*Trigger warning* I STRUGGLE SPIRITUALLY BUT I WONT QUIT AND YOU SHOULDN'T EITHER. I WILL CONTINUE TO FIGHT. I SEEK THE MESSIAH! THESE ARE PERILOUS TIMES! ITS TIME TO CHANGE AND SEEK GOD! Love as you would want to be loved. Forgive as you would want to be forgiven. I say everything on this blog... Everything. and maybe more. I guess I do music?🤔 This is a digital journal/diary/collection of poetry/rhymes and thoughts. PRAISE GOD! GOD BLESS. my story prior to my walk with Christ and some recent poetry/music...tread lightly↓↓↓ https://youtube.com/@thaunknowndreadhead4185
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All I Do Is Hate Myself And Stay Inside The House..
All I do is hate myself and stay inside the house..
I'll cut myself if stupid s*** comes out my f****** mouth..
My mother loves me but to her I feel I'm a f****** louse..
I love my family but depression won't let me reach out..
The thought that they know of my struggle? that I f****** doubt
In their mind Im probably a potato on a fuckin couch..
That what they think? / Maybe / I just want someone save me! But Not even Me can save Me!!/All I know is I F****** HATE ME!!!!
A peace of shit / mentally sick / no kids / no fuckin spouse..
My brain's so filled with shit!/ I hate it! Just wanna rip it out!!!
I scream and cut in silence so the neighbors won't hear me shout!!
This so called life I'm urged to call it quits and blow my brains out
~thaunknowndreadhead~
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