This Is Actually Me. I Couldnt Have Said Any Of This Better Than Myself, Especially The Last Part

this is actually me. i couldn’t have said any of this better than myself, especially the last part

what are your general thoughts on step 3 baxter bc i was replaying OL1 and i trying hard not to cackle at the fact baxter is 19 years old in like 2016. bc all i can hear is halsey, p!atd, arctic monkeys when i look at him; it's giving tumblr, hot topic, that specific period of alt fashion. like he looks like a k-pop idol, but has a weirdly deep voice and overly formal way of speaking. like that is a rich sheltered gayboy emo nerd, not a suave daddy dom. his ass is grass and mc is gonna mow it. i'm saying i find his whole aesthetic ridiculous even tho i do have a soft spot for his fear of emotional vulnerability.

LMAOOO NO I READ THE HALSEY, P!ATD, N ARCTIC MONKEYS AND YOU LITERALLY DESCRIBED MY MUSIC TASTE IN 2016-18 PLS JUST ADD MCR AND I AM IN RUINS.....

OMG STOP "HIS ASS IS GRASS AND MC IS GONNA MOW IT" PLS I LOVE YOU YOUR /WORDS/ IM ACTUALLY CRYING

honestly the only reason i don't clown him is bc I think him being older is 🥵🫣 but yeah I had to laugh when they called me Pepe le pew and Victorian emo man

I was literally getting ready to go out the one day after playing the dlc, and was trying not to fuck up my eyeliner from laughing bc pepe le pew is abnormally funny n idek what or who that is

HONESTLY I WAS SO GRATEFUL WHEN HE CHANGED CLOTHES

I COULD GET BEHIND THE SHIRT BUT THOSE PANTS.....

take em off

OH NO WHAT DO YOU THINK HIS UNDERWEAR LOOKED LIKE.... ik in step 4 he had fall leaves on his butt but what abt step 3.... im afraid 😟

okay I totally almost forgot your question, thank god I read things like 5 times before I'm sure I'm not missing smth but general thoughts....

well first thoughts was "who tf is this flirting w my man🤨"

now it's "who let this vampire out the house" bc baxter is so pale... pls I feel like if I put a firefly on him he'd burn like?!)!&*!^!??

final thought: "are you still looking to be sandwiched" bc poly cove/baxter/mc sounds PERFECT for all my issues (will never recover from the dialogue being different if you have cove at fond or crush when you start dating baxter.....)

also I'd like to eat him, did I say that alrdy? well I'd like to shrink him n nibble on him

OH MY GOD THATS OFF TRACK OK STEP 3 BAXTER THO. ID LIKE TO GRAB HIS FACE N YELL AT HIM

knowing he's going to break my heart...... pls... 5 moments wasn't enough imma need reimbursement for this heartache

I wanna sneak into his condo and lay in bed w him and make him laugh until he falls asleep n then I wanna wake him up w breakfast and then I wanna go on a lil stargazing date n walk along the edge of the water, the water only touching his feet when the wave goes up shore

n I wanna find all his lil freckles and moles n count them n be all close n tell him he's pretty like the moon and I wanna put on some song idk the lyrics to bc it's some Spanish love song or smth and make him dance w me even tho the most I can do is spin I a circle and circle literally one hip

and I wanna take him on a long drive w his dumb metal music blasting n make him yell it out w me and I wanna feed him his dumb fries w pie or whatever it was and I wanna make him lay in the grass w me and I wanna go build a dumb sandcastle and get him a silly lil toy that's prbly meant for kids n giggle abt it for a stupid amount of time and when we get home laugh abt it some more and i wanna play my dumb instrument and sing him a dumb song n AKAJHAGA I JUST WANT A FUCKJNG COMING OF AGE MOVIE W HIM I AM JAGADFALAH LOSING MY SHIT

okay.

I'm normal 🧍 ... I like this man a Regular amount

The Color Blue

I hate the color blue.

It reminds me of my father’s eyes;

a light shade of blue, that look and feel like ice.

They stretch wide and unblinking when he’s mad

wild- like a rabid animal.

He’s always mad.

I love the color blue.

“You look good in blue, honey.” Coos my father.

He has a wide smile, his white teeth glimmering with pride

and the corners of his eyes crinkling.

His compliments are rare, so his praise makes me warm inside;

a sharp contrast to how i feel when i am subjected to his freezing stare.

I wish he could look at me all the time

with those wonderful crinkles by his eyes.

It’s much better than drowning in a fury I can’t seem to escape.

I wish he was happy.

I wish I was happy

with him.

I recently played Baxter’s DLC and I was looking up playlists for him on Spotify for funsies and when I saw Panic! At the Disco in the list of songs, i actually got shivers at the realization that Baxter and P!ATD are perfect for each other.

I can’t begin to explain how well they fit together, it just makes my tiny brain so happy??

“I wish we had more complicated characters in book!”

YALL COULDN’T EVEN HANDLE HER‼️

CDJCJDJ SHUT UP AND DANCE BY WALK THE MOON, STYLE BY TAYLOR SWIFT, AND FOURTH OF JULY BY FALL OUT BOY ALL FIT HIM SO WELL TOO 😭

I recently played Baxter’s DLC and I was looking up playlists for him on Spotify for funsies and when I saw Panic! At the Disco in the list of songs, i actually got shivers at the realization that Baxter and P!ATD are perfect for each other.

I can’t begin to explain how well they fit together, it just makes my tiny brain so happy??

My Mom

You are my Red.

the passion that keeps me going,

the anger that taught me to forgive.

You are my Orange.

the one who gets me out of bed when i can’t do it myself,

the light at the end of my tunnel vision.

You are my Yellow.

the warm breakfast on a Saturday morning,

the laughter that spews from my mouth when we gossip in the car.

You are my Green.

the success i strive to become,

the one who takes care of me when i get sick.

You are my Blue.

the trust in deep talks,

the trust that when you say I look good in this shirt, you really mean it.

You are my Purple.

the way you say i have so much talent,

the one who calms me after a nightmare.

You are my Pink.

the soreness in my cheeks when i smile endlessly,

the tightness in my chest when my heart spills over with love.

You are my White.

the hope that i can be loved,

the beauty who looks good in everything and anything.

You are my Gray.

the tranquility of sitting together in the living room on a rainy day,

the maturity i learned from to admit when i’m wrong.

You are my Black.

my tether to the Earth when I float off,

my rock when things get too much.

You are my Brown.

the reliability in your advice,

the one that helps me grow.

You are my Everything,

the one i love so intensely,

i had to put it in a poem.

I love you, Mom.

a/n: i wanted to color code each word but apparently Tumblr doesn’t wanna have yellow, gray, black, or brown, so just pretend that they’re colored 🤷🏻‍♀️