For Real! I Wanna See Self Harm Stims In Media! I Wanna See Autistic Having Meltdowns On Days That Are

For real! I wanna see self harm stims in media! I wanna see autistic having meltdowns on days that are supposed to be happy, like holidays and birthdays!

I wish there was more representation of autistics who struggle to regulate their emotions. I don't see this alot. Personally, I have alot of struggle with regulating my own emotions as an autistic person. It feels like I'm feeling all my emotions ten times stringer than they are meant to be, and it's so difficult to process that. I want to see the ugly side of autism more in pieces of media that show representations of autistic people. I don't care if the way it's shown makes the character seem like "bad people."" Autism isn't all cute/quirky stimming and special interests. Show me an autistic character having a meltdown because they got a question or two wrong on the test because of a silly mistake, beating themselves up over it, then crumbling it up and throwing the test away (true story). Show me autistic characters having an identity crisis because they subconsciously mask so much that they don't know what parts of them are real and what's just them masking.

I want to see complex autistic characters!

Listening to Hozier is all fun and games until he sings "I do not have wings, love, I never will" and suddenly you're ten years old again. Just a ten year old Catholic school girl terrified of hell and desperately trying to be good enough for heaven.

Its very interesting to me that archaeologists are finding tons of evidence that in prehistoric times disabled people were accomodated and cared for because when I was a child my dad told me the opposite.

The example he used, as I remember it, was this: "Imagine we lived in prehistoric times as hunter gatherers. Let's say you broke your leg. Taking care of you would be a liability for all of us, so we'd have to leave you behind to die :)"

At the time I was bewildered and hurt, but I accepted his answer. Now I just think my dad is a terrible person.

So Vivzie or Faustisse (I cant remember which of them it was) said that Niffty isn't very smart, and she definitely acts a lot younger than her canon age, so I came up with a tragic little headcanon to explain it:

Niffty grew up in an abusive home and when she was around twelve or thirteen her dad struck her head very hard with a frying pan. This caused her be developmentally stunted. Husk and Alastor are aware of this, which is why they're so patient with her.

Divorced Dad energy

Only they are allowed to parent me