After All The Shit Ive Had To And Still Have To Put Up With Im Sick Of Living At This Point.

After all the shit I’ve had to and still have to put up with I’m sick of living at this point.

despite everything.

Impossible. Could never happen.

Get you a freak that

Genuinely loves and cares about you and your mental health.

About me? They don’t exist.

Get you a girl that actually gives a shit

Same with me but with every girl I’ve ever let trick me into thinking I matter. Last one not only lied cheated and replaced me, but still spent a year abusing me and telling me I don’t matter and don’t deserve respect until my replacement even came and said I don’t deserve to be loved and the only reason I existed was to bring them together. Both were sure to remind me that I don’t deserve anything permanent and that I am a disposable tool, not even a person. I’ve just accepted it now, there’s no point in fighting it or pretending I matter or deserve to be loved. I’m the worst thing that can possibly happen to someone according to all of them.

I no longer am gonna believe a guy when they say they love me and will always be there for me. Too many times now when I’m starting to believe that maybe I’m not alone, maybe someone really does care about me, they pull the rug out from under me and I end up feeling more and more used.

I think that I only get told that stuff because they wanna see what they can get out of me until they realize I just am as messed up as I say. I’m too much and they leave. 😣

Car please. I’m done with being alive.

cant tell if i need a hug or to get hit by a car

I know I’m the problem. Everyone else says so.

i don’t get along with anyone

maybe i’m the problem