Being In College Is Wild Because I Literally Look Like This

Being in college is wild because I literally look like this

This mash up is a cross over I never expected

They sprouted there. A plant grew its way up from the drain and gifted you with a cat blossom.

Your daily dose of cat memes

Welcome to all the ex-tweeters or should I say....

X tweeters

THIS is art to me. Art that makes me feel something. I can feel this. Not only the sadness that you feel realizing a favorite place from your past is gone but also the ghost of the memories you had inside. It was a part of your life that you want to revisit but can't. It's gone. There's nothing like it.

"there used to be a store here"

This is exactly what I described to my dad during a breakdown.

In highschool, there were the nicest people who included me in their group and invited me out, but for some reason I never felt like they were friends to me. And I feel bad.

I can recognize traits of a normal relationship, but it doesn't interest me.

I often don't have the interest of being the first person to reach out.

I'm not interested in meeting people through hobbies because I never stay as enthusiastic as they do and end up feeling inadequate.

I see other people with several friends or acquaintances (the norm) and I have none.

This is such a real and alienating thing to experience.

I think one of the most painful things about being autistic, at least for me, is the lack of connection in my life. I don't have any offline friendships, or even just acquaintance - it's extremely difficult, even impossible, to join new groups or hobbies (and stay in them), I don't have any colleagues (not able to work, again because of the 'tism), I basically don't have a social life and almost no way to meet new people, and even if it is easier to communicate with people online, y'all are so far away and I also feel like I am just not good at friendship in general.

And all of this also means that not only do I miss out on human connection but on new experiences too. I have incredible difficulties trying new things and going to new places and there is barely anyone who could accompany me.

This is just venting without any real solution; I guess I just want to say that being autistic can be really isolating and make you feel like you are deprived of a whole lot of things.