FOR TONIGHT | JJK

FOR TONIGHT | JJK

For tonight, I'm yours, so deny the truth. We'll stay behind closed doors. 'Cause all I wanna do is lie with you. Even though it's wrong to lie with you.

Pairing: idol!Jeon Jungkook × Y/N

Genre: Angst, Smut

Word count: 1.9k

Trigger/warning: ANGST, PURE ANGST and some sex. Loll.

Their bodies glistened under the morphing lights and artificial stars. Her nails scratched his back as she listened to his soft grunts and moans in her ear. She stared up at the ceiling, thinking about their position and the way they got to this point.

She’s engaged, her wedding is in three weeks but instead of preparing and celebrating she’s in bed with another man.

He paused at her silence and looked at her, he swept her hair which was stuck to her forehead behind her ear or backward to meet the remaining locs. “What are you thinking about?” She turned to him and did the same before speaking “I shouldn’t have done this, we shouldn’t.” She pushed him from her softly which he obliged. “Y/N” He mumbled and she shook her head. “I’m getting married, I broke my vows and I haven’t even sealed them.” She picked up her ring and he held her hand from looking at it, subconsciously hiding it from his sight once again. “this is just for tonight.” He whispered unconvincingly and picked up her chin. “this is our secret.”

“Jungkook…” She dragged off as he kissed down her neck. “Sh..” He hushed her as he removed her ring from her embrace then intentionally throwing it across the room without a glance. Tears fell down her face and he wiped them away softly “babe.” He whispered, she shook her head and held his face as she kiss him. He held the small of her back, pulling her closer.

He refuse to let her go, literally and metaphorically. He was selfish, territorial, possessive some may put it. Ending their relationship was one of his biggest regrets, he experienced the Pinterest quote he once laughed at, he didn’t realize the love he had for her until she loved someone else.

Their lips broke as she rolled her hip on him, their foreheads touched as they both enjoyed the euphoric feelings they both seemed to only achieve with each other. “I love you.” His voice shook, she shook her head once again. “Y/N, I love you-” She kissed him and he groaned as he felt his climax coming. He tapped her thigh and she got up, but he laid her down and entered her once again. His fingers trailed down to her small nub and began to caress it as he stroked her repeatedly. “Oh God, jungkook.” Her stomach felt tight and she clenched around him.

“Shit.” He exclaimed before pulling out for a moment, replacing his manhood with his fingers. She came undone beneath him and he re-entered her and chased his climax which wasn’t far. His ego boosted as she screamed out his name repeatedly, he came undone in her before collapsing above her. He trembled a bit from his ejaculation and stayed on her chest for a moment.

Y/N stood up and made her way to the bathroom and he heard the toilet flush and the shower running. He laid on his back thinking about ways to make her stay. He can’t let this marriage happen, he refuse for this to be the last night he can ever touch and lay with her.

He watched her appear from the bathroom looking refreshed and dressed. “where the fuck did you throw my ring jungkook.” She turned to him and he shrugged. “Help me find it, I have to go.” “No” She paused and looked at him. “Do you love him?” She glared at him “I do, but I know it sounds hypocritical considering I just slept with you.” He chuckled humorlessly. “you didn’t say you love me back so, I figured.” She exhaled and turned to him. “Why can’t you let me go? If you let me go, I’ll do the same for you.” She vented and he stood up putting on his boxers. “That’s the thing, I don’t want that to happen.”

“jungkook, you broke up with me.” He closed his eyes for a moment then look straight into hers. “Just because I did, doesn’t mean I wanted to. I thought I was doing something that was beneficial for both of us!” he watched as she continued to look for her ring “right, beneficial, it was really beneficial since you got to fuck that bitch without having a guilty conscience.” She chuckled at his shock “yeah, I knew.” His eyes dropped and he shook his head “I’m sorry” he apologized. “why are you apologizing, we broke up. I moved on.” He clenched his jaw again.

“as you said, this was just for tonight.” She kneeled and looked under his clothing drawers, finding it instantly. “I regret my choices.” Y/N stopped all movement as she heard his voice crack once again. “jungkook—” he wiped his face and held the following tear back. “Y/N, please be honest with me. Do you love him…more than me?” "That’s an inappropriate question.” She responded. “why do you need that answer so much?” She added and got no response. “why do you keep redirecting?” He combatted.

She breathed in “I’ll always have love in my heart for you, but….I don’t think that I’m in love with you anymore.” He frowned and nodded “but you are with him.” He wiped his face again as she apologized “your body didn’t just say the same thing Y/N, it didn’t!” “WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME JUNGKOOK!” “Stop denying it! I don’t want to leave you Y/N, I refuse to let you go! I refuse to let this end! Especially for someone who can never love you the way you want to be loved!" He argued. "All I want is to be beside you at night, talk about nothing until we’re asleep, I just want to hold you! Take in your scent again! I regret making petty choices with this thought that you’ll always have an excepting arm welcoming me back!” tears fell on both of their faces. “I love you, Y/N and I’m sure if you give me the time, I can get you to love me back. Please, just dont go through with this.”

(This is an open-ending)

CHAPTER ONE

Disclaimer: This is an idol!Jungkook and OC fanfiction, preferably for my POC queens but anyone who reads can envision themselves in the character, if they like.

Word count: 1K

Chapters: 01 02 03 04

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November 2016

Amara Cole

"Seven months, I only have to survive the next seven months to graduate." I thought to myself as I entered General Hospital. "Good afternoon, how may I assist you?" The reception questioned as I approached her after security check. "I came to visit my mother, Mrs. Cole, she's in the ICU." The lady did some research before asking for my identification and marking me with a band to resume my venture to my mother's room.

Adjusting my bag on my back, I went into the elevator, severely anxious at which button to press after accidentally ending up at a morgue or basement with my sister.

The nurses greeted me since I am now recognized as a familiar face, it's been almost two years of consistent admission into the hospital for my mom. This time it became more serious, her heart began failing her, and she sensitivity to everything heightened.

"Mommy?" I tapped her softly and heard a lil groan as she awoke from her sleep. She opened her eyes and gave it a minute to adjust as she pushed through the pain to send me a small smile. "Hey baby, did you catch the bus?" I nodded as we spoke for a bit and she eat the food I bought.

This was a daily routine. Wake up at 6am and begin to get dressed for school, head out to catch an early bus to prevent being late due to traffic, catch a bus to the hospital and stay until visiting hours are overing and between the time of arriving and visiting hours ending, my older sister should be at the hospital to visit mom and drop both me home.

"Mommyyy" I heard my older sister behind me as she entered the room with a bag filled with juice, snacks and new cotton pajamas. She hugged our mom and gave her a kiss before sitting in the other guest chair. "Did Trevor come see you yet?" My sister, Kurstin asked mom about our brother, who is a registered nurse. "He been here, bathed and changed me. He had to go back on his post."

A hour remained before visiting hours over and once it arrived, we were forced to leave. "How was school?" Kurstin asked and I nodded as I watched the starry skies as she drove "Good." Silence filled the car, but the music kept it alive and I sigh quietly; I didn't dare turn my head away from the glass as gears stained my cheeks. "she's going to be okay." I heard my sister reassurance and nodded and once again silence. "You want KFC?" She asked and I chuckled a bit. "Sure, thanks."

She dropped me home and ran inside to the bathroom to freshen up; Her second job starts at 8PM and it's currently 7:45 after our food stop. "So, you know the drill. All windows closed, doors locked and be visualant. Trevor is working overtime and I have a graveyard shift tonight at the hotel. Be safe!!" She exclaimed as she ran out but turned around quickly "if you want to invite one of your friends over to keep you company, I won't tell." She winked and left again as I closed and dead locked the front door.

As she reminded, I checked all doors and windows ensuring they are tightly sealed. "We really should get cameras for this place." I spoke to myself as i entered my mom's bedroom. My heart became heavy and it was the result of numerous reasons. The large photo of my parents wedding hung over her king size bed, and the silence that engulfed the house both were a factor. I sat on the bed laying a towel infront of me to rest my food upon as I attempted to find a show or movie to watch. "comedy" I read the information on the movie and began to watch it.

It was a classic comedy, white chicks, two black dudes dressed as white women were peak early 2000s.

Despite the humor of the movie, the internal heaviness never ceased and unintentionally tears ran down my face again. I think I understand why I feel this way. "Is this what loneliness feels like?" I asked myself in a pity whisper as my appetite suddenly collapse.

It was a mixture of worry, anxiety, hurt and loneliness. She dreads the five business days that results in her attending seven to eight classes every hour to two hours. She hated her 6AM to 7:30PM schedule, and she felt guilty for hating it, this lifestyle was no one's fault. It's a trial in a turbulent world.

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Amara rotated between her phone, reading social media gossip and searching through the television for an interesting show. "Oh my gosh, I remember this movie!" She squealed to herself as the teen nick original movies aired back to back. She missed drumline and the school gyrls franchise but she sat up as the movie 'The Wonder Girls" began. Despite being only seventeen, the movie gave her nostalgia to a happier time. Her remembrance of the songs, be my baby, the dj is mine and more that she remembers jamming to after researching them at age twelve.

And just like that, Amara, welcome to the world of Kpop.

She digest and digress as she became intrigued into the musical culture. "Bang bang bang" the music blasted through her speakers as the hit song from big bang played. She moved onto the next and the next, unknowingly becoming a VIP. In the hour time span, she had discovereed BigBang, SHINee, Girls Generation and Exo. However, she came across a recent performance from a band she hadn't exposed herself to yet.

"Kpop band, BTS makes a comeback" The title detailed and she clicked on the video which both figuratively and literally changed her life.

"Peaches and cream

Sweeter than sweet

Chocolate cheeks and chocolate wings"

A/N: These first three chapters are based on a true story, My story. Many scenarios this book will be based on reality with the mixture of fiction of course. Enjoy reading, vote and comment some feedback!!

Reblog if you're a fanfic writer and you wanna know what your followers' favorite story of yours is ❤

CHAPTER THREE

Disclaimer: This is an idol!Jungkook and OC fanfiction, preferably for my POC queens but anyone who reads can envision themselves in the character, if they like.

Word count: 1K

CHAPTERS: 01 02 03 04

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Amara Cole

2017

"5, 4, 3, 2, 1. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!" The screams of the crowd blurred as I felt Daniel's lips press against mines, this was our first kiss. I pulled away as the fireworks brighten the night sky, "happy new years, babe." He whispered in my ear and I giggled "babe??" I smiled up at him and he looked around as his face turned pink with his natural blush. "Amara Cole" he spoke as his hands wrap around my waist, "will you do me the honor of becoming my girlfriend?" I nodded and he smiled widely. "Good" he commented before kissing me again.

A flash interrupted us and we looked at the cause of it. "Now this! Is a memory!" Emerald exclaimed as she showed us her camera. Daniel laughed and looked at Emmy, "send me that!" He responded and we continued dancing the night away.

"Mommy, did I wake you?" I spoke into the phone as I laid in bed at 7am. "No baby, the nurses did." I laughed as I remember the way she vented about the nurses always waking her to ensure she still was alive despite the heart monitor showing it. "Happy new years" I told her and she repeated back. "Mara, I'm heading for check up and I cannot carrying my phone, so I'll speak with you later ok?" I heard my mom rushed as the background nurses spoke to her. "Ok mommy, be safe." "Same to you, baby."

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"Graduation came in a flash, we just spoke about it." Daniel commented to his friends as we all awaited the ceremony to begin. Gaining new friends through a relationship is something I never thought about but it happened. "You look beautiful, my love." Daniel commented and I blushed.

The ceremony was long but it was worth it, I left with honors of being the salutatorian; one failed examination caused me the spot of valedictorian. "Congratulations!!" Daniel screamed as the ceremony came to an end. He spun me around as the graduates dispurse with their family to begin their new ventures in adulthood. "Mrs. Cole" Daniel greeted my mom as my brother pushed her wheel chair. He hugged my mom as his parents approached and we all communicate before making dinner plans to celebrate our success.

Both Daniel and I received a scholarship to CPA for music. "My baby is going to Britain for four years." She cried in sadness and pride. "I would have declined it." I commented as Trevor drove us to a restaurant. "Don't you dare, I have Trevor and Kurstin. You go and get your degree, that way you'll have the money to carry me everywhere." You chuckled as Trevor pulled up to the restaurant at the same time as Daniel's and Emerald's family.

My phone rang as we got situated at a table and I brought Emerald outside with me as I looked for my sister who came running down the sidewalk. She was out of breath holding congratulations balloons and flowers. "This place making fucking money, I need to open a restaurant." She joked and handed me her gifts. "I'm sorry I missed the ceremony, I sneaked out of work to get these and bring them." She laughed as I took them with a hug. "Here." She passed me some money as she began to head back to her car"have fun tonight! Celebrate!!" She screamed as she ran from where she came.

Tears form in my eyes as I sat a the filled table of three different family and friends. I blinked them back but happiness spilled from me and it exceeded as my father arrived. "Congratulations babygirl, you have now surpass me in life." He joked. He didn't graduate from high school, but his success in life didn't falter, street smarts and manners can really take you through the world.

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"So, we have until August." Daniel began and I looked at him. "Yeah, I want to spend time with family until then." He nodded "agreed" he kissed me softly and we heard a scoff "I'll forever be a third wheel." Emerald commented making us laugh. "You'll find someone soon, Emmy." Daniel commented. "I'm going to miss you guys." Silence filled the car we sat in as our parents are still chatting and eating in the restaurant. "Four years, it'll pass quick." I tried being optimistic and held up my phone. "We'll always be in contact." She nodded and the trio hugged it out as they stepped out the car. "We have until August, and after then the countdown begins!" Emerald stated.

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The airport send-off was more emotional then Amara expected. She broke down in tears that refuse to calm down despite her efforts. She hated leaving her mom in the position she's in, it was only seven months ago that her mom returned home from the hospital. "It's okay, be safe in Britain, you can always see us during the breaks and calls will be frequent." Her mom comforted her and she nodded.

Emerald approached her with tears and engulfed her tightly. "Like your mom said, we always have breaks to see each other. The countdown begins." She comforted her tearful friend. "I'm sorry to interrupt." Daniel spoke, sincerely apologetic at interrupting their goodbyes. "We have to go now to catch our boarding time." Amara nodded and engulfed her family one last time before holding Daniel's hand. "Daniel" the voice of her father was heard making them turn around. "Take care of my daughter." He nodded with a smile. "You have my word, sir."

"Our new adventure begins." Daniel stated and Amara nodded, "yeah, it's official." She whispered as the blue skies and clouds became the aesthetic behind the airplane's window.

A/N: Hope you guys are enjoying the story so far, I'm just building the storyline. As I said before BTS makes an appearance very soon.

Look, I am a simple woman. You give me a bloody man holding his baby brother and whose desperate to protect the love of his life from his crazy relative and you got me! Like, I can not begin to state how here I am for this.

CHAPTER TWO

Disclaimer: This is an idol!Jungkook and OC fanfiction, preferably for my POC queens but anyone who reads can envision themselves in the character, if they like

Word count: 972

CHAPTERS: 01 02 03 04

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Amara vented to her mother about her discovery the next day, she was beyond intrigued at the kpop musical culture. It differed so much from the western but simultaneously, it was the same. She used a cake analogy, everyone has the exact same ingredients but their techniques differ. "There are bad cakes, good cakes and questionable ones" she explained and her mother laughed. She pouted at the laughter and her mother reassured her that her laughter was directed at her passion on the topic.

"When I'm out after new years, and we get situated in our new home, I will let you show me all your Korean boys. She nodded as her thirteen hour day almost come to a close. Amara mom health had an improvement, but she's still fragile considering the heart pacer, spirometer and the dozen of pills she has to take.

Another lonely night turns into another night of an internet adventure. Her spiral into this new world happened so quickly, wanting to simply learn names and remember faces became more than just that.

Her phone rang and she stared at it for a moment before answering. "Hello? Who's this?" She heard an overexaggerate gasp before the voice she knew all too well finally spoke. "I know it's been a minute but how could you!" She giggled softly at the voice of her best friend. "Emmy, your parents finally allowed you to get a new phone." Amara asked and Emerald subconsciously nodded before realizing she can't be seen "yeah, girl you should see me nodding like I'm in front of you." They laughed and caught up on each other's lives.

"Oh BTS? I saw them on the twitter and fell in love!! They are so cute!" She felt Emerald's excitement through the electronic device as they spoke about the foreign entertainers. "I'm so happy you like them! No one at my school seems to appreciate their greatness. I mean I've seen some people listen to kpop and speak about k-dramas but I'm nervous to approach them. They always have earbuds on or a very standoff aura." Amara vented and she realized Emerald has the same experience at her school.

"Do you want to spend the day together tomorrow?" Emerald suggested. "You sure your mom will allow that?" Emerald looked at her closed door then her window. "Whether she does or not, ok coming to see you. We need to catch up more and I need to see our mother. I'm happy to hear she's doing better."

The two hour long phone call came to an end and the research she suddenly attach her happiness to continued as she watched their variety shows, performances and skits.

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The girl chose to meet at the central mall and the moment they saw each other they both collapsed at the tackle they both attempted at the same time. Their hug tightened as they rocked side to side. "Never again will it take for me this long to see you." Emerald commented and got a nod in response from Amara.

"So, three months until our graduations. We should visit south Korea during summer break." Emerald suggested and Amara side lip frown as she liked the suggestion but was unable to fulfill it. "I'd love to but...you know, mom." Her friend understood and nodded. "One day, one day." Emerald held out her pinky and they made a silent promise before eating their food they ordered from the Mall's cafeteria.

"Amara?" The female turned her head in a 360 motion as she heard her name being called from somewhere around her. She heard a small laugh before seeing her crush, a boy name Daniel, whom she shared music, literature and language classes with. "H-hi Daniel" she stuttered in a soft voice as the male stood in close proximity to her. "It's nice to see you here, how's your mom? May I sit?" She shook her head then nodded, "you can sit, and my mom is getting better."

Amara didn't miss Emerald's coy smile as Daniel continued conversation with her. "I'm going to the bathroom, Mara I'll be right back." The look Emerald gave her gave her the insight she needed, she's giving them alone time. "We barely speak in school." You chuckle and he blushed "I always wanted to speak to you but you were very quiet and to yourself, then I found out about your mom and the situation you're in so I never wanted to bother you. You seemed to want to be unbothered."

Her jaw dropped as he categorized her as one of the people she described to her best friend earlier. "Oh my gosh, I'm sorry. I'm just very introverted." She explain before continuing "well that's what I've been told." He smiled and sat closer to her as they suddenly became friends. "so, see you at school Monday?" She nodded as he left and headed to his brother who was waiting on him.

Emerald sprinted back to the table and leaned over to her friend "who is that and give me all the details, now!" Amara blushed and explain to Emerald who the boy that approached her was. "He wants to Major in Music, and is an amazing musician." She ended her description and explaination of her classmate, crush and now friend. "Eep, get that sis!!" Emerald screamed gathering attention before calming down.

"Let's go see mom, visiting hours soon begin."

A/N: you guys just met Amara's best friend, her love interest and witnessed the renewal of a missing friendship and a new potential relationship! Hope you guys continue, the introduction of BTS isn't too far now.