The Internet Archive Was Hit. Change Your Passwords!

The Internet Archive was hit. Change your passwords!

Also if you're pro-Palestine like I am you will know that hitting the archive is a terrible idea. Its not owned by any government. Its a nonprofit that is for preservation of media. I am all for activism but this is not it.

-Amber (she/they/it/star/shine/rot)

Look, this is what moral OCD is like for me:

I walk past a piece of paper. I don’t pick it up because I had a long day at work and it’s very cold outside. This then becomes my internal monologue:

I didn’t pick up that piece of paper, I should have. Don’t I care about the environment? It’s not my trash, I shouldn’t have to pick it up. But also that’s how these things happen right? We place the blame on others as our environment degrades. It was just a piece of paper, it’s not like it can do that much damage. But also how do I know: I’m not an environmental expert. Maybe stray paper scraps are killing the frogs. You’re literally killing the frogs. You should look up how many frogs die a year so you know how shitty you are-No stop it.

I care about the environment, and I recycle and I joined green activism movements but is that enough? I could be doing more. I should be doing more. I should donate my entire check to charity. But isn’t it self serving to think that my one check could help that much? Do I really think I’m that important, how self entitled and-no stop it, reset! You are obsessing and if you fall for it, you will not eat dinner. Let it go.

Okay it’s just a piece of paper. It’s okay you skipped it this once: it could have had something dangerous on it. Yeah that makes sense. But also, that means I’m putting my own safety over trying to help the environment, which is very selfish of me. I’m just one shitty person: god how could I be so self absorbed. I should have picked up the piece of paper. I’m so selfish, and shitty and-no, no, stop it! This is not helpful. It’s fine.

It’s been a long day and I’m cold, that’s not a crime- no that’s being selfish again, you’re making excuses. You’re just a lazy piece of shit who doesn’t care about others, and selfish and God the fact you’re thinking this much about one piece of paper shows how selfish you are, you care more about if you’re a good person than anything else, you’re a piece of shit, you’re a piece of shit, YOU’RE A PIECE OF SHIT.

I get home and open up Tumblr. The first post I see says “if you don’t reblog this post about the environment you’re as complicit as an oil billionaire.” I close my computer and resign myself to looking up the state frog populations until I go to bed.

I don’t eat dinner.

The amount of frogs that die a year is somewhere from 200 million to over 1 billion.

Just a note. I'm not going to be reblogging guilt trippy posts. No matter what is in the post. I have terrible OCD that is easily triggered by this. My mental health is bad. I will be doing this for my own safety.

-Amber (she/they/it/star/shine/rot)

“don’t let it bother u” baby i’m gonna be bothered by this for the next 10 years

I'm so Nancy coded (overstimulated and angry at the world).

My bimbo outfit for now until I can get a better hair. This current hair is nice but I kinda still wanna change it. Also don't mind me I am very broke.

My username is eraofamberlynn if you wanna send me a gift or something.

I'm doing good leveling up so far! I'm thankful for the interactions.

⚠️Warning: Ximboland is a mature game. Minors DNI.⚠️

-Amber (she/they/it/star/shine/rot)