War Within Society

War within Society

What is a society? A society is a composed of a group of people. People are bound to interact with one another, social animals as quoted by Greek philosopher Aristotle himself. Without the feeling of belongingness within the society it will be difficult for an individual to adjust and to feel at home. Without having a home is already troublesome enough for an individual. But it can be easily solved by finding a substitute by a certain place.

But what happens if there is a place, but no people? There begins a feeling of dettachment from others. Amongst the people within a society there will always be one out of the many isolated, due to physical flaws or intellectual uniqueness. How does one feel belongingness? It may come by being able to feel acceptance from those around you. Everyone was made differently. There will always be a hierarchy within the society and it is human nature to have a desire to have more once you get a taste of something that quenched your curiosity, you craving. And everytime you crave you will wish to have more.

Greed stains the society, so does envy and many other desires. It is most likely possible that there will never be equality within the society. Because there are those who seek control and power. As for the wealth they wish to have it all. Desiring power is one, but having too much is different. Putting ones self above the other is an instinct. With this society there is barely any union but it is all for the sake of survival. One must be one with the strong to survive a war. Because when you cannot fake allegiances to save yourself knowing how weak you may be, in the end you still will lose.

It may make you think most humans are by nature evil and heartless. Yet there are those within the society suffers from having a big heart and a deep mind. They wish to share their intellect, visionaries as said. As those below want more and envy those above with intellect they may make use of it. Which goes to say not every wolf will be attacking you directly sometimes they are in sheep's clothing. Making sure you are vulnerable and trusting enough only for them to pounce on you and drain your life out of you, mercilessly tearing you apart until there is none left of you.

They will make sure of it.. until they are satisfied with their deed. And the power they have gained out of killing the life in you. You will lay bloody a complete ghost as you stroll along the bustling streets. You find yourself dead in the night. Your heart may feel nothing but resentment towards those around or yourself. Body heavy.. yet your soul...somehow dead. Perhaps it is not the place but the people in it are the problem.

A Stab in the Heart

Many may wonder, what does it feel like to fall in love...

Without possibly thinking the consequences of having their heart broken by the one they love.

Love is a double edged sword, it can be a good and bad thing. When one loves unconditionally they may get hurt. Which in return can turn into a process of abuse, toxicity. Ever so blinded by love, the one who loves loses in the end.

Indeed, loving can be the best feeling but when it takes the certain turn it may as well turn into the worst feeling. You may find yourself in a gut wrenching pain, a pain that is difficult to describe. A pain that's supposed to be felt emotionally, will also be felt physically. It hurts... everything will hurt.

And you will find yourself in tears, due to that stab in your loving heart... realizing... they never loved you in the first place. They only loved you, for what they gain out of you. You were nothing but entertainment, you were nothing but just someone who was convinient for them.

Thus, it is difficult to actually love unconditionally nowadays.

It's my 4 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

😍love him.

Just found out this is official art .... Going to be thinking abt this now

Having to move on

It was difficult for me to move forward, because I realized just recently I am still holding onto the pieces, that had broken me as a person. And it destroyed a lot of my time in the present. I allowed that shadow of gloom to latch itself on my soul, and held onto it. It was all the more difficult due to how it had blinded me, how I missed that everyone moved on and changed. Because I stayed in there... I stayed in that same room with the pain all in me. I bottled it up too much that's why the cycle never ended. And no it wasn't my fault but my fault was not letting go of it... as well as keeping the pains inside of me. As if I was a vessel for that pain to live on to.

I was the damage that caused the pain, because the pain is in me. I was focused in my own wounds, that I didn't think of the cuts of mine would cut the hearts of those that genuinely cared for me... I may be aware with others but I lacked awareness regarding myself... my fault was never letting that pain go.. due to how it traumatized me. I had focused on the pain... and it led me to nothing but in a reckless, self loathing, self destructive path.

I'm...sorry to those that actually holds me dear. I'm sorry...truly I am.

"Will be by your side 'til then..."