Nobody Will Read This But...

Nobody will read this but...

I have so much work to do.  I’m so overwhelmed.  I can’t sleep.  I’ve only taken two finals and I still have 6 more and I have so many final projects due friday and I have to work.  I am so STRESSED OUT.  My brain is tired.  My body is tried and I’m surviving on adderall and pepsi.  I’m dying on the inside too becaus eI know it’s my fault.  this is what I get for procrastinating.  but thats how i deal with my probelems by avoiding them and then they come back to bite me worse.  so yeah

just if i don’t show up for a few days, you know i died.  thank you much.

don’t ever take 24 credits. you will regret it

I’m so exhausted with trying to be happy.  I’m tired of trying.  I’m just tired.

Does anyone out there get scared when they start to see improvement in their mental illnesses?

Like, I’ve been dealing with mental illness for a long time and I finally got to a point where my medication and treatment and everything actual seems like it’s working. I feel better than I’ve felt in a long long time. I still have my bad days, but overall things are better.

I should be stoked. And I’m a way, I am. But at the same time it’s scary to not have my mental illnesses and all the symptoms that come along with them as a way of protecting me??? It’s hard to explain. But it’s almost become comfortable for me to be caught up in my symptoms. Now, it’s uncharted territory. It’s scary.

Just curious if anyone else has ever experienced this?

I’m gonna do it...

I’ll take requests.

I love to write! I’ll take requests! Do it. Ask me. I dare you.

Of course, school comes first. And work. But after that...

If I don’t know the character, I’ll do my best or maybe ask you to pick someone else, but I know most all the people so :) lol

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