HARD THOUGHT !

HARD THOUGHT !

pairing: jay x fem!reader x heeseung

wc: 987 words

cw: smut, threesome, birthday sex, double penetration, usage of nicknames.

warning: 18+ content, minors dni

a/n: its super rushed but happy birthday @heesuncore 💗

You wondered what your roommates would be up to this year, granted they did go out of their way to get you a cake, surprising you the exact second as the clock hit twelve, indicating that you were finally a year older. The surprise was sweet considering you hadn’t known each other for more than a month, being new roommates.

However, a lot had changed over the span of a year, which also included your current relationship with the boys. You were close, and the boys were overprotective when it came to you, which was endearing enough as it was, yet you never expected them to genuinely spoil you, getting you your favourite flowers, snacks, and also cooking for you whenever they got the time to do so. They kept you entertained, always, and you would be lying if you say that you didn’t have even the tiniest bit of attraction towards the two boys, Jay and Heeseung.

They looked godly, they carried themselves with the utmost respect too, which only made you fall deeper for both of them. Which brings you back here: Your eyes were covered with a silky black cloth, which blocked your vision perfectly as Hee and Jay stood on either side of you, holding your arm to guide you into your room, a sweet scent of cake lingering in the air, mixed with something vanilla flavoured, which you couldn’t quite pinpoint.

Jay opened your blindfold to reveal your decorated room, full of balloons and polaroids everywhere, scented candles lit up and a pretty cake kept on the centre of your bed. The biggest smile graced your face, the boys mirroring your expression soon after. Jay and Heeseung held the cake up together, the candles illuminating your face as you closed your eyes, wishing for the things you wanted so deeply before blowing the candles.

“Happy birthday, sweetheart,” both the boys whispered, feeding you little bites of the cake before keeping it aside, their attention solely on you, especially when you pulled them into a hug, “ready for your gift?” They asked, making you look up at them in confusion.

“Wasn’t this a gift though?” You asked and they stepped closer, Heeseung’s finger caressing your cheek, “do you trust us?” He asked, and you shivered with how Jay’s warm hand rested on your waist, “tell us, baby,” he mutters, his voice raspier than ever, your knees felt weak just by this.

“I do,” you manage to let out, eyes fluttering close, feeling Heeseung’s lips on your neck, “yeah? Then are you okay with this, baby?” He asks, his hand slipping inside your top, brushing his fingers against your under boob.

“Say it, princess,” Jay urges you, his lips leaving featherlight kisses on your jaw, trailing down to your neck.

“Yes,” you say, letting the boys take over, your heart beating out of your chest as they helped you get on your bed, Heeseung being the first to make you gasp, his lips capturing yours in a fervent kiss, Jay using that time to get rid of your top, your back arching the second he took your tits in his mouth, the other hand fondling and paying attention to your other tit.

It felt like heaven. You would have never thought that any of them would even make such advancements, but having the two of them together was beyond your imagination, your whole body felt as if it was on fire.

“That’s it, baby. Be a good girl for us, let us please you, yeah? Our pretty birthday girl,” Jay says the second Heeseung leans back, his nose buried in your neck.

“So fucking pretty,” he whispers, coming down to slide your pants down, a whimper leaving your mouth at the sight of Jay removing his shirt, his pants coming off next. Your eyes widened for two reasons; one because Heeseung had fully immersed himself in eating you out, his pointy nose brushing against your clit. Second, Jay tapped your cheek, pushing his cock inside the warmth of your mouth, both boys groaning as they drowned in the pleasure of you.

You moaned around Jay’s length, especially when Heeseung’s tongue flicked your clit in the best way possible, “oh god,” you breathed out, lip bitten to conceal your moans. They continued their ministrations for a while, Jay joining Heeseung as he rubbed his thick fingers, pushing them inside your cunt, your walls clenching around them.

“That’s it our prettiest birthday girl, let go,” Heeseung coos, watching you shake as you fall apart on Jay’s fingers.

But they didn’t stop there, pumping their cocks, spreading your juices all over their length before Heeseung looked in your eyes, Jay positioning you on his lap, letting Heeseung enter your pussy first, your eyes watering at the stretch but it felt too good to even speak. Jay caressed your face, kissing the expanse of your skin to soothe out your nervousness.

Jay couldn’t hold back anymore, pushing his cock in your already stuffed cunt, this time Heeseung taking the initiative to kiss your lips as a distraction, letting Jay fill you in along with him. Soon, they both were groaning, praising you alongside for taking their cocks so well, the stimulation of their own cocks brushing against each other making them go crazier than usual, they had you right where they wanted you.

“Happy birthday, princess,” they both said the second you reached your state of euphoria, making sure you felt good through and through, emptying their cum inside you and you felt fuller than ever.

They both knew how overstimulated you felt, and they made sure to clean you up, showering you with kisses all over, you giggles only making them smile at you, the aftercare was everything you had wished for and more. But what made you feel even happier was how they both held you to sleep.

It was the best birthday gift ever indeed.

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PRÉCIS: you used to be best friends with sunghoon back in high school but that all changed the moment he had gotten popular. a new year of college has started and you got invited to the first frat party on campus. a night of truth of dare landed you alone with him in his bedroom giving you both the chance to rekindle a lost love and friendship.

PAIRING: fratboy!sunghoon x fem!reader.

GENRE: smut, fluff, college au.

RATING: rated-r. [MINORS DNI.]

WARNINGS: protected sex, fingering, love confession, aftercare, instances of begging, and dirty talking, appearances from heeseung, jay and jake.

WORD COUNT: 3,072.

You and your roommates had just arrived at the most popular fraternity on campus. Guys and girls lined the lawn, music blasting, drinks being thrown. It had only started two hours ago and it already looked like a turn out that would be talked about for the rest of the school year.

A part of you should have stayed back at your dorm and get a head start on your assignments but you were sort of tired of being the odd one out when it came down to actually having fun. Breaching the threshold of the frat you were instantly hit with this thick aroma of beer, sex and sweat.

You were instantly dragged onto the dance floor, reluctant at first but fun, you were here to have some fun. A smile started to form on your lips, drinks were passed around and you quickly melted into the dance scene. Your hips swayed as you moved about the living room floor. Sharing laughs with your friends when he finally decided to show his face.

Sunghoon. The most handsome guy on campus that you used to consider a friend but the moment he had gotten popular it was like you and everyone else that were deemed to be “losers” had faded into the background. You shouldn’t be staring but you couldn’t bring yourself to look away. You nursed the cup of beer in your hand, eyes boring into the back of his head and the moment he turned around it was like you instantly grew still.

Your eyes met, this twinge of devilish ness in his eyes a smirk adorned those perfect pink lips of his. He shot a playful wink in your direction before turning back to his friends. You blinked, not truly believing that he actually acknowledged you in some way. You looked down for a moment and smiled before the music came to a stop. Heeseung, the president of the frat, stood up on the table and shouted.”Truth or Dare is about to go down in the backyard, if you aren’t a scared loser come on out and join us for some real fun!”

Everyone screamed and shouted in waves of excitement, your friends nudging you with their elbows.``You should definitely go play. You've been speaking about wanting to do different things since the summertime and now is your chance, maybe even Sunghoon will play. You can’t ever stop talking about him.” They all laughed and whistled as that noticeable look of embarrassment had appeared on your face.

It wasn’t true you didn’t talk about him all the time, well, maybe you did they were right. On any other given day you would never work up the nerve to even be in the same room with him but you missed your friend more so you had loved him and you still did. You sucked in a deep breath before making your way through the crowd and out into the backyard. Heeseung and Sunghoon were in the circle with a few other familiar faces from the frat Jay and Jake, making jokes before you finally sat down across from them.

This was it, you weren’t going to be a coward you had to see this night through. You listened attentively as the rules were explained, the other girls beside you were giggling like idiots as they spoke about how hot the guys were. A ping of jealousy stinging you at the mention of Sunghoon, they sat there and nearly drooled over him. Disgusting.

Jake started off the game, round by round the truths and dares had reached a new level of extreme. From taking shots to jumping off the balcony into the pool you were happy that you seemed to skate by without having to do anything risky. That was until it was Sunghoon’s turn to move forward and spin the bottle. It seemed like every guy and girl was secretly wishing that it landed on them but the moment the bottle stopped you couldn’t believe that it actually landed on you.

All eyes were instantly on you, some were laughing, whistling and while others were huffing and rolling their eyes making their disdain of you being chosen extremely obvious. Heeseung rubbed his hands together and smiled as he looked between you and Sunghoon, before he asked that very question you already dreaded having to answer.”So, y/n, truth or dare?”

Truth or Dare. Truth or Dare? You could be a coward and pick truth and get some boring question and get on with the game but then you wouldn’t get the chance to speak to him and him alone. You looked over your shoulder at your friends, they gave you encouraging smiles as a chant broke out around you.”Truth or Dare. Truth or Dare. Truth or Dare. Truth or Dare.” You sucked in a deep breath before answering.”Dare, I choose dare.”

All of the frat boys exchanged knowing looks as if they knew something that you didn’t. Heeseung stood behind Sunghoon who oddly looked just as nervous as you did. He gave you a small smile, as you both waited for your fates to be sealed.”I dare you to go up to Sunghoon’s room with him, don't come out until we come and get you.”

You nervously played with your thumbs as you smiled, dropping your head down before slowly getting up onto your feet. You let go of that breath you forgot you were holding as Sunghoon had done the same. He took a step forward in your direction, still he didn’t say a word he just held out his hand for you to take. You bit your lip lightly before placing your hand into the palm of his own.

The loud cheering and a few glances of eye rolling was enough to make you want to sink into the floor but thankfully Sunghoon had caught sight of that. His thumb ran over your own in a sign of comfort as he led you up the stairs to his room. Surprisingly, it was neater than your own room back at the dorm. The moment the door clicked closed you both stood there before he had finally cut that tension.

“We don’t have to do anything that you don’t want to do. We can just sit and talk, or whatever.” Sunghoon laughed nervously, his hand raising to rub the back of his neck. And for a split second he was that guy that you had once been friends with all that time ago. You gave him a smile before looking around his room, taking a seat on the edge of his bed.”It took for a game of truth or dare for you to bother talking to me.”

Sunghoon cleared his throat and nodded. He took a step closer, dropping down onto his knees in front of you.”It’s not that I didn't want to talk to you, y/n. I was ashamed of how much time that I let pass that I just really didn’t know what to say to you. I know us growing apart was my fault and I just thought you were better off without me interrupting your world.” He moved his hands to rest on top of your knees, eyes peering up into your own.

There was that look, he was so beautiful, so handsome, just so fucking perfect that you couldn’t bring yourself to be mad at him anymore. Communication goes both ways and you had the same opportunities to approach him but you never did. You placed your hands over his own, smiling as you leaned forward and pressed a kiss onto his cheek.”It’s my fault too, I honestly thought you hated me or that you found out how much I liked you.”

You did like him, and you still do. And, it was the first time in a while that you could actually admit it out loud to anyone. Sunghoon’s brows raised as he took a moment to process your ‘confession’ he would have spoken sooner but between the unexpected kiss to his cheek and those words he had wished he heard years ago he was stumped. He merely leaned forward, closing the gap between you two as his soft lips met your own.

The invisible strings around your heart tugging as you melted into the kiss. Your hands raised to cup either side of his face, sighing lightly before he pulled away. An instant smirk spreads across his lips.”I’ve always liked you too but as you can see I’m terrible at confrontations especially when it comes to my feelings. If you’ll allow it I’d love for us to start over? Give a big dope like me a chance to make up for lost time.”

At that you laughed because it all felt so surreal. Who knew what would have happened if you two just broke the ice when you were both still friends. You nodded your head slowly, pecking his lips lightly as you whispered.”Yes, I'd love to.” The synergy in the room had shifted at the announcement of a shared infatuation and desire for one another. The moment his lips met yours once more it solidified all the feelings you two had harbored.

His big, strong hands moved up to rest upon your waist, fingers running along the skin of your stomach, the presence of the cold metal from his rings making you gasp. This is what you had always wanted to be with him in every way possible. Your fingers ran through his soft black locks, gently tugging at the root. It earned you a groan that followed with a quick movement of pushing you gently onto your back. His large frame climbs up to hover over you, eyes scaling your face before his hands find the bottom of your shirt.”Is this okay?”

Yes. It was because you had waited for this for what felt like forever. You smiled as you moved his hands out of the way, your back lifting slightly as you pulled your shirt up and over your head, discarding it on the floor. It made you giggle because he immediately did the same. You both stared at one another, taking each other in. Hands moving along bare flesh, finger tips running over the perfectly crafted set of abs.

He captured your lips in another kiss, more passionate than the one previously. He moved his hands over the button of your jeans, popping them as the sound of the zipper descending cut through the air of the room. He pushed the fabric down over your hips, until they had reached your ankles. They added to the pile on the floor and before you both knew it all that was left was the boxer briefs that fit snug on his hips.

His head dropped down as he trailed kisses along your chest, fingers gliding over your puffy wet lips. He dipped two digits in between your folds, teasingly circling one over your clit. Soft moans sounded out as your hips eagerly rolled against his own. Each second that passed by the urge for him to ruin you had increased.”P-please, more.” Was all you managed to get out before he pulled back to rest on his knees.

He smirked and shook his head as fingers probed at your entrance.”Sh, I have to open you up first. I don’t want to hurt you.” That thought of being stretched open without any preparation had instantly spun through your mind. You gave him a playful pout before nodding your head, your mouth falling open as he slowly plunged his thick, long fingers inside of you. The stretch was delicious and fuck, if you weren’t so keen of relishing this moment you would have told him to go faster.

His eyes were dark, glazed over with lust as he watched you shake underneath him. Every moan that fell from your pretty lips made his cock twitch and throb. The first finger was easy, the second was great, but the third and fourth sent you into a world of bliss as he fucked you open. He worked you up to so high where you felt like you were almost ready to jump off that imaginary cliff before he pulled his fingers from your core. You were fully prepared to complain but watching him suck your juices from his fingers had shut you up.

“You are so beautiful, I didn’t expect to ever have you in my bed but now that I do. I will honor every moment you allow me to spend with you.” Sunghoon gave you a genuine smile as he leaned over the side of the bed to reach into his drawer, he pulled out a condom before settling back into between your legs. He dropped the large golden package onto your stomach. You gulped as you watched him with anticipation, your pussy clenching around nothing as you waited to see what hid behind his boxers.

He maintained eye contact with you as he slowly tugged the black fabric down his hips, his thick, veiny cock sprung forward, tip red and angry as it desperately sought its release. You gasped at the sight in front of you, that cocky smirk of his returning as he cocked his head to the side.”You okay?” He chuckled as he picked up the condom, tearing it open expertly with his teeth. All you could do is nod you were speechless. He moved his hand to fist his cock, stroking it slowly before he placed the condom over the tip.

His face contorted slightly as he rolled the rubber down over his thick flesh until it reached the base. He gently moved forward to position himself in between your legs. Your teeth were biting so hard in your lip, blood was almost drawn. You wanted this, you wanted him so fucking much and now you could finally have him. He slapped his cock against your lips, teasingly gliding it in between your folds as it gathered up your juices.

Sunghoon dropped down so you were both leveled at the eyes, he stared deep into your soul as he guided the tip down to your entrance. He whispered words of comfort as he slowly pushed in, you both gasped at the invasion. Him cursing over how tight and wet you were and you whining about how big and thick he was. You moved your shaky hands to rest on the small of his back as he slowly worked up a steady pace.

The smooth glide of his cock against your walls had your toes curling, unable to control how loud you managed to moan. His lips dragged along your neck and chest, leaving bites and marks behind in a trail. He grounded himself as he slid in deeper, each thrust got rougher and the shared sounds of moans and groans hit off every wall of his room. He fucked you so hard that every thrust had punched air out of you.

His nails dug into your hips, sweat forming at his brows as his hair stuck to his forehead. He looked even more ethereal than he had before. He loved nothing more than watching you moan and scream, and the moment he found that spot it was like you went completely numb. His fingers ran over your clit as he pounded into your core, the head of his cock repeatedly jabbing against your cervix. You whined, you screamed, your legs shook, back arched as your walls clamped down around him.

He knew you were close and wanted to watch as you came on his cock. All it took was one last thrust before you exploded.”Sunghoon, f-fuck!” You screamed out as you roughly came, eyes rolling as your nails clawed at his back. A soft chuckle escaped him as he kissed your cheek, nose, and forehead.”You did so good for me.” He whispered lowly, a weak smile spreading across your lips as that feeling of bliss washed over you.

His arms wrapped tightly around your frame as he held you against his chest. Even though your climax passed he was still chasing his own. His moans and groans were so melodic and pretty, the sound of your skin smacking against one another grew more erratic as his hips snapped forward. Every thrust was rough and consistent until they started to waiver. His head fell down to rest against your chest as his cum filled the condom.

You both laid there in a shared silence, trying to catch your breath. You smiled warmly as you patted his head, fingers running along his scalp before he slowly pulled out and laid beside you.”Wow.” Was all he could manage as he pulled off the condom, he tied it off and tossed it into the trash can. You looked over at him, watching as his long arms reached for a pack of wipes. He had muttered words of showering later but for now you happily laid there as he wiped you clean.

That moment you shared with him was so perfect that you didn’t need to describe it.”That was amazing, I may have thought about that happening once or twice before and yet you surpassed all expectations.” You both laughed as he pulled on his boxers, tossing one of his shirts in your direction. You pulled the large blue shirt onto your frame, smiling as you slid under the covers. Not too long after he had finally joined you, pulling you into his chest as he rubbed your back.

You both were absolutely spent and moving certainly wasn’t something either of you had planned on doing until his phone had vibrated. He rolled his eyes playfully and kissed your forehead as he turned to grab his phone. You had every intention of looking away but he opened his phone and the message from Heeseung right in front of you.

📱: Heeseung “You both should thank me for getting you two to fuck, yes I was listening and thank you for the ear show.”

You looked at one another and laughed before he placed his phone back down the desk. You had finally found your way back to your favorite guy, and peacefully fell asleep in his arms. You didn’t know what the future held but you opted on spending every minute with him if you possibly could.

Author when is my perfect mannequin comming out ??😢😢

Hey love 🤍

I already make the masterlist for the series and I might post it by today after the final check. Chapter 1 will be up by this Saturday once I settle up at my dorm. This past few days I working on my final year project report as my final degree semester is coming up.

But don't worry, I already have a few drafts of the chap including the Temptation - somehow this might have a few parts (while making the story) eventho I plan to make it as oneshort only. So I will finish up both of them and will drop both tomorrow! 😊

I mean DAMN, with delecis school outfit, I'm melt- 🥹🤍

(still can't believe that the dark moon webtoon already ended TT)

Bestie I think you should make separate accounts for writing and reblogging 😭😭

OHO 😭😭😭😭

Imagine that I didn't expect to start writing the story here. I might create my main masterlist and put the link for story recommendations. Or I can even create a new #, so it's easy for anyone to check other authors work 🫶🏻 (plus, I'm afraid I forgot the password/existence of another acc since I have many things to remember lol)

I try to minimise the reblog and consider listing out my all time fav oneshot/drabble/series just for you guys 🥹

new beginnings...

( angst/fluff) jay, jake x f!reader oneshot

masterlist ✿⁠ 

warnings! - { heartbreak, crying, swearing, reader struggling to move on, slight crack, kissing, hugging, fluffy ending ! } !! not proofread !!

!!! let me know if I missed anything

!!! english is NOT my first language so please be nice ♡

( a/n ! : this story is inspired by a german song called scheine zählen ! )

♡ 2.5 k words ! ♡

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You wanted him to be happy. 

No... you needed him to be happy. That's the only Reason why you left him. 

You wanted to be in his arms so bad. You wanted to kiss him so bad. But thinking about it made you feel selfish. You knew you were no good for each other, and breaking up was probably the best option for you two. But now you were all alone in your cold room, staring at the dried roses Jay once gifted you when you started dating. Your gaze was empty, and your heart felt heavy. It felt weird not having him around. Jay was your first love. And even though you hurt each other a lot, you knew that you would always love him. And he would always love you. Jay felt the exact same way in that moment. He had no idea how he was supposed to love someone else one day. He was sitting on the floor of his bedroom, softly choking on his tears as he thought about all the things he wanted to say to you. He didn't even think twice before taking his phone to send you a text. Texting you probably wasn't the best idea in that moment, but he needed you to know how much he loved and appreciated you before you both go back to strangers. He knew it would happen someday. 

Jay :  Y/N ... I never wanted to lose you. And I'll miss everything about you, but we both know we're better off without each other. I need you to know how sorry I am for everything that happened between us. I know you're sorry as well, and i forgive you. I really want you to be happy. I want to see you smile. And i hope you end up finding someone who loves you as much as I do. I'll miss you, but I'll be okay as long as you're happy. You deserve to be happy. And I need you to know, that the very last kiss we shared earlier means everything to me. I know we weren't perfect, but i loved you with all my heart. And I'm sorry I wasn't able to show you that. I promise you  mean so much to me, and you always will ! I love you so much, Y/N. We'll be alright ... 

You were silently reading the text with tears in your eyes. You and Jay were over. And you had no idea if you're ever gonna see him again. ,,Goodbye Jay...'' You whispered to yourself, holding your phone close to your chest. You knew you needed to move on. You needed to heal. And you knew, that it would take a lot of time. Because you did love him. And you did miss him. A lot. 

6 months later...

Things were going alright. You haven't talked to Jay since your breakup ... he was gone.

You met someone new. His name was Felix. But he didn't laugh like Jay. He didn't kiss like Jay. His skin wasn't as soft as Jay's. He held you in his arms, but his hugs weren't as warm and comforting as Jay's.

He made you miss him. And that's when you realized, you weren't over your Ex Boyfriend yet. You felt incredibly guilty for feeling this way .. but you couldn't help it. You missed Jay so much. You missed the way you would cuddle on the backseat of his car and just talk for hours. You missed the way he touched you. You even missed the arguments you had with him, and the way you would make up after.

Felix couldn't make you feel the way Jay made you feel. So when Felix asked you to be his Girlfriend, you rejected him. You felt like an asshole. But your heart and soul was longing for Jay, and you couldn't do anything about it. You needed more time to heal. And you had no intention of hurting Felix. You didn't want him to feel useless or weird. So you decided to be honest to him. He deserved better ... he was a good guy after all. Jay still felt the same Way about you. But things were easier for him. He had a big group of friends who would cheer him up whenever he felt down. It didn't always help, but he still appreciated them. Because he caught himself missing you as well. It was hard staying away from you, but he knew he needed to stay strong. 

another 4 months later...

You were slowly healing. You got back in touch with an old friend you met in kindergarten a long time ago. He was also a good friend of Jay. Jake.  It was nice having him around. He was good at cheering you up whenever you cried, and his hugs were the absolute best. Plus, he was an amazing friend to you. ,,I'm bored. Wanna do something ?...'' Jake asked, watching you stare at the ceiling tiredly. ,,I kinda wanna stay in bed ...I'm feeling kind of depressed today '' Jake furrowed his eyebrows. ,,Why's that ?'' He asked , sounding worried. You only shrugged your shoulders. Jake immediately knew what was wrong. ,,You should get over him, Y/N .. It's been a year. '' You bit your bottom lip, trying to hold back your tears. He knew you so well.  ,,Let me cry one last time before moving on alright ?'' Jake softly smiled as he nodded his head lightly. He sat down next to you and pulled you close to his chest, letting you cry as much as you needed. He comforted you by gently caressing your back, and kissing the crown of your head carefully. He didn't want you to feel uncomfortable. ,,You'll be alright... I promise.'' He whispered into your ear, as you sobbed into his chest. And as you promised, it actually was the last time you cried over your ex boyfriend. 

approximately 1 year later...

You and Jake got invited to a small party by some old friends. You were nervous, but you felt happy at the same time. You haven't seen them in a while. ,,Soo .. who's coming ?'' You asked Jake, nervously fiddling with your hands. ,,Heeseung will be there for sure. Jungwon, Sunoo, Riki and Sunghoon will be there as well. And i'm sure Sunghoon invited some of his friends as well. I don't really know them tho..'' Jake responded, focusing on the street as he drove. ,,Alright...'' You said, looking at Jake with a warm smile on your face. Your heartbeat got faster when Jake parked in front of Sunghoon's house. ,,Are you nervous ?'' Jake asked, clearly worried about the way you were shaking. ,,Yeah. I haven't seen them since you know .. the breakup. It's been a while.'' Jake smiled softly. He gently put his arm around your shoulder, before slowly guiding you into Sunghoon's house.

Once you greeted everyone, you immediately felt less nervous. ,,What have you guys been up to ?'' Jake curiously asked, as he sat down next to you. ,,I recently moved out of town because my girlfriend broke up with me. And that child over there has a girlfriend now ! Can you believe it ?'' Heeseung said, pointing at Riki making everyone laugh. And as you all were busy teasing Riki, you heard the door open behind you.

,,He's here !'' Jungwon shouted excitedly, making everyone look at the person who just entered the house. Everyone but you. Without even looking at him, you immediately recognized his voice. You recognized his scent, and even his footsteps.

,,Jay...''  You silently whispered to yourself.

Your heart shattered into a million pieces when you turned around to look at him. He wasn't alone.

He brought a girl ... his girlfriend.

Your breath hitched when your eyes locked. He looked happy. He was smiling. Seeing him like this made you feel happy as well, but seeing him with someone else in his arms hurt like hell. ,,Hey.. are you okay?'' Jake whispered into your ear, caressing your back softly. You nodded your head silently, chewing on your lip. ,,Why don't you sit down ?'' Jungwon said, signalling Jay and his Girlfriend to sit down on an empty couch. You could tell Jay felt kind of bad. The way he looked at you in pity explained a lot. He didn't know you were gonna be there.

,,I feel like i should introduce myself... my name is Sabrina. It's so nice to meet you guys.'' The girl next to Jay spoke up, making everyone smile. Even you tried to force a smile, which didn't really work.

You watched her cuddle up against Jay before quickly pecking his Lips.

,,Excuse me...'' You quietly said, before getting up from the couch. Jake worriedly watched you run away to the bathroom before silently following you, waiting for you to come out. He gently knocked on the door, listening to the quiet sobs coming from the other side. But you didn't even hear him.

You were concentrating on keeping your breath steady, crying uncontrollably. And when Jake finally knocked loud enough for you to hear, you immediately opened the door.

Jake quickly stepped in before closing the door behind him, immediately pulling you into his arms after. ,,Shhh.. Everything will be fine. We'll get through this together. I know you're in a lot of pain right now but I promise you'll get through this.'' Jake assured you, gently kissing your temple. You whimpered at his soft touch. He held you in his arms for a few more minutes, before making you look at him. ,,No more crying, remember ?'' He said, softly wiping your tears away. ,,Jake ?'' You whispered, looking directly at him. ,,What ?'' You sighed deeply. 

,,Thank you'' 

,,For what ?'' 

,,For being there for me...I really appreciate you.''

Jake smiled softly as he pulled you into another tight hug. ,,Should we leave ?'' Jake quietly asked. ,,Yes, please'' You mumbled. Jake giggled softly. ,,My House or your House ?'' He asked. ,,My House'' You quickly answered before taking his hand to pull him out of the Bathroom.

As you were both saying your goodbyes, you decided to look at Jay one last time. And to your surprise, he immediately locked eyes with you.

You weakly smiled at him. The smile was barely visible since you were still hurting, but it was there. And you knew Jay appreciated it. He couldn't help but softly smile back. The love in his eyes was gone, but you had already accepted that. You weren't meant for each other. And that's okay. You were sure you would find your soulmate one day. You were sure you would find that one person you're meant to be with. 

5 months later...

Another week, another sleepover with your best friend Jake. You've gotten pretty close in the last few weeks, which was great. He gave you lots of strength. ,,Don't move !'' You commanded, before gently applying some more eyeshadow on Jake's eyelid. He chuckled quietly. ,,Can you at least make me look pretty ?'' You silently put the eyeshadow brush aside , before gently applying some blush on his cheeks. ,,Oh you look amazing. Trust me.'' You mumbled, giggling after.

Jake looked at you with sparkly eyes. He secretly really enjoyed this.

,,Should we add some glitter ?'' You asked, looking at the boy in front of you patiently. Jake sighed deeply, knowing he had no other choice. ,,Sure.'' He said, making you laugh in excitement. Your touch was so gentle and careful. Jake softly smiled to himself, hoping you wouldn't notice. But you did. ,,One more step and I'm done ! Go choose a lipstick color, Jake '' Jake quickly walked over to your makeup drawer, and picked the the most bright red lipstick he could find. You looked at him with your eyebrows raised, slightly judging his decision. But you decided to just go for it.

,,I want this one'' He insisted, sitting down in front of you again. You playfully rolled your eyes before taking a new brush so you could apply the lipstick more precisely. Jake felt himself getting nervous about the way you were staring at his lips.

But so were you.

You knew you were slowly catching feelings for Jake. It was obvious. And you knew you were finally ready for someone new.

You've moved on. You weren't hurting anymore.

But you were scared of getting hurt. ,,Y- Y/N ?'' Jake spoke up, making you realize you zoned out. Your face reddened in embarrassment. ,,Sorry..'' You mumbled under your breath, before eventually finishing his makeup. ,,All done'' Jake smiled softly, before finally looking at a mirror. He immediately broke into a fit of laughter. You smiled widely, finding his reaction cute. ,,I look like Trisha Paytas '' He said completely out of breath, making you laugh along almost immediately. ,,C'mere, I'm gonna help you remove it'' You said, pulling him towards you.

Jake giggled when you started wiping the heavy makeup off his face with a makeup wipe. When you were halfway done, he caught himself staring at you. He caught himself staring at your lips, and especially at the way your eyes sparkled whenever you looked at him. You looked at him with so much ... love. And all of a sudden, he couldn't control his body anymore. He gently cupped your cheeks and placed a quick kiss on your lips. You looked at each other in shock.

What the hell just happened.

,,I'm so sorry. I don't know what has gotten into me...'' Jake blurted out, trying not to freak out. He thought he ruined your friendship. He thought you would never talk to him again. But you weren't shocked because he kissed you. You were shocked because it felt so goddamn right. You were shocked by the tingly feeling in your belly when his lips touched yours. You were shocked because you were actually able to heal and fall for someone new.

,,Y/N ? Please say something...'' Your mouth slowly curved into a smile, leaving a confused expression on Jake's face.

You slowly pulled him closer, before softly closing the small gap between your lips. Jake gently pulled you onto his lap, immediately deepening the kiss. His hand travelled down to your waist, pushing your body to his as close as possible. You gently bit his bottom lip during the kiss, making him groan quietly. The way he caressed the small of your back, and smiled against your lips here and there made you want this moment to last forever. ,,I'm in love with you'' You whispered against Jake's lips, out of breath. Jake rested his forehead against yours with his eyes closed, breathing heavily. He had a soft smile on his pink, swollen lips. ,,I love you'' He whispered. You gently brushed your lips over his again, not kissing him this time. ,,You make me so happy'' You confessed shyly. ,,I know. And I'll never stop making you happy. I promise I won't disappoint you.'' 

 Loving Jake was easy. You were more than sure he was the one you were meant to be with. You knew he could make you happy.

,,Be mine, Y/N ''

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