Maybe, I Wasn't Ready?

Maybe, I wasn't ready?

TW: miscarriage

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Angst

Requested- No

Resquests are OPEN!

Pairing POC!Reader ×NamJoon

Should I write a part 2?

"What did I do wrong? Did I not love you enough?“ (Y/N) sobs, looking down at her stomach as tears stream down her face. She had gone to the doctor today for her monthly ultrasound, and it turns out that her baby had died. (Y/N)’s perfect little boy was gone, and it was all her fault. Her heart fell into her  stomach and she wanted nothing more than to die.

The drive home was horrible, she cried so hard she had to pull over every now and then. Her fiancé NamJoon hadn't come home from practice yet, and what she was really dreading was telling him that his perfect little angel was dead all because of her. (Y/N)s breaths were short and loud, her body shaking. Her fingertips tugged ruffly at her hair in frustration. "Did you not like the room we painted for you? Am I a bad mommy?” (Y/N) kept asking questions towards her non-existant baby like it will answer back, and each moment of silence reminds her that she’ll never hear his voice. She’ll never see him, or hold him in her arms.. "(Y/N)?Are you in here?” NamJoon calls, and when she didn’t reply he lightly pushes open the door to see her, eyes swollen andher usually neat afro a mess, and he rushes over to comfort her. His eyes flicker to her stomach, and then it registers. "Baby, what's wrong?.” He whispers, aand thats when (Y/N) loose it as soon as the first word slipped past his lips. She couldn't hols it in any longer. The sobs she lets out shakes her body. Namjoon tears start to well up in his own eyes. "I-" she took a deep breath. "I lost the baby Namjoon... I lost him.. Its my fault.... Its all my fault." his walls broke down as he cried silently "Shhh, its not your fault.. It just wasnt our time to have a baby yet." His tears mixes with her tears soaked through her shirt as well. NamJoon and (Y/N) spent the rest of the day just holding each other. “We’ll try for another. We’ll get our little angel somehow, don’t you worry.” (Y/N) couldn’t help but shake her head . The next weeks (Y/N) stayed cooped up in the baby’s nursery. She sat close to the crib with her head pressed firmly against the bars. Ever since it happened a day hasn’t gone by without her crying. She felt numb to the world  It’s like she’s been walking around in a haze, not knowing what to do with her .  She’s in the kitchen, mechanically preparing dinner, trying her best not to lose composure for the hundredth time today.  So lost in her own sullen state, she didnt’t hear NamJoon approach her. She was in a daze as she washed the dishes before she felt arms wrap around her waist from behind. "Baby, we can't stay like this forever it would be best if we move on." (Y/N) knew that she had too. She took a deep breath before turning around to face her fiancé. She held him close. The next few months been rough for her. She trued her best as as the months moved on she started to become her regulat self. Her and Namjoon packed up the baby nursery as she thought back to the memories with a fond smile.

My Coffee Shop Prince

Request: Hello!! Could you do a reaction with Min Yoongi (BTS- Suga) meeting someone in a local Korean coffee shop and buying them coffee because they can’t speak to the cashier?? Specifically a POC that he’s meeting. Hope that’s not too much to ask😅😅.

Genre- Fluff(?)

Pairing-POC!Reader x Yoongi/ Suga

Requested Yes!

REQUEST ARE OPEN!

ps, im sorry if this sucks. I am trying to get back into writing!

(Y/N) was currently running late for her new job at SM Entertainment. She was hired to be a journalists. You stood in line at a local café that you heard amazing things about. You continued to loook back at your watch and to the person infront of you. You lets out a small sigh of frustration and roll yours eyes. (Y/N) did not want to be late for her first day of work. When it was her turn finally she sat her purse on the counter as she looks over at the menu. "개구리 다리를 받을 수 있나요?"(can i get a frog leg?) The barista tilts her head to the side looking at (Y/N) as if she was crazy. The african american female began motioning with her hands "An iced americano?" The barista still didn't understand what the female was saying. The female now frustrated ran her hands through her curls giving up this point grabbing her purse to leave until she felt a tap on her shoulder. She turns around annoyed before her eyes softened looking over at the male figure wearing a black and white stripped shirt with black khakis and a belt to match. "I- I'm sorry. I'm just leaving now." The male shook his head "No, no I can help you order, since you look tense. An Iced Americano correct?" The female nods her head. "Yes, with two shots of espresso. Oh, I'm (Y/N) by the way." She smiles while sticking her hand out to the male. The male ordered both of their drinks. "I'm Yoongi, but most of my friends call me Suga." She smiles over towards him as she went to reach for the money in her pocket. "No, I'll pay for it." She shook her head. "No, no you don't have to do that. You have done enough for me. I can't-" Yoongi cuts (Y/N) off. "It's fine You can make it up to someway in the future." (Y/N) couldnt help but smile over at him because of that statement as she went to grab her coffee when they called their names. She then glanced at the watch in wrist as she noticed she only had 5 minutes to get there. "I uhm. I will see you around hopefully! I have to go. " She began to rush out the door of the café, not noticing the way Yoongi smirks to himself as he waved bye.

~Small Time Skip~

At the SM building (Y/N) couldn't help but then back to the meeting she had withthe stranger. Just at the thought her heart fluttered. Maybe, just maybe this was the first of many interactions with the coffee shop prince.

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so i don’t think a lot of people really understand how often south asian culture is misinterpreted and appropriated so i’m making a post about it right here.

any mention of third eyes

any mention of chakras

people wearing bindis when they shouldn’t be 

fucking “om” or “aum” tattoos or appliques on things like yoga pants. do you know how fucking disrespectful it is to put a symbol that is so important to my religion and culture on the ass of some white chick’s yoga pants

people wearing maang tikka when they shouldn’t be

anklets with bells on them are very important to the dance culture of south asia and it’s disrespectful to wear them outside of a traditional dance setting

feel free to add any more that i missed because i’m fucking tired