Same People, Different Hearts

Same People, Different Hearts

summary: you were one of chuuya's close friends when you both were still in sheep. when he left, you decided to leave and unexpectedly is part of the decays of the angel now. you deciced to meet him again.

characters: chuuya nakahara, you, nikolai gogol, fyodor dostoevsky

word count: 1,070

a/n: let's say first time writing? english isn't my first language, slight ooc, not canon, cringe bye

It's been few days since Chuuya left the sheep. Your life was even emptier and lonelier. He was the reason why you continued to live, but he? He left sheep, he left you. You knew you didn't have the rights to stop his decisions. After Chuuya left, you deciced to find a new path, leaving the sheep. They knew how you feel, the feel of being left by someone precious, someone who was your everything. They appreciated and accepted your decision. You deciced to leave Yokohoma and went somewhere else.

few years later

You landed your foot once again, in Yokohama, your hometown. But this time, not for a visit, something much more, fun. You walked into the cafe trying to spot the purple-haired male, wandering your eyes around to spot him and there he is. You walked directly his table, and bowed your head. He looked up at you, signaling you to sit down. He gave you a soft smile, sipping his tea. You smiled back, “Great to see you again, Dos-kun.”

“Great to see you too, Lyubimaya. How have you been?”

“Still trying my best, may I know what am I supposed to do?”

He chuckled at your question, his purple eyes glaring at you, “Just follow me, and i will give it to you soon.”

"Am I going to kill people, Kolya?!”

“Yes? Unless, you don't have the heart to kill that ginger hat guy. Just kidding! We won't kill anyone, yet.”

“Haha, very funny. Kill yourself.” you replied forcing to yourself laugh, walking away from him, when Nikolai mention him? him! him. You have sudden flashback of the past that happened, but it was in the past now, right? why would you even care about him anymore? why-

“Name-chan! Dont you wanna do a suprise of your arrival? Like let's bom a place! And it was you who bom it! And we let people see a powerful woman you are, and maybe let some of your old friends see you!” he explained, snapping you back to reality. His face was full of ideas and excitement, you didnt want to destroy the clown’s excitement.

“Sounds a bit too much for an intro though.. can I just blow up a car? Bombing something sounds tiring.” you replied, stretching your arm up against the air. He looked at you, tapping his chin, “Alright, blowing up a car it is! Also dove, do you have any plans to meet someone before your introduction?” he asked giving you a wide smile, hugging your shoulders. You coughed, looking at him in confusion, “No? Oh. You meant him? Now you mention it, I wanna bom the Port Mafia so bad..” you sighed shaking your head. “Bom it then~ No one is gonna stop you, well other than him!” he said winking at you, yeah Nikolai definitely want you to meet him.

Yes, you are indeed trying bomb the Port Mafia with Nikolai Gogol. You sat on a bench near the Port Mafia building, waiting for action. The moment you blinked, an explosion happen infront of the place, it was action time!

You slowly fly up trying to locate where the clown is, he was nowhere to be seen, I guess he has more plans to come out with. You landed your feet on the ground, slowly walking infront of the building. Before even reaching up, you were met by a hundreds of guards holding guns. It was according to plan, and it turns out he was infront of the guards. Him. Him who was the reason for you to live, now he's just no one to you. His eye widen in disbelief seeing you, his old friend, his partner. You could see him trembling, not expecting of your arrival. You only chuckled at him, not showing any sadness nor happiness to him, just pure hatred and madness. Why did he left you? Weren't you enough? What did you wrong? What did you do to deserve this? You hate him, you hate him with your whole heart, he left you without any single goodbye. What a jerk.

He slowly walked to you, but you told him to stop there. He didn't deserve you, you didn't deserve him either. You could see tears forming in his eyes but you didn't care. “N-name, is that, really you?”

“I will let you guess that.”

You both were having an eye contact with eachother. His eyes fill with sadness and guilt, while yours filled with hatred and madness. Same people, different hearts.

“Suprise, I guess?” you chuckled, leaning closer to him, twirling his hair.

He took both of your hand, and palm it with his. His eyes was filled with tears.

“How are you? Are you okay? Where have you bee-”

“Shouldn't I be the one asking you questions?”

“What..? What do you mean-”

Before he even finishes his question, you let out your feelings, your pain because of him.

“Chuuya. Do you ever fucking realized that you left me? You left me! I don't give a shit what reason you have but leaving me was too far. You were the reason, t-the reason I continue to live! And you fucking left me? Seriously?” you stuttered those words that are coming out of your mouth, your tone trembling, a tear leaving your eye. You couldn't handle the pain, everyone keeps leaving you. Leaving you to the point that you don't even trust anyone anymore, everyone is just a bunch of liars. You tried to let go of his grip of your hand, but he continued to grip hard your hand, not letting go. His eyes were widen in shock of your words, he didn't knew what you felt. He didn't mean any of this.

“I'm sorry, I'm really.. sorry. I didn't mean to leave you. I swear I didn't mean that at all. I didn't want to lose you-”

“Shut up! I don't need your bullshit! You’re too late to apologize now, don't you think?” you forcefully let go of his grip, and it worked. Tears were flowing out of his eyes, he felt guilty. His heart was broke into pieces, but yours already broke first. Before you turn around to leave, he hugged you, not wanting to let go. He hide himself on your shoulder, mumbling sorry’s to you. This time you didn't force to let go of his grip, you allowed him to hug you. Tears ran out of your eyes, and you finally hugged him back. He felt you embracing him, tears continue to flow out of his eyes.

thank you for reading <3 IM SO SO SORRY IF IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE LOL (i was bored)

spam post of BSD WAN! Ranpo (Rampo) because well... I currently just have a huge case of Ranpo brain. 🧎‍♀️

me walking out of the bathroom with a smile and a happy face while blood is dripping down my leg

i stole from @sl1cemeup

he is guilty of 138 counts of conspiracy to murder, 312 counts of extortion, and 625 counts of assorted fraud, among other crimes.

Saying "I love you" in a different language

fyodor,dazai,shibusawa,chuuya,nikolai,margaret,yosano

i hate this

FYODOR

"愛してます"

Fyodor stares at you a little confused and then smiles

"я тоже тебя люблю дорога"

Since fyodor is in japan since whole his life he speaks japanese very well👌 so he understands everything thing that you are saying.

Now sometimes youre talking with him in japanese and he answers you in russian🫶

DAZAI

"я тебя люблю"

Dazai looks at you *blinks*

"Huh? did lice rat teach you that?"

"What? no just wanted to see your reaction"

Dazai probably speaks few words in russian, because he heard fyodor saying something in russian like "blyat" "suka" "naxui" "zatknis"

"Ok then ya lublu more you too suka😘"

SHIBUSAWA

"Ich liebe dich"

"what?"

"I said I love you in german"

"Ok."

"So?🙁"

He looked away "Same"

"Same what?"

"I love you too"

CHUUYA

"ti amo"

Chuuya stare at you with blushed face

"I-i love you more ,dummy" he look away blushed

I saw some tiktoks of chuuya speaking italian very well so i tought it would be nice idea to add chuuya in this🤨🤔

NIKOLAI

"я тебе люблю"

Nikolai looked at you with big smile on his face

Nikolai:🤩

"Aweee моя маленька ластівко, я теж тебе люблю😘"(aweee my little swallow, I love you too)

yall pls dont kill me for nickname i was thinking about too long for this💔

MARGARET

"Je vous aime"

"eh bien tout le monde m'aime" (Well everyone loves me) margaret said with a little devilish smile on her pretty face

YOSANO

"我愛你"

"Huh?" yosano was staring at you confused

"I said i love you in chinese"

"Oh?" she giggled

"Then how can i say i love you more in chinese?"

a date?

pairings: dazai osamu x reader

contains: fluff, crack

wc: 355

a/n: an old dribble i made for the same friend! chuuya next?

“oh my belladonna~ is this a date?”

“w-what?! no..” you commented while blush spreading across your face. The brown haired guy left out a chuckle. How did this happen, you asked?

First, you wanted kenji to help you on a mission or whatever the president gave you, but he can't. he can actually but he's full You wanted to ask ranpo, and you remembered he wasn't allowed by the president. The others were busy and it left you with a choice, Dazai Osamu. He's just there, in his desk, playing with his paper airplane. He was making Kunikida irritated, so you chose him. And did you regret it? Absolutely.

“Who knew, dear name would choose me?” he said with a smirk on his face. You decided just to ignore his bluffs, and continue to walk side by side. He started to poke your cheeks while walking beside eachother. this little shit You became slightly annoyed by his antics, and continue to stay ignorant. But it sure didn't stopped him to continually tease you.

(time skip after the mystery hehe)

You stretched your arms upwards against the air and let out a sigh. You were finally free from the work you had, even though.. you continued getting tease by the bandage waster bastard. You turned around telling Dazai that the work is gone, but he was no where to be seen. You titled your head in confusion, looking around to spot the brown haired, you didn't found him around the area. You started pacing your walk still looking around to find him, once again he wasn't on the sight. Right before you turn around to check again, bandaged arms wrapped around your neck, and it was indeed the Dazai Osamu. “Oh, there you are.. I thought you got kidnapped or something,”

“Aww, were you searching for me, dear?” he replied with a smirk on his face. You chuckled holding his forearm that's hanging around your neck, “Am I? Who knows. To be honest i’ll be rather happy if you got lost, so there will be no one who will continue to tease me.”

“Ouch, quite hurtful Belladonna.”

thank u for reading hehe <3