone turned towards San who was poking his cheek with his tongue while staring at the screen. When he met their gaze, he rolled his eyes, stepping back, "don't forget we don't have any camera for the top floor and rooftop so she must be there and you all should know the reason for her being there."

He stepped towards the door in a hurry.

"where are you going?" Yeosang suddenly asked and the latter halted in his steps, his hand hovering over the handle of the door. He gulped and stared at the floor, fighting his own will and thoughts. Earlier, he was determined with his own decision but after the question, he was hesitating with something.

"you all are busy......I am going to find her there."

He didn't wait for a second longer to hear any of them speak anything more. All of them stared at the door from where he left but Hongjoong smirked at a sudden thought.

Don't deny the feelings, San.

You want to compensate for what you have done.

.

.

.

Now, what exactly happened to you?

Last night you were sleeping, you woke up feeling extra sweaty and the nightmares didn't help your condition. You were feeling tired and exhausted after waking up and the dark surrounding made you feel suffocated. Rolling over to your either side, not long after you stood up from the bed and decided to leave the room.

First, you wanted to share it with Seonghwa because he is always there to listen to you if you are disturbed or scared of something. But you didn't want to disturb him, knowing he has a meeting early in the morning and Hongjoong will also be there so you left them aside. You didn't want to go to Jongho and Mingi's room because they were already busy the whole day and got off work late at night and then there's Wooyoung and Yeosang who were discussing about the meeting for the next day because Yeosang had to prepare a presentation so the only option left to you was Yunho even when you had to pass by San's room.

Not in a sane mind, you are going to knock at his door.

But when you stood in front of Yunho's door, a sudden place came to your mind where it would be alright and you can relax and clean your mind of unwanted thoughts at the moment.

The lounge area.

Pulling your body with heavy and slow steps, you arrived in front of the elevator. You can't go out in the streets without their permission because last time, you went out. Hongjoong scolded you for an hour in his room and Seonghwa added the possible danger out there. They just think that you can't take care of yourself alone.

You pressed the top floor button and waited for your floor to arrive.

As you arrived there, you looked around the silent place, illuminated by the fancy lights all around and the shiny floors reflecting it with the luxury furniture and items in every corner.

The four guards of the place asked you about you having any problem or not but you just assured them of nothing. Certainly, they won't deny your access to the place because you are their bosses' special girl. They believe you are something to them but none of them would dare to ask this to anyone. So, they kept their assumptions to themselves.

Approaching the terrace, you crouched in the middle of the couch and hugged your body and not caring about anything, you fell asleep in that position slowly.

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.

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"has she left this floor?" San sternly asked the guards and they shook their heads, confirming about your presence still somewhere there.

Without speaking anything further, he straightway went to the couch and there you were still sleeping, lying on the couch in an uncomfortable position. Staring at you for a while, his slow steps made him approach you.

"y/n. get up."

You gave him no reply. Your face was hidden with your arms and hair and he could see your top and shorts rolled up, revealing skin more than it should. He extended his hand to shake your body when you mumbled something. Hesitatingly, he crouched down beside your head and leaned down to listen to you.

"what are you saying?"

Again you mumbled distortedly, but this time he made a few words, "don't want to go down...sleep...please...feel tired."

He licked his lips, not knowing what to do at the current situation but he removed your hair from your face and adjusted your clothes. Then only he noticed, the tear stained face and exhausted look on your face. His hand involuntarily moved up to your face to feel your pain against his fingertips. You were crying last night and your body is heated. You are having a fever. His cold fingers touched your warm forehead and neck and he confirmed that you were sick.

This is not you, San. You should never be like this.

San, You know and you realize that you have seen her cry in front of you a lot but you don't care about it.

He caressed your head and cheek, his cold touch against your heated skin was magic to you. You hummed and leaned to his touch.

"lets get you to your room." He whispered and you shook your head sleepily before burying your face into his hand.

He was definite that you were not expecting him talking to you but someone else but he didn't want to scare you when you were sick. He pulled his hand, noticing your whines and stood up straight. Placing a hand below your knees and another below your neck, he pulled you up from the couch and adjusted you in his arms. Leaning your head against his shoulder blades, he softly kissed your head.

"you don't have to go to work today."

You clutched his black t-shirt in your fist, your hot breaths made his steps quick. Your burning body in his hand makes him realize you need medication quickly.

He was carrying you in his arms and mentally he was battling to call Yunho or Wooyoung or anyone else to help you in this condition but he didn't. arriving at their floor, he straightway went towards your room and informed no one. But he noticed a figure standing in front of the door of your room.

"Yeosang..."

"I'm going out right now." He glanced at your sleeping figure in his hand, "I'm glad she is comfortable with you."

"she doesn't know it's me." San smirked but the latter just kept staring at you.

"take care of her." And Yeosang left him there standing in confusion. Did he want to say something?

He stepped inside your room. Placing you on the bed, he went to the drawers to search for the medicines when a certain showpiece fell from the table by his elbow. He cursed and watched you groaning at the sound and waking up.

He put the fallen item back to its place and went towards you with the medicine.

"come on, y/n. take this and then freshen up." He extended a water bottle from the nightstand.

Your eyelids parted slowly and you blinked a few times, "San..."

"it's me. take this and then speak."

He helped you to sit up when he noticed your weakness. Your head was spinning and didn't want to move your body much. Gulping down the medicine, you stared at him.

"what's the time?"

"it's noon already. You don't have to go to work."

"um..San...I was on the top floor...when did I come here? How?"

He looked away before replying, "I brought you here. You don't have to work today, I'll order someone to bring your food to your room. Take rest...I know past these days the work pressure was too much for you."

You didn't reply but was shocked that he was speaking to you. He was standing in person in front of you and his aura is not that scary like always but welcoming and relaxing.

"is anyone free right now?"

He shook his head, "none except me."

"so, can you stay here with me? I—I don't want to be alone. i...it's like..." you were trying hard to make a reasonable sentence but you were failing miserably when he suddenly spoke up making you shut in surprise. You were totally not expecting that.

"I'll stay with you."

San...you are doing wrong again. You have already done wrong once but this is also not right.

You hate her.

"I'll be quick with the shower." He held your hand when you stood up and as you closed the door of the bathroom, he kept staring at it and sat on the bed, leaning against the headboard.

"what's wrong with you, San? She is a lonely and good girl. Then why?"

She was always an innocent little girl...a pretty one. Still you all played with her innocence.

The images from past flashes in front of his eyes. He gripped the bedsheet tightly and his clenched jaw with anger in himself was visible.

He was lost in thought when your voice bloomed again, "thanks...I thought you left..it was so silent out here."

At first he thought he was imagining your sweet voice in his memories but it was you standing in front of him. smiling and thanking him for being there for her. You were relaxing around him and you were comfortably brushing your hair, not crying and scared.

"Come here, y/n."

You blinked at his extended hand and stepped slowly towards him. He pulled you on his lap, adjusting you and comfortably placing you between his legs, "are you scared of me?"

You licked your lips and slowly nodded.

"please don't be. I am just like them." Yeah, I did wrong like them. But the most. "we are friends too." He placed your head against his chest and surprisingly, you were relaxing, "it's hard for me to watch you treat others differently and feel scared of me."

Please don't make it hard for me, y/n.

"If you treat me like this, I won't feel scared of you."

He nodded on top of you, "give me a chance to prove myself, y/n. I promise you. I won't disappoint you."

"why you sound like you are regretting something?"

"coz I am...I mean please...stay like this...with me...I want to make you smile." He planted a kiss on the crown of your head, "I want to see your smile."

Your breath was heaving with each word and every action, but your eyes were also closing slowly. His words and voice were so soothing and comforting.

"I'm sorry, y/n."

He looked down at you but you were already asleep.

Will you forgive me after knowing everything?

NEXT

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My love for him is to extremes and I don’t know if I would be able to meet him any day or not but I just want to say I love him so much…I am his wife tho and you have to accept this reality…

FRIENDS!? Chapter 12

🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳🔳

Series ML

Pairing: poly!ateez × f!reader (An ATEEZ Office AU)

Genre: Mature, Angst, Yandere

Warning: mention of memories (nothing much just go with the flow), mention of hostage and crying, fear.

W.C: 3.4k Network: @k-vanity

[Reblogs and Reviews are always appreciated. Thank you for reading and have a nice day ahead. Please always take care of yourself everyone.]

Hello, Can we be friends please?

>.<

Enjoy!

This is insane.

You just wished nobody could see you at the moment. Wooyoung was determined with his actions and you were embarrassed.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" Wooyoung widened his eyes at you and looked at the chopstick in his hand. Your glaring eyes earned chuckles from Jongho. The one holding the food to your front lips curled into a smirk, "oh...are you embarrassed with this?"

You helplessly let your head hang, completely regretting agreeing with their company at the cafeteria. The moment you lifted your head up, he brought the chopstick near to your lips and his eyes shining with hope.

You quickly looked away and pleaded with Jongho to make the other one stop with his weird actions but the youngest just laughed it off and moved your face to the direction of food and urged you to eat.

"You could have eaten it by now and made it less embarrassing for you. He won't let it down unless you listen to him."

"Say ah!"

"I am not a baby. I can eat on my own, Woo."

He shook his head and gestured towards the food, "my hand is paining now. Come on, take a bite. It's good that we are treating you like this." You glared at him and he only replied to you with an annoying chuckle.

"Do you want to sleep on my lap and eat?"

"shut up, Wooyoung!" you hissed and sighed before parting your lips slowly, letting him feed you like a baby and give a show to the whole cafeteria. This boy is really testing your patience level everyday. Moreover, he can't be anyone from your nightmares.

Jongho sipped his drink after gulping the food, "you are embarrassed because he is feeding you. Right?"

Absentmindedly, you nodded, having a glaring contest with the other one who is busy feeding you. You couldn't do anything at the moment. It might be childish but you three have paper works later in the afternoon and Wooyoung suggested playing rock, paper and scissor to see who could skip for the day and the one who will win has to be fed by others as reward. As much as it was funny and silly to you at first, it soon turned into a torturous situation when you won the game against the two.

As much as you were relieved to skip paperworks, you were trapped with these two.

Never in your life, you felt so unlucky to win a game.

Wooyoung placed the last bite of the food in your mouth and you chewed silently while looking around the area. You noticed the few people sitting far from you giving you looks and whispering among themselves and you know the reason. 

"don't mind them." Jongho assured you.

Sinking in your seat, you glanced at the laughing menaces at your table and again looked away when you caught others entering the glass door.

What are they all doing here? Don't they have work?

They were all wearing sweatpants and black shirts, some white and then gray, except Seonghwa, he was in a suit but he smirked when he caught your eyes and pulled off his coat. They are in casuals here...right now?

Gulping the bite in your mouth, you quickly stood up, catching the attention of Jongho and Wooyoung.

"what happened?" Jongho was the first one to ask and followed by Wooyoung who quickly noticed the men in the distance. He leaned back into his chair and placed it behind his head. You want to slap him so bad.

"I should probably go to my room."

"and why?"

You shut your eyes tight before forcing a smile and turning around, "uh Hongjoong...I am going to go through your schedules for the next week." Glancing at others meanwhile, the cafeteria was unusually quiet because everyone was wondering why all the CEO's of the departments were at his public place and in addition, wearing casual clothes.

Oh, how they are speculating that you are really playing with all of them!

"I don't think that's needed. Also, you can do it in my cabin later." Patting your head and pushing your shoulders down to make you sit back, he stood behind you.

You managed to look at him in the back, "but why are you all here?"

Hongjoong turned around to face the rest of the cafeteria and announced, "I want everyone to get back to the work, right now. finish your lunch at somewhere else or quickly in 5 minutes and then leave. I want this place empty."

Seonghwa chuckled, sitting beside Wooyoung and resting his elbow on the table. The only one looking decent at the moment. "why? Do you not like us being here?"

Forcing out a laugh, you brushed back your hair, "when I said that? I just asked you out of curiosity as you all don't come to this cafeteria except the private one so..." you shrugged in the end.

San and Mingi went towards the counter to order something for them. Yunho was on a call in the corner and Yeosang was at the drinks section, selecting their orders.

Your eyes went wide when Hongjoong leaned closer to your ears from back and whispered, "we are here for you."

You coughed and quickly took your drink in hold to sip and act normal. Does he need to do this type of act every time he is near? The other three at the table laughed loudly and Jongho pulled a chair so that Hongjoong could sit in between him and yours. Can't he have another place?

"We are stressed so we thought why not accompany our girl." Seonghwa said and glanced towards Yunho who was still busy on a call. You nodded and he continued, "also, we could let others know that you are ours."

"your friend...I am your friend." You licked your lips, "we agreed to take it slow and till then we can bond as friends."

"Yes, of course we are friends. What more do we want?" Jongho smiled at your direction and you felt relieved but the thing you didn't notice was the looks exchanged between the two eldest and both of them turning towards Wooyoung who stopped eating the chicken in his hand.

What more do we want?

Lot more than you can expect.

The rest of them soon arrived at the table and placed the trays. The table was too small to fit nine of you and you were finding a more valid excuse to escape their curious eyes. Why do they all suddenly want to spend time with you at this certain place?

"before your mind explodes with question," you quickly looked towards Hongjoong when he started speaking, "we never spent time at this place so we thought to explore our own building while being with you at the same time."

How funny! They don't come to most of the floors in their own building.

"Why are you always so nervous?" San's voice made you flinch and this did get noticed by others.

You didn't speak a word, staring at him as if you saw him for the first time. Also, he was sitting just in the opposite direction from you. Hongjoong noticed your nervousness, the little fear for which you were fisting your palm.

Why are you acting like that?

"Is there something that happened between you two?" Seonghwa broke your trance, he did notice the little fear in your eyes. You shook your head but San leaned back and smirked.

"I think someone is curious. Isn't it, y/n?"

He is speaking to you. Act normal, y/n. you nodded but quickly shook your head, licking your lips, "no, it's not like that." You felt all of their eyes on you and you gulped, "you just don't talk to me much like others."

"So you want to talk to me?"

"huh? No...I mean...we can be friends, right? Like we were."

San kept quiet, his jaw tensed and he gripped the spoon tightly. He didn't look back at you, but opened the can and gulped down the soda. He was trying to doze off the question for some reason and he was hesitant that if the conversation flowed more, it would lead to some direction where it shouldn't.

You kept staring at him when Yeosang called you, "y/n." you raised your brows before turning towards the voice. He asked, "Does the food taste good?"

You looked at him weirdly before nodding slowly.

"really? Is it really good?" Mingi asked again. You nodded and Hongjoong chuckled beside you before taking a fry from Seonghwa's plate.

"This tastes like shit, though."

"try to appreciate every food. Also, this cafeteria is inside your building so if something is wrong with it, it means it is your fault as well for not maintaining everything properly."

Hongjoong raised a brow, impressed by your words, "so you're telling me? we are good because the food taste good?"

You turned away and Yunho asked the same question, "are we good then?"

You breathed out, looking at them precisely and suddenly smiled, "we are good friends so it's obvious you all are good."

y/n... why are you repeating everything again?

>>>><<<<

You were sitting quiet and uneasy.

"You seemed troubled," a voice broke the silent atmosphere. "What's bothering you?"

"Seonghwa..."

"I'm not here to hurt you. Just tell me if you want to ask something." He was serious when he took a seat beside you, the couch in the terrace was long enough to fit four people easily and you hated it at the moment for having so much space. "Come on, y/n."

You sighed since you had no energy to stand up and leave the place, this is the only place where you could breathe a little freedom. Clearing your throat, you turned to look at him, "I am just wondering..."

"what?"

"they sell off their own child for money or for something else...like business? Without even thinking if the child would get hurt or not."

"Why are you thinking this?" his attention was you. "Do you really want answers to your questions or are you just curious?"

You laid your head back on the couch. Honestly, you were curious about a lot of stuff and also wanted answers to a lot of questions. After knowing that you were sell off from your home to them, you were anxious to know. Why did your parents do that? You wanted to get rid of that question but your instincts kept knocking at you and you hated it.

"what happened, y/n?"

"I'm not sure what to think, Hwa." His ears perked up. You called him by his name...no but his nickname. "you all made me trust you. You all promised me and kept me here. Made me stay with you all..." you locked your eyes with him, "why are you all doing this?"

"because we love you, y/n. we can't afford to lose you."

You scoffed, looking up at the sky, wishing to be those clouds flying in the wide sky, "you don't love me. This is not love. No one hurts when they love someone. And you all hurt me."

You felt his palm over your cheek. You were crying and he wiped off the tears, "y/n...please don't make it hard for us. We love you. It's just you trying to run away and we had to do that to keep you here."

You closed your eyes, holding his wrist tightly, "then don't show me kindness now. Please, don't make it hard for me too. I want to go away...far from here. Somewhere...where I will be free. Please."

"y/n..."

You lifted yourself up, turning your whole body and scooted closer to him, holding his hand and crying in his touch, "please, Hwa. Please...please let me go. I promise...I will give you everything that you want. Whatever you need, I will get it for you but I don't want to stay here."

He shook his head, tears slightly visible but he cleared his throat to act normal, "but I want you, y/n."

"No! don't do this. I know this is crazy but even if I try to hate you then suddenly some of you make me fall for you all over again. But I know this is wrong. This is not how it is supposed to be. I am a bait and you all are the owners and my family owe you something. Right?"

"No, y/n. it's not like that. We love you and you love us. We are just trying to protect you. We want to keep you safe with us."

The same words. The same expressions and feelings. You are tired of this.

"It's better you all kill me."

This is not love, Seonghwa. He knows that very clearly and still he believed that he did nothing wrong. And it's not only that but they all know the truth is.

The obsession.

You removed his hands harshly from you and stood up. He didn't say anything, just his eyes followed your movements. Your knee bumped to the table's corner, you hissed at the pain but didn't stop and ran towards the stairs. Two figures watching the television in the huge living room, soon turned their head towards your running figure at the stairs.

"y/n, don't run. You will hurt yourself.." Mingi's voice echoed in the hall but you cared about it as if nothing and ran fast up the stairs.

Jongho patted his shoulder and sighed, "she hates us."

Mingi shook his head, "I don't think so. She is just afraid but she does not hate us."

"You are just trying to convince yourself."

They all are just convincing themselves and you.

.

.

.

"I hate you...I hate my life."

I hate myself like this.

You felt like crying and punching something until everything disappeared in front of you. You looked away from the wall, tears spilling down your cheeks and felt like puking because of the weird smell of the place. Bringing your knees close to the chest, you rested your head on top of it, breaths heaving and vision going blurry. Your head was spinning and thick sweats on your face.

Am I going to die now?

"Hongjoong, we have a problem." Yunho was furious and dashed into the cabin room of the house.

"what?"

Patting San to make him stand up and the latter was visibly annoyed, he replied, "I can't find, y/n. she is nowhere."

Hongjoong massaged his temple, "what do you mean you can't find her? She is somewhere in the house."

"No! she is nowhere."

San scoffed, "if she tried to run away then the guards would have informed us."

The boys weren't worried that you'll get to escape out of the mansion since there were security precautions and guards. But where were you?

You were somewhere with your thoughts --- why it's happening and why are they the ones hurting you like this?

You hated the boys but still you couldn't.

"Then where is she?" Hongjoong slammed the table and stood up, glaring at Yunho. "don't tell me, you helped her to escape and are now making a scene in front of me."

Yunho glared back, "you know damn well that I would never do that."

In the middle of the commotion, Wooyoung threw a file on the table and gestured to Yeosang to keep it on the shelf, "I think I know where she is."

"And, where do you think, Woo?"

A metal door opened, dim lights peeking, leaving the corners dark. The rusty smell and the suffocating atmosphere made San scrunch his nose in disgust, "why are we here?"

His question was answered by Wooyoung calling out your name, "y/n?"

You were laying on the floor, back towards them. You were neither moving or even flinched to the sudden voice. There was not a single sound from you. Hongjoong repeated your name again and still the same response.

Silence.

Before anyone could do anything, Wooyoung stepped forward, blinking and licking his lips, "y/n..." he softly whispered your name before squatting down. He then heard you silently sobbing, clutching a paper in your palm.

Hongjoong stopped Yeosang and signalled him to keep quiet and gestured for him and the other three to move closer to where Wooyoung was sitting. Seonghwa and Yunho quickly approached them but San stood at the doorway, leaning against the door and staring at your lying figure.

Yeosang took the paper when it fell from your grip.

it was you smiling brightly at the camera with eight of them teasing you in school uniform.

"come here, y/n. it's okay." He pulled your limp figure off the floor and brought to his lap, resting your head to his chest and hesitatingly caressed your head. The ones standing near you peaked at your face while the younger one was rocking you. Surprisingly, your weak hands fist Wooyoung's black shirt.

"I'm tired..." they heard your whispers.

Your eyes were closed, your lips were shaking, your eyelashes heavy with stained tears. You are hurt. You were crying. They made you cry. They hurt you.

They gulped and stared at your face.

"No one is going to hurt you, y/n."

No one else.

But they will.

Again.

>>>><<<<

You were sleeping on your arms, resting on the table inside Yeosang's cabin. He sighed before removing strands of hair off from your face. You looked so peaceful and beautiful. You are so innocent and naïve. "I don't know why I did that. I don't know why I'm doing this."

"You know the answer, Yeo."

He looked towards the voice. San stepped inside the cabin with three coffees in his hand.

"we did wrong."

San sat on the other side of you, staring at your sleeping figure, "and we are still doing wrong, Yeosang."

"We have changed."

"no. we haven't." San nodded to himself, "the things we did and we are doing. Its selfish. Although, we had a reason back then, but what about now?"

"She is ours. We can't let her go away."

San sighed, "I don't know how she will react to everything she remembers. Why are we letting her remember everything? It was good that she forgot about us."

Yeosang caressed your head before replying to him, "to know what happened that year when she left us."

You softly groaned and eyes slowly parted, the two beside you stopped their conversation.

"oh gosh! I was sleeping here and you didn't wake me up." You quickly straighten up and brush back your hairs, yet to notice the other presence on your other side.

"It's okay. You looked so peaceful that I couldn't wake you up."

You both smiled at each other when San Spoke up, making your eyes go wide and you turned to your side. He was sitting near to you, so close to you. He noticed you and leaned forward, "how was your sleep during working hours?"

"I'm sorry..."

He raised his hand and you flinched. He licked his lips at your reaction. Was he guilty about something? He shook his head, making you confused, "it's okay. We don't have anything more today."

You hummed, curiously watching him.

"Do you want to go to the rooftop?" San asked.

Yeosang added, "yeah, shall we? Let's spend some time apart from work."

You chuckled, "you are spoiling me."

"and we love to spoil our girl."

San rolled his eyes before standing up and grabbing your hand.

"Let's go before the sunset."

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.

.

Three of you stood leaning against the railing, enjoying the view in front from the rooftop. There were no words, just soft smiles, hesitation, curiosity and mysteries. Yeosang's eyes landed onto his side when he noticed San was staring at you already. San's hand raised up to pat your head when he halted because you quickly turned towards Yeosang and spoke up.

He curled his fingers and looked straight towards the city.

"Do you want to go on a trip?"

"a trip?"

You nodded, "yes. To our old hometown where we can enjoy childhood again. To know us more...again."

He licked his lips and glanced at San, who didn't look at his direction but closed his eyes before sighing. Yeosang smiled and nodded, "it's......great. We should plan for it, someday."

"How's the view?" San asked.

You quickly turned around and surprisingly you were smiling. You looked straight towards the city and nodded, "it's beautiful. I come here often with Yunho and Wooyoung because I feel so relieved here."

"You always like the skies. You feel connected to it."

"really? Why?" you were surprised that it was San who was saying so much.

His gaze fell on you, "you feel free and safe."

"That's true. I really feel like that." You looked towards the view of the sun setting and smiled widely.

Both of them stared at you.

Hope and guilt knocking at their heart.

"I have everything and I am safe here with you all."

No, y/n.

You are trapped in an obsession.

The obsession of love...started with friendship and protection.

NEXT

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PREVIOUSLY I USED TO WRITE ONLY FOR ATEEZ AND NCT...and sometimes occasionally on EXO but I want to make some changes.

SO I have a recent obsession and thats on ENHYPEN.

So I have decided to open my asks for ENHYPEN HYUNG LINE...I wont write for maknae line coz they are younger than me and too sweet to write something dark on them but I would definitely mention them in other fics.