Mutual Here You Are Very Silly And I Like Talking To You A Lot :]

mutual here you are very silly and i like talking to you a lot :]

Y’know what’s funny? I was literally drafting a random vent post begging people to tell me if they liked me, so this was fairly well timed.

(Not that I’d expect you guys to follow vent posts btw /gen /lh)

I wish all of those currently on their period a lovely week <3 anyways here take my blorbo being in pain

I hate how I’m like a bomb. When I get scared I cause harm to everyone around me, damage I can’t fix. I can’t handle people comforting me because people trying to diffuse a bomb puts them at risk. They’re right next to the bomb and will die first when it goes off. I don’t want to be a bomb. I want to have people close to me and I can’t.

toople doople i want to kms hows you guys days going

its not fucking fair that im like this

that im too fucked up of a barely person i cant feel deserving of any comfort

but i want it and i cant get it because im scared and even when i ask i am ignored again and again and again and again and again and ive realized now that its not about my problems, its about me being a pathetic fucked up excuse of a person who doesnt deserve mind or space or air

i want somebody to fucking maul me like an animal just fucking go to town with a hatchet or a brick or a knife of a car or a cord i want to be unrecognizable i want my body to be a John Doe and for nobody to ever fucking care when they find it so it can reflect my pathetic fucking life

nobody is going to care when they find my body

I’m scared nobody will be able to help me I’m scared I’m sorry that I’m saying I’m scared because it isn’t any of you guys jobs or even something you should worry about but I don’t know if I’m going to be okay and I just need to express my fear because I’m not okay I will not be okay I will not be okay I will not be okay please