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just dyed my hair suddenly not suicidal anymore
you know the movie is gonna fuck you up for life when it has timothee chalamet as a teenager in it
You think attention is love and that’s why you suffer so deeply.
Ello
Where the skylight touch my soul I gonna keep on
You said I was a writer myself I loved that name. Even with other meaning For me it’s still beautiful
Everything is working out Or everything will fall apart? Nothing is that clear Tell me now the problem That it’s in this streets
I am the quiet space In middle of the chaos I am the storm & and the calmest rain I’m saying “ello” and seeing connection
- Letízia Carrizo
Immortalizing you
You are everything that I hate Everything that I regret now Everything that I can’t even forget about. It’s impossible to turn back
What if I never called quit. What if you stood by me. What if we were meant to be. In my head we could Only if
You never ever see All the things I did just to move on If this is my last night immortalizing you Just for you to know That I will tell my legacy about How I went heartless because of you
I never moved on. I don’t think I really can. I hate myself for not letting you go. That toxic, you know?
- Letízia Carrizo
Cold as your heart
I’m sad And that’s okay Because no one cares Thats made me human
They like cold as ice We don’t have time Thats the price. Of the dislike
They say I’m emotional They say I’m proud They say I’m emotionless They say I’m a stone cold
- Letízia Carrizo
Warrior
I am a warrior They wanted to pull me behind I’m naive and innocent I’m sorry for all my mistakes
For trust in you. And for you who broke my heart I don’t have nothing to fear. I hope
I will not surrender Now I am blue All my colors fade away Will raise again
I am lost in the way Can you lead me? How I will my pack? If I am all by my own
- Letízia Carrizo
Maybe
Maybe I am not good Maybe I will go to hell If that’s is to love I will go
I hate when they say That could do better Then stop talking and do Your little ego
The voices don’t let go I think they wanna warn me About what? I don’t understand
What is the destiny is trying to say? Don’t say I lost my mind They send me numbers and signals. Do you could love or hate me I honestly don’t give a damn
- Letízia Carrizo
Reason
I was build in a thunderstorm I am the storm I don’t wanna be the plan B Imagine the Z
Stop talking to me I just wanna be free. Your audacity Is pretty to see But lucky you are dead to me
Karma is not what I want. But I think you deserve For calling me the devil in disguise I can be a angel and the devil
Don’t try to hide. When you know I am right Why do you have to lie to me? I hate you. And you know the fucking reason
- Letízia Carrizo
Like Phases of the Moon
To my parents I am waxing and To my sister I am waning To many I am new, unseen and mysterious. Never do I fully show myself to those around me…only to those I deem worthy, If I present to you in my full glory you must know you are special, you have been chosen to seem me as I am. I am a complex web of something quite simple, built to forever stand out in space amongst the many planets who demand majority’s attention Overlook but not underestimated, I am like the moon. -For the Outcasts
Maybe we are all crazy, that’s why we search for love in places it can never be found.
4 a.m. thoughts
And then, just like that, we became strangers to each other.
4 a.m. thoughts, words better left unsaid
Eyes like islands in the ocean
The waves of your iris pulling me in
A rip current that can’t be escaped
Sailing toward the whirlpool of your pupil
Drowning in your soul
-These Windows Are Dangerous
The turmoil inside me has begun to settle
That should be a good thing
But now I just feel empty
As if the war inside of me has accepted its defeat
But has not lost hope
I see in your eyes your love for her
And your curiosity of me
I feel in your touch the “what if” of taking it further
The want to do it again
But now I’m wondering if I’ve become an experiment
If these feelings are worth pursuing
Or if the only time I am worthy of your affection
Is when we both have something to blame it on
- It’s not real if we aren’t sober
“I follow up the quest despite of day and night and death and hell.”
- Lord Alfred Tennyson
I am not the whiskey you want nor the water you need, I am the champagne you cannot afford
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Na dně Tartaru
Se dívám na vlastní kapiláry,
korálky krve kolem zápěstí
Náramek, který nosilo moje malý já
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A modřiny na sněhobílých stehnech
Nahmatám vedle sebe cigaretu
Zapálím si vlasy a řeknu
„To byl zase den...”
Na dně Tartaru mám dětský pokojíček
Usínám v plesových šatech
Pod vlivem Rohypnolu a levnýho alkoholu
Potácím se místy, který pak nepoznávám
Město se mění
Město
Na jehož ulice lze navěšet fáze dezintegrace vlastního já.
Na dně Tartaru je se mnou Sirius
Sedíme na zemi vedle sebe a pijeme kradený pivo
Potom vytáhne nůž a po(d)řeže mě
A jeho vlčí čelisti stisknou můj krk
A já mu za to poděkuju...