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"-Yours."

Nakahara Chūya x reader

Summary: Rainy days are for remembering the good old moments with your bestfriend, who you have a lethal crush on, a confession of tears masked withing the downpour.

Word count: 0.8k

tw.: angst with comfort, fluffy ending, angst, fluff, comforting end

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Storm clouds gathered above the lively streets of Yokohoma, even though the weather forecast mentioned there to be a horrible storm later tonight, the weather was irresistible.

Fresh smell of petrichor, the streets were relatively empty, only a few cars driving by, the places that were filled with people were those apartments high in buildings all partying and spending time with their loved ones, cherished ones, the people they hold closest to them.

He hated, hated hated absolutely despised it with every part of his being, arguing with you, the storm clouds were gathering at an alarming quick scale and you haven't returned home, yet. He's worried sick, taking a few more shots before making the sober decision to go find you.

Although, the apartment houses lights shone brightly illuminating the dark sky and vacant city streets as the clouds grew darker and bigger, ot was said that there was going to be heavy rain fall and thunderstorms the entire night and perhaps the following day.

What if you get caught in the downpour? What if you get stuck somewhere and maybe get kidnapped? He trusts you and knows your capabilities, but he's closely familiar with what lurks in the dark at night, what preys on those seem particularly vulnerable in whatever way, what can hurt and destroy a healthy soul...he's seen it all and the last thing he wants if for you to be caught, captured tortured all the while he wait at home, naively and do nothing? Unacceptable.

He'll never forgive himself for this, he needs you, he wants you safely tucked in a blanket with him in the comfort of your room, like you two always did. He wants to be near you, without you he' won't be himself, he won't feel human. Everyone left him, he can't let you go...not when it was a misunderstanding on his part.

Small drops of water started descending from the sky, the soothing sound of rain accompanying your every step, but not when you're practically drenched, but does it matter? Right now... even this place is good enough to clear your mind. Walking towards the iconic bridge in Yokohoma, a few cars passed by splashing you with dirty rain water, you were clearly underdressed for this weather.

All this time, you thought he liked you, he wanted to be with you, but no? A lie? Or have you fallen too deeply for him? Even he knows he has good looks, he knows you like him. Him, and no one else.

Another car passed by, eleventh one? Who knows, no one is counting, getting splashed again and again, today really is a shitty day. The day's grey, the clouds are dark, puddles littered across the road, no one to call at such a late time of day, no ones hand to hold when yours are so cold... no one...

Tears start streaming down your cheeks, mixing with the raincloud's tears. The weather is a perfect replication of the current storm inside your heart. It started to rain heavier, until the droplets started hurting. Feeling a bit lightheaded, sitting down on the railing of the bridge to collect yourself isn't be that bad of an idea, you've already been completely drenched in water, tears and sweat.

A cold chill runs down your back as you sit and admire the wilding waves of the raging river below you, so far down.

He knew where you were, you two would always go for walks there, he knows you and you knew that. He knows your little habits too, he saw you didn't leave with anything to cover yourself, were you that angry with him? He's feeling more guilty now. Rushing through the empty streets on his motorbike, the only thing on his mind, at the moment, was your safety.

Hearing an engine arrive and shut off behind you, the sound was all too familiar. A familiar scent engulfed your senses as you felt two cold hands hug you from behind, pulling you close to himself trying to radiate any warmth he possibly could.

It was a silent plea, "please come home, I'm sorry". Whenever you two got into an argument or misunderstanding this is how he apologized to you. You leaned back into the embrace, letting him pick you up and place you onto the ground, draping his coat over your head as he rubbed your back trying to slow your heartbeat down, before explaining himself and apologizing. Once your sobs slowly subsided, he kept hugging you. The moment he touched you he had his ability on, shielding you and him from the rain.

Kissing them in the middle of an argument with Chuuya and Kunikida with female reader please

Kissing them in the middle of an argument!

Fandom:Bungou Stray Dogs Pairings:Kunikida,Chuuya X Fem!reader Genre:Angst to Fluff Format:Scenario Warnings:None Word Count:663 A/n:Its my first time writing for Kunikida,i hope its ok :D

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"the hell did you do to my wine?" Chuuya hissed,sending daggers toward you with his gaze,which made you shiver a bit,but failed to remove your composure.he was always calm around you,letting his chill side come out and just relax with his girl,but now that you hid his favorite wine? he was pissed.

you know that Chuuya is gonna cheat on you with wine one day.

"babe,youre drowning yourself in wine.you already know that its like poison for you!" you took a few steps toward him,trying to reach his cheeks,but he rejects you before you could even sense his skin on your fingertips.

"where the hell is my wine? you threw it away didnt you? you have no right to do that! you have no idea what im going through right now!"

"baby-"

"dont baby me! im tired of your sh-"

before he could go forward,he felt your lips being smashed into his,trying to calm him down.he was mad indeed,he was angry;

but how could he ever reject the sweet comfortness of your touch?

he slowly closed his eyes,leaning into you touch as he kissed you back,letting his rage disappear.he was supposed to be rough,he was supposed to push you away,but the addictive taste of your lips didnt let him do any of it.

when your hands were placed on his cheek ,he didnt try to shake them off this time.instead,he wrapped his arms around your waist,pulling you closer to himself.

you weren't going to tell him where the wine was ,

but he was ok with it as long as he could have you instead of it.

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you bit your bottom lip,nervously looking at your boyfriend who was staring at the files he was supposed to take to work tomorrow,which was covered in the coffie you brought to him.

"what have you done?" Kunikida said indignantly,almost in a yelling voice. his sharp tone broke your heart a bit,but he had a right to be mad.

"i-im sorry...i just wanted to take care of you a bit..." you mumbled, trying to avoid his gaze,but you could still sense the anger composited with his eyes.

"by ruinning the files ive been working on for the past three hours?" he pointed at the files with his finger,reminding you of what youve done for the thousandth time.

"honey im sorry..." "well sorry doesnt fix anything does it? god dammit! its like im dating Dazai!"

well that was a bit harsh.

"are you seriously comparing me to Dazai?" you took a step forward, with the last sip of bravery you had left in your body.its true that you messed up,but maybe hes overreacting too.you need to shut him up or else this little accident is gonna turn into a huge fight.

"you know what i me-"

and before he knew,you cupped his cheeks,dragged him down and crashed your lips into his.

he hated it.hated it when you tried to find your way out of argument with kisses,cuddles and affection.and he hated it because no matter how many times you try to do it,

he always fell for it.

he doesnt like how you have control over him,how he cant resist your charm,your touch,your lips.

he let out a small breath through his nose and kissed you back while sucking his anger inside and tried to focus on you,and the pleasure you were giving him.

god he hated how vulnerable he was around you,how you were the only person who could bring out sides of him that no-one else has;

but did he?

it was fine.they were Dazais reports anyway,

only this time he has to do his work himself.

reblogs are way too much appreciated! <3

that’s his little brother.

this chapter did more then just BREAK ME 😭😭😭 like he’s looking so weak and fragile and SO SMALL in verlaine’s arms HE WAS JUST A KID 😭😭😭😭😭 I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE

(pls don’t look at the hands….)

✦ Dazai and Chuuya childhood headcanons (2/2) ✦

part 1

!!! THIS POST CONTAINS STORMBRINGER SPOILERS !!!

♫ Orchard - OMORI

✧ warnings : STORMBRINGER SPOILERS・mentions of s*icide, death, hospitalization, alcoholism, etc.・angst・pure angst…・ooc (???)

✧ a/n : got way too long im sorr… but I love chuuya so much and all these headcanons have been eating dust in the back of my head and im so happy (lie) to finally post them

w/c : 950

!!! these are just personal headcanons and are not accurate to the canon story !!!

✦ Chuuya :

Chuuya’s parents weren’t blessed with a child even after years of marriage…

…So when he was born, they were so happy that they celebrated 3 days and nights (like the real Chuuya Nakahara !!)

Such a sweet boy… very polite and a tiny bit shy

He actually had an amazing bond with both his parents

And they loved him a lot, too!

How mini Chuuya would help his mom around the house, how he would randomly tell her that he loves her :,^)

Chuuya was probably interested in his father’s work (military doctor, like the real Chuuya’s father!!)

AUGHH he would peek at his dad working with those big blue curious eyes

Also, unlike Dazai, I headcanon that Chuuya has siblings!

2 little sisters!!

When his first little sister was born, he was probably around 3 or 4

Was quick to grow attached to his sister

And when his second sister came around, he was around 7

Was very overprotective of his sisters, and had a big soft spot for them

Would piggyback carry their younger sister every morning to school while holding his other sisters hand

Brilliant kid

Adored by absolutely everyone and everything

Chuuya and the family dinners with the rest of the Nakahara family SIGHHH

His mom always worried about him not eating enough (even though he did.)

His dad developed this hobby and habit of checking Chuuya and his sisters’ heights and mark them on the wall

Chuuya wasn’t the happiest when he figured that his younger sister was nearly the same height as him…

And regarding Stormbringer and how he was put in a lab…

Ohhh how his mom was losing her mind over Chuuya’s father allowing such a thing

His family kind of… grew distant and fell apart from then on

Constant arguing between his parents while he was in the lab… how his sister would cover their younger sister’s ears each time they’d argue

She’d ask where Chuuya had gone every now and then, but it was like a forbidden topic in the house

His mom would either tear up or just lash out on his sister

And his dad would yell and cuss her out, saying things like “Goddammit stop asking stupid questions! He’s fine for god’s sake!!! Be patient and he’ll be back sooner than you think!!!”

Chuuya’s dad wasn’t very happy with the decision he made either

Regretting it like crazy and losing sleep, losing focus…

And once the news broke that their one and only son was dead (aka his clone… fuck stormbringer bro…)

His family was worse than ever before.

Chuuya’s dad cried… a lot. Fell into being an alcoholic for a long time

His sisters? Despite their young age and how they couldn’t wrap their heads around the idea of death…

They were devastated. Completely had their hearts and souls shattered

But his mom… she was the worst out of them all

It broke her so much that she couldn’t even cry over her son’s death

She was left in a daze, unaware of her surroundings and just… in her own world

Though, once it registered in her mind? How she would scream and cry at odd hours of the night, begging for Chuuya…

She would push away anyone who would try to comfort her, hit them and curse them out, only wanting Chuuya

Even though Chuuya’s ‘death’ had sunk in and she understood it, she’d scream at everyone to get away from her and that ‘only Chuuya can come close to her’

S*icide attempts became a regular thing

…the amount of times Chuuya’s dad was called during work hours and just rushed home to stop his wife from taking her life…

His sister lost sleep and stopped being the top student at school because of how difficult everything had become

Their younger sister was a bit better, considering she was small

But it still hurt, she’d call Chuuya out of habit, just to remember that he was never gonna answer her calling out to him

His mom’s situation got so bad that she was hospitalized for years

And even now that the entire Nakahara family has accepted Chuuya’s ‘death’

His mom hasn’t. She’s doing a lot better than before getting hospitalized but…

She always seems to be spaced out. She doesn’t smile or laugh, and even when she does… it seems forced and it’s only for a brief moment

His mom doesn’t talk much, not to anyone

She often spends her time talking to framed pictures of Chuuya. She still cries every now and then, but tries to hide it…

And honestly? I think that Chuuya has considered going back to his family

He’s coincidentally seen his sisters and made sure they got home safely from school/work while watching from afar… then return to his own work

It scares him to go back, not only because of him putting their lives on the line for being a mafia executive

But also because he’s supposed to be ‘dead’. That’s what his family believed and has learned to live with…

So if he were to show up at his childhood home, he’d make them confused

And he can’t even imagine how they would react if he were to go back

So Chuuya just watches over them from a distance…

But maybe, just maybe one day he’ll gather up the courage and listen to the voice in his head telling him to go back

That day won’t be anytime soon, not now. He can’t go back until he’s sure the time is right for him to do so.

Until then, Chuuya just prays that they’ll stay safe and alive…

That’s when he can return to his family, his home…

Same People, Different Hearts

summary: you were one of chuuya's close friends when you both were still in sheep. when he left, you decided to leave and unexpectedly is part of the decays of the angel now. you deciced to meet him again.

characters: chuuya nakahara, you, nikolai gogol, fyodor dostoevsky

word count: 1,070

a/n: let's say first time writing? english isn't my first language, slight ooc, not canon, cringe bye

It's been few days since Chuuya left the sheep. Your life was even emptier and lonelier. He was the reason why you continued to live, but he? He left sheep, he left you. You knew you didn't have the rights to stop his decisions. After Chuuya left, you deciced to find a new path, leaving the sheep. They knew how you feel, the feel of being left by someone precious, someone who was your everything. They appreciated and accepted your decision. You deciced to leave Yokohoma and went somewhere else.

few years later

You landed your foot once again, in Yokohama, your hometown. But this time, not for a visit, something much more, fun. You walked into the cafe trying to spot the purple-haired male, wandering your eyes around to spot him and there he is. You walked directly his table, and bowed your head. He looked up at you, signaling you to sit down. He gave you a soft smile, sipping his tea. You smiled back, “Great to see you again, Dos-kun.”

“Great to see you too, Lyubimaya. How have you been?”

“Still trying my best, may I know what am I supposed to do?”

He chuckled at your question, his purple eyes glaring at you, “Just follow me, and i will give it to you soon.”

"Am I going to kill people, Kolya?!”

“Yes? Unless, you don't have the heart to kill that ginger hat guy. Just kidding! We won't kill anyone, yet.”

“Haha, very funny. Kill yourself.” you replied forcing to yourself laugh, walking away from him, when Nikolai mention him? him! him. You have sudden flashback of the past that happened, but it was in the past now, right? why would you even care about him anymore? why-

“Name-chan! Dont you wanna do a suprise of your arrival? Like let's bom a place! And it was you who bom it! And we let people see a powerful woman you are, and maybe let some of your old friends see you!” he explained, snapping you back to reality. His face was full of ideas and excitement, you didnt want to destroy the clown’s excitement.

“Sounds a bit too much for an intro though.. can I just blow up a car? Bombing something sounds tiring.” you replied, stretching your arm up against the air. He looked at you, tapping his chin, “Alright, blowing up a car it is! Also dove, do you have any plans to meet someone before your introduction?” he asked giving you a wide smile, hugging your shoulders. You coughed, looking at him in confusion, “No? Oh. You meant him? Now you mention it, I wanna bom the Port Mafia so bad..” you sighed shaking your head. “Bom it then~ No one is gonna stop you, well other than him!” he said winking at you, yeah Nikolai definitely want you to meet him.

Yes, you are indeed trying bomb the Port Mafia with Nikolai Gogol. You sat on a bench near the Port Mafia building, waiting for action. The moment you blinked, an explosion happen infront of the place, it was action time!

You slowly fly up trying to locate where the clown is, he was nowhere to be seen, I guess he has more plans to come out with. You landed your feet on the ground, slowly walking infront of the building. Before even reaching up, you were met by a hundreds of guards holding guns. It was according to plan, and it turns out he was infront of the guards. Him. Him who was the reason for you to live, now he's just no one to you. His eye widen in disbelief seeing you, his old friend, his partner. You could see him trembling, not expecting of your arrival. You only chuckled at him, not showing any sadness nor happiness to him, just pure hatred and madness. Why did he left you? Weren't you enough? What did you wrong? What did you do to deserve this? You hate him, you hate him with your whole heart, he left you without any single goodbye. What a jerk.

He slowly walked to you, but you told him to stop there. He didn't deserve you, you didn't deserve him either. You could see tears forming in his eyes but you didn't care. “N-name, is that, really you?”

“I will let you guess that.”

You both were having an eye contact with eachother. His eyes fill with sadness and guilt, while yours filled with hatred and madness. Same people, different hearts.

“Suprise, I guess?” you chuckled, leaning closer to him, twirling his hair.

He took both of your hand, and palm it with his. His eyes was filled with tears.

“How are you? Are you okay? Where have you bee-”

“Shouldn't I be the one asking you questions?”

“What..? What do you mean-”

Before he even finishes his question, you let out your feelings, your pain because of him.

“Chuuya. Do you ever fucking realized that you left me? You left me! I don't give a shit what reason you have but leaving me was too far. You were the reason, t-the reason I continue to live! And you fucking left me? Seriously?” you stuttered those words that are coming out of your mouth, your tone trembling, a tear leaving your eye. You couldn't handle the pain, everyone keeps leaving you. Leaving you to the point that you don't even trust anyone anymore, everyone is just a bunch of liars. You tried to let go of his grip of your hand, but he continued to grip hard your hand, not letting go. His eyes were widen in shock of your words, he didn't knew what you felt. He didn't mean any of this.

“I'm sorry, I'm really.. sorry. I didn't mean to leave you. I swear I didn't mean that at all. I didn't want to lose you-”

“Shut up! I don't need your bullshit! You’re too late to apologize now, don't you think?” you forcefully let go of his grip, and it worked. Tears were flowing out of his eyes, he felt guilty. His heart was broke into pieces, but yours already broke first. Before you turn around to leave, he hugged you, not wanting to let go. He hide himself on your shoulder, mumbling sorry’s to you. This time you didn't force to let go of his grip, you allowed him to hug you. Tears ran out of your eyes, and you finally hugged him back. He felt you embracing him, tears continue to flow out of his eyes.

thank you for reading <3 IM SO SO SORRY IF IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE LOL (i was bored)