Hi!! I'm Feeling Rather Emotional Now, Really Need Something That Makes Me Grin Or Sob Or Heartbroken,

Hi!! I'm feeling rather emotional now, really need something that makes me grin or sob or heartbroken, anything. Can you rec me fics which are full of emotions?

Oh, my dear Anon. I meant to answer this the week it was asked, and then life decided to sidetrack me for a while (like a super long time actually, omg, I'm so sorry). I dug out my notes for how I was going to answer, and I’m compiling them now, horribly late, but still utterly sincere. Each of the fics on this list is both chock full of emotion and made me an emotional wreck. Not in a bad way, mind you, because I am a wuss, and unhappy endings would crush my fragile heart. But still. There was lots of laughter, lots of tears, and definitely a good bit of blushing. Please note that I read mostly explicit fics, so a lot of these are spicy. Fair warning!

Drarry Fics

Title: Balance, Imperfect Author: bixgirl1 Rating: Explicit Words: 91,000 Highlights: EWE, Healing, Healer Draco, Domesticity, Romance, Dating, Falling In Love, and some lovely NSFW tags Warnings: Physical Disability, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Depression, Longing, Dubious Medical Ethics, Disability Summary: When Harry sustains an injury in the line of work, he no longer knows how to navigate the life he loved, and finds help and solace from the most unexpected source.

Thoughts: I wrestle with myself relentlessly over whether or not this should overtake That Old Black Magic as my favorite bixgirl1 fic. It ripped me open and left me bleeding several times. I wept openly no less than four times during this fic. It's just scalding raw emotion poured directly into your veins and deals with such difficult subjects and feelings in gorgeous and flawless ways. There is a happy ending. Make no mistake. Bix has never failed me in this regard. I've read TOBM more times so far, but this fic was an absolute experience. If you enjoy being gutted and then made whole again, this is absolutely the fic for you.

Title: Burn The Witch Author: lettersbyelise Rating: Explicit Words: 95,800 Highlights: Unusual Careers, Demisexual Draco, Case Fic, Falling In Love, Friends to Lovers, Autistic Scorpius, Slow Burn, Banter, Snark, Happy Ending, lots of delightful NSFW tags Warnings: Pining, Mentions of Violence, Angst, Scars, Mention of Panic Attacks, Mentions of Therapy Summary: When Harry Potter is sent in to investigate Draco Malfoy’s successful potions company, posing as Draco’s bodyguard, he doesn’t know the case will launch a series of events that will change his life — and Draco’s. A story about choices, scars, Chopin piano pieces, and finding all kinds of love in the most unexpected places.

Thoughts: The author wrote Draco beautifully as someone who really grew out of the prejudices his parents instilled in him and found his own mind and voice and purpose in a really meaningful way. I thought his relationship with Scorpius was beautiful, and their take on a child on the autism spectrum was handled with care and aplomb. Ernestina was one of my favorite OCs ever in a story. She's really fantastic. Harry seemed to slip right into their lives so comfortably, and I liked how natural that felt. Like it was bound to happen (because of course it was, haha). I loved how fiercely protective he was of both Draco and Scorpius, and the author caught Harry’s endless capacity for love just perfectly in this story. The action scenes were wrenching, though minor in the scheme of things. This was an absolutely gorgeous story, one of my favorites.

Title: Blood and Fire Author: lq_traintracks Rating: Explicit Words: 44,888 Highlights: EWE, Tattoos, Patronus, Dragons, Kneazles, Owls, an epic shit-ton of white hot NSFW tags Warnings: Angst, Pining, Scars Summary: Harry has spent the last twelve years in Romania, not returning to England as often as he knows he should. It's complicated. But when Ginny asks him to be her best man and help her plan her wedding, he can't say no. Having a reckoning with his choices, with himself, won't be easy. To say nothing of seeing Draco again.

Thoughts: Harry running off to Romania to take care of dragons was such an inspired idea. I don't know why I hadn't considered it before, but it suited him perfectly. I've always thought it likely he'd want to travel or get away from his fame somehow, and this was an amazing way to go about it. I did not anticipate how much the idea of both him and Draco pining for each other for 12 years would gut me, but my god, the tension when they encountered each other first at Ginny and Pansy's and then in the pub was electric. My comment on this fic was embarrassingly enthusiastic. Read this. It's phenomenal.

Snarry Fics

Title: the gentleness that comes Author: Likelightinglass Rating: Explicit Words: 29,272 Highlights: EWE, Canon Divergence, Severus Snape Lives, Fluff, Domesticity, and again a ton of NSFW tags (What can I say? I have a type.) Warnings: Insecurity, Scars, Hurt/Comfort Summary: There's something bothering Severus, and Harry wants to help. It's easier for Severus to let go when he's exploring his submissive side, so Harry plans a weekend to show him just how loved he is, and how much Harry wants to care for him. Based on the prompt: Harry has a thing for scars, and Severus has a need for reassurance. They just happen to be what the other requires.

Thoughts: There is no sweeter dynamic than the one captured by Light's versions of Harry and Severus. The tenderness Harry shows for Sev in this brought me to tears several times. The smut was hot and sweet and everything I wanted. I am fully admitting my bias with this being a gift fic for me, but this is more than just an exploration of kink on the softer side of things. It's a gorgeous piece of prose that's just chock full of love in its most beautiful forms. I can't recommend this enough. It's perfect.

Title: Finders Keepers Author: Lilian Rating: Teen And Up Words: 7,325 Highlights: EWE, Canon Divergence, Fix-It, Severus Snape Lives, Magical Realism, Hedwig Lives, Drama, Healing, Happy Ending Warnings: Age Difference, Angst, Hurt/Comfort Summary: Soulmate AU from tumblr @the-rotten-prince: Imagine whenever you lose something, your soulmate winds up finding it. Severus Snape doesn't find a single thing until he's twenty. By that time, he has given up and ignores a young boy, when he arrives at Hogwarts.

Thoughts: Lilian is a frigging genius when it comes to soulmate fics. That's all there is to it. This was absolutely gorgeous. I loved getting to see Severus' younger years, though him losing things in order for his soulmate to find them and consequently find him broke my fucking heart. This fic brought all the feels, and it is so, so good. There's not a thing I've read of hers that I haven't liked. Just lovely.

Title: The Measure of a Man Author: Acid Rating: Explicit Words: 50,163 Highlights: EWE, Canon Divergence, Severus Snape Lives, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Trans Harry, Spinner’s End, Coming Out, FTM Harry, Trans Male Character, Gender Identity, Auror Harry, Legilimency, Transitioning, Transgender, Trans Female Character, Severus Snape Has A Heart, Grimmauld Place, Smut Warnings: Closets, Minor Character Death, Grief/Mourning, Misgendering, Gender Dysphoria, Trust Issues, Drinking, Gender Roles Summary: Several years after defeating Voldemort, Junior Auror Harry Potter discovers himself and, at the risk of losing his childhood love, follows the truth. Through it all, Snape is an unexpected solace. Will he become more?

Thoughts: This fic was an incredibly powerful look into Harry's mind during his transition. The relationships were rich and deep, and the feelings in this were both raw and immensely powerful. I related strongly to parts as a trans nonbinary person, and the topic was covered honestly and thoroughly. Harry and Severus' characterizations were gorgeous, and the evolution of their relationship was stunning to watch. This is a must read for me. I thoroughly enjoyed it and highly recommend it.

Golden Trio

Title: Where Silence Has Come To Lick Its Wounds Author: p1013 Rating: Explicit Words: 2,681 Highlights: Canon Divergence, No Dialogue, Porn With Feelings, a few more lovely NSFW tags Warnings: none Summary: When he comes back to the Horcrux hunt, Ron asks if Harry still wants him, if they still want him, and it's a cold shock almost worse than the frozen lake around Harry's body that Ron might consider the answer is anything other than yes or please or never leave us again.

Thoughts: I have yet to read a ton of fics for this OT3, but I just had to include it in this list. The author's style is wonderful, and I loved the wordless communication through touch and expression they all had throughout their love-making. This was pure poetry in motion, and the three of them coming together felt very natural in the moment. Just gorgeous.

Harry after Healer

Author: Anonymous

Pairings: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter

For: @blue–dreaming, bluedreaming

Word Count: 2,131

Rating: Teen & Up

Content: Fluff, High after surgery, EWE, Sarcastic Banter, Domestic Fluff, St. Mungo’s, Slice of Life, Established Relationship

Warnings: None

Summary:

Harry’s loopy on potions after his procedure. Draco rather likes Harry this way, all open and innocent and awestruck. Oh—and yeah. Obsessed with Draco’s beauty. That part’s rather nice.

“Do we call each other ‘love’? How long have we been together?”

“We’ll have been married three years next month,” he replies.

“Merlin, I hit the jackpot!” Harry exclaims, beaming.

Read it now on AO3!

Third Time’s Not a Charm

Author: Anonymous

Pairings: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter

For: @softlystarstruck​, softlystarstruck​

Word Count: 10,159

Rating: Explicit

Content: Post-Hogwarts, EWE, Angst, Fluff, Smut, Anxiety, Anxious!Draco, Work retreat, Ward Specialist Draco Malfoy, Happy Ending, They were roommates!, There was only one bed, Bed Sharing, Oral Sex, Hint of D/s dynamics, Mention of Bondage

Warnings: None

Summary:

It’s Draco’s least favourite time of year: the mandatory annual work retreat for employees of the International Quidditch Association. There’s nothing quite like being forced to stay in a remote lodge in the middle of nowhere with your coworkers, especially when there’s one co-worker, in particular, you need to avoid.

Read it now on AO3!

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The Danger within

Author: Anonymous

Pairings: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, Hermione Granger/Ron Weasley

For: @seekercass, alrespirar 

Word Count: 23,369

Rating: Mature

Content: Healer Hermione Granger, Auror Ron Weasley, Wolfsbane Potion, Safehouse, Potioneer Draco Malfoy, Auror Harry Potter, Protective Harry, Roommates, Domestic Fluff, Creature Fic, Scars, Werewolf Harry, Werewolves

Warnings: Bigotry & Prejudice, Werewolf Discrimination, Alcohol, Kidnapping, Imprisonment, Implied/Referenced Sexual Content

Summary: 

Harry knew it would be difficult the very moment he realised who he was going to be cooped up with. In a safehouse. For what could be weeks, or months, or even longer. But he also knew that - especially since the bite - he was probably the best Auror for the job. And Draco deserved that.

Furthermore, it had been four years: they should be able to make this work.

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Hello love.... once you get this you have to say five things you like about yourself, then send this to ten of your favourite followers, SPREAD THE LOVE 💖🧡💛

This is notoriously late because I’m answering three of the same ask, one from the lovely Elan and @tigerlilycorinne and @ahhhnorealnamesallowed were also kind enough to send me one. So, five things I like about myself, eh? Well, here we go, in no particular order:

My smile - I get more compliments on this than I think any other aspect of my appearance, and while I generally struggle with self esteem, I’m actually rather proud of my smile. Oddly enough, I never smile with teeth showing, so I’m not talking about my teeth being super even or white or anything. I mean my actual smile, the way my lips curve upward and how it shows in my eyes when I’m really happy.

My vulnerability - I am a huge ball of feelings, and I experience things deeply. While this can be a double edged sword, I honestly wouldn’t change it. I think it makes me more compassionate, more open-minded, and probably a better person than I would be without it.

My objectivity - This ties in with my vulnerability in that what I really mean when I say this is my ability to give good advice. Even if I lean a certain way on a subject, I can still put myself in someone else’s shoes well enough most of the time to see a lot of different sides to an issue, and I’m also good at breaking that down for people in a way that makes sense and comes across as fair in most cases.

My face - This is slightly cheating because my smile is generally part of my face, and I already listed that. But to be fair it’s also valid because I’m not smiling all the time. I just like it. I think it’s a nice face. I like my cheekbones, my eyes, the overall shape and structure. I even have a nice nose! So while I have various issues with other parts of me, I’m fairly confident from the neck up!

My imagination - It is both an escape and a source of creation for me. I love how vividly I see things in my mind’s eye when I’m reading a great story or watching a cool show or movie. It makes it very easy to immerse myself in the media of my choice. I also love making up my own stories in my head, and sometimes I even manage to write them down! Haha.

So that’s that. I hope it satisfied the ask, and thanks for sending me those, y’all!

In The Deep “Fish,” he said softly, aloud, “I’ll stay with you until I am dead.” – Ernest Hemingway, The Old Man and the Sea