Alternatives To I Want To Die:

alternatives to “i want to die”:

i want things to change

i want a different life

today was a shitty day/week

i don’t want to live like this

i want to be somewhere else in life

i’m not where i want to be yet

+ much more

I'll probably post a drawing of all the guards or something like that today. I also gotta make another drawing for the pinned post, I don't like to have my old knowledge of the style up there(?) ah, idk i think it's better to have an upgraded version.

I'm so excited for the halloween ask special WIWIIWIWI btw, asks that have been sent after i closed the asks will not be answered until i open the asks again because you know... THEY'RE CLOSED, i have to answer the old ones, the ones I'm answering rn like the Mike and Toy chica one (Lol xD) are old, they been sitting there for days. I would prefer people not sending asks if my pinned post says "closed" since u know, I can't answer them rn. I just have my ask box up there still in case anyone wants to talk to me or ask something like idk... "What ya your pronouns??" Or idk "how do you study this? How much time have you been drawing?" (No one asked that but it would be cute, i love answering art questions, i love helping people to get the best of their art out there and improve jsjs) :p

AHHH i just wanna draw all day MAN I WANT TO DRAW ALL DAYY. "I LOVE ART CHARLIE, I LOVE AAAARRRTTT" I don't wanna get out of bed tho <\3 i guess im gonna draw at night or maybe tomorrow. I'm also really glad people are enjoying my art, i haven't been in public posting for years, i only show art to my mutuals and friends so seeing how much people are still into this au and wanting to see art about it (mostly purplephone and silly things from the 2010s) makes me so happy tbh, it's amazing, i already have almost 200 followers tf?! That's really something-- thanks a lot. Sorry if i sound like a crazy person when writing on my "diary/blog" sometimes i just write what comes to my mind and sometimes i really repeat myself since idk... That's just how it is(?) the only thing in my mind is drawing and this au jsjs i hope that's not annoying because i have tons of enthusiasm to share and you can't scape it unless you block me :))

I been thinking a lot about animation too, i thought that maybe one day i can sit down on my desk and start learning animation again, i used to be really good at animation as a kid but now i just don't have the "strength" to do it as i used to. I thought i could make some simple night guards animations, maybe showing some expressions or something like that or doing simple interactions with each other.

Playing postal 2 for the first time rn, im having so much fun tbh JAKAKKAN

I use my art to cope with a lot of things, don't talk or put words in my mouth. My god, i just had the most horrible invalidating conversation ever, im not going to say what was it about since it's very personal but ... Just don't act like we all have perfect coping mechanisms. I draw rebornica fnaf art and i have my own hc and thoughts about the characters that are like that because it's my childhood dream and my coping mechanism. Tf. I feel like im talking to the nothing idk what i am doing here.

I'm talking with my best friend, trying to calm myself but... Just don't talk about someone if you don't know what they been through. Wtf. My god.

Vincent has been my comfort character from the day i put my eyes on him, the same goes for the rest. My own trauma, problems, etc isn't your business... You know why? Because it's MY OWN things.

quick spideypoolverine.

Translation:

Pg: i hope you don't start moving like crazy while you sleep tonight.

Vincent: I can't promise anything.

[Day off. 3 AM. They stayed up late watching movies at Vincent's apartment]

Doodles, sketches and practice :p

I'm still wondering what the perfect warm up is for this style, i mostly do spirals, boxes and other random figures before starting a drawing and it's quick but it seems like it takes me like 5 or 10 minutes to warm up for now in this style, the time got shorter tho, i think before it was worst but now it's better. It really makes me wonder with amazement how animators can replicate styles so well. I started making notes for myself today to keep in mind the 'do and dont' of the style, because rebornica isn't an animator with a big ahh animated series we can't get a simple book with what to do and what you shouldn't when drawing the style. I MAYYYYY post the Do and Don't guide when i get comfortable with the style but i maybe just gonna gatekeep it muahahhah- ejem...

I been studying this style in a serious manner for like a month or 4 weeks?? Something like that sjjs, with references and stuff like that. I like sharing this journey with y'all, it's pretty cool coming back to my childhood this way. I'll be answering some asks before october since i gotta make a halloween special + a little surprise i been thinking about lately ;3 i hope i can get over my fear of failing, of making new art about the guards in this style because i feel like im not good enough yet but i know I'll be able to overcome this fear soon.