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~~~A BOY WHO~~~

Lee Heeseung fiction

Part 1

Author's pov:

"Dear diary

Seems like a story about a boy who never found his happiness" he wrote while wiping away his tears. He was tired of everything. Tired of school.Tired of family.Tired of friends.Tired of his life.

Suddenly he took of his shirt, got the scissors from his table. He looked at his scars that remind him of the pain he went through his whole life, he looked at the wet pages of his diary that tell him about his hard life and then he looked out of the window. Spring. A season when everything wakes up. Everything wakes up again. After cold and freezing winter everything finds strength and wakes up again forgetting about past. Starting everything again. There was time when those trees with green leaves looked like a stick but now... There was no sun and no hope that sun will come up soon and now...

Tears fell dow from his eyes. He felt happy. Something told him to give second chance to his life. Give a second chance and start everything again. From new page.

The bell rang. Everyone was in the classroom. Heeseung too. He was always smiling and happy boy to everyone but no one knew the truth. Though it was obvious. Always wearing long sleeves, always sitting alone, avoiding eye contact. The teacher entered the classroom but he wasn't alone. There was a girl behind him. She wore their school uniform but no one had seen her before. She was shortie. Black hair with bangs. Cute boba eyes and pink plump lips.

" She's cute" Heeseung thought himself.

Your pov:

- okay Y/N, here's your class. Can you introduce yourself?

- Yes Mr. Park. I can

The teacher guided me to the classroom. When me entered everyone's eyes were on me.

- Hi everyone, I'm L/N Y/N. Nice to meet you.- I said awkwardly

- okay now go and sit somewhere- the teacher Sait to me. I noticed the last seat next to a boy that was free. So I sat there.

As an introvert I didn't even say hi to my seatmate and he did the same.

His pov:

" She sat next to me. Omg. Okay Heeseung don't do anything embarrassing. Don't talk a lot. Just don't talk." I told myself. She is beautiful. Her dark hair reminds me of night sky. Her puffy blush cheeks looked so soft that I already wanted to pinch them. WAIT?! I REALLY DID THAT??!! SHIT

Your pov

I was listening to the teacher when felt that someone pinched my cheeks. I turned around and saw the boy next to me. He looks good.

- what are you doing ? -i whispered to him

- oh. .... Um... Sorry i- I don't know . Just.... Your cheeks .....- he whispered

- What my cheeks ? What's with them? Is there something? - I panicked

- N-no... Just ... They're- he was cut off by the teacher

- Y/N and Heeseung silence- the teacher yelled

So his name is Heeseung. But what he wanted to say about my cheeks. I'll ask later.

The class ended. When I was done packing my things I noticed that Heeseung was already gone.

So I had to look for him. I was running through corridor when I noticed him next to his locker.

His pov:

I was getting my books when I heard someone's heavy breathing. I couldn't see anyone, so I just closed my locker. But behind the locker door was Y/N trying to catch her breath.

- Are you okay?- I asked her

- Yeh I'm okay Heeseung- she said still catching breath. Heeseung? She knows my name? How? She asked anyone? Maybe I was interesting for her?

- How do you know my name? - I asked out of interest

- The teacher said- she said already calmed down. My expectations were wrong. What's this feeling? Why do I feel it? I started to think...

- Hey, Earth to Heeseung. Are you there?- she said snapping her fingers in front of my face

-oh, um yes. What did you wanted to say?

- I just have a question- she said. I didn't say anything and stood there with blank expression.

She sighed. Guess she wanted me something to say.

- What did you wanted to say earlier. About my cheeks.- she said looking down.

-Oh, I wanted to say that your cheeks look cute- i felt embarrassed. Her too. But why.

- o, thanks....-i could see her blush- i-is that all?

- yeah?- I said not looking in her eyes.

- ok then, bye. See you tomorrow - she said running away.

Y/N pov:

His words made me blush really hard. But I never blushed before......

~~~A BOY WHO~~~

Lee Heeseung fiction

Part 1

Author's pov:

"Dear diary

Seems like a story about a boy who never found his happiness" he wrote while wiping away his tears. He was tired of everything. Tired of school.Tired of family.Tired of friends.Tired of his life.

Suddenly he took of his shirt, got the scissors from his table. He looked at his scars that remind him of the pain he went through his whole life, he looked at the wet pages of his diary that tell him about his hard life and then he looked out of the window. Spring. A season when everything wakes up. Everything wakes up again. After cold and freezing winter everything finds strength and wakes up again forgetting about past. Starting everything again. There was time when those trees with green leaves looked like a stick but now... There was no sun and no hope that sun will come up soon and now...

Tears fell dow from his eyes. He felt happy. Something told him to give second chance to his life. Give a second chance and start everything again. From new page.

The bell rang. Everyone was in the classroom. Heeseung too. He was always smiling and happy boy to everyone but no one knew the truth. Though it was obvious. Always wearing long sleeves, always sitting alone, avoiding eye contact. The teacher entered the classroom but he wasn't alone. There was a girl behind him. She wore their school uniform but no one had seen her before. She was shortie. Black hair with bangs. Cute boba eyes and pink plump lips.

" She's cute" Heeseung thought himself.

Your pov:

- okay Y/N, here's your class. Can you introduce yourself?

- Yes Mr. Park. I can

The teacher guided me to the classroom. When me entered everyone's eyes were on me.

- Hi everyone, I'm L/N Y/N. Nice to meet you.- I said awkwardly

- okay now go and sit somewhere- the teacher Sait to me. I noticed the last seat next to a boy that was free. So I sat there.

As an introvert I didn't even say hi to my seatmate and he did the same.

His pov:

" She sat next to me. Omg. Okay Heeseung don't do anything embarrassing. Don't talk a lot. Just don't talk." I told myself. She is beautiful. Her dark hair reminds me of night sky. Her puffy blush cheeks looked so soft that I already wanted to pinch them. WAIT?! I REALLY DID THAT??!! SHIT

Your pov

I was listening to the teacher when felt that someone pinched my cheeks. I turned around and saw the boy next to me. He looks good.

- what are you doing ? -i whispered to him

- oh. .... Um... Sorry i- I don't know . Just.... Your cheeks .....- he whispered

- What my cheeks ? What's with them? Is there something? - I panicked

- N-no... Just ... They're- he was cut off by the teacher

- Y/N and Heeseung silence- the teacher yelled

So his name is Heeseung. But what he wanted to say about my cheeks. I'll ask later.

The class ended. When I was done packing my things I noticed that Heeseung was already gone.

So I had to look for him. I was running through corridor when I noticed him next to his locker.

His pov:

I was getting my books when I heard someone's heavy breathing. I couldn't see anyone, so I just closed my locker. But behind the locker door was Y/N trying to catch her breath.

- Are you okay?- I asked her

- Yeh I'm okay Heeseung- she said still catching breath. Heeseung? She knows my name? How? She asked anyone? Maybe I was interesting for her?

- How do you know my name? - I asked out of interest

- The teacher said- she said already calmed down. My expectations were wrong. What's this feeling? Why do I feel it? I started to think...

- Hey, Earth to Heeseung. Are you there?- she said snapping her fingers in front of my face

-oh, um yes. What did you wanted to say?

- I just have a question- she said. I didn't say anything and stood there with blank expression.

She sighed. Guess she wanted me something to say.

- What did you wanted to say earlier. About my cheeks.- she said looking down.

-Oh, I wanted to say that your cheeks look cute- i felt embarrassed. Her too. But why.

- o, thanks....-i could see her blush- i-is that all?

- yeah?- I said not looking in her eyes.

- ok then, bye. See you tomorrow - she said running away.

Y/N pov:

His words made me blush really hard. But I never blushed before......

DATES WITH ENHYPEN HYUNG LINE

Pairing: bf!enha!hyung line x afab!reader

Genre: flufffffff

Warnings: kissing, fluffy fluff

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Heeseung 🎤🎧🎶

- karaoke date

It was the first week of your relationship and he decided to take you on a date.

- Y/N-ah where do you want to spend your first date? - he sat next to you

- mmm... I don't know. I let you to choose.- you said and turned off your phone.

- okay then we are going to karaoke date.- He said and got up

you had fun there. At first you were shy to sing but then Heeseung turned on your fav song so you couldn't resist and sang with him.

- Y/N your voice is angelic- he said making you blush.

Jay 👗✨🌃

-restaurant date

He told you that he has a surprise for you. Also he told you to wear a fancy dress. When he saw you in that dress he couldn't stop staring at you.

- Is there something wrong?- you asked confused

- no ,it's just you are too pretty- he said smiling

During the whole way to restaurant you both didn't talk. When you came to the place you two had dinner blah blah blah blah blah blah.

- Thanks for dinner Jay

- Thanks for coming - he said hugging your waist and kissing your lips.

Jake 🎥🎬🍿

- movie date

He told you to go to his place so you can watch a movie. He let you choose the movie and brought the popcorn.

When the kissing scene came up you looked at each other and he leaned for a kiss. His kiss was passionate and soft. When you pulled out you blushed.

- cute- he whispered to himself.

Sunghoon ⛸️❄️🌨️

- ice skating date (ofc)

You agreed thought you don't know how to skate. You were always holding Sunghoon's hands so you won't fall. But as always you were clumsy so you fell. You pulled Sunghoon with you and he fell on top of you. He looked in your eyes for seconds and kissed you. You answered to his kiss.

- your lips are so soft Y/N

- stop~

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Hey~

I'm back. Sry I'm kinda late. I had 7 exams. And that shi was stressing. But now I'll try to be active

Love ya<3

I HATE YOU — l.heeseung

PAIRING: best friend's brother!heeseung x fem!reader  GENRES: fluff, humor, smut  WC: 10.7k+

WARNINGS: lots of swearing, arguments, mention of drinking, parties. reports of sex scenes, oral sex (f. receiving), unprotected sex (use caution and protection).

SYNOPSIS: you and your best friend's brother hated each other, almost as a matter of course between the two of you. but something changes when you wake up in his bed at the weekend.

NOTES: i think this story has been in my subconscious for so long, idk why it took me so long to write it. it smells a lot like heeseung to me, so nothing was more fitting than doing it for him. i hope you like it!

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The rule of life is clear when you have a best friend and she has an older brother. Either you fall in love with him, or you don't get along with him and you both hate each other. In your case, more specifically, the second option would fit like a perfect glove. It was like a combo in your background to be best friends with Dahyun, and hate Heeseung, her brother. Not that you'd do it alone, he contributed to every ounce of your body boiling with rage for him.

As if he had been born to unleash the purest feeling of rage in your heart just by entering the room and breathing. But it wasn't as if you nurtured that alone either. Heeseung had the same great anger towards you because, according to him, it was because of you that Dahyun stopped being the innocent little girl she was.

It wasn't a good excuse compared to the times he'd taken you seriously. Still, even so, Heeseung felt angry just being in your presence and knowing that you went to his house and he couldn't do anything but make you angry until he heard you swear at him or try to throw something in his direction. Dahyun was the balance bridge to try to maintain an ounce of harmony between the two of you while you were all together, although it was almost impossible to maintain a pleasant atmosphere whenever you and Heeseung were in the same environment. Which was practically all day long.

There wasn't a single moment when you could get rid of him or he of you, because unfortunately – or fortunately – you were Dahyun's best friend. You met her before you even knew that your best friend had a completely asshole brother. He swore that Dahyun having a friendship would be a quiet thing because she was never one to have many friends. Heeseung would be lying to say that he wasn't looking forward to meeting the first person his younger sister had befriended after entering university.

He just didn't expect you to be introduced to him when Dahyun had her first binge at the frat party, with you holding her hair and introducing yourself as her best friend.

So it's this crazy girl who's my sister's friend? Heeseung's anger may have started first, but you certainly felt it more intensely as the months went by.

Heeseung always found you with Dahyun at insane moments, like the pool party where you lent your best friend your most revealing bikini. That night you threw him into the pool because you two argued, but before you could regret it, he pulled you in with him, getting you wet before you could show off your hours of hard work to maintain the beautiful, wavy hair that took so long to make.

War had been declared, and at every party you and Heeseung attended, something always happened to emphasize how the two of you couldn't stay on the same radar and in the same environment for so long.

Not this last time.

The remnants of last night invaded your mind like a little dream, where you knew it was far from a fantasyland. Friday night was party day at some frat house or at some rich person's house who could afford to buy drinks for a bunch of horny, partying college kids. You and Dahyun always went together, because at the end of the night, you would sleep at her house. And of course that happened. You just didn't expect to be in another Lee's bed.

You took a deep breath after you realized what had happened, remembering the exact moment when you argued with Heeseung. Nothing new for the two of you. But that night something seemed different about the way you and he argued about absolutely everything, like the amount of drink he poured himself. Or how you had accepted a drink from a guy who had handed you a glass because he was going to play and didn't want to drink anymore, Heeseung had scolded you for being reckless and, even if you were, if that had made him angry, then you had done the right thing.

But why were his eyes dark and shiny when he cornered you in the kitchen to swear at you? And why did you lean too far towards him when he tried to take the glass from your hand? The reason was canonized at that moment, with you wrapped in Heeseung's sheets.

The memory of his lips pressing down hard on yours to shut you up, your body almost turning to porridge when he softened to kiss you properly. And why on earth did you give in? Why did you kiss him back looking like you needed it? Your mind knew you did, but never, under any circumstances, would the two of you say that that need was blatant and that you were both waiting for what had happened.

Your thoughts were soon interrupted when a weight slid around your waist. His arms wrapped around you and pulled you close. You effortlessly felt Heeseung's chest pressing against your back. Your whole body stiffened for a few seconds but relaxed – without any explanation – when his hand rested on your stomach and his breath hit the back of your neck.

That breath you felt against your lips after he kissed you, as he whispered one last curse when he took you to his car and then brought you to his house. Heeseung's breath against your skin with every touch he made, with every kiss, sent shivers down your spine. You didn't want to think about the effects he had caused in just one night, while all those months later the only thing you felt for him was anger and disgust. But no, last night it was anything but that that you felt for each other.

You began to wonder how you were going to get out of there. Or worse, how you were going to bump into Dahyun and explain to her that, strangely enough, you had ended up in her brother's bed. It couldn't have been an accident because neither of you got drunk enough to blame it on alcohol, so what? What would you say when asked why you slept with Heeseung?

An involuntary sigh left your lips when he moved again, pressing you a little closer and nestling his face in the crook of your neck. Inhaling all your scent as if it were normal and he'd done it a million times before.

“It's not possible that you're actually doing this” your voice came out without thinking, not at all cordial or subtle as he continued to inhale your scent. You wanted to curse yourself even more as soon as you heard Heeseung's morning laugh. Rude, low, a real sin for your poor body that was processing everything that was still going on.

“What? I don't even get a good morning?” he asked in the same tone as the laugh and every word coming out of his mouth was truly a sin. You'd seen Heeseung after waking up countless times, but it wasn't as if you saw him seconds later as was happening now. Usually, it was a while later, his voice was normal at least, although his face was puffy from sleep and his hair slightly mussed. But it was nothing compared to what you were hearing at that moment.

“You're an idiot, you little shit” your hand went over his hand that was still on your stomach, trying to pull it away “I hate you, now let me go.”

As expected, Heeseung did the opposite of what you asked. Pulling you closer to him and, with the strength he was holding you with, he managed to turn you around and make your body face him.

“You hated moaning my name last night” he smiled with half-lidded eyes “Now why are you playing hard to get?” there was the Heeseung you remembered hating, even though he was so hot in a sleepy, lazy way. You held back with your hands to pull his face in and kiss him, messing up his hair even more and getting lost in those lips that were claimed as yours last night.

“Because—” your voice died right there, you had no answer to that. You didn't know why you were playing hard to get after having slept with him of your own free will.

The victorious smile on Heeseung's lips made you slap his chest, feeling the skin beneath your fingers. Remembering how you touched him and how he felt every shiver go through him every time your fingers slid across him and interspersed with your nails. Heeseung knew that some part of his body was marked by you, but he honestly didn't care.

Your eyes rolled down as soon as you noticed that he was shirtless, looking under the covers as much as you could. He wasn't wearing anything over it and didn't even seem to care about covering his chest when your eyes locked on the spot, your hands still gripping his chest ready to slap it again in case any silly jokes were made. But your face heated up when you noticed that, if he wasn't wearing a T-shirt, you were wearing his.

Heeseung noticed the way you recorded it all, and although it was amusing, he remembered how hot you had looked after putting on his T-shirt to sleep. With nothing underneath, just his clothes covering the curves of your body that he touched, kissed, and marked. And he'd be a dead man if he confessed that he wanted to do it all over again.

“You didn't like wearing my shirt?” he asked, breaking the silence that had settled between the two of you “Just take it off, I remember you're not wearing anything underneath anyway.”

“I hate you!” you let out a shriek, hitting him in the chest again before pulling the covers off your body so you could get out of bed in search of your clothes.

“Right, if it makes you sleep better at night, then I hate you too” he muttered, rolling his body across the bed to lie where you had been seconds before. Secretly smelling your scent on his pillow, as you searched for your clothes on his bedroom floor at that moment.

Hearing about the fine line between modern and contemporary art history was wonderful for you, one of your favorite classes. The grace with which the professor explained it so passionately, highlighting important points that you made a point of writing down in your notebook with a lilac-colored pen that Dahyun had lent you at the beginning of the class. It took up most of your thoughts from the moment you arrived on campus, taking your focus away from the fact that a few days ago you were lying on Heeseung's bed. And now you were sitting next to his sister sharing one of your classes.

Your thoughts traveled to another subject now… Did Dahyun know that you and Heeseung had had sex? It wouldn't be something to hide from your best friend, having heard from her a few times that the two of you had some kind of repressed hard-on. Of course, that made you and Heeseung even angrier, but it turned out to be true last weekend.

Dahyun was right, after all, and you didn't want her to be. Or did you?

“Y/n” she called your name in a whisper, making you turn your head to face her “The boys are waiting for us in the study room, do you want to go now or do you want to stop by for coffee?”

Back to the normal schedule where you would have to live with Heeseung and try to put aside what had happened between the two of you. Or at least try to. Carry on with your routine and chores and not pay attention to him like you always did.

Class ended and you felt your body dragging alongside Dahyun through the corridors to the campus cafeteria. It wasn't a long way, but dividing your energy between the class and the thoughts that flooded your mind had left you tired. The salted caramel coffee you always ordered might have some effect on your body right now.

And you were more than right.

After paying for the drink and some treats, the straw rolled around your lips as you sipped the drink that was your comfort. You could hear Dahyun's laughter every time the taste of coffee impregnated your tongue and you moaned with satisfaction. The whole way to the study room was filled with these moments that the two of you shared as you sipped your drinks and tried to balance the takeaway bags.

“Am I seeing a mirage or did you bring food?” Jay almost knelt to thank you and Dahyun when you entered the study room.

“Are you guys hungry or something?” she asked, stepping in front and placing the bag of food on the small table around some cushioned armchairs.

“Our class finished early and someone forgot to stop by the convenience store” Sunghoon sat down on the floor, legs crossed and his face almost shoved into one of the bags to look for something that interested him. Finding a filled brownie, he took it without asking permission, even though he didn't need to.

“He's in over his head, isn't he?” Jake nudged Heeseung, who had been quiet the whole time since you and Dahyun arrived.

Looking at your best friend, you saw her sit down next to Jake as if it were something mechanized as if she had to be there without any kind of effort. It was cute how close the two of them always were. But your mind went into overdrive because as she sat next to him, the only seat left was next to Heeseung.

“What?” he asked, shaking his body at the slight shock Jake had caused him. Adjusting his posture in the armchair, Heeseung swallowed as soon as he felt a weight next to him, indicating that you had sat there.

“You forgot to stop by the convenience store to pick up some food” Jay grumbled “What are you thinking, man? You haven't answered us since you came to class today.”

Playing the misunderstood had been a mutual agreement with everyone in the room. They had seen you and Heeseung leave together, but if neither of you had mentioned anything, none of them would do it. Playing the game of not knowing anything about you and him was the best thing. At least until that moment.

“I'm just sleepy, don't fight me” Heeseung grumbled, stretching more than usual so that he could annoy you, as he had done ever since the two of you met. He could hear you taking a deep breath next to him, holding back a little so as not to swear at him before the study session even started.

Heeseung mentally thanked his friends for the lame excuse he'd given, because they all started to engage in side conversations as he slipped a glance in your direction. Your fingers held the coffee cup with a certain lightness, your thumb circling the cardboard that was possibly warm against his skin. Heeseung suppressed a smile, thinking about how your fingers had touched his body a few days ago.

He didn't want to think about anything involving the night you two had spent together, but even though it was recent, seeing you so close hit him hard. It was as if his mind betrayed him the very moment you sat down next to him and did the bare minimum to be noticed. There was no way Heeseung could think of anything other than you. The way you brought the cup to your lips and drank the coffee, for example. It made him think of your mouth kissing him, how easily your lips turned red as the kiss got more and more intense. How your mouth looked like the perfect shape of his cock when you wrapped it around you and sucked it, giving him the best blowjob of his life.

Fuck Heeseung, stop thinking about it. He told himself, or he'd get turned on just associating every single thing you did with the way he had you in his room, under his body, and in his bed.

The only way to make his thoughts go away and him not think like that was to irritate you, bring up the atmosphere of the argument you had with him, and thus get his friends to intervene and completely change the course of Heeseung's thoughts. And the way he thought was by taking the coffee cup from your hand, bringing it to his lips, and taking the last sip.

“Hey” you said loudly enough, trying not to shout because the study room was next to the university library “You ruined my coffee, you idiot.”

“I was thirsty, sorry” Heeseung pouted his lips, feeling the taste of salted caramel all over his tongue. He ran the tip of his tongue between his lips to wipe away any coffee residue. He just didn't expect your attention to be on his mouth. Without hesitation, your eyes traced the path of his mouth and the way his tongue traced his lower lip. That sparked something inside Heeseung because it showed that you were thinking along the same lines as he was.

“You're a real idiot” you said quietly this time, trying to look away as Heeseung bit his lower lip.

He leaned in a little but didn't manage to get close enough to tease you because he felt the famous slap on the chest that you gave him when he said something stupid. Ever since that morning in his bed.

“Ouch, that hurt” he cringed, dodging the next slap you'd give him. For the first time, the dynamic between you and Heeseung was a little closer and more physical. Usually, the two of you didn't sit near each other or you couldn't get there in time to hit him, Jay or Sunghoon always managed to hold you back first.

“Hey, stop it, you two” Jake broke off from an interesting conversation he was having with Jay, sharing a packet of sweets with Sunghoon in the process.

“It's not like you guys had sex at the weekend” Dahyun yawned, throwing the full weight of her head on Jake's shoulder.

“What?” you and Heeseung shouted at the same time.

Their eyes widened, their breathing quickened and their faces heated up as they looked at the four of them sitting in front of them. So they knew, but how? You and he had tried to be discreet the whole time, and you hadn't said anything to Dahyun, considering Heeseung's astonishment, showing that he hadn't said anything to his friends either.

“Come on, we saw you two leaving the party together” Jay sighed “We agreed not to say anything until one of you spoke.”

“But you're still fighting” Jake pouted.

“By the way” Dahyun squeezed the cup between her fingers, the coffee long since finished and she just needed something to munch on while she talked to Jake “I could hear you two when we got home” she looked at Jake for a few seconds, then at you and Heeseung. They exchanged frightened, embarrassed glances.

A hole could be dug right there that you wanted to bury yourself in and never get out of. There was no escaping it and no escape from your friends' looks and playful smiles. There was also no way you could face Heeseung after everything you'd heard, so your only way out was to make an excuse that you needed to go to the library to get a book to start studying. You left the room as quickly as you could and entered the door at the end of the corridor.

At least it was quiet there and you wouldn't hear any of your friends talking about you and Heeseung having sex, or about how they knew all along and didn't tell either of you. It hadn't been long since it happened, but you'd been with Dahyun all morning and Heeseung had probably spent a lot of it with some of the boys he shared a class with. So they waited for you to give them a break to say it out loud?

“Holy shit” you whispered to yourself, leaning on one of the shelves in a vast aisle of encyclopedias. Nothing there was of interest to you and you didn't necessarily need any of those books, but it had been the first aisle you'd found to enter and browse the various shelves in search of clearing your mind.

“It really is shit” the voice settled in your ears and went straight to your skin, sending shivers down your spine and making your heart race. Your heartbeat accelerated more than usual when you turned around and noticed Heeseung just a few steps away.

“What the fuck are you doing here? Go away!” you whispered at him, turning to one of the shelves to pick up any stupid books. If you'd never read encyclopedias before, that day could be your first. Then you'd be too busy reading and not paying attention to the boy who was slowly approaching you.

“I had to leave too, I couldn't stand that embarrassment alone” he said in the same tone as yours, stopping right behind you as he noticed your feat in trying to open a heavy book that had nothing to do with the classes you were attending “Besides, I came to tease you for being too scandalous” Heeseung's breath hitched against your ear, his lips almost kissing your skin.

You turned sharply, the book wobbling in your hands from the weight of it and the force with which you turned. But your reflexes were good enough to hold it steady while you stared at it.

“Me? Scandalous?” your indignation was palpable, along with your anger that was beginning to grow inside your chest at him and the arrogant smile he had “What do you mean?”

“That you moaned so loudly that my sister heard!”

“Motherfucker” you almost forgot you were in the library, wanting to scream in his face and curse him with every swear word you could think of “I didn't moan that loud.”

“Yes, you did” he said.

“No, I didn't” you answered back, not realizing that you had taken a step forward and leaned your body against his. Heeseung took the opportunity to take the book from your hands, the weight shifting to his arms as he put it back on the shelf. Now having full access to you and your body in front of him.

He knew you hadn't moaned out loud, not least because he managed to shut you up every time. Making you moan against his mouth or listening closely when your mouth was close to his ear, having the most beautiful moan Heeseung had ever heard in his entire life.

“On a scale of zero to ten, if I say you moan scandalously…” Heeseung began, his speech somewhat meek “How angry will you be?”

“Ten, obviously” you hadn't even hesitated to answer, regretting it the second he smiled.

“So you moan too scandalously” such a simple sentence, but one that practically tore away the last bit of calm you had with Heeseung. Not that it ever really existed, but at least you tried inside the library.

As if it was the right thing to do, you raised your hand to hit him as you had been doing so often in the last few moments, but he acted quickly. So fast that neither of you could process it. Heeseung's long fingers wrapped around your wrist and he pulled you against his chest, wrapping his free arm around your waist to press you down and give you no chance to escape. The warmth of his fingers against your skin made you hold your breath and close your eyes, almost like a memory of what was about to happen.

It was the perfect cue for Heeseung to lean towards you and touch the tip of his nose to yours. His breaths mingled and his eyes closed to revel in the sensation of being so close to you again.

He wanted to touch your mouth, kiss you, and be able to leave with you. To remember the softness of your lips and how perfectly your mouths fit together as if the two of you had learned everything from each other. Even though the two of you shared hurried, slow kisses, none of them were disproportionate or out of rhythm. You and Heeseung managed to find harmony and synchronicity in every movement.

“Oh, shit” Jay's voice made you and Heeseung break apart quickly, startled by the closeness and realizing that if the brunette hadn't arrived, you and he would have kissed right then “Sorry, I—”

“You owe me lunch for a week” Dahyun appeared beside him, smiling openly as her eyes landed on you and Heeseung. He didn't need to look at you to know that you also shared a confused, albeit frightened, expression as to why Jay and his sister were there in the library.

“What did you two bet?” Heeseung asked the dreaded question, opening and closing his fists and holding back the urge to touch you again, even if it was in front of the two who were still there.

“That you and Y/n would be kissing” Jay said “But the two of them never actually kissed, so I don't owe you anything.”

“Yes, you do!” Dahyun protested, pushing Jay out of the hallway and leaving you and Heeseung completely unresponsive.

It would have been a smart idea to avoid going to any parties after what happened, in case you both regretted it. But that wasn't exactly it.

As the week went by, the teasing between Heeseung and you continued with a little more intensity, adding to the spice of what had happened between you, and now things had become a little more physical. Like him having to get too close to you and touch your hair after getting on your nerves, or how your hand wrapped around his arm – unnecessarily – so you could avoid Heeseung when he was near the kitchen counter teasing you before you left and went to his sister's room.

Things were getting heated and neither of you made any move to actually stop or that it wasn't affecting you anymore, quite the opposite. As the touching persisted or you paid too much attention to each other's actions, things got more and more complicated.

That was why Heeseung now found himself with a red glass in his hand, bringing it to his lips and feeling the bitter taste of alcohol go down his throat. He could have refused to go to that party after Sunghoon insisted, with the excuse that the class had been terrible. Even though he had slept through most of it. At least they were at Yeonjun's parent's house, the rich boy and Jake's friend who always gave up his house when the fraternities hadn't recovered after a few parties over a short period.

At least there was somewhere to sit, a room without too many people and the music wasn't too loud. The pool room that the boys usually went to when they wanted to escape the crowds, but didn't want to leave the party completely.

“Man, I love it when we’re here” Yeonjun sighed, sitting across from Heeseung and next to Jay “I wanted to run away from Stacy all night.”

“Is she annoying you?” Jay held back a laugh.

Talking about girls was the main topic when Yeonjun was around, and it wasn’t such a bad thing. Sharing experiences and even talking about how their current relationships were going, just as Jake made a point of praising Dahyun and how the two of them were getting along better and better. At some point in the conversation, Heeseung didn’t even bother to share anything, feeling shy for the first time. You had been the last girl he slept with, and talking about it, about the intimacy you two shared made him embarrassed. It wasn’t that he would brag every time he got with someone, on the contrary, the poor boy was the most teased because he rarely kissed a unit on the mouth at a party.

Maybe it was his chance to say that he had finally kissed someone after so long. But he wanted to keep it all to himself as if he felt jealous of sharing every detail about you.

“And you, Heeseung” Yeonjun called him as if he could read his thoughts. “Did you finally have sex?”

Sunghoon choked on his half-drunk drink, biting the plastic cup as he looked at his friend and noticed the shocked expression on his face. Yeonjun didn’t know anything about what had happened, especially since he wasn’t that close to you and Dahyun. He knew you two by sight and exchanged a few words because you were always around, but it’s not like he knew everything about you.

“He definitely had sex” Jake bit his lips to keep from smiling “Guess who?”

There wasn’t a single name that crossed Yeonjun’s mind, it was so difficult to associate Heeseung with anyone. Just like they associated Jake with Dahyun or Yeonjun with Stacy. Heeseung didn't have anyone on his radar, and the boys didn't know which girl had ever mentioned his name as a possible sexual companion.

A short period of silence fell over the room, and Jay's impatience quickly cut through.

"Y/n" he said.

“What?” it was Yeonjun’s turn to almost choke on his drink when he decided to take a sip of his beer. “Don’t you two, like, hate each other more than anything in the universe?”

I thought so, Heeseung had that answer on the tip of his tongue, almost wanting to say it out loud.

“So our dear Lee has a powerful dick” Yeonjun joked.

“Dude, we can ask Y/n if he has a small dick or not” Jay suggested.

“That’s cute, we’re finally going to know about his dick” Jake faked a cute voice, pouting and everything to get in on the joke.

“I don’t have a small dick, you idiots” Heeseung wanted to sound angry, although that joke was always there. Talking like that or about sexual performance with some girl… It would be disgusting if it was a conversation that happened often, but it wasn’t. It was just at times when they all wanted to escape from everything, to be in a universe where only boys existed and they could talk about anything.

A laugh filled the room before Heeseung or any of the boys could respond. Turning to the door, there you were. Standing with your hand on the doorknob and the other holding the plastic cup.

“Y/n!” Jay called out to you excitedly.

“Hey Y/n, is it true that Heeseung—” Yeonjun was interrupted by a flying plastic cup, hitting him in the chest as Heeseung threw it.

You had heard the entire conversation before entering the wrong room, looking for a bathroom to pee in. Your eyes scanned the room, seeing how relaxed and happy the boys were, far from those people you were starting to get bored with.

“Wrong door, sorry, boys” you waved and smiled at all of them, stopping your eyes on Heeseung for a long moment. Analyzing every inch of his body. Every piece of clothing adorned that man’s curves very well. Wide pants, white tank top, and leather jacket. A cardinal sin was that his hair was slicked back and the silver chain showing well above the collar of the tank top he was wearing. Luckily for you, the music was loud enough that no one could hear the force with which you swallowed when you noticed Heeseung’s collarbone was more exposed than usual. Waving to all of them, you closed the door as quickly as you opened it.

He tried to process what had just happened. Did your laughter indicate that you had heard the conversation, giving the boys room to think that he had a small dick? It wasn't possible… Heeseung couldn't believe it, even though it was true as he started to hear his friends making fun of your reaction.

If she laughed, it was because she agreed.

Does he really have a small dick?

Shit, Heeseung, she's teasing you.

He didn't want to hear anything from his friends anymore, the small flame of anger consuming him for teasing him like that in front of his friends. It wouldn't stay like this. Heeseung wouldn't let you get away with it, just like you almost didn't let him get away with it on library day.

Without time for goodbyes or small talk, Heeseung left the room in a hurry, opening the door and closing it without giving time for protests or for any of the boys to follow him. Now, in the middle of the small crowd in the hallway, he dodged some dancing and sweaty bodies, looking everywhere in search of you or his sister who, perhaps, could know where you were. Heeseung had a small spark of hope that he could find you before you went somewhere he couldn't find anymore. Or worse, that you started to feel tired and drunk enough to want to leave.

Running down the stairs, he reached the ground floor in record time, even with some people getting in his way. Heeseung walked from one room to the other, his eyes increasingly attentive to the people, scanning the place until he finally found you. Standing at one end of the table with glasses piled up in front of you, while his sister was at the other end with a few more girls.

“My turn to play,” one of them said, excited enough to grab the ball and throw it before it fell into one of the cups. She and Dahyun celebrated that you would have to drink, and from the look on your face, it wasn’t that good.

Heeseung took hurried steps towards the table, watching you take the ball out of the cup and drink all the contents inside.

“How disgusting” you stuck your tongue out, making a fake vomit sound before discarding the empty cup right next to you. “Now it’s my turn” but your turn didn’t come. Before you could even throw the ball into one of the cups in front of Dahyun and the other girl, Heeseung grabbed your arm and slid his fingers through your hand until he took the ball out. “What the fuck—”

“I need to talk to you” he said.

“Oh, that’s our girl, finally Y/n!” you wanted to ignore those comments, especially because Heeseung’s eyes were so intense and focused only on you. He didn’t care that the girls were joking about that situation, or how Dahyun was saying some teasing things in a playful tone. As if his gaze was capable of erasing everything around him and leaving only the two of you in the center of everything.

“Heeseung.”

“I said I need to talk to you, let’s go” he threw the ball to Dahyun, grabbing your arm again to get you out of there as quickly as possible.

Strangely you didn’t protest, just accepting the boy in front of you leading the way out of the party and through the front door. The air that hit your skin almost made you shiver, but Heeseung’s touch was capable of warming everything in your body without giving you a chance to feel the cold outside environment.

He stopped walking as soon as the two of you passed through the entire front yard, the sidewalk almost devoid of anyone around. Everyone was lying on the lawn or the porch, except for the excessive amount that was already inside Yeonjun's parents' huge house.

“What do you need to talk to me about?” you finally asked, letting your voice be heard by Heeseung after a while of silence between the two of you. He then let go of your arm, turning towards you to face you. Looking around a little, he wanted to make sure that he wouldn't be interrupted or, worse still, that someone would hear your conversation. People had a slight impression that you and Heeseung always argued, but the only ones who listened attentively to this were your friends and his sister. Heeseung didn't want anyone else to know about these little details.

“You heard the boys’ conversation upstairs, didn’t you?” he asked you. His tone was usually serious, but with a hint of anger that was always directed at you.

“Wanting to know if you have a small dick? Yeah, I heard you” you laughed a little, regretting it the second Heeseung approached you. His eyes were glazed over anywhere on your face, at least you knew where he was looking. His chest rose and fell in a rapid breath as he leaned in enough to be able to look you in the eyes without losing your attention.

“Do you find this funny, Y/n?” his low tone of voice never had any effect on you, on the contrary, it always instigated you even more to tease him. Smiling now and then, pushing Heeseung’s buttons when he seemed mad at you. But this time it was different, his voice seemed to fade away as he said things to you that way. The look still in your eyes, now falling to your lips “So you think I have a small dick?”

“I didn’t say anything about that—” you were quickly interrupted.

“Answer my question” he said “Do you think I have a small dick?” Heeseung’s hand touched your waist, pressing his fingers tightly against the spot before pulling you against his body.

You swallowed any sound that could come out of your lips so as not to give him the satisfaction of seeing the effect he was having on you. Your pride spoke louder at least at that moment.

Thinking of all the possibilities that could answer his question, something popped into your mind. The instinct of rivalry and fight between the two of you couldn’t end so soon, and you knew that a remnant of the old Y/n that started all this with Heeseung still lived inside you. So you did the right thing by whispering those words.

“On ​​a scale of zero to ten, how angry will you be if I say yes?”

Heeseung felt like an idiot for letting a smile appear on his lips so easily, especially because of you.

“We’re going home right now, tell my sister to go with Jake” he said, not taking his hands off your waist until he took you to the car and they left that party.

You were both experiencing a little deja vu from the first night you were together, but something at that moment seemed to be a little slower. You arrived at the apartment without much of a rush because Heeseung drove carefully; the city streets at that time were not a safe place to speed, even if he was in a hurry. The silence in the building's elevator was not uncomfortable, much less the rustling of the keys when he opened the apartment door.

The path to his room was led by him, with dragging and slightly nervous steps – which you didn't notice and he was grateful – because you were equally nervous. The last time you made this path, you were in Heeseung's arms and with your mouth glued to his. Shy giggles and messy words were said as the two of you tried to balance each other until you entered his room.

When you entered the room again, the smell of Heeseung's cologne was still in the air. The same smell he had all over his clothes and inside the car, showing that when he had put on perfume a few hours before going to the party, the smell still lingered in the air. Your eyes searched around in search of some recognition, mentally cursing yourself for remembering practically everything. The shelf with trophies he had won, video games stacked perfectly next to each other, some dolls and superheroes. Nerd stuff that you had played with him for so long outside of that environment, but being in Heeseung's personal space and taking a good look at it was something new for you.

At that moment your thoughts flew to the boy in front of you who, delicately, wrapped his hands around your waist this time. The tender touch was a total opposite of what the two of you had been having lately, about everything that involved you and him. Heeseung pulled you closer, his forehead slowly touching yours, while one of his hands left your waist to touch your face. The touch of his fingers against your skin immediately made you close your eyes.

“Do you miss being here?” he asked in a playful tone, but the softness of that question made you wonder if you really missed being there. Even though it was the second time you had stepped into Heeseung's room under those circumstances.

“You're the one who misses having me here” you teased.

“Maybe so” he shrugged, smiling when you seemed surprised by his sudden confession, but you didn’t dare open your eyes. Shy enough not to be able to look at Heeseung while he was still caressing your face.

You had both consumed a little more alcohol than the last time you did this, but still, neither of you managed to get to the point of getting drunk. There was no way you could tell him that you drank too much at the games with Dahyun and the girls, and much less could Heeseung use the excuse that he was drunk with the boys. Again, you were both in that situation because you wanted to be.

“Y/n” he whispered your name, taking you out of the little trance where you could only hear your calm breathing and your heartbeats against each other due to the proximity of your body to his.

“Yeah” you answered.

“Can I kiss you again?” the first time he didn’t ask for permission in that scenario, Heeseung’s lips were simply against yours. But now, there inside his room, everything seemed different. All the tenderness and calm that you were strangely enjoying, while he didn't know exactly why he was caressing you so lovingly and asking permission for something he had already done.

“Yes, please” your answer surprised him more than it surprised you. You even said please, something that had never happened to him. Usually the only thank you you gave Heeseung or the only word of cordiality you said to each other was the famous good morning, and when Dahyun still insisted on the two of you.

Finally, Heeseung's lips pressed against yours, the soft touch of his mouth sliding over yours before he opened his mouth and urged you to do the same. Heeseung's chin slowly pressed against yours to keep your mouth open and enter his tongue into your cave, searching for your tongue and intertwining the two gently.

Although there was urgency in each touch, in how he wanted to kiss you and how you wanted to be kissed by him, something unsaid – but understood – was that you both wanted to enjoy that strangely pleasurable moment for both of you. Your hands went up to make contact with the collar of the jacket he wore, running your thin fingers under the leather before grabbing Heeseung's shoulders. Your skin against his made him sigh during the kiss, bringing you closer and walking with you towards the bed. Stopping only when his calf touched the wood indicating that he had reached where he wanted.

He was the first to stop kissing you, placing small kisses on your chin until he reached your jaw, where he lightly scraped his teeth and smiled when he saw the skin on your neck start to get goosebumps. You didn't want to be left behind, so your hands forced themselves on his shoulders to loosen his jacket and make it fall halfway down his arms. Heeseung grew impatient with that piece of cloth and soon got rid of the jacket, not bothering to throw it on the bedroom floor, wrapping his arms around your body again.

Heeseung returned with his lips against your skin, brushing whenever he could on every little spot before alternating with the tip of his tongue a short path down to below your ear. His breath so close was enough to make you go a little crazy more.

“We can—”

“We can do whatever you want” he told you, kissing the spot below your ear and returning to position his face aligned with yours. Foreheads together and feeling her breath hit his lips “Tell me and I will do it.”

It was your turn to kiss Heeseung, your hands holding his face to keep him close while his tongue wrapped around yours again. The perfect fit of your mouths and how the two of you, despite your need, didn't let go and didn't make a mess of it. Yet.

Heeseung picked you up just to lay you down on his bed, snuggling his body between your legs without taking his mouth off yours. He pulled away momentarily to breathe before kissing you again with even more desire. At that point you felt like you needed him even more, your legs wrapping around Heeseung's hips who, you could tell, was holding back from making any risky moves. Even though you both wanted that. But it was impossible to hold back any longer because of the way the kiss started to get sloppy and lazy. You didn't know that you could get even more excited by the way Heeseung's tongue moved against yours or how the softness of his lips remained even after you abused them for so long.

Involuntarily your hips rocked, feeling Heeseung's erection rub against your clothed pussy, making you both moan in sync.

“Fuck” he moaned into your mouth, swallowing another moan of yours as he pressed his hips against you so you could feel a little more of his cock.

“Heeseung” your hands ran down his arms, your nails making a reddish path against his skin as you marked him.

“Are you going to moan loudly now?” he teased, lifting his head to look at you. It would be typical of Lee Heeseung to comment on that while he had a hard-on and was between your legs, you should have imagined that.

“I think you need to keep your mouth busy and stop talking shit” you rolled your eyes at him, holding yourself back so that your arousal wouldn't turn into anger and you would hit the boy.

“Your wish is my command, ma'am” Heeseung smiled so seductively that you asked yourself countless questions at that moment.

As he slid down your body, taking off each piece of your clothing without your protest, you wondered. Heeseung always smiled mischievously at you, although the effects were always the opposite of what was happening. Maybe the vulnerability in which you and he found each other at that moment made you with your senses heightened, paying a little more attention than necessary. Of course, you saw Heeseung up close, in his most intimate form, just as he saw you too. So that would be a good explanation for why you felt strange when he, at that moment, directed the smiles that you knew so well, at you.

Looking down at the exact second that Heeseung took off your panties, you noticed how lost in thought you were at that moment. Did he undress you so quickly or were you thinking too much about his smile to notice that now you were both naked? It didn’t matter, the job was done and now you fought against your racing heartbeat as Heeseung’s face lowered to be level with your pussy.

As if asking permission with a glance directed at your face, you nodded slowly as he adjusted himself between your legs and placed a kiss on your thigh. His lips tickled your skin before sliding down to your groin and finally finding your pussy.

“Heeseung— shit” you held back a moan between your lips as the tip of his tongue touched your clit. Swollen and in need of his full attention which he was more than willing to give.

Heeseung wrapped one hand around your thigh, bringing the other to your pussy to part your labia and spread all your wetness on his fingertips. It was a sight he didn’t think he would ever see, but one he couldn’t stop seeing now. He needed to be in that position at least once a day, if possible. Heeseung’s fingers made their way across your pussy lips until they reached your hole, circling it before pushing in. He looked up, his face fucking gorgeous as you fought the urge to open your eyes.

He wrapped his lips around your clit to suck on your bundle of nerves at the same time his finger was inserted into your hole. The two sensations flooded you as you let out the most beautiful moan. It wasn't scandalous at all, on the contrary, it was low and sensual. A reminder of how Heeseung was making you feel with just a few seconds of giving your pussy proper attention.

Moving his finger inside you, he included another and the two began working in and out of your hole. The wet sound of his fingers fucking you along with the moans you were letting out made his cock throb. Heeseung felt himself getting harder and harder, aching and wanting to be inside you as soon as possible.

“Hee” you moaned that nickname that had been heard only a few times, but that was enough to make him want to hear it again. This seemed to motivate you a little more, because Heeseung inserted the third finger into your pussy and, leaning down again, he went back to kissing your clit and any other place his mouth could reach.

It seemed like the way he kissed your mouth, kissing your pussy so perfectly that you were going crazy. Your hands found their way into his hair, tangling a few strands without having enough strength to pull them out. You focused as much as possible on how well Heeseung was fucking you and his fingers curling inside your warm walls. It was the second time you had sex, but it seemed like he knew every spot on your body and how you should be touched.

Heeseung felt your hole tighten against his fingers, licking your clit more slowly, although the intrusion of his fingers into your hole wasn't that slow. He smiled against your pussy, lifting his face from there and crawling until his face was flush with yours. His fingers didn't stop fucking you even though his mouth was far from your pussy.

“Are you going to cum?” he asked in a deep and hoarse whisper, making you open your eyes and almost actually cum at that moment. His chin was covered in saliva and your wetness, making Heeseung even hotter than he looked.

You nodded quickly to him, bringing one of your hands to Heeseung's chin and sliding your thumb over the spots on his skin to clean it. Any other time this would have been kind of cute, warming both of your hearts with the act. Although he appreciated your care even if he didn't mind having a little bit of you stuck to his chin.

“I want you to cum looking into my eyes” he whispered “Can you do that?”

You had no way of knowing if you were capable of it, especially when his fingers started fucking you again so slowly, but so intensely. He made sure to go all the way to his knuckles, rotating and scissoring inside you with precision. Wanting to feel your warm walls enveloping them as he penetrated you. A scream burst from your throat when his thumb touched your clit, where his lips had been minutes ago. You moved your hips to match the movements of his fingers and that made Heeseung almost go crazy.

Your hands went back to touching his hair, one of them going to the back of his neck to pull his face close to yours. Heeseung kissed you to share a little of your taste on his tongue, to show you how addictive you were not only to the kiss but to the taste of your pussy that he was already starting to get addicted to. This was starting to get too much for you, the way he moved his tongue around as he kissed you to muffle your moans and the way his fingers filled you up nicely. A few more small strokes and a particularly hard press on your clit and you came undone, cumming all over his fingers and squeezing them like Heeseung remembered your pussy being capable of.

He held you throughout your orgasm, his fingers still inside you until your walls stopped convulsing and tightening. Slowly sliding out with all of your cum running down your fingers and into the palm of your hand.

“That was…” your words slowly faded as you noticed him pull away a little, enough for him to be able to place his hand between your face and his. The glow of your essence covering every little part of Heeseung’s fingers made your face heat up. It wasn’t the first time you had cum with him, but seeing it so close made you feel shy… You came all that and only on his fingers?

With an air of pride for having been the cause of it, Heeseung smiled before bringing his fingers to his lips and sucking every little drop of you. Fucking hot. He licked it all up with determination, just like he had done on your pussy until there was nothing left for him to clean.

“That was what?” he turned his attention back to you, a small smile on his lips as he leaned in again and now Heeseung's hips were pressed against yours.

Your pussy was still sensitive as his throbbing cock made contact with your folds. He let out a hiss, low and whimpering at the warm sensation that hadn't yet enveloped him. You wanted to surprise him just like he did to you, so slowly your lips enveloped his. A slow kiss to calm your heart that was still racing from the post-orgasm, but preparing yourself for what was on your mind as you felt him melt into your lips.

It was the calmness of Heeseung kissing you and the way you took his lips at that moment. Feeling the attention you gave to each caress, when your hands slid over his body… He just didn't count on how fast it was when you grabbed his dick and slid the red and sensitive head into your entrance.

“Y/n… Fuck, holy shit” he moaned. Being taken by surprise by the sensation, but unable to contain himself when he felt your hot hole envelop him. Quickly his hips pushed forward as if he was trained to do it, as if Heeseung needed to do it without thinking, just being close to your pussy like something magnetic to his dick.

In a quick movement, his entire dick was inside you, and you both moaned at the same second. You because you felt filled by his dick, killing the longing that was to have him inside you. That would never be admitted out loud. While he felt the warmth and sponginess of your walls enveloping every inch of his dick. A hot embrace that he needed more than ever. Another thing that wouldn't be admitted out loud either.

Heeseung adjusted himself, one hand resting on the side of your head while the other found its way to your hip. Supporting himself and squeezing the flesh of your skin as he rested his forehead against yours, looking deep into your eyes before starting to move.

You remember that the first time you two had sex, Heeseung practically fucked you. The force with which his cock entered and left you, the way he ate you out and you sucked him. It was an almost angry but needy sex, where the two of you poured out teasing and moaning. But this time was different. He also remembered the way you and he gave yourselves to each other the first time. How his hips tortured yours as his cock went in and out, hearing you moan his name so much that Heeseung could think it was devotion to him.

But this time he moved masterfully. Slowly and carefully, but each time his dick entered, Heeseung went intensely to the bottom, putting just enough force to make his dick enter you completely and reach the limit that was being in your pussy, reaching your deepest point. His dick slid perfectly inside you, combining his pre-cum with your fluids and the cum from the previous orgasm, all combined with the way he moved.

To add even more intensity to the sex, Heeseung remained with his gaze fixed on your eyes. His hand on your hip tightened as he managed to reach the bottom of your pussy or when your walls squeezed him at a certain point. He was on cloud nine every time your hole swallowed him and he felt your walls being slid by every inch of him.

“Y/n” the whisper of his voice made you mumble softly, as if answering his call and telling him that you were listening. Not wanting to say too much or simply interrupt what he wanted to say to you “That’s amazing” he slowly kissed your lips, the hand on your hip sliding down to grip your thigh “You’re amazing.”

He didn’t even care if it had been said that way or how you would react. By the way your eyes were soft on him, your mouth half open letting moans escape, Heeseung could tell you felt the same way.

“You’re an idiot” you whispered “But you’re amazing too, Heeseung” he chuckled against your lips as he kissed you again.

The sharing of each movement of your tongues as they danced in sync with his hips that were still moving against yours. His cock throbbed inside your pussy indicating that he wouldn't last much longer than that, although your pussy was addictive and he could fuck you all night. But Heeseung wasn't that strong when it came to you – at least not in the last week that he discovered what sex with you was like – so cumming was more than a necessity for him at that moment.

He quickened the pace of his thrusts, the sound of his pelvis hitting against your thighs quickly in search of the apex to share a little more intimacy. Heeseung thrust his cock into you fast, but with a certain care that made your chest heat up. And that was a combination of the overwhelming sensations that the two of you were sharing. His cock went to the limit, touching your cervix as he started and going a little harder and faster to fuck you with a little more need.

Heeseung rested his forehead against yours again, a silent plea that he wanted to see you cum with him or simply see your expression when the two of you came together. And with a few more strokes you felt the burning in the pit of your stomach. Your hands ran to hold his face, afraid that the two of you would turn away and you wouldn't be able to look at him while you came undone on his cock.

“Hee” you called him before moaning close to his mouth, sharing accelerated breaths before your walls closed around his cock, cumming hard. More than the first time on his fingers.

That was too much for Heeseung to handle, he wouldn't be able to hold back the feeling of your walls convulsing around his cock. Your cum slid all over his length and hitting against his pelvis. Heeseung felt his balls ache as he continued to pound his cock into you until he finally came. The hot and long jets of cum inside your pussy, hitting your insides hard. He moaned your name tirelessly as he continued to move in search of prolonging both orgasms.

For a long moment, the two of you remained in that position, trying to normalize your breathing, which was still more than accelerated. Heeseung held you as if his life depended on it, and so did you. Little by little, after your pussy stopped squeezing him and his cock stopped twitching, he slowly raised his hips to pull out of you. Both of you moaning together were almost no longer connected as before, he threw himself next to you on the bed.

“Don’t move” Heeseung whispered, although he knew you didn’t have the strength to do it. With great difficulty, he got up and made the well-known path to the bathroom outside the room. Thankfully, no one had arrived from the party yet, having the apartment just for the two of you. When Heeseung returned to the room, he had a small smile on his lips as he lay down next to you again, bending over you.

“What…” he seemed to have the power to interrupt you on the strangest occasions, catching you by surprise with unexpected actions. He cleaned you carefully, leaving no trace of the two of you between your legs, just like he had done in the bathroom with himself a few seconds ago. Heeseung discarded the damp paper in the trash next to the computer table, lying down next to you again and wrapping his arm around your waist. Just like he had done the first night you and he slept together.

But this time it didn’t seem so strange to you. What was strange was that you liked the feeling of having him so close like this, facing him and resting your hands on Heeseung’s exposed chest.

“So you…”

“Don’t say anything to provoke me now or I’ll hit you” it was your turn to interrupt him, making Heeseung laugh as he pulled you closer and hid his face in the crook of your neck. You didn't know what happened to you after Heeseung touched you, because every little thing he did made your whole body shiver.

“I was just going to say…” he whispered, his lips close to your ear, but with a subtle tone that was rarely – if ever – used with you “If you still think you hate me.”

“I do” you answered quickly. Heeseung laughed against your ear, lifting his face so he could look at you.

“Then I hate you too” he said back, pressing his lips against yours, but not kissing them like he always did when he was close enough to you. “Can we hate each other like we did today, then?”

It was your turn to laugh, making Heeseung feel strange now. His heart skipped a beat at the brightness in your eyes and the way you frowned when you were smiling like that. Was he paying too much attention or were the two of you close enough that he couldn't notice anything other than you and what you were doing? He wasn't sure.

“I think we can hate each other like this” you replied, seeing the small hint of happiness in his eyes and in the smile he gave you.

Pressing his lips slowly to yours, you let him kiss you so subtly like you never thought would happen. Because after all, you and Heeseung hated each other.

And you would hate each other the same way you did in his bed.

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I feel like heeseung would be the type to send you voice messages while he's at the gym doing his workout routine so that when he speaks he'll be gasping and grunting because of the weight lifting, and maybe even growling at some point. And he would do it because he knows it turns you on, he'll be asking you the most normal question but add between every word a small gasp and at the end of his sentence he would drop the weight and exhale, and when you suddenly go quiet he knows exactly what's going on in your head. HE WOULD BE SUCH A TEASE.

Ramyeonz😎

ENHYPEN SMAU

Jake

Energy

Jungwon

Sunghoon

Sunoo

Niki

Heeseung

Jay

Hyung line

Maknae line

Enhypen fics!:

Jungwon

Niki

Jake

Heeseung

Sunghoon

Sunoo

Jay

Hyung line

Maknae line

ENHYPEN SMAU WHEN YOU SHOW THEM YOUR NEW SET

HYUNG LINE: heeseung, jay, Jake, sunghoon

MDNI

Warnings: mentions of sex, foul language, sexualization,

A/N: making this was way harder than the Jjk smau because the personality struck me each time. “How can I make this like they would?” Super harddd

♡ And don't you know how sweet it tastes ♡

Heeseung was never really into that sickly sweet stuff. Whenever he looked at couples while passing by, he would always silently gag and promise to himself that he would never be like that.

That was, however, before he started falling for you.

How was it that every time you passed by, chattering and giggling with your friends, something in his stomach lit up and made him feel as weak as a tiny twig? Butterflies always squirmed in his stomach and heat lit up his smooth cheeks when every time he heard that sweet laugh or saw that pretty smile.

And how was it that he just so happened to sit behind you in biology? So, when you turned around, with those pretty eyes staring at him and innocently asking him for a pen, he was sure his entire face flushed dark red. He stammered and stuttered through a trembling sentence, nodding weakly as he quickly reached into his pencil case and pulled out a pen, handing it to you.

The moment your delicate fingertips brushed against his, he swore his heart stopped completely. The soft 'thank you' that left you after, followed by that candy sweet smile of yours, only furthered to deepen the cliff he was falling off of, completely falling into your pretty spell.

For the next hour or so, all he could think of was how you smiled. You smiled at him! How could he possibly focus, when his biggest dream finally became true? His heart was playing with a jumping rope from how fast it was beating.

Over the course of the next days, every day in the same class, you would always ask for a pen, making Heeseung even giddier from how adorable you sounded. Until one of the days, when you asked him for a pen, you placed a small pink lollipop on his desk, with a sticky note on top of it and then took the pen.

Heeseung, the ever so curious one, quickly took the note, reading it in his mind. 'Heeseung-ah, you can only eat this lollipop if you agree to go out with me to the arcade!' It wrote with your delicate handwriting.

He felt his brain stop, his heart starting to do somersaults. He had to choke back the loud squeal of delight he wanted to let out. His smooth cheeks turned dark red in color, only adding to his giddy, lovesick appearance. He unwrapped the lollipop and placed it into his mouth, the sweet strawberry flavor immediately melting on his taste buds.

After class, he waited for you to come out of the classroom. The lollipop had melted completely in his mouth a few seconds ago, which was much to his satisfaction. When he saw you come out, he took hold of your hand and tugged you away from the bustling students.

He cupped your pretty cheeks, gently pressing his lips on yours to share the sweet flavor of adoration mixed with the strawberry flavor that stayed on his tongue. When he pulled away after a few seconds, he nodded gently, his eyes staring straight into yours with the softest of gazes.

"I would be an idiot not to eat the lollipop"

Songs Enhypen (Hyung Line) would play during sex with their s/o

Enhypen

Heeseung

Aphrodite by Rini

i listen to this song and it just screams heeseung

“if i can have this dance tonight~”

“i promise that you won’t forget”

just the way he would make love to you and worship you as if you were Aphrodite herself (regardless of gender)

he would place kisses all over your body just to emphasise each lyric of the song

and truly show you he means everything in the song

“you, my darling, are more wonderful than any god.”

Jay

Wild Side by Normani

ngl i feel like he’d go out his way to find the version without cardi b (ToT)

something about the lyrics and the minor creaking of a bed in the background of the song would just spur him on

“i wanna drive you crazy…”

“pull up inside me baby~”

every sensual, lewd line of the song would just cloud his mind accompanied with the feeling of you

he’s be on cloud 9

“oh ᶠᵘᶜᵏ baby you feel so… good”

Jake

Kiss Me by DPR Live

now we all know Jake has some bomb music taste

this man would not leave any corner of the earth unchecked until he finds the perfect song for you two

and boy oh boy when he does???

you forget about any other song you’ve ever dreamed of playing while sharing an intimate moment with him

dpr live has a way with his words so it would do just the trick to add that sexy yet tlc sorta vibe when you two make love

“love it when we’re lovey dovey in the shower…”

부끄러워해봤자 아름다워 (Even if you’re shy, you’re beautiful)

the way he’s making you feel, paired with the loving lyrics and melody of this song truly shows you how much you mean to him

“i love you so fucking much. please never forget that~”

Sunghoon

this man just gives me big Kali Uchis stan vibes

“And when we’re making love~”

“Your cries can be heard from far and wide”

every single time that line comes on you could swear you see a slight smirk forming on his lips

sunghoon seems like the kind of guy who romanticises life and this song just ties all his thoughts together

that and how good it feels when you two are connected

the voices and passion you hear in the song are enough to drive you both over the edge because of how special the lyrics are…

“babe, i know it feels good but keep it down otherwise everybody will know what we’re doing here. hmm?”

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- 1-800-ye0sangspr1ncess <3

11:25 am // 10.24.2021

Masterlist for: En-

OT7:

Them as your boyfriend

Their reaction to you buying them expensive gifts

Hyung line:

Songs they'd play during sex ☆

Maknae Line:

Nothing yet :)

Heeseung:

Nothing to see yet :)

Jay:

Nothing to see yet :)

Jake:

creme de la creme ☆

Sunghoon:

Nothing to see yet :)

Sunoo:

Nothing to see yet :)

Jungwon:

Nothing to see yet :)

Niki:

Nothing to see yet :)

spuǝıɹɟʎoq sɐ uǝdʎɥuƎ

(Enhypen as boyfriends)

Pairing: OT7 x gn!reader

Warnings: Alcohol and language, other than that none. (^v^)

Type: Headcanon

Genre: Fluff (sorry devils, today is not your day)

AN: Just wanted to bless you with something before I go on hiatus. It didn't come out quite the way I wanted but I'll edit it when I come back.

"EEEMMOOOO BOYFRIEND"

if it was 2011 and you were dating this clown you'd be getting laughed at non-stop

- but it's 2021 and suddenly everybody wants their own emo boyfriend

unfortunately, not everybody's partner can pull off the look but yours...

damn... yours pulls it off like he created the style

if you're also into that emocore aesthetic he'll probably call you every night before school so you guys can plan outfits

if it's not really your style he also doesn't mind

kinda, sorta, low-key finds how you two are complete opposites (and I quote) "cute or hot or whatever" - emo heeseung 2021

not really big on PDA

sends you song recommendations

talks through music/ playlists (doesn't write or sing songs, he just finds making sentences with song titles fun)

TOTALLY DOESN'T HAVE A TEMPORARY TATTOO OF: "< HS + Y/N3" ON HIS RIBCAGE OR WHATEVER

- wants to tell you he loves you but doesn't wanna seem like a softie

- HATES SPORTS

-y'all can't tell anybody that I told you but... he's still kinda sour over the whole incident...

What incident you say?

- During P.E. last year they were playing dodgeball and he got hit in the.... yeah. YOU DIDN'T HEAR IT FROM ME!

- Dates often happen at night because he hates the sun.

- heeseung is the kind of boyfriend to take you to a heavy metal concert but completely forget about you the second it starts.

" Oh MY GOD, IT'S STARTING! MOVE!" don't mess with this boy and his tunes

- when the concert ends he apologises and offers to make it up with ice cream or a "holding hands in the hallway" coupon which is a super big deal knowing this guy hates anything too touchy XD

Jay:

"the extension of your mother" boyfriend

- you know those couples that work out even after high school? that's you guys

- definitely, a giver when it comes to affection

- "Did you eat yet? Hey, I know you're tired but you have to finish your assignments if you wanna pass. Want me to get you anything from the store?"

cooks dinner some days and cleans the apartment on others

makes a schedule for house chores

the reward for when you do them is kisses and cuddles

lowkey has to bribe you to do most things

"c'mon y/n you were meant to clean the windows today. I did them last week and the week before."

genuinely cares about your well-being

likes spending time with you indoors when it's cold or raining outside.

don't even get started on PDA

wants everybody to know you two are together and he plans to keep it that way.

when you're waiting in line for something he likes to hold your hand and swing them back and forth.

not in a bad way but he likes making it known that you two are together

Not in the annoying way that we all hate like when couples kiss every second of the day but more like people envy you.

You're more of a Pinterest couple

"oh my gosh, I wish I had my own jay." "I want what they have." "If only my crush would notice me so we could be just like them."

- dates are never during the week, this man prioritizes his studies.

not that he doesn't care about you.

"I do care about you... just not more than my studies. wait shit that sounded bad. I don't mean it like that. I-" yeah it's bad but you get what he means so he stops panicking and makes it up to you by making an exception to take Friday as a chill day.

Dates are literally everything on your bucket list.

Drive-in theatre? Check

Dine and dash? check. although it was his friend's dad's restaurant and he paid in advance but you don't know that.

Wants to be the guy you have all your first with. Okay not all but most.

Enjoys making the most of everything when it comes to you.

Also home dates with him >>>>>>>

Sets up the table, classic music playing from youtube on your tv

Kinda just laughs it off when ads come on.

"Remind me to get YouTube premium"

honestly, he just cares about you and if you're happy, he's happy.

Jake:

"box of chocolates" boyfriend (you never know what you're going to get...

It's not like you forget you're dating him but that's just how comfortable you feel with him

It's not one of those best friends to lover sort of things but your relationship dynamic seems like close friends who just happen to make out and hold hands and write each other notes all the time, totally normal.

to be honest that's how you started out but you just decided to give it a label so people could get off your backs asking when you'll go out

EXTREMELY NICE GUY

very nice to hug

enjoys anything that is mentally challenging

"Y/n, I bought this 3 600 piece puzzle, wanna help me build it."

The only reason you agreed to do it was because you didn't want him to be sad and mopey and you know you'd feel worse if you were to see him building it by himself...

you would love to move in with Jake but there are just a few problems...

leaves dishes all over his room

only remembers to clean them up when you say you're coming over

since you two don't live together he uses you visiting as motivation to kinda fix his act

blasts music really loud

hangs out with his friends a hell of a lot, which you don't mind but sometimes it gets annoying when they come over and make a hell of a ruckus. You once invited Jake over to your place and he didn't tell you he was bringing a plus one. The sunset dinner for two turned into a moonlit dinner for two and a half.

his friend also managed to break one of Yuki (your favourite house plant)

that person is banned from visiting now...

video calls on weekends

doesn't like home dates

prefers to go out

beach dates

restaurant dates

bungee jumping date... wait BUNGEE JUMPING DATE?

extremist. so he loves the outdoors a lot.

PDA YES YES AND YES.

Takes any and every opportunity he gets to kiss you.

Back Hugs while waiting in line for something...

hopefully, you're ready for a whirlwind romance with this one

Sunghoon:

"Mr Perfect" boyfriend

People who have never dated before have expectations of what dating is like or what type of characteristics a partner should possess.

Most often than not people are disappointed with their firsts... not you though.

NGL at first from what your friends had told you, dating wasn't all that and to say you were not looking forward to your first s/o was an understatement but boy oh boy were you surprised when Sunghoon asked you out.

Took you to a really nice restaurant (it's his grandmas)

food was awesome

and he knows how to hold a conversation

one thing you love about him is how he's an energy matcher

you might be in a goofy mood, he's not the type to ask "wtf is wrong with you" he'd just play along.

PDA 50/50

sometimes it's simple hand kisses while waiting in line for something or holding hands

other times it's not that he doesn't want to but he's more of a practicality sort of guy.

like "is it really necessary for me to hold their hand right now? like we're at the pharmacy and they're talking to the doctor. Imagine they need to take out their medical aid or something and I'm holding their hand and I have to let go? That's so embarrassing."

Is lowkey just scared of rejection...

Dates are always really enjoyable

Almost like directly out of a movie.

Likes going on walks a lot

Really into romantic stuff so he probably books a cooking class for two or a dance class.

anything where you two get to be close with each other he loves.

Before dates, he's a mess though

Calls you to ask if his outfit is ok

triple checking that the place he booked was booked for the correct day

Makes sure both your phones are fully charged because of pictures duh?

Late nights with him >>>>>

You'd think he calls to hear your voice? oh no, it's very much the other way around. He knows you like his voice so he'll have a list of things ready to talk about just to keep a conversation going so he has a lot to say which guarantees that he'll be talking for a while.

For your anniversary, he gave you a cd. It didn't have anything on the cover but he told you to only play it when you're driving long distances by yourself.

*inserts cd and presses play* "testing? testing? 1, 2, 3? hope this works... HEY Y/N. Welcome to seven hours of your favourite person's voice."

You giggled at how silly he could be but really appreciate all he does for you.

Sunoo:

"poetry guru" boyfriend

IDK he just seems like the type of guy to read you poetry and shii

"Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?"

Shakespeare in the house

very romantic

never ceases to amaze you

writes note and poetry of his own, inspired by you of course.

hands you note when he sees you in the hallways or puts them in your locker.

valentines day is like every other day but x10

normally it's like notes and sometimes sweets but now it's a giant teddy bear, chocolate and a whole poem with that old-timey music playing from his laptop in the back.

the way I describe it doesn't do justice to how perfect he makes valentines day.

offers to walk you home

buys you water for the walk home since you live pretty far from school

would offer you a ride home but his mother doesn't allow him to date and she doesn't think her son is the type of person to just have friends

"who were you talking to just now? Are you dating them? What did I say about dating Kim Sunoo?!"

gets an earful when his mom sees you holding hands

his parents talked about it over the weekend so now he's allowed to date.

You didn't think it made such a difference but turns out that valentines day and every other secret relationship day was nothing

Gives you piggybacks to class

takes notes for you when you're absent

personally delivers them to your house

this one time he had a carriage come pick you up for school and you got scolded XD

never a moment when you don't feel loved

dates are super extravagant

always at his house since his parents are strict but it's always something different

horse riding

golf

fancy lunch prepared by his personal chef and butler

you two lowkey try to set them up together only to find out the chef has kids and a boyfriend...

butler was so heartbroken, he quit... yikes.

one thing you love about each other is either one smiles

they just light up a whole room

PDA... King of it like you remember the notes?

Memorized three whole sonnets to perform for you on your birthday

you lowkey find his intelligence and literature obsession attractive

Jungwon:

"Pinterest money" boyfriend

how he does it? you don't know

you and Jung-won are mutuals on Pinterest so you can always see what the other is up to

You have a feeling you're the only actual person he follows on Pinterest because almost every single date of yours has some resemblance to one of the pins in your "Ideal dates" board.

Either that or he takes you out to a theatre performance

Knows you have a knack for theatre and promises that one day he'll buy you a whole theatre and name it after you

You know he's joking but part of him truly wants to do that in the future because he loves you that much

picnics galore with the speaker and everything

orders food and runs to wait by the park entrance to pick it up

comes back and almost half the food is finished

looks at you with wide eyes, only realises now that he almost finished everything "oh, sorry y/n. um, you can have the rest."

you have to reassure him that it's ok and you understand because you know... that's what any person would do. Hunger is a normal human feeling y'all.

You share some with him still because he wasn't full yet.

he looks so cute with full cheeks

you enjoy learning dances with him

sometimes he helps you memorize lines for your upcoming plays

lowkey wants to start acting because of you...

it's a relationship where you both just take care of each other and provide comfort to one another...

Niki:

"First Rodeo" boyfriend

"hey y/n, can I let you in on a secret?"

"Yeah sure Riki, what is it?"

"This is actually my first time ever dating somebody..."

"WHAT? NOOOO. I HAD NO IDEA?!"

"damn, was it that obvious?"

"Riki, for our first date you took me to your cousin's 16th birthday party. It was EXTREMELY obvious... but I love you anyway"

LMFAO, Riki learnt everything he knew from Movies and older people around him.

Not a great place to start but it's the effort that counts

Might've helped if he learnt from the romance novels you recommended him before you started dating but you know, it's fine. Forgive and forget

You're in charge of date planning now, it's the decision you both agreed to make since that day

some might wonder why you even bothered going on a second date with him

he's a sweet guy

just a little inexperienced

tbh both of you were but you actually do your research ToT

stopped asking his friends for help

he asks his mom now

got scolded after telling his mom that you two's first date was a party.

doesn't know if he got scolded because he went to his cousin's party or because that's what your first date was.

he doesn't bother asking though, he just avoids the party scene in general after that

you were HIGHKEY nervous when he asked if he could plan your next date but when he invited you over for a meal that he... MOST DEFINITELY 100% TOTES NO EXTRA HELP FROM HIS MOM, cooked by himself for you... your nerves were washed away by the divine flavour provided by the dish

fought over who would get seconds since there was a little bit left but you decided to share it

he's the kind of boyfriend to always worry about you but doesn't want to come across as clingy or as if he has nothing better to do.

He always asks you for help with homework, not because he doesn't understand it (well yes, that is sort of the reason) but also because he enjoys your company and being within close proximity of you

very happy you're his first s/o and the same can be said for you

AN: I won't even lie to you. Rereading this, jake's one is hella all over the place but yeah. I'll fix it when I have time. So sorry. This was rushed.

also...when I watched the en-log where I got the picnic picture from (Jungwon), I was just ahh, I had a cuteness overload because the way he was just having a little picnic and eating chicken in the park with his speaker but then it started to get dark out and I'm assuming it was getting later in the day and he said "It's almost time for work" and I felt so bad because he's only 16 and he's working his ass off and he has a full-time job and I'm like damn what about school? I know they have education and stuff but I genuinely feel bad sometimes because they can't live normal lives and these young kids are working their asses off so early on in life but yeah anyways...)