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somehow I got 95/20 on an assignment

I hope they never fix it and leave it this way forever

love

“I’m in love with you. And all your little things.”

Do your future self a favor and work hard now.

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A angst scenario where Sehun goes to his best friend's house drunk, and seeks for comfort right after breaking up with his girlfriend. Knowing that she's just a good friend, yet a rebound; she never confessed her feelings for him. Years later, they meet again; he plans to confess to her but it was already too late. Thanks!

I am so so sorry for the late post!! I was busy!!! Hope you will forgive me :3 :-)

EXO Sehun - We’re not destined for each other

“_____-ah!!! Open the door.” you heard along with bums on the door and you opened them.“Urgh!!! What the fu-, Sehun!!!” you yelled at the person that fell down into your arms. He was heavy as fuck. “Are you kidding me? What are you doing here?!” You asked while stumbling with him into the living room. Luckily he was in the state the could answer your question.“_____-ah. I knew you would open the door to me. You’re the only person that I can trust.” he said and looked at you, sending you his dazzling smile that you fell for. Of course he doesn’t know.“Are you drunk?” It was obvious he was but you still had to ask.“Of course not!” he chuckled at your question.“Yeah yeah, you’re not. Come on you lazy ass. Sit down here on the couch.” you dropped him down and said beside him.“Even though it’s lazy you like it!” he sent you a wink. You rolled your eyes but the hint of blushing is visible. How could he still flirt in this state.“You wish so you egoistic asshole.” “Oh hey. Don’t hurt me too.” he said, his expression changed immediately and you knew that something happened.“Sehun-ah. Did something happened? Why are you so sad suddenly.” you looked at him worrying and put your hand on his knee. It was your way to comfort him and he was used to it. Whenever you do that he would feel more better. “We broke up.” he whispered.“What?! Why?” You were a bit shocked. His girlfriend, now ex-girlfriend, named Sena was one of the kindest person in the world. Even though you like, maybe love Sehun,don’t know, confused of your feelings, you wished them the best. He always was so happy when he spent time with her. Sometimes you were jealous the way he looked lovingly at her. You didn’t get why the perfect couple like them could break apart. “She…she cheated on me!” he broke down. You couldn’t believe your ears.“Sehun, don’t play with me! She’s not that kind of person. Don’t lie to me.” you said. Yeah, normally you should be happy, glad because Come on! It’s Oh Sehun! This masterpiece of God and he is single and free. But you knew her. You became friends with Sena when they started dating. She was really a good person. How could she do something like that?“Yes she did! I s-saw her!” he yelled and he started to feel angry. He frightened you a bit because always when he was in this state he was scary. You put your hands quickly on his cheeks: “Sehun-ah. Look at me. Calm down. I’m here with you.”He looked up into your eyes seeing the sincerity he started to cry. “_____-ah! I’m hurt. I didn’t want to end it this way! Why she did that to me!” he broke down and his tears streamed down his cheeks. You quickly hugged him and whispered soothing words into his ear: “Shh…calm down. I’m here. Don’t cry. It’s gonna be alright. I’m here for you.”He sniffled and looked at you: “Will you be always for me here?”The question of his surprised you. You never saw him in this state. You caressed his cheek and smiled a bit: “Of course I will. Whenever you need I will be here for you.” He smiled back and in few minutes you two just stared into each other’s eyes. Like you two were sending each other messages through the staring. You could saw the gratitude in his eyes but for the first time you saw something else, something new like adoration. Or was it just your fantasy? You were thinking about that a while when suddenly you felt his lips pressed on yours, his hold around your waist pressing you tight to his body. You were confused. You didn’t knew what to do. You wished this moment to happen for million times. You felt shivers going threw your entire body, you were responding to him, to his touches, to his body, you were melting under his kisses. You circled your hands around his neck and went through his soft hair. You two were making out on your old nearly ruined couch when suddenly you pulled out, realizing that even though you love him it wasn’t right. He was your best friend and you didn’t want to loose him.“Sehun-ah…” you said breathlessly but still shocked.“_____-ah! I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to…” obviously he was shocked by his actions too.“I-I…” he started but didn’t know what to say.“Sehun-ah. Tell me the truth. How do you feel about me?” you asked, a bit scared of his answer.“I don’t know. I am confused. You’re like my little sister. I don’t want to lose you. I don’t know why I had the urge to kiss you so bad.” he said honestly. You were speechless. You didn’t know how to answer. For him, you’re still gonna be just a best friend, his little sister. Never a lover. You two sat there now in an awkward silent, both of you thinking about what to do, what to say.“Maybe…maybe I should go.” suddenly said Sehun. He stood up and looked at you, you on the other hand didn’t want to look up at him. “I will…I will call you later.” he said and quickly left, leaving you there alone…what he didn’t know was that you were hurt. Tears streamed down your cheeks. ‘Why he can’t see me in a different way! Why he can’t love me!’ these thoughts were flooding your mind. You couldn’t do anything. You felt powerless. Still crying you lied down on the couch and fell asleep.

The next few days you didn’t see him, didn’t get any texts or phone calls. Honestly maybe it was the best. The pain from the previous night was still overwhelming. You needed time to recover. Still not hearing from him, you decided to go to the States to start a new life. You attended a school of designing clothes and after a hard work you became a successful designer. You worked with a lot of famous designers such as Alexander Wang and met new people. You had a boyfriend that was caring and helped you nearly forget Sehun. Even though you tried hard but you still missed him and inside you know that you still love him. But you decided that you had to move on. After a while you decided to expand your brand in Korea too so after 2 years you came back with your boyfriend. You started to collaborate with famous idols and actors. You loved your work and you were really happy until one day. You had to work with a group called EXO. You didn’t know about them much. You didn’t even know that Sehun was a member of a group. So when you met them the sight of Oh Sehun caught you of guard. You managed to stay calm but inside the thoughts were full of your mind. You were now looking at clothes, choosing which items of clothes would match together when you heard someone cleared his throat. You turned around and there was nobody else than Oh Sehun standing. “Hi, _____.” he managed to say, feeling the awkwardness in his voice.“Hi.” you replied.“So…it was a long time. How…how are you?” he asked, stretching the back of his neck. The habit when he was shy or embarrassed.‘Still the same.’ you thought.“Hm…good. I guess. How are you?”“Good.” he sighed and looked at you. There was a silence for a while after you decided to broke it. “So…you never said to me you wanted to become an idol.” you said and he smiled lightly.“And you never said to me you wanted to become a designer.” he said and you smiled at his statement.“Yeah…maybe we got some hidden talents that we didn’t know about it before.” he chuckled making your heart flutter. Even thought it was a long time ago but he still can make your heart to jump in joy. “_____-ah. I want to say you something.” he said now his expression more serious. “I wanted to say it a long time ago but I was a coward and didn’t even call you. I came to your apartment but the man in the register said that you moved out. I was trying to find you but after I heard that you went abroad it broke my heart. But before I will say you the main thing, I want to ask you why? Why did you leave and not even call me or text me? Why?” he said looking in your eyes. You were speechless. You didn’t know what to say.“Sehun, I-” you tried to say but you felt your throat so dry that you couldn’t even speak. “_____! Why? I wanted to say you that I loved you!” he said, now holding you by your shoulders.“You…Y-you loved me?” you were caught of guard.“Yes! I always have. I still love you. I went out with other girls just to get distracted but still the feelings for you were there. Always will be. After the night that I kissed you the feelings grew stronger and I knew that I couldn’t live without you. But I was a coward afraid of losing you until I really did lose you. These two years without you by my side were unbearable. Please be with me. Please love me and be by my side like you promised. Please!” he hugged you tightly.You didn’t realize that you were crying until you felt that his shirt was soaking. He pulled you out to wipe your tears and looked at you, lifting your chin by his hand. He now looked more calm and smiled sincerely at you.“_____-ah. Please be with me. We are meant to each other. Please. I love you.” he said, his hand on your cheek.“Sehun-ah. I-I can’t.” you whispered looking down at the ground. He widen his eyes, couldn’t believe what he just heard.“Why not _____-ah. You’re now back and we love each other. Please don’t leave me.” he hugged you tightly afraid of losing you again.“P-please Sehun let me go.” you tried to push him but he hugged you even more.“No _____! I will never let you leave me again!” “Sehun-ah! Let me go!” you yelled at him. He was now angry pushing you out of embrace.“Why are you like this _____-ah. I love y…”“I’m engaged Sehun!” He was now stunned at your statement. You couldn’t bear it anymore. You quickly left the building with the pain in your heart not looking back at him.He couldn’t left a word. He fell on his knees and let the trace of tears stream down his cheeks. What he was afraid of the most was now happening. He was afraid of loosing you, the love of his life and now he lost you forever.