Devon Adams On Dylan And Eric:

Devon Adams on Dylan and Eric:

“’Dylan was a shy and sympathetic person. He was so sweet and kind and loving,’ his friend Devon says all these seven years later. ‘He was also disillusioned and hurt and angry at the world,’ Devon continues. ‘He had no outlet to vent his emotions; he bottled them up.’ Dylan’s disastrous depression, which was propped up by his journal entries, was talked about a lot in the papers. But in contrast to Eric, Dylan didn’t take medicine for his depression. He kept the knowledge of the depression to himself. Devon admits that in retrospect there was something weird in Dylan’s behavior from time to time. ‘One theory is that he had Disassociate Identity Disorder, which means that one has multiple personalities, because he literally changed from one person to another around different people or circumstances,’ Devon ponders. Dylan was a really talented person, an extremely promising and skilful poet. Devon agrees with this and also finds many other skills which he had. ‘Dylan was incredibly talented at sound design, at computer work, and at baseball,’ she says. According to Devon, Dylan’s talent didn’t get the value it deserved, which depressed him. ‘He didn’t make the Columbine baseball team because he didn’t have a ‘name’ for himself, so he just gave up. He became apathetic, which is so dangerous,’ she says. In this busy Western world, where creativity and being an individual isn’t valued enough, Dylan didn’t have a place to be happy. He didn’t have the ability to handle the world around him. It makes me think of the amount of humanity and potential which was lost that day. It was too much. It should never have been allowed to happen. Forlorn Devon remembers her last genuine encounter with Dylan. It is something, which she is never going to forget. It happened in Columbine High School senior prom. ‘At prom, just three days before the shootings, Dylan and I danced to Take my Breath Away,’ Devon remembers. ‘I meant to tell him what a good friend he was and how much I cared for him, but I chickened out,’ she regrets. ‘He asked if I wanted to see The Matrix movie on that Wednesday, April 21. I said yes. He had never broken his plans with me before. That’s why I believe that a deeper mental issue came into play,’ Devon says. ‘People who want to die do not make plans. And when they entered that building they knew they were going to die.’ Talking about Eric, Devon can’t be so insightful since she wasn’t so close to him as she was to Dylan. Nonetheless, she knew Eric and was his friend, through Dylan mainly. In the media Dylan was portrayed as a follower who in a way copied Eric. Devon, however, saw it differently. ‘Oddly, it was Eric who would copy everything Dylan did, which made Dylan so angry,’ she says. ‘But it was Eric’s stronger, more violent personality that won out over Dylan.’ Otherwise the picture of Eric made by the media and experts matches the picture of him drawn by Devon. Eric was an angry and menacing teenager. ‘Eric loved to intimidate and frighten people. He would walk through the halls wearing camouflage or black, just scowling,’ Devon describes. ‘He was bitter and angry and threatening. He hated everyone and everything.’” - excerpt from “A lasting impression. The impact of Columbine” by Sasha Huttunen (2007), pp.175-177

They should invent a way to kill yourself that doesn’t disappoint anyone

★A LETTER THAT ERIC WROTE TO A GIRL HE LIKED★

“Hi. I have a few things I really want to say but I never seem to be able to say in person.

Even though I have only known you for a few weeks, and have hardly any time really KNOW you, I would really like to get to know you much better. Actually when we worked together Monday night I wanted to ask you to just hang out for a while after work and maybe just talk. Like that guy that you mentioned, that one you met in AOL, or about work, school, people, anything. I really wanted to spend some time with you. But, since your friend stopped by I assumed that you and her would be leaving together so I just left without saying anything. You see, I just hope you feel the same. I am kind of going on a hunch here, but I hope I’m right. I don’t know if you like talking…or just to me…or what. From what I gather from people at work and by being there, I see that almost every guy there flirts constantly with you or at least tries. And I try too, just to make you smile, but I have never been good at “flirting” or even just talking. I see that you are a busy girl, and have a great family and nice friends, and you seem to like to talk about what you’r thinking, but so far, have been cut off short. You see, I have never understood why girls spend more time with guys who look good an flirt a lot then with guys who actually have something intelligent to say and are a little “deeper” than other guys. Oh well. I guess what I’m trying to say is…if you have time in your life to sit down, relax, and talk to a guy who cares a lot about you, and who knows, even “go out.” If you don’t…just don’t say anything. I’ll understand, I’m used to it. Well, bye for now, maybe ill see you at work sometime this week. Please reply, or call, if you want to do something.

-Love Eric.”

i just thought i would share that, but…i think eric couldve just said “hey i like you” instead a whole entire essay on how he feels…but…pore your heart out i guess 🤭

EDIT: holy fart 585 NOTES?!

i have never heard anyone talk about the scene where andre and cal are in the car getting ready to go shooting with chris, and andre’s talking to the camera and he goes; “there's nothing else going on. nothing else going on.”

AND. AND THE SCENE when they’re taking the guns from chris’ house and cal’s talking about wanting to leave and he’s getting anxious and andre says; “hold on, hold on. take a breath. relax. we’re okay, no problems here.”

literally makes me go nuts and i’ve never heard anyone mention these dialogues before

diddy harris

This taste like Eric Harris pussy